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My Greatest Weakness

It was ironic.

Ever since I was little I've been close to Emma.

She, along with Ray, is my best friend but as the years went by my feelings changed.

I fell in love with her.

I fell in love with Emma, who is the sweetest, kindest person with the most caring heart there is.

I always thought to myself how I would do anything for her and I was fine with that.

Then on the night Conny was supposed to be "adopted" she forgot her stuffed toy, Little Bunny.

Emma was wanted to go bring it to her and I just wanted to help Emma so I went along.

We did not get to hand it over.

Instead we found Conny. Dead.

In an instant our happy innocent world was shattered as we learned the truth of our lives.

Of us being mere cattle to demons.

I can still hear Emma's cries.

Most people would cry because they were scared of dying but not Emma.

Emma cried because she was scared for the others dying because that was just who Emma was.

She cared more about others than herself.

I knew it wouldn't be easier but I promised her we could escape together.

Emma wasn't satisfied with just us and Ray escaping, she didn't want to leave anyone else either.

It would be even harder but I agreed, because I didn't want Emma to cry.

We ended up telling Ray who wanted to leave everyone else.

I don't blame him, I never have.

It was the most logical choice after all, to travel with a few as possible but Emma refused that.

Then we ended up telling Don and Gilda and three became five to pull everything off.

We all worked together to escape but in the end fate was cruel.

Mama, no, Isabella had been a step ahead of us all the time and caught us, breaking Emma's leg in the progress and setting my shipping.

Emma and Ray made a plan for me to escape by myself first and wait for them but I couldn't go through with, knowing what might happen.

Security could get tighter and they couldn't escape or even worse, both of them could possibly get shipped out right away as well, just like me.

Ever since finding out the truth I've been having nightmares of that happening.

Of Ray dying, of the others dying and of Emma dying.

I couldn't let that happen so I chose to let myself die.

I made a new plan that allowed them to escape with everyone else and returned to the house.

Now I was going to die.

I wonder how things would have been if I cared less about what Emma.

Maybe I wouldn't have helped her in trying to deliver Little Bunny and been able to live on oblivious, thinking we'd get adopted but we could keep in contact with each other.

Maybe I would have actually agreed with Ray and lied to her so only the three of us could have escaped.

Maybe I would have tried more my best to escape just now.

Instead I kept Emma and her feelings and fate in mind and that brought me here.

On my way to get shipped out and die by the hand of demons.

My love for Emma was my greatest strength in many ways.

However, it is also my greatest weakness.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Thanks for reading! This has been the third fic for NoremmaMonth2020, "Day 3: Weakness"! I hope you liked it! Please review, fav and read my other work too!