A/N: Nothing interesting to say, so let's just got right too the point.

S-B

Natasha walked into the kitchen the next morning feeling relaxed as ever. It was only 6 in the morning, but Natasha had always been a morning person. She was surprised to see the coffee maker already on. She was usually the first one to wake up. Natasha looked around and saw Laura sitting in a chair with Nathaniel on her lap feeding him some pees.

"Guessing he woke you up?" Natasha said with a small smile pointing at the kid who was laughing at his "aunt". The woman only nodded at her looking at her with tired eyes. Natasha sat down in front of him and took the spoon and plate away from Laura and started to feed Nathaniel herself. She didn't need to ask Laura, she already knew she trusted her enough.

Nate finished his food and yawned when Natasha put down the plate. Natasha looked at Laura who was looking at the wall with tired eyes.

"I can put him back into bed if you want. I am pretty light on my feet, so I won't wake up Clint either." Natasha offered, smiling warmly at the mother. Natasha knew that Laura wanted to protest, but she didn't let her as she just picked up Nate and walked out of the room with him.

Natasha was pretty familiar with kids by now. She had known Laura and Clint long before they got Cooper and she had been there from the very beginning raising the kids with them. Nate was born just after the fight against Ultron and that was one and a half year ago. Natasha had missed a lot of bonding time with Nathaniel when she got kidnapped so she was happy Laura trusted her enough to take care of the boy.

She rocked him carefully as she walked down to Clint and Laura's room. Light as a feather she walked into the room and put Nate down in his crib. She walked over to the baby call that was connected to Laura's phone making sure it was on. Nate had already fallen asleep and Natasha couldn't help but smile at the small boy. She tucked him in before giving him a kiss on his forehead. She might not be able to get pregnant herself, but she was very lucky to have, Nathaniel, Lila, and Copper.

Natasha walked into the kitchen again giving a thumbs up to Laura who was still sitting in the sofa. Laura smiled back at Natasha who had started to pour coffee into two mugs before mixing in some milk. She knew how Laura liked it.

"So, he just fell asleep, just like that?" Laura said taking the cup from Natasha before following the other woman out to the terrace.

"Yup, just like that" Natasha said with a small wink. Natasha and Laura continued to drink their coffee outside watching the sunrise. They didn't need to talk when they were together. It was never that awkward silence between the two of them. They just had that close bond and were way past that always needing to small talk vibe.

Laura looked at Natasha. She had lost quite a bit of weight in the past 6 months. Not that Natasha had any weight to lose in the first place. 2It hurt knowing Natasha had been suffering so much the last months. Natasha was a very private person, but Laura had never had a problem reading her. She could tell Natasha was still very affected by everything. It had taken her years to shake off her panic attack and flashbacks from the red room. Not that many knew about them. But whenever Natasha has visited them, Laura was able to help Natasha take of that strong, stone-cold Black Widow mask.

After the Avengers came home, they had all dropped the talking about what happened. Steve had tried to get them to but neither Wanda nor Natasha had shown any sign of wanting to talk about it. Nobody knew what had happened, but Laura knew it wasn't any good.

"Natalia?" Laura started carefully looking at the other woman. Natasha hummed back with her eyes closed taking in the warmth from the sun. She saw the woman smile as she heard her real name. Laura looked at her remembering back to when she had started to use Natalia instead of Natasha.

When Natasha had introduced herself as Natasha Romanoff years ago Laura had already guessed that it wasn't her real name. She did ask Clint about it, but he only brushed her off telling it wasn't his story to tell. So, she had to ask the spy herself. At first, Natasha had looked at Laura rather angry for even asking that, but after some explanation, Natasha had told her name really was Natalia Romanova. The way Natasha explained it was that she had felt her name was more connected to her past than her real, present self. Only in the Red Room, they had used Natalia. Clint had given her the nickname Natasha Romanoff pretty early on. The name was obviously inspired by her real name but still quite different. The reason Clint had landed on Natasha was, so she still felt like herself, but never had to hear her real name if she didn't want too.

Laura had never thought that was necessary. Giving up her own name and all that. First of all, she had never seen Natasha as a bad person, even if she doubted herself sometimes. She didn't believe one should just give up her name just because of the past. But secondly, she also liked the name Natalia a lot. She thought it suited her.

