Another chapter.

The nausea swirled unrestrained in my empty stomach. My head swam with half-formed regrets. My heartfelt as if my blood had become tar as it struggled to keep a steady beat. My melancholy mood hung over me like a black cloud, raining my personal sorrow down on me wherever I went. Even the colors of the spring day were drab to me now and the birdsong like so much noise on a child's glockenspiel, grating my nerves.

But when I hear her, she remembered the life we had, then her arms are wrapped around me so tight as Vic in a confused tone, "Can we come in, looks like one of us has held on to fading memories," I just pick BiBi up and sit on the sofa her head nestled into my neck.

I give her mother a look, "I do as well, I know I was dead, and you cared for her. I remember it all my dear child, let me help them all remember, maybe even help Bella understand our time," she moved to them.

I just look at BiBi, "I missed you Hummingbird, dad messed up. I can't fix it,"

She smiled, "You have to, you are meant to be with him. He never meant bad things he wanted to save Lucie and mom, but you're my momma too. I can see the past and now, and future. Dad, he doesn't he doesn't remember your times together. Kai, is going to win if you don't do something before the baby is born, my little brother. My mom is still meant to pass on,"

I nearly dropped Hummingbird, "Baby?"

"Yes, this one," her hand braced on my belly, "You and dad, made him."

Hours later I stand looking at Warren's mother's house with longing, I couldn't leave BiBi so her mother called a meeting of the Sirens. Vic and Magenta are standing with me, "Call in a favor and get into High Max tomorrow," his voice echoed beside me.

"Yeah, or I will just tear it down. Half of me wants him to rot in there, he cost me BiBi and a life I was liking. Magenta are you still dating, Bandit?"

"Of course, he is on his way,"

I asked Vic, "How're you and Jennifer?"

He looked ready to cry, "Was waiting for you to ask,"

"I am sorry, everything has been turned sideways. I didn't mean to act like I don't care you know I do," his hand braced on my shoulder. "Kai, killed her when she saved Lucie. Every action that was changed took something from us,"

My heart stopped.

Sometimes the pain crushes you- it leaves you incapable of everything. It leaves you broken- in and out. The tears won't roll down, and the screams won't escape past your quivering lips. I did cry, "I am sorry, Vic. I can fix it somehow,"

"You can't this time, Lucie and Nikki are alive and I can't lose my sister again. I contacted them, they are across the street, come on,"

I couldn't walk across the street, but I felt her hand on mine, "Come on, I saved this." In her hand was a picture Warren, BiBi, and myself laughing. "How?"

"When the timeline was changing, I took it, as long I had it while the change happened my power protected it," I just hold it, seeing us all so happy once, now I was broken. I snagged her, "Has your mom been mad at me, cookies and Dutch Bros," I whispered but Aurora started laughing.

"I have not, you gave her balance. But I fear your baked goods are far better than mine, might you come and teach me?" my heart swelled a little. "Yeah, I would like that, we girls can come."

"Me too, taste tester," Vic cut in, doubt he is going to be far from my side now.

I just walked into his mother's home, "Shit," I proclaimed but Willow beamed seeing her fellow Siren, thinking she just strode in. "Hello Aurora, you brought company," she smiled, and I saw Wilo, I saw Warren and Ambala in these features.

My mother and Aunt came in, Layla just hugged me before Aurora took her to the side, they returned, and Layla was sobbing much to the dismay of Aunt Summer. "EXPLAIN," was yelled by my mother and Aunt.

I saw Lucie, she was stunning it was like Bexley was in front of me once again, and Nikki was beaming. "Hey Bexi," I nodded at Aurora, she was using a lot of power to transfer time changes or memories, whatever she was doing.

I held my daughter, close. "Warren fucked everything up, I hate him so much," tears coming as the adults looked flabbergasted his mother was the most confused. Vic just hugged me trying to hold me together as I was breaking further and further.

