Hey

I've got nothing to say for myself

Happiness.

What is happiness?

Cas had that question in his mind ever since he first came on earth and now, after so long he got his answer, sure this isn't the first time he felt it, but this was surely his last, they found a way to kill chuck once and for all and save the world one last time. They were celebrating and he started to feel the slightly familiar pleasant sensations in body. These sensations are a reaction to various biochemical substances like serotonin running around in your blood and the flurry of electrical signals firing in your complex brain biology, he had read about it out of his curiosity, but this was anything but good, Sam and Dean still didn't know about this and he didn't want to destroy this happy atmosphere which was a rare occurrence in the Winchester household, so he bit his tounge, but it was too late, being the sharp hunters they were, they noticed the change in his behaviour, Jack did too and he also knew why exactly did this happen

"Cas?"

"ya okay there buddy? Maybe you drank too much"

"I am an angel Dean, I cannot get drunk"

"ppuuftt says you, I still remember when you drank everything in the whole store" Sam said smiling at the memory when Cas came stumbling in drunk as fuck

Dean still kinda looked at him skeptically, but let it go, Jack didn't he had that look which said 'it's either you telling them or I am'

To which Cas shot back a sharp look which screamed no

Dean observed the silent conversation going on from one end of the table to the other and he knew Sam did too

"Okay" Dean was resting one hand on the table and leaning front so he could look into Cas's eye which was on the bottle in his hand

"what's going on, you both are acting strange"

Oh boy

He had to tell them, he knew that he only had tomorrow

Jack beat him to it and oh man he sugar coated it amazingly two pairs of eyes shot in his direction immediately filled with denial and silently begging to be told that this is just some evil joke

Sam reacted first, he abruptly stood up and ran his hands through his hair

"No, nononono"

"Sam-"

"No, dammit Cas, I... I'll find som... Something" he said now pacing around while Dean's eyes just filled as the gravity of the situation registered in his brain

"Like t... there has to b.. be something... Dammit... Wh.. Why didn't you tell us earlier... I wo.. would have to time to search for something-"

Whatever he was about to say next was stopped by Dean words, his voice raw as he whispered the one question that shattered all four hearts

" Cas, Y... You were ne.. never happy? "

Yes I just wrote that

Okay well maybe I didn't cry exactly but the lone tear made an appearance, not even close to Jensen's talent mind you

Anyway

I'm gonna go now

Cry in bed all day, cause spns ending and I'm not ready but also really anxious to see it

If that makes sense

Thanks for reading

-S