"Are you upset with me?" I looked up from my laptop to find Hikaru staring at me from the window. "I feel terrible for being so shitty at the photoshoot the club had. On top of that, I keep upsetting Kaoru about what I share while we are at the host club. I feel like I keep making decisions based solely on emotion." Hikaru's eyes looked pained.

I stared at him for a moment. I didn't know what to say. Apologizing was so out of character for him, I knew he meant what he said now.

"I see no reason to be angry with you. I should have talked to you about our meeting with the other club before making the decision. I have a tendency to push things forward on my own." I hesitated for a moment. "Do you want me to comment on your interactions with Kaoru as well? Or would you rather not talk about it?"

Hikaru slumped down on the wall next to the window. He seemed truly deflated, his eyes watching along the floor. "I do, sort of, want some advice." His eyes met mine for a moment and I felt something - solidarity? understanding? love? - I tried to adjust my glasses and get my bearings.

I needed to tell him what I really thought. "I think that you have much to improve on, but the fact is, you're trying." I met his eyes again. Did that come out correctly? "I think that Kaoru knows you mean well. Keep talking to him about it. Keep trying." I looked away again quickly. I was getting too involved. Maybe I was already too involved to stop being involved.

"Kyoya." Hika's voice was so soft now. I looked at him gently. "Thank you." It was a whisper, but it felt so loud. I gave him a strong smile.

"I'll go talk to him now, before our next clients." Hika was musing, kicking his feet playfully at the floor. A smile came over his face. "Hey. Would you like to come over tonight? Like, just hang out? It doesn't have to be weird or anything."

"Hmm. And what is weird for us?" He smiled softly now and nodded. He was headed towards Kaoru.

Why is it so easy to have sex with them, but when I assign meaning it becomes so difficult?

I leaned down, adjusting my glasses in nervousness. Meaning? Does it have more meaning than sex? Why do I have such an affinity for them? I went back to my calculating the club's receipts.

The Hitachiin manor was always, and probably will always, be a sight to see. The whole family was hellbent on fashion and thoroughly reflected it in their living space as well.

My driver rounded the circle drive and dropped me at the door. I wonder what the twin's idea of hanging out was? The door was heavy to open, but I wandered in.

Hika and Kao leaned over the second story railing, smiling and goading me in.

"Our mother is out of town for the next few days. We have the place all to ourselves." Two devilish smiles shot down the stairs at me.

"May our hanging out last longer than tonight?" I mused, considering the idea.

"Hmm. It depends on how boring it gets around here. We may send you home early at that point." Kaoru cooed down to me. "Come up here. Our room is over this way." He suggested to the left.

I walked slowly up the stairs, taking in the decor. I felt comfortable here. The hallway was incredible, as to be expected - the Hitachiins mother had been making an upwards profit the last few months after all.

The doors to their room were decorated with elephants, carved in mahogany. I admired the craftsmanship.

"I didn't have much time to talk to Kaoru in the club room today." I looked up at Hikaru.

"Is that so?" I looked at Kaoru for confirmation.

Kaoru cocked his head. "What? Do you need to talk to me?" He looked at me nervously. Probably worried that Hikaru and I had talked behind his back.

"I'm so sorry, Kaoru." The older twin was coming on quickly to the subject. The younger twins eyes went wide. "I talked to Kyoya about how I should come and apologize to you. I've been an ass the last few days. I will try to keep your life private to the club goers. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"It's okay. Thank you." Kaoru looked at, a sweet smile playing on his lips. "I only ask that you try." Hikaru looked relieved. "I'm also glad you and Kyoya have become closer."

"What? We're not that close or anything!" Hikaru's eyes looked at the ceiling defensively.

"Oh, you're so close. I can tell." Kaoru looked at me, daring me to deny it. I stood there trying to remain inconspicuous.

The younger twin moved across the room to me then, cocking his head. He was just a bit shorter than me, they both were, and him hunching down only accentuated the size and age difference.

"You still like me too, don't you senpai? You're not playing favorites with my brother, right? I don't think it's fair to pick a favorite."

Hikaru looked alarmed. "He's not playing favorites, Kaoru! You know he likes both of us the same!" His eyes went to the floor again. "I think."

Kaoru gave me a grin that insinuated "checkmate." He let his face get closer to mine, looking at me suggestively. "So, which of us is your favorite?"

I stared at him for a moment. His lips were so close. I could smell both of them all over their room, but right now Kaoru's smell was all over me. I opened my mouth to form an answer, but I wanted to taste Kaoru's mouth.

"I don't have a favorite." I whispered to them. "Both of you have qualities I can love equally."

Both brothers froze at the same time. Hikaru stared across the room, appalled. Kaoru turned to see his brother's reaction.

"Hikaru, come over here." Kaoru said it gently. Then turned to me. "Say it again."

I was confused. "Say what again?"