At first, it had seemed that Natasha was mad at her for using her real name, but Laura saw in her eyes that she never really got angry. It was just an adjustment. Still, Laura never used Natalia when they were with anyone else than only the two of them. But using Natalia was sort of their thing now. Representing the trust and bond between the two.

Laura looked at the woman beside her. Laura could tell Natasha had tried to keep as calm as possible yesterday. Being around the kids and all that. But she had seen how Natasha had tensed up when one of the kids had screamed and how her eyes were always searching around in the room almost like she was looking for someone. It bothered her that Natasha was so tens but only keeping it to herself. Laura took a deep breath. She needed to break the ice.

"You really don't have to answer, but… I saw Wanda sit in the big window in the hall earlier today and she looked really tired and… well. Natalia, what happened to you?" Laura looked at the woman who looked back at her with sad eyes. Laura could see the regret and pain in Natasha's eyes, and she could already tell Natasha was blaming herself for everything that happened.

"It was my fault. I couldn't protect us. They attacked and before I knew what was happening, we were thrown into these big cells." Natasha started looking at Laura with sad teary eyes. Laura moved her chair closer to Natasha's taking her hands squeezing them.

"They threatened me to try to get me to talk, but then this woman came and looked at me. It was like she knew everything about us. Our weaknesses. Our strength. It was like she knew more about me than I do myself. She even used my real name referring to me as Natalia. She had this team. These men who were always with her. Doing everything she told them too. She never seemed to try to fight us, always letting them do the dirty work." Laura watched as Natasha talked with a low voice trying to avoid the woman in front of her.

"So… so she ordered them to torture me. To drag the information out with force and pain. But it wasn't like normal torture. Not with tasers or, weapons or anything. They… They used Wanda. They experimented on her in front of me, before they dragged her out of the room. They made her scream and all I could do was to listen to her day and night screaming for help. Then when she got back, she got thrown into her cell and I would watch her twitch in pain. They hurt Wanda to get me to talk. Their way of torturing me was torturing Wanda in front of my face" Natasha chocked on her last words as she started to cry. Laura's heart broke as she saw the girl break. She had only heard Natasha cry once and that was a long, long time ago.

"Honey, I am so sorry. I don't know what to say" Laura said pulling Natasha into a hug. The woman sobbed quietly. Holding around Laura. Laura was devastated. She knew something bad had happened, but she had no idea it was like this. Natasha was right when she had the capturer had known her too well.

Loyalty has always been one of Natasha's absolute strongest ethical values and strengths. She would do anything to protect the one she loved. If Natasha would ever come across a situation where it was either her life or a friend's life, she would jump off the cliff without a blink of an eye. Natasha would NEVER leave anyone behind, and she would take any bullet, pain or form of torture for a friend. But Natasha was also raised as the world's best assassin. She was raised and brainwashed to kill. She was taught to never say anything. Laura knew that Natasha had been tortured countless of times to talk and never been broken, both before and after she joined SHIELD. Every time coming back successful without slipping or breaking. Never saying anything and frankly never seemed to affect either. But now…

It was scary to know that somebody was able to figure out two of Natasha's strongest traits and was able to put them against each other. This person wasn't just trying to make them weak. They were trying to destroy them from the inside.

Laura and Natasha got interrupted when they hear a light knock on the glass window. The both turned around towards the door and saw Clint and Peter standing in the door looking at them.

"Bad timing?" Clint said with a soft smile. Laura threw a fast look at the watch. It was already 7:30.

"No," Natasha said shaking her head fast before standing up and walked past them into the living room again. Laura looked at the other woman before picking up the two cups and walked after her. Natasha had already left the living room by the time Laura had gotten inside. Not that she minded. She knew Natasha needed time.

"So, Pete, I thought teens like you liked to sleep in a bit. It's Saturday after all" Laura said softly. Not even her two kids had woken up, yet which was surprising. It was probably because their auntie and her friends were "so cool!" and spending the evening with her is just "amazing".

"Well, I asked Mr. Stark about it yesterday. And he told me that Romanoff and Rogers both are morning persons and because they are training me, I thought…" Peter drifted off looking at her like he had done something wrong.

"Don't worry kid. They are, but the rest of the team aren't." Clint placed a hand on his shoulder looking at him with a smile.