BiBi held power, I heard the door seeing Will and his parents now everyone was here. BiBi spoke in her toddler's voice. "Rage and Killjoy are Bexley and Warren, they traveled to save us all. But Warren told them things to save Lucie, Nikki, and my mom, and it drastically changed things. Jennifer James died, Kai's mother died, last Warren and Bexley are not married and not taking care of me since mom passed," gasps and thuds of adults sitting are heard.

I asked her, "Can you fix their memories," she giggles. "Of course, are you going to return my daughter?"

I wanted to say no, "I have to, she is not mine anymore," the pain could be heard by everyone. I loved her like my daughter. "I am," BiBi gave me a grave look seeing my inner turmoil. I feel like a ghost in a world of paper dolls. I am the ghost of my own machine. I am a ghost running through time and space, looking, always looking in the blackness for a sacred spark. And all this world becomes noise, a distraction from my task to find the one - the one who went alone into the dark. For should all he be is a fragment of fire, barely a cinder, it matters not, because I will become a river of gasoline.

"Is there two Kai's,"

"No, they merged into one, but same memories he is now very dangerous and gunning for you," I handed BiBi to Bella, she could fight. "Protect her, Nikki you're with Bella until this blows over and I kill that bastard. BiBi is to be on twenty-four seven watch, I will not deal with failure on her safety,"

I glanced at Layla, "You too, stick with them. Becca Faith I don't see you being able to go against him either so you four girls have that single task. Mage, Vic, and Will with me," I glanced at Lucie while the adults spoke. "You want in, Lucie?"

"I am in after I see what my cousin has done and all he gave up. I want Kai dead more than before," her eyes flashed.

Time had begun to dissolve into itself, as shapeless as the rain.

I was wired, "I am off to see that walking motherfucker,"

His mother cut in, "I will get you in, come on Commander you hold a lot of power too. He is due out in days but this can't wait," her fingers traced my face, I have not told them I was pregnant.

"I can't unlock his memories, only you can," I punched a hole into her wall hearing this. "Great, how do I do that,"

"Figure it out,"

The sunrise came as if it had missed the sky and wanted nothing more than to warm up those blues to a radiant gold. I just drive with Vic, Will, Lucie, and Mage while the rest crashed. Music played low, "At least Kai came back to his bitch of mother dead, at least I have that. How she die?"

Vic gave me a look, "Warren, he killed her in retaliation for Jennifer. They were dating when it happened," I nodded, at least he offed that bitch taking a key player out of this game.

Together we are in the lobby hearing rather shit music, Willow and Uncle are arguing with the Warden of the prison. "Hey you either let me see his bitch ass, or I tear this shit hole down and find him myself. If you even for a second think I am kidding," Vic covers my mouth hushing me.

A few moments later Willow and I are standing in front of the room he was in, "Only you, dear,"

He was bound differently from the rest, for he had his leg's in a chain so long that it was wound all around his body, and two rings on his neck, one attached to the chain, the other to what they call a "keep-friend" or "friend's foot," from which hung two irons reaching to his waist with two manacles fixed to them in which his hands were secured by a big padlock so that he could neither raise his hands to his mouth nor lower his head to his hands. He looked different not much just darker hair, his eyes colder, his hair was now passed his shoulders with his body massive, they feeding his ass steroids.

He looked confused. "And what do I owe this honor, Danvers? Who gave you that scar on your face?" mixed emotions in those questions.

I just fix him in a glare, "You mother fucker, you fucked everything up,"

He just gave me this look I had seen so often before, confusion. "Danvers, have you hit your fucking head,"

I snarled, "I don't care if you regain your actual memories, I truly don't,"

His mother poked her head in, "Bexley, please. Be angry but he has to remember," she gave us both a look, but the softness that came over Warren seeing her.