"Say that you love us."

My eyes went so wide. Had I just said I loved them? Is that what I had meant? What had I meant? They both do have qualities that one could, per se, love.

Standing next to each other they both looked identical, two pieces to one unit. I knew them both so well, knew their differences. I was a little taken back. I think I might love them.

"I hadn't meant to use that language." Their eyes looked distraught. "No. What I mean is-" I adjusted my glasses again, looking at the wall. "I think… with at least some certainty, I love both of you."

Kaoru was ecstatic, his brother was breathless. Kao touched Hika's chest and turned him so their faces were close. "Did you hear that?" Running his hands through Hikaru's hair, he kissed him deeply. Their kiss was languid, gentle. I shivered at the sight.

They stopped for a moment to look at Kyoya. "Come and lay down, Kyo." Kao had never used a nickname for him before, but the day had held many surprises. He moved and sat down on the bed. Kao leaned over him, goading his brother to do the same. He looked at his brother now. "Let's show him how we feel."

Kao's mouth was over his so softly, a kiss so harsh because it was gentle. He felt their tongues clash, tasting each other. Kyoya breathed in his scent before it was gone again. Hikaru was leaning in now, lips needy and breathless. Both brothers tasted so different. He had them memorized now, yearning for the smells and tastes to absorb him. He opened his eyes to see the twins staring at him expectedly.

Kyoya was relieved, and maybe this is what love was - feeling relief before the sex even started. He took his glasses off and laid them on a table next to the bed. His hands cradled both brothers and pulled them close. He rubbed their backs and felt their breath, almost in sync, on his chest. Hikaru dug his face into him so desperately. Kaoru smiled against his collar bone.

A hand was on top of his jeans now and Kyoya couldn't help but laugh a little.

"What?" It was Kaoru. "I just… I don't know. All of this just reminds me how badly I need release." He looked a little sheepish.

Hikaru smiled at him. "You're so needy, Kao." He pulled his brother close again, licking his neck and running his hand through his hair.

Kyoya leaned up on the bed with them, kicking his shoes off and watching them on his knees. He grabbed both of them, greedy with lust, meshing all three of their mouths together for a second. It wasn't well done, but it felt good to flood all of them with emotion at once.

Kyoya felt his need for them growing quickly. It may have been the display of their recent confessions, or both of the twins smell mingling on the bed, but Kyoya was drunk with urgency. The twins looked needy, playful, wild. Kyoya was invigorated.

Kaoru was the first to move onto Hikaru. "Please." He breathed into his mouth, their lips brushing as he spoke. "Can I be on the bottom? I'm begging. I want to feel him inside of me." Hikaru nodded quickly, biting his brother's lip and pushing him down onto the bed. He kissed him hard, unbuttoned his shirt, struggling for air around his mouth.

I watched as they tore each other apart. Shirts fell to their waists, their pale skin constantly in fluid motion, their chests together fighting for dominance. I could hear their struggling breaths, their moans and whimpers, I wanted them.

I moved in, kissing Kaoru's shoulder and breaking them apart. I turned my head to bite Hikaru's neck. Their heat was all around me, soft and undulating. I felt Kaoru's breath on my shoulder, his tongue running up my neck. I pulled Hikaru's mouth to mine, letting the emotion out. I could hear my own moans. The twins pinned me between them, caught in a quiet dance I felt as though I might drown in whatever this new feeling was.

My shirt was over my head, the twin's hands deft and gentle. Then my pants were open, hands grabbing every side, dipping in, touching my hips, tugging on my underwear. I couldn't keep track of their hands. Every hand was theirs, every mouth was leaving its mark now.

"Mmm, you're tearing me in two." I let out a groan.

"Maybe then we'll each get a piece." Kaoru purred behind me.

Hikaru licked down my chest, around my waist, making me grind forward onto him. Memories of his mouth flooded my thoughts. What if I got much more than his mouth? What if I- had him? I could feel him wrapped around me. I felt a need surge through my body. I wanted so much more than the twin's mouths. I needed to be inside of them. I might even need them inside of me.

"Kaoru." I choked out, my voice low with dominance. "I need you. Now."

Hikaru was grinning, watching his brother scuttle over to me with large eyes. I grabbed Kaoru by the neck and took his mouth. I tasted his lips, felt his heartbeat in my palm. Our kisses were long and viscous, his hips pushed against my leg.

"Mmm, you're getting hard." His erection was tight against my leg. "Listen. I want you to get on your back so I can taste you. Then I want to prepare you, and, when you're begging, I'll give you what you want." His eyes were clouded. He was listening intently. He leaned backwards, open to me, sitting up on his elbows. He was inviting.

I pulled his clothing off, exposing him to my mouth. I licked from his balls to the tip of his cock. He stiffened further. Hikaru tapped me with a bottle, and I nodded. I was generous with the lube on my fingers before I let them explore. Kaoru watched me sweetly from between his legs.