"They usually go for a run or something in the morning, but your training doesn't start before 9 am weekdays and 11 am weekends. Just get some food in you before training k? Natasha and Steve usually start on the breakfast themselves when they are done working out, and we try to eat together at the weekends or the day off. Considering this is the first day of training for everyone, Nat and Steve are probably not doing anything crazy anyways" Clint explained to the boy as he started to work around in the kitchen. Peter looked at him with thoughtful eyes. Laura could tell it was a lot for the boy to take in.

"Don't worry Peter. They are all really nice people. Just try to follow along and I am sure you get it." Laura said with a reassuring smile. The boy nodded to her still looking a bit worried.

"You know you don't have to call them Romanoff and Rogers all the time, right?" Laura said as she walked over to the fridge and offered Peter to sit down on one of the barstools.

"What else am I supposed to call them. Feel like everyone calls everyone their surname…" Peter said taking the glass of water from Laura with a thankful smile.

"Oh, we do that too. But mostly we just do what seems most natural" Clint said looking at Peter with a smirk.

"Nothing feels natural here" Peter mumbled looking down at the floor.

"Well just think about it as a normal conversation with friends. Hawkeye here is just being annoying" Laura said bumping into his husband with a playful look. Laura was about to make a sandwich when she heard two excited voices behind her. Cooper and Lila were running into the kitchen with Steve dragged behind them.

"Mom! Steve just said we could watch their training today and even teach us some moves" Cooper said excited jumping around his mother. Clint looked at Steve slightly annoyed while Laura laughed. She had a feeling Steve had only said that to get them to stop them from asking him.

"That's so nice. Seems like you have an exciting day in front of you. Why don't you both get dressed before training? I am sure dad will help you." Laura said winking at her husband who only nodded. Cooper nodded before running out of the room. Lila, on the other hand, looked at her mother for a second before she asked.

"Where is auntie Nat?" The girl looked at her with big eyes. Laura looked back at the kid unsure what to answer. She didn't want to accidentally send Lila at Natasha's room if she didn't want company. It was pretty clear by the way Natasha had left the room when Clint and Peter had joined them that she needed to be alone.

"Where do you think kiddo?" Laila jumped a little when she felt two hands around her waist before Natasha pick her up from the ground. Natasha laughed at Lila who tried to wiggle out of her grip playfully throwing punches at Natasha.

Laura watched as Natasha let one of the punches connect with her stomach, clearly on purpose. Natasha gasped pretending to be hurt as she fell to the floor landing softly on her back with Lila on top of her. Lila laughed well aware that Natasha only was acting. She jumped off her aunt and gave her a fast hug before she told Natasha she was getting dressed before running out of the room.

Laura watched the cute interaction between the two of them. It looked so sweet and so real. Still, she saw Natasha's smile disappear the second Lila turned her back towards her aunt. Natasha picked herself up from the floor and walked over to the toaster. It was impossible to tell that Natasha had been crying just a few minutes ago, but Laura could tell something was up. Natasha met eyes with the mother and Laura mouthed "are you okay?" at her. The woman just looked at her before turning around again. So, no then.

The rest of the morning was pretty normal. Natasha and Steve were both caught up on some work. She was looking at some holographic blueprints Pepper had given her while Steve was scribbling something down in his notebook. Sam was entertaining the kids with Clint while Peter was helping Laura with Nate who had woken up from his morning nap.

Peter was a natural with kids and was at the moment watching over Nate who was running around in the kitchen. Fun fact, his webs was perfect for catching the kids in case one of them tripped and fell. What really caught Laura's attention was Bucky and Wanda. They were sitting by one of the tables close to the panorama window. Bucky seemed to be comforting Wanda who looked pretty upset by something. He talked in a low voice that only Wanda could hear.

Laura knew that she wasn't the only one who had noticed. She watched Natasha throwing glances at them every five seconds. At first, it had looked like Natasha had wanted to kill the boy just because he had walked up to Wanda. But because Wanda seemed to be fine Natasha had calmed down.

"Okay everybody its almost 11. Why don't you guys get ready? No need to suit up today. We're going to work on our combat skills. Sparing for close combat. Get ready and then meet us down at the training ground in 10 minutes." Steve said and the other nodded at him.

"Clint are you okay with joining our session today, so we are an even number? Nat, I am guessing you and Wanda as sitting this one out. Or at least not go full out." Natasha nodded. As much as she wanted to spar, she knew she shouldn't be training that much.

"Yeah I can just yell at you guys from the sideline instead," Natasha said with a small smile.

"Pluss I need to take a closer look at Wanda's arm, so we'll meet you there!"