My house is packed with friends as I just shower, needing to get cleaned from my soul to body the shower was the best place to think too. The water pours down, it drips by my side, as my mind fades into dullness and everything is a foggy illusion. The sensation of the steamy water calms me; it takes my mind off things. All the things I honestly don't care about. It's the water. My mind swirls, and it's like I'm standing under an everlasting waterfall. Ever so beautiful, but it can never last, I know that now.

But nothing lasts forever.

When I am in pajama's do, I make my entrance back into my Livingroom seeing faces filled with pity, but Becca Faith produced my coffee from the fridge. "Thanks," I noted that people stood on one side or the other and a few in the middle.

I guessed, "Taking sides?"

Layla was in the middle but gave me a nod, Vic just wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "I told them losers it doesn't matter what we think because this is all you," Vic was right.

"Look, I see some equal numbers. But everyone sits the fuck down and we will talk like adults, but in the end all my choice," I was the first to sit in alone plush chair and taking this chair was so no one could sit next to me, mostly Warren. But Magenta and Layla cop a seat on the floor backs against the leather of the chair.

I started the conversation, "Aurora, being sick seems so wrong. She looks so healthy but looks are deceiving. Now BiBi, she will have to face losing her mother not only once but twice but the result is she is with two others who love her like their own," but she would have to deal and deal with her pain. I finished, "When I point to you is when your opinion is needed, everyone will get their say but it is my choice," but I wanted to hear what my friends had to say because they knew me as well as I knew them, we always had the others back and nothing could change that.

I look to Vic first; with a wink, he speaks. "I don't know what is best for Bexley, I will back her play. If she feels safer blood bonded to me than so be it we do the whole nine yards anything to get her untied from Kai," he would be fine either way, but it hit me I knew what my choice was already, I was not that selfish. Magenta was next, "Man, I hate this, but Peace is the safe one. You have had sex, married, and love him what is blood after all that,"

Layla just let out a small sigh, "I don't care who it is, as long as the end result is, she is not tied to Kai," Will agreed with her and so did Lucie.

Nikki spoke, "Vic, he loves her and has always put her before anything. I heard Warren in the other life slept with James and that swayed me to not think he is best," I snapped out. "Oh grow a set of balls you sissy, nothing she said was wrong but you can't take a hit to the massive ego you carry," Warren backed down, every flare of emotions nearly sent me bawling or screaming.

Becca Faith gave me a look before she spoke, "Warren, you have bonded with him in ways we can't fathom, the love you two have is rare, it was forged in time and fire," her words hit me.

Bandit just agreed with Becca Faith and last was Warren, "Not like I am going to say go and marry that stoner. I want you back and am willing to fight for you or fight you every day it changes," you could hear the simple emotion of frustration clear in his tone.

I just relax my body was a punching bag, "I would rather it be Vic because we have such a past together and wouldn't hurt the other, but that wouldn't be fair to him nor I as we could only ever be with each other and we might love each other but not like that. I will start the process of trying to work it out with my husband and see if we can do the blood bonding. But for now, our concern must be with BiBi and helping her deal with the pain she is going to feel," each one wore faces filled with emotion, Bella just never spoke she was feeling massive guilt.

I wanted to go pass out so ending this gathering was best. "Bella, you know I don't blame you. Don't sweat it, we have it handled we all are forced to do things like Vic gives me blood and vital organs," but Vic understood I was only letting her know I was okay with her, I never blamed her she was as much his prisoner as I was, but he at least was nice to me.

Finishing, "Also, I am going to bed since I have an early doctors visit," this was their cue and none disappointed me. Each bid me goodnight, Bandit would ensure everyone was safe in their homes before going to his place. All but Warren he just leaned against the door frame watching them all leave right next to me, I waved to his truck. "Nah, going to stay the night and take you to the appointment and to get food after, maybe we can go to Hiddenville they have a larger store that sells things for a baby," I wanted to tell him, no, but I did need things for the baby, his room was void right now.

"Fine, but only so you will pay for everything,"

Scoffing was heard, "I would pay anyways but you never ask me for a thing," I feel the shuttering of my synapses, the quite lure into sleepiness. As each limb becomes heavy and my heart slows to a more peaceful beat, the comfort of bed calls.

My bed was large, and the words don't come to me, but it was like the bed was made just for me. "I am really tired, being pregnant is hard. I figured I am going to do online school until the baby can be with my mother while I go to college full time. And now with BiBi going to be with me she will be going to school and need me home for a while," plans had to be made, nothing should just be left to chance because that is when things just fall to shit in my life.

He gave me a side-eye, "I am okay with that, our mothers can watch him while we both do college. But what do you want to be?"

I had always wanted to do something in the mental health field, "I want to help kids and teens with mental health," he wasn't surprised, but the emotions are of awe like I was some great thing. He just pulled his shirt off as I avoided looking at him, but his words are beckoning me too. "I have been thinking about what I would like to do, I never gave it any real thought until we traveled. I am looking into buying old man Millers farm, he had this awesome security system as he was one of the great heroes. He has kept it in such pristine condition it has around seventy-five acres. He doesn't' own animals anymore but wants the property to go to a good person. The house on it though is six bedrooms, I mean it looks right out of a county home magazine. I went and looked with both our mothers and explained how I wanted you and the kids away from the city to help you with your depression and anxiety since you did well in the past. But in the end, I want to be a doctor for Hero's it seems far fetched since it is me but I always got good grades in school and not by fucking anyone unlike what some think," I was in that category, I always was under the impression he was sleeping his way to good grades. I just sit and gawk at him like he grew another head, him being a doctor was so odd of a concept.

I opened my mouth, "If you dedicate yourself to it, I know you can do it and you have a great support system around you. It is going to take time and some lack of sleep but if we chose to go to farm life, we will have the solitude we desire. My thing is I want it more seclusion with large trees bordering the entire property, which Layla and I can do without issue," he smiled since for now, I was on board with his plan.

He just gets into my bed, "We can turn it into a secluded village like in Austria," he was joking but when he saw me smile it changed his thoughts. It had acres and acres; homes could be placed far apart giving our friends space too. "I will think about it," was grumbled from his stern mouth. He has changed not just his looks his traits and personally have shifted but deep down with his memories now restored he was so mixed.

I just fall into the blackness of sleep thinking of a life we could have after Kai was gone.