Shout out to Jelecia for requesting this story. I hope I wrote this too your liking. I also shedded a couple of tears writing this. SN. I started back going to college this week, but I am still going to do my best to update and write frequently. I want you all to know that I sincerely enjoy everyone's comments. They honestly make my day. I try to respond to all of my messages on Fanfic, but sometimes it lags. If you want to message me. You could Dm on Instagram at @ _twinjay_ I am up there all the time so I can see your request and anything else.
"Will, 4, you 7, marry 12 , me 14." Ben said out of frustration. Miranda could be infuriating sometimes but he wouldn't trade it for anything in the world and as hard headed, stubborn, and bossy as she was, he still wanted to marry and spend the rest of his life with her.
Miranda looked down at the paper and read the line of the cross word filling in the blocks mentally. She felt the tears weld up in her eyes. This whole time he was trying to propose to her. She felt idiotic for ignoring him and being all about what she wanted today.
She didn't say anything about the proposal. She figured he wanted to do it in Private like he was trying to all day.
After the surgery was over Miranda changed into her clothes to go home and she went to find Ben. He didn't say much to her and he was very short with her. She really felt guilty but she knew that she wanted to marry him. She wanted to be with him forever. She loved him more than anything.
While they were in the car and the music played quietly. Miranda was thinking of a way to make it up to him. She thought back to this morning. "You were supposed to be naked." Played through her mind and she smiled. If he would have had the chance to propose this morning while she was in bed. They would have spent their day off reaching new heights in their sex life but they still had all night.
Ben unlocked the door to their apartment and Miranda walked in in front of him. She started to say something but then looked over at him as his phone rung.
Miranda walked to their bed room and she tried to hurry up as he was on the phone.
She took her clothes off and changed into her black lace thong set. It was in the back of her drawer. She had bought it one girls night. They all walked through the mall and stumbled into a sex store. It wasn't something she would buy but she let Arizona and Callie talk her into it. She was going to surprise Ben with it eventually, but she figure tonight was the night.
She put lotion on and slid into her heels before walking over to the mirror, pulling her hair up.
She fished in her closet for her trench coat and put it on buttoning it up. Hopefully he wasn't so mad and would take delight in her surprised. She wanted him to propose to her once more and this time they would get a sexy ending that would erase the very first one.
After she was sure he was off the phone she walked out of their bedroom and stood by the hall way.
"Propose to me again." Miranda said trying to put on her sexy face.
Ben looked over at her and said "baby you should sit down."
So he is still mad Miranda thought. He couldn't be upset with her after this. "Propose to me again." Miranda said slowly taking a step unbuttoning each button to her coat as she went along, revealing her sexy attire.
She watched as Ben's eyes got wide looking at her body in skimpy lace.
"Baby I would love nothing more than that but I'm telling you, you-
Miranda scuffed. "Oh for the love of God man, I'm sorry I messed up your proposal but I'm wearing a thong." She said as Ben looked down at it. She did look absolutely good, delicious even. "And this is as sorry as I get , come on asked me to marry you." Miranda whined.
"Look there was the shooting and then we broke up and I wanted to get out of here to do something different… I just didn't think it would actually happen." Ben said rambling with a slight smile. Miranda had her hands on her hips confused as to what the hell he was talking about.
"I got the call that I was accepted as a surgical intern at UCLA. An intern Miranda, 48 hour shifts, working 7 days a week. " Ben said as Miranda's gasped closing her coat and sitting down beside him.
"Ben I – I mean, not that it's about me but why are you just now telling me this…. I didn't even know you were interested in surgery or that you wanted to-" Miranda said trying to find the words to her feelings. She didn't want to make something that was supposed to be happy turn sour.
" you have no choice but to go Ben. It's a wonderful opportunity." Miranda said touching his arm before getting up to go into their bedroom.
