Moresome: Slice of Life
They Love Him
Remus rarely remembers how he gets from the hospital wing back to his dorm. All he knows is that James is the one to go there and bring him upstairs, getting him into bed. It's the way James tucks the covers around him, peppering little kisses over his face, his jaw, his hair, that makes Remus aware of just how much James loves him.
Before, he used to stay in the hospital wing for an extra day. But now he would sit in bed, his friends entertaining him and stopping him feeling like he's all alone.
And James would be at his side, holding his hand or stroking his hair.
Remus barely remembers the full moon. It's the memories of shifting to the wolf and shifting back that linger in his mind. He can barely stay conscious afterwards. But Sirius is there, a wet cloth in his hand as he cleans the blood from Remus' body, gently dries him and fixes the blanket around him, so that Remus doesn't feel so exposed. It's how he knows Sirius loves him.
When he's in bed, recovering, Sirius' fingers will search his body for wounds that Madam Pomfrey may have missed. They both know that when Sirius first started doing it, that had been the real reason.
But for months now, it hadn't. Ever since lips had begun to follow the trail of Sirius' hands, searching every inch of his body.
Remus always remembers the days leading up to the full moon. He can't stay calm. He can't control himself. Sometimes he just wants to be tied up like the monster he is.
James likes to take charge, but they never tie him up when he begs like that. Sirius is always the one eager to feel the ropes against his skin. Remus can spend hours enjoying him whilst James watches, never looking away.
After the full moon, Remus doesn't need to beg. He doesn't feel like a monster anymore so the two men that matter above anyone else see no harm in winding the ropes around his arms and the bedframe.
But Remus knows that he can break free if he really tried. He allows them complete control, hoping they understand that he'd never give that to anyone but them. It's how he shows them he loves them.
Remus never feels like a monster, because James and Sirius would never crawl into his bed if he really was one. They'd never love a monster.
They love him though.
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