"Here remember on your own you waste of power, you cost us our marriage and daughter," slamming the picture on the table in front of him. His body slammed back after seeing it, "What? I never took that picture,"

"You did, we had a daughter and you pissed it all off. I am off to kill Kai, enjoy your stay,"

I figured he was dead to me, even days later when I convinced the judge to hand full custody of our child over to me. I saw BiBi daily while Lucie, Mage, and I worked to find Kai, Vic was taking a shine to Bella which kinda hurt, I thought him and James forever.

Today found me sitting with my iced mocha staring at her pastel blue grave, the black writing stung deeper and deeper. "I am so sorry Jennifer, man it was not meant to be this way. I am sorry, so sorry he fucked everything up, I am trying to find a way to bring you back, there is always a way," tears run down my face. I sank to my knees at the grave, not caring for the damp mud that dirtied my jeans. My tears mingled with the rain and my gasping wails echoed around the gravestones. The pain that flowed from me s as palpable was the frigid fall wind. Everything was lost and no way to fix them, to look down would be to imagine her cold in a box, no more infectious laughs and wide Icey eyes pleading for just one more store.

I was not alone but didn't muster enough energy to turn but I knew the arms that wrapped around me. BiBi, she came "She is happy where she is, but you're not," Vic flopped down next to me his hand on the gravestone letting his tears fall.

"Is there no way for me to bring her back,"

BiBi she was now solemn, "You can, but we don't know the consequence of it. Who takes her place, not even I know?"

But now I knew I could.

"Come on, we don't want BiBi to get ill,"

High School was starting and I refused to return, I tested out I lived years in the past and had no desire to return. I held BiBi's hand taking her into her house with her caramel cookies hot chocolate from Dutch bros when a voice yelled out. "BEXLEY, it was only Lucie and Nikki, Bella took BiBi inside.

"I'll be back," Bella was living with BiBi and fit in with us like we grew up together.

I looked as if the muscles of my face had gone on strike. Everything about it was slack and it gave me the aura of one who would spurn even the most well-meaning attempts to strike up a conversation. Even my shoulders drooped and as I made her way to the girls. "Nikki found out some info the little rat, he is at dune point,"

"Let's go, ladies," I drove off doing a solid eighty, Lucie was giving me a worried look. "Warren has been begging Aurora to fix his memories, he just looks at that picture, says his brain feels like it clicks shut tighter each time. Aurora told him only you and he can unlock them, or even him,"

"I don't care if he doesn't remember, here and now we're not married he ruined everything we had. My goal is to kill Kai, I don't need Warren for that," I was alerted I could do it, it just hasn't happened.

I placed my hand into the dune's, "He is about a mile away, Northwest access point my car won't travel in this. We walk,"

The golden sand dunes rose and fell as if the beach were breathing.

The sand dunes are smooth under our shoes, the light of the sun filtered by the clouds on each side of the trail. It was in the first week of August, and it was one of those summers when the temperature never really became unbearably hot. "Are we there yet?" asked Nikki again, puffing. We finally reached a clearing and there was such a wave of anger having seen the scene in front of us.

Kai and his crew on one side and Warren and his on the other, Bandit gave me a nod sensing us long before any other. I called out loud and clear, "Hey bitches, I have a score to settle,"

Kai looked worried and Warren confused.

Warren looked at his little cousin, "Lucie, get the fuck out of here now,"

"No, in another life he kills me. He beat me in this timeline before dating Bexley, she has my loyalty not you,"

I just held my hand up, "Kai, I have traveled timelines twice. Lost my daughter, my husband, my best friend all because you two bastards,"

He was pissed, "You brought me back to this shit, I swear Bexley I am going to murder you even though I do love you so much it hurts. I killed James when that man you once called yours killed her, my mother," I could hear the anguish wash over his words.

"I don't care, Kai. You signed your death and as for Warren he is no longer my husband, he is to me what you're," I moved faster now, I wouldn't be given many chances to kill him and was going to take what I got. There was stillness on the three sides. If hatred was visible the air would have been scarlet. Then suddenly movement, so much force in every blow. I rained blows onto Kai as if he meant to smash him into the very earth and Kai did the same. Each didn't just want the other dead, we wanted the other smashed, obliterated, nothing left to bury.

