Author Note: Wasn't planning on posting another chapter today but this one came to me quickly. I'll will be posting chapters as the come to me. There may be a day or two between chapters but that all depends on my muse. I'm really glad that you guys are loving this story. Your reviews are keeping me going. So thank! Enjoy this next chapter.

Chapter 5 Fallout

It had a been a crazy day in the ED and Will wanted nothing more than to head home but he knew that Jay was still hear waiting on word about Voight. He heard through the grape vine that the Voight was out of surgery and the next 24 hrs. would determine if he lived. Deciding to see how his brother was doing before he left, Will heads up to the waiting area to check on him before he leaves. When he enter the waiting area the first thing he noticed was that you could cut the tension in the room with a knife. Will couldn't understand what was going he looked around the room at everyone had a look of shock and confusion and Erin looked like her heart had been ripped out. The next thing he noticed was little his brother kneeling in front of a little girl.

So, Will decided that he would ask the obvious question. "What's going on?"

No one answered. He was getting ready to say something else. When the little girl sudden turned toward her mother and announced, "Mommy I have to go to the bathroom."

Erin was knocked out of her fog by the sound of her daughters voice but before she could answer. Kim spoke, "I'll take her. I think that you two need to talk."

"Thanks Kim," Erin replies in a little voice.

Jay stands but doesn't let go of Nadia's hand.

"Hey sweet pea. Do you think you can let my friend Kim take to the bathroom? I need to talk to Jay for a minute." Erin asks in her small raspy voice.

"Okay mommy." The little girl turns and let go of Jay's hand.

Kim takes the her hand and the two begin to walk away. Nadia turns to way at Jay before she leaves the room with Kim. Jay returns the wave with a small smile on his face.

As soon as Kim and the little girl are out of ear shot Erin tries to explain, "Jay" she whispers with tears in her eyes as she moves toward.

He puts his hand up to stop her movements, "Don't" he says with anger in his voice. He takes a breathe. "I have a daughter." He says in a broken voice.

"Yes" she says in a small voice.

"Where you ever going to tell me?" He yells.

Will places a hand on his brother's shoulder, "Jay man you calm down."

"Shut up" He yells as he turns to his brother.

"I was going to…."

"You know what I can't do this with you right now." He yells. "I can't be here." He pushes passed Will trying get has far away as Erin has possible.

"This is not how this was supposed to happen," she says to know one in particular.

No says anything. Hailey makes a move to go after Jay but Will stops her, "I'll talk to him."

Hailey is about to object but Will speaks before she can, "He's my brother let me go. I'll come and find you if needs you." Hailey nods her head in agreement and Will turns to go after his brother.

Hailey turns toward Erin getting ready to give her a piece of her mind but she is interrupted the sound of little feet coming.

"Mommy. Me and Kim are back"

Erin wipes the tears from before she turns toward her daughter. "Why you sad mommy?" The little girl questions.

"I'm not sad sweet pea. Mommy just missed you."

"I wasn't gone that long," Nadia replies with a dramatic tone.

"I know but mommy misses you anytime that your gone." The little hugs her mother.

"It's ok I'm back now." She lets go of her mother and looks around the room, "Where's Jay."

Erin sighs and says, "He had to go home, Nadia."

"But I didn't get to say goodbye." She in a quiet voice. Erin doesn't know what to say to her daughter.

"I'm sure you'll see him again sweetheart," Kim replies. Nadia nods her. She decides to go back over to her coloring books.

The tension is still high in the room. Al decides it's time for everyone to go home, "There's nothing more that can be done tonight. Why doesn't everyone head home."

Everyone nods there head in agreement. They say there goodbyes and head home. Kim is the last one in the unit to leave besides Al who is staying with Erin until she sees Voight. Kim approaches Erin, "I know we haven't talk in a long time but If you need me let me know."

"Thanks Kim that means a lot to me. There's just a lot going on right now and I need to focus on Voight. I'll handle everything else once I know he is okay."

"Okay but if you need someone to talk to or just listen just know that you don't have to do this all by yourself," she says as she gives Erin a hug.

"I've really missed you Kim and I think I'll take you up on that offer soon."

Kim gives Erin a smile, she turns to the little girl who is focus on her coloring and says "Bye Nadia."

Nadia gets up from where she is coloring and comes up to Kim and gives her a hug, "Bye Kim"

"Bye-bye sweetheart. I'll see you tomorrow." Kim says as she leaves.

Nadia looks up at her mother and says, "Mommy I'm tired."

"I know sweet pea. Why don't you go lay down on that couch over there and I'll rub your back until you fall asleep."

Nadia nods her head and does as her mother says and lays down on the couch. Erin sits next to her and rubs her back as she falls asleep.

Will looks up and down the hallway for his brother. Finally he hears a, "Damn it" and the sound a hand hitting the wall. As he rounds the corner where his brother is he sees several nurses eyeing him. "Jay you gotta calm down!"

He pulls his brother down the hallway into a empty room. As jay enters the room he leans up against the wall. He tilts his head back against the wall and closes his eyes trying to control his breathing.

