I'm not sure how many people really care anymore, and I feel really terrible for dropping off the face of the earth without an explanation.
I just want to start off by saying i'm not back, and I'm not sure if I ever really will be. You all have no idea how incredibly grateful I was and still am for the support and nice comments I received while writing Contrast, it always lifted my spirits, and i'm so sorry I can't return that kindness.
I want to thank my dear friend Nevermind, for trying her best to support me in writing Contrast, she co-wrote much of the last few chapters with me. And she is a great writer herself.
In all honesty, while I was writing Contrast, I was at one of the lowest points of my life and I was writing it more for one of my friends rather than myself. I did love Contrast, but after the death of Happy's mother, I felt like i'd written myself into a hole, since i'd originally planned for that death to be closer to the end and got too ahead of myself.
It wasnt only that, but Juno's situation and character reminded me too much of myself and who I didnt want to be anymore. I really just needed to move on from being that person.
Along with all this, I also hit a wall with my family situation. I ended up getting kicked out of my house, and it took awhile to get back on my feet. I'm doing well now though.
Ive tried to rewrite Contrast multiple times, with different storylines and characterizations, but I think I just need to move on and accept that i'm not that person anymore.
I'n not sure if i'll ever be able to work up the courage to post anything else I write, i'm pretty embarrassed with how I disappeared, and I want to apologize. I hope everyone has been doing well, 2020 has been a crazy year, and hard times have fallen on all of us. I feel bad adding to that, but the guilt has been crushing me since I last posted.
I know everyone who followed this story needs closure, and I do as well. I know many people want to know how I planned to end Contrast, and if you want to know, feel free to PM me with your email addresses. While I never finished Contrast, I had a whole chapter list written out, so I will share it on google drive with anyone who wants to know what my plans were and how it ended.