Warren's crew attacked at the same time, with Nikki and Lucie joining, I felt Vic like a bright light, he arrived. I dodged Kai, but he didn't get far my hair grew wrapping around him dragging his ass back into the fight, "Becca Faith gave you her power," he spat as I kicked him in the gut sending him back.

I moved to avoid the black mist, but not like his crew wouldn't come to his aid, I flipped back knowing damn well Warren was behind me. I had enough force in the legs to where my body sailed behind his as he sent a blast of fire their way. But I was on the move again never staying still, when I moved the dunes moved the sand coming in waves, I had Kai hurt. But in that split second a sharp pain came my hands grasped my belly, Kai stopped attacking and looked at me. Vic rushed him sending them into the dunes, Lucie and Nikki helped me. "The baby," I moaned out loud making heads turn.

Kai heard and dashed for me, not to hurt but to abduct, I just reached out using Warren as a battery when his inferno was hitting high I changed it sending it at Kai, I knew he avoid it but I needed the advantage. I pulled Jennifer's dagger out, I stole it from her dad's house, it was sailing at the same speed but a fraction to the left where a clear spot for Kai to dodge the flames.

Like a well-oiled play in football, a hail Mary as the blade was stuck in his chest, doubt it kill him, I didn't calculate right but I did well enough. "Grab his ass," I yelled as Bandit and Vic chased Kai, but his crew saved his ass.

I just slumped to the floor, "God damn it,"

At ten at night, I walked from the hospital because in no way was I staying, I was fine after some transfusion. The baby was perfect, it is normal when you're having a child to feel pain, I take a good old fashion ass beating in the place of what I heard down the hall. My mother was happy but worried as Vic was making a list of everything, I wouldn't be able to do. He was researching the negative effects of coffee while pregnant when I attacked him.

I knew Kai thought it was his and this might work in my favor, I told him Warren and I never slept together. But he drugged me even if he thinks I didn't remember it, I don't but know it happened.

Willow and Warren are waiting outside, "I understand why you did what you did, but give him a chance." His mother knew I had custody, I knew she did and didn't care. Her son was not the man I fell for years ago.

My mother looked confused, "Bexi, what did you do?"

"I got custody of my son, this is not the Warren I fell for and he already cost me, my daughter. Now I am fixing his mess and having his child while he can't remember shit," I looked somehow managed to look down at him when he was much taller than myself.

"Calm Bexley, calm. This isn't good for the baby, Vic Jr doesn't need this," I slapped him as my mother groaned. "I am not naming him Vic jr, go smoke another joint,"

Warren just stood looking like I poured ice-cold water on his grave, but he says nothing. My mother chimed in, "Willow we all need to talk, but right now she is tired. Vic are you leaving to see Bella?" he nodded before kissing my cheek. He was turning her into a stoner, can't believe her destiny was to smoke joints with his ass.

His voice was deeper, it brought me out of my head. "All I think about is this," he held the picture, doubt I could get it from him with the hold he had on it. 'Every time I feel something coming back, it clicks shut. But I see you when it does, a broken face. Aurora says I can't unlock it till I face the pain I have caused you because I will face it regardless,"

Pain yeah.

"You caused me enough, but you lost too. A wife and daughter, face the pain you caused yourself, you were a great father to BiBi. When I was worried over what to feed her or about failing her since I was sixteen you at least had my back and together we raised her. With her we connected more and more, we created another child, a child I never was supposed to have. Think of BiBi and the pain she had to endure, losing her mother, losing us, losing," I needed to make sure she was okay as I just leave them all staring after me, I had been looking at apartments, I was not staying home even though I was still sixteen again nearly seventeen.

There she was sleeping, she was okay.