"Why didn't she tell me?" He finally says in a broken voice.

"I don't know."

"I would have been there for them. I would have step up." He says as he looks ay Will..

"I know you would have Jay."

"I'm not him." He says quietly. Will knows Jay is referring to their father. "I would have been there for my kid." He whispers.

"I know." Will pauses before he continues, "I can't tell you why she didn't tell you about the kid. The only way that you are going to answers your looking for is if you talk to Erin."

Jay looks at his brother and says, "I know"

"But now is not the time. You angry and rightfully. But she is also dealing with a lot. Her concern right now is Voight and a confrontation with you right now isn't going to help matters."

Jay nods his head in agreement. Will slaps him on the shoulder and says, "So, how about we get out of here and go get a drink?"

"I could use a drink right now."

"Alright then let's get out of here." The two head toward the door to leave and as they do Will says, "Congrats on being a dad."

Jay shots him a look and says, "You're an ass."

"Yea, but you love me."

Jay shakes his head and lets out a small laugh as he follows his brother out of the room.

Dr. Rhodes returns to the waiting area to let them know that Voight is in his room and they could see him now, "Since it's only the two of you both can go in and see him."

Erin looks to Al to see if he wants to go first. He shakes his head and says, "You go I'll keep an eye out on the kid."

"Thank you," She says as she stands and hugs Al.

"It's going to okay, kid."

She nods her head and takes on last look at her sleeping daughter before she follows Connor to the private room where Voight is. Connor opens the door to the room to let Erin in. She takes a deep breathe preparing herself for what she is about to see and enters the room.

Tears spring to Erin's eyes as she lays eyes on Voight for the first time in three years. This is not how it was supposed to be. Voight was supposed to meet them at the airport in a few weeks. She shouldn't be here watching him breathing through a tube. The only times that she has ever seen Voight vulnerable was when Camille died and then when they found Justin in the truck of his car. But even in those times he remained strong for those around him. Looking at him now with a tube coming out of his mouth she never seen him look so weak and vulnerable. Now it was her turn to be strong for him.

"I'll give you a couple of minutes alone," He says as he quietly when she doesn't acknowledge him, he turns and leaves the room.

Erin makes her way toward the only man she known as a father. She carefully touches his hand and a sob escapes her mouth. She looks around embarrassed at being caught so vulnerable in state front of someone but Connor isn't in the room anymore. She's not sure when he left but she is grateful he didn't witness her breaking down. She looks around for a chair to pull closer to the bed and sits.

"I really made a mess of things Hank." She lets out a breathe. "And I don't know if I can fix it. So I need you to wake up and tell me what to do." She cries.

"Jay found out about Nadia" She pauses like she was waiting for a reply, "You're probably wondering how that happened." She laughs, "She remembered Jay from the pictures in her room and then preceded to tell him her full name."

Erin lets out a humorless laugh, "You know I was so proud when she learned her full name at school but in that moment Hank I wished she didn't know it."

"This is not how I wanted him to find out. The plan was to tell him when we moved back. But no you had to go and get shot and through a wrench in everything," she says as stares at the hand she is holding. She looks up at his face and says, "So technically this is all your fault," she says a she lets out a bitter laugh.

Then sound of the ventilator fills the room and the monitors beeping fill the room. "I'm sorry. It's not your fault its mine. I'm the one who lied. I should have told him sooner but I just kept putting it off and now he's mad at me," she takes a breathe and continues, "As she should be. I deserved it. But I need you dad. Please wake up."

Erin stares at him for the longest time willing him to open his eyes. When he doesn't she stands up and gives him a kiss on his head and heads toward the door. She turns back before she leaves and says. "I love you dad."

She makes her way back to the waiting area and notices that her daughter is still asleep. Al looks up at the sound of footsteps.

"Hey, you should go and see him."

"I will but let me take the two the hotel so you can get some rest."

"Actually umm…I can you take me to Hank's."

"Yeah"

"Thanks." She says as she picks up Nadia from the couch. The little girl doesn't even flinch as moved to her mother's arm. They head down to Al's car. The drive from Chicago Med to Hank's doesn't take long. Al helps Erin into the house. Erin heads upstairs and takes Nadia up to her old room. She places the little girl on the bed and heads back down stairs.

"Thank you Al"

"No problem kid. I'm going to head back to the hospital. Try and get some rest. I'll let you know if anything changes in his condition. " He gives her one last hug and then he leaves.

Erin sits down on the couch in Hank's living room. She turns on the TV to help get her mind off of everything her eyes sudden get heavy and she decides to lay down on the couch. Sleep quickly over takes her.

Author Note: I love the budding friendship between Erin and Kim on the show before Sophia left. I added a little bit of it in this chapter and there will be more of this friendship in the coming chapters. I think it's important for Erin to have someone to lean on.

Next chapter will focus on Erin and what her life has been like since she left Chicago. I want to give a little insight into Erin's decision and what was going on in her mind when she found out she was pregnant. Jay and Erin will have confrontation about the fact that she kept his child from will come a couple of chapters from now. They have a lot to hash out.

Reviews are welcomed.