"Alex, wake up!" Arizona yelled as she passed an asleep Alex on the couch, curled in a ball and surrounded by empty bottles. This sight was normal for Arizona recently, Alex hadn't moved from that spot in days and she yelled this every morning but Alex actually listening never happened. She made her way to the kitchen and started to make some coffee, until she caught herself in the reflection on the fridge. She was a mess, not dressed and no makeup, not even a little smile to be seen...she didn't even recognize this girl. She hadn't for some time now, but she avoided her reflection and tried to ignore her thoughts. She could feel herself starting to remember...when things were good, when she loved who she was and she loved her life, she could feel the tears start to form as the memories never felt good for her. She hated thinking of Callie and Sofia, not because she didn't love them but because her life would never be the same again, because she knew they were happy without her and she was here sad and living with Alex, who couldn't even talk without stumbling his words anymore. She shook her head, clearing the thoughts and memories from her mind and then on with her day.
Arizona's day was pretty normal, she went to work where she took care of sick kids and babies. She had lunch and listened to April complain about Avery, she watched Amelia and Addison kiss and act like teenagers and she even got to see Meredith fall asleep at the table, so tired because her kids had been sick all week and kept her up all night. Nothing special happened, no crazy cases, no fun gossip, no cool stories to bring to New York when she left in five days. Arizona was ready to go home, she was ready to go to bed and honestly just never wake up, she left the hospital and made her way home.
It was dark as she opened the door, she tossed her bag on the table as she walked, closing the door behind her. She slipped out of her shoes, and just left them behind her as she kept walking. She passed the couch, noticing Alex wasn't there, probably moved to his bed she assumed. She was too tired to check, going straight to her room and closing the door behind her. She sluggishly walked to her bed, falling down onto it her eyes already closed as she hit the mattress. Her eyes opened as she heard a voice, it was Alex as he entered her room.
"Hi" he muttered, standing over Arizona as she didn't even kind of sit up to look at him.
"What is it?" Arizona asked "Out of alcohol again?"
"No, that's not...I just wanted to tell you" He stopped before finishing, slowly sitting beside Arizona, his eyes finding hers as they barely stayed open.
"What Alex?" She asked, sounding annoyed "I'm tired, I want to sleep so just go already"
"Callie called" Alex said, Arizona sitting up as the words hit her ears. "She told me that..."
"What!?" Arizona's eyes were bugging out of her head as she waited
"She doesn't think you, she doesn't want you to...she said don't come." Alex whispered, Arizona's heart felt like it had broke right then and there. Callie didn't want her to come, she couldn't see Sofia then, she couldn't be with her family.
"No, she wouldn't..we agreed, Sofia...I'm her mom" Arizona cried, her breathing becoming rapid and her eyes blurring with tears. "It's been...I haven't...Six months, I'm her mom she..she needs me"
"Arizona" Alex reached for her hand, "breath"
"I'm her mom, I'm her mom" Arizona's face was red as she cried out, Alex trying to calm her down. "I'm her mom..." she fell into Alex, who held onto her tight.
"I know" Alex's hand rubbing her back gently as she cried into his chest "I know that."