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Chapter 2: Jay

Jay's spiral after Erin departure had put him on Voight's shit list. Erin had been the one to help hold everything together for him after Terry's death even though he never told her about the things he did over there just having her near helped. So he moved forward pushing down his demons once again. Then Mouse decided that he wanted to go back to war and that brought up more memories for him. He couldn't understand why mouse wanted to go back but Erin made him realize that this was something that Mouse needed to do. Jay wasn't happy about it but he supported his friend. Losing Mouse the one person who could understand everything that they did over there had hurt. But at least he still had Erin.

That was until Abby came back with the news that they were still married. He knew he should have told Erin but he figured he could get it taken care of quickly and she would never have to know. She found out anyway and she wasn't happy that he had kept this from her. Then Jay made one of the dumbest decision, he left Erin. She had told him once that if he ever needed help carrying the weight of what they did over there all he had to do was ask. But instead of asking he chose to leave and he would forever regret that decision.

They never broke up not really it was more of a break than anything. The partnership that the two of them shared was intact. If they still had their professional partnership then they could find their way back to their personal on like they did before. Jay soon realized his mistake and knew he had to make it right. He didn't want to lose Erin from his life and he was wrong to walk away from her. So he got his mother's ring from Will and planned on making things right. But he never got the chance to ask her. He had ask Erin to meet him but she never showed up. He learned from Voight that Erin had left him and her life in Chicago behind. Part of him understood her reason for leaving but what hurt the most was that he didn't even warrant a goodbye.

Pain of losing Erin was unbearable but he continued to push forward hiding from his pain and throwing himself into work. Jay continued to push down the demons that tried to make their way to the surface. The thing that finally broke him was the death of the little girl. Even though the bullet that went through that little girl was accidental he couldn't shake that little girls face from his dreams. Her death brought him back the demons that he had been trying to hold back for months. The nightmares returned and he was barely sleeping. Without Mouse or Erin there to help keep the demons at bay Jay began to spiral. He tried calling Erin a couple of times, just needing to hear her voice but she never answered her phone. So he gave up trying.

Then Intelligence caught a kidnapping case and Jay fought to be undercover to connect with a former Army Ranger who was responsible for the kidnapping. The undercover stint was a chance for Jay to escape from reality for a little while. Connecting with Luis gave Jay the opportunity to talk to someone who knew exactly what he was going through. Jay finally felt like he could be himself without the fear of being weak. Luis understood and could relate to the demons that Jay carried because he carried his own. Camila was another distraction for him. She helped to fill the void temporally that Erin left. He didn't love her but couldn't deny the fact he had feeling for her since she helped him forget and stop the noise that was clouding his head. Luis's death was another blow for Jay it just became another death that he had to carry. Having Camila was a way for him to continue to hide from his problems. But just like everything else in his life that came crashing down when Camila found out who he really was. He almost ruined his career by blurring the lines.

Hailey was the first person to suggest that he talk to someone after Luis death but he shot that down real quick. But then after everything that went down with Camila and him being assigned to desk duty Voight made it mandatory for him to see a counselor. At first he was against talking to someone but he soon realized that he needed help and it was ok to get it. He'd been doing better since then, he got his head back on straight and focusing on the job. Hailey and he had develop a close partnership and friendship the last couple of years.

Hailey.

She had been acting weird the last couple of weeks since his shooting. He had been noticing the longing glances a lot more and he was starting to wonder what was up with her. He decided that he needed to talk to her and see what was going on. He got to work early before the others arrived to see if he could talk to Upton alone. He found her in the break room.

"Hailey"

Hailey looks up from pouring herself a cup of coffee to see who entered the break room, "What's up Jay?"

"I wanted to talk to you"

"About what?" she asks with a smile on her face.

"Ever since the shooting you've been acting weird. You have been staring at me when you think I'm not looking. So why don't you tell me what's going on with you?"

Hailey sighs, "When you got shot it really scared me. I thought I was going to lose you."

Jay moves closer to Hailey, "I'm fine"

"I know but it made me realize something that I have been trying to bury for a while."

"What's that?"

"Jay I have….

As Hailey gets ready to answer Ruzek interrupts, " Hey Voight needs us we got some intel on drug bust that going down.

"Alright" Jay answers. He turns toward Hailey and squeezes her arm and says, "We'll talk later" as he strolls out of the breakroom.

Hailey sighs and mumbles, "Yea later" and follows him out of the room.

Next Chapter we will find out how Voight got shot.

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