I worked myself in, sucking at the head of his cock when he clenched. He was taking my gentle fingers very well. I tried another finger and went a little slower. I couldn't wait to have him as my own and attempted to be patient. I tried a third finger and he clamped, so I swallowed him whole. He let out a moan. Now I waited, burying my face between his thighs and working him up. He pushed down on my fingers now, squirming for more.

"Mmm, put it in." Kao panted. "I'm afraid I'll come in your mouth." I gave him a smile. Hikaru pet Kaoru's hair, watching intently.

I gently removed my fingers and steeled myself. I needed to be calm and not hurt Kaoru. But his eyes were suddenly playful.

"What?" I growled.

"Are you too nervous?" He laughed at me. "Don't you want to know what I feel like inside? Or are you too scared?"

I clenched my teeth. "Listen here, you little shit. I'm trying not to hurt you."

"Oh, how heroic." He hissed in my ear. My patience was up.

I threw him onto his back, pulling his legs around me, shaking with need. I spread him open and let my cock start pushing him open. I watched his eyes, half open, like his beautiful mouth. I leaned in to kiss him.

"You feel good. You prepared me well." He whined at me. "Please, Kyo. Let me pleasure you."

I slowly pushed in and paused, reveling in his tightness. He shivered around me, adjusting. I finally pushed to the hilt.

"Fuck, Kaoru. You're warm inside. It's searing." I grabbed at his hips, chest to chest with him.

He let out a cry suddenly, high pitched and begging. His body squirmed around me, his mewls coming from his mouth buried in my shoulder. "Mmm, please."

I braced my legs against the bed and thrusted out and deeply back in. I bit my lip against the pleasure. I couldn't last very long inside of him, my cock was warning me.

"It's too good, Kaoru. Please."

Hikaru was beside us now, grabbing my face and kissing me. He pushed my hips down into his brother. "Grr.." I pleaded against him.

"He wants your cum Kyoya. Enjoy him. He is begging for you." Hikaru's mouth was hot against my ear, biting the rim.

I thrusted out again and let my mouth hang open. "Kaoru." I growled to him before picking his hips up from the bed, pounding his slim body against it.

His eyes were wild, hands gripping the sheets and splaying his legs for me. He cried out, high-pitched whines that sent shivers up my spine.

Hikaru helped hold his brother down. "How does he feel?" Kaoru whined. "You love him in your ass. Look at your body squirm."

I was on fire. I could feel my hips building and trembling.

"Fuck." I thrusted in and held Kaoru's soft hips against me, my body paused before I could feel the first shot of cum being released. My knees felt weak. I pushed Kaoru into the sheets and held him there as the throbbing in my cock pulsed inside of him. I relished in the pleasure of the throbbing.

"Your insides are tight." I groaned, pulling out of Kaoru. "You emptied me."

Hikaru looked needy, giving us both a grunt. "I need to come. Please. I want to feel you." He crawled towards me.

"Get on your back." I growled. He looked appalled, but did as he was told. I pulled his legs open, lubing my fingers and penetrating him.

"Ohhh…" He whimpered. I pressed hard, upwards against a small ball of nerves. His eyes shot open, his hips bucking into the air. I pulled myself up above him, pressing my fingers deeper.

"Is that what you need? You need something inside?" I added another finger. His eyes drooped and his mouth opened with need. "Both of you are so good at begging me." I growled. Both of them had the most beautiful eyes and mouths. I watched as he ground against my hand.

Kaoru leaned in and kissed my chest. "Can I help out a bit?" He wrapped his fingers around Hikaru's cock, tugging him knowingly. Hikaru almost jumped at the feeling.

"I want him." Kaoru purred, and I mused at what his next move was. He mounted his brother's hips - and lowered himself down until he was burying Hikaru's cock.

"Ah! Kaoru! Don't.. surprise me." He was helpless, trapped with his cock fully sheathed and my fingers moving against his prostate. He nearly screamed. His brother started a harsh ride, grinding back and forth.

My cum wetted Hikaru's cock, dripping between them. I could hear the fast movements of Kaoru's hips as he rode his brother to orgasm.

"Please, wait…" Hikaru begged, but his hands were on his brother's hips holding him steady while he came. "Please…" He groaned, bucking from the aftershocks.

Kaoru touched himself in front of Hikaru. His long fingers were tugging, still sitting on Hikaru's hips. He groaned and a thick rope of cum splashed against his twin's chest, followed by tiny spurts until he was empty. "Hikaru…" Kaoru whined softly.

I leaned in to kiss Kaoru's back.

"Both of you make such a sight." I said lovingly, helping Kaoru off of Hikaru. "Is the offer to stay the night still on the table? I'd love to hold you both a bit longer." I pulled Hikaru up and kissed his neck.