She turned on the shower and waited for it to heat up before hopping in. She almost wanted to cry but that would be childish of her. She really was in love with this man. She looked forward to coming home and laying in bed with him cuddled up. Together they were honestly a lazy couple. They never really went anywhere other than out to eat but she loved that. She spent mostly all her time with him and they also did extra curricular activities with Tuck. She didn't want him to go, she wanted him to be here with her. She grew so close to him and she couldn't see her life with out him.
After her shower. She threw on a night gown and climbed into bed next to Ben. His back was turned the opposite of her but she knew he wasn't a sleep. Ben shifted in the bed and turned towards her back. Wrapping his arms around her and putting his face in the crook of her neck. He reached for her hand and laced his fingers with hers. "I still want you to marry me Miranda, I know that this is sprung on you but I really didn't expect this to happen. I love you and we can work through this." Ben said and Miranda stayed silent. "Can we talk about it tomorrow." Miranda said blowing out a breath of frustration.
The next morning Miranda got up putting on jeans and one of the hospital's shirt. "Get up Ben. So we won't be late." Miranda said walking out to go make them some coffee. They were silent in the car until Ben finally broke the ice. "Miranda can we talk about it now."
"What is there to talk about. You are leaving me for four years and you already made that decision without even mentioning it to me." Miranda scuffed, thinking about it more was putting her attitude on one thousand.
She got out of the car and they walked together. Ben tried to convince Miranda the whole time they were walking about getting married and having a commuter relationship.
He followed her to the pit. "Miranda It's a thing. People are together but they live apart. Live apartners. It's common enough to have a name.
"Syphilis is common enough to have a name. Doesn't mean I want it." Miranda said putting her gloved on preparing for the rig.
"Who doesn't want what?" Callie asked.
"Somebody.." Miranda said knodding her head towards Ben. "got them selves a surgical internship in Los Angeles."
"I'm branching out." Ben said
" congratulations." Torres said smiling. Miranda gave her a stern look. "Or not."
"It wouldn't be the first commuter marriage on the planet." Ben said close by her ear.
Callie gasped before saying "you're getting married. Oh that's fantastic" Miranda once again gave her the look.
"Okay you should probably Leave while you can."
"I'm going because my love is strong enough to handle the space." Ben said to her before walking away.
Callie gave her the run down on how she missed Arizona and Miranda thanked God as the rig pulled up.
Miranda sat in surgery and listen to Teddy talk to Owen about Henry dying and why she wouldn't leave Owen because of her loyalty. She listened as they talked and she thought about Ben. He was supposed to be loyal to her. She wasn't mad at him for choosing the job because she would have jumped at the chance to go but where was the respect, courtesy and loyalty she was owed. They were sharing their lives together and he owed her that much just as she did him.
After her surgery. She went to go find Ben. She looked on the o.r board and saw that he should be finishing up with his.
"You don't get to make decisions on your own with out a heads up anymore. You don't say uh oh maybe I'll apply to be an intern. I'll bring it up with Miranda if anything comes of it but for now it's my little secret between me and me. That's not your life anymore. When you are sharing your life with a person you talk to them , you think with them, you make decisions with them, you are loyal to them. You are not a free agent anymore do you understand me" Miranda lectured.
"Does this mean we are still getting married." Ben asked smiling with his arms crossed.
Miranda showed a confused expression she never told him no. In fact she told him to ask her again . What did he think.
" What- I propose to you! Wearing a trench coat and a thong. Proving once again that no good ever comes from a thong. But here I am proposing again. What? You want a sky writer." Miranda yelled.
"Oh it was clear with the coat and the thong." Ben smirk standing in front of her.
" you know what. You put a piece of string in your tale and see if you want to do it twice."
"You know this might be the most romantic conversation of my life Ben said peering down at her.
"Well I'm not proposing romance mister. I am proposing marriage and if you are not prepared." Ben cut her off by placing his lips on hers capturing her in a kiss. Miranda exhaled against his lips and sighed. She put her hands on his shoulders before placing them on the sides of his face. She loved this man so much.
Ben smiled down at her and slid his hands down her body resting them on her lower back.
"You love me don't you." He asked already knowing the answer.
"I am very angry with you." Miranda said trying to put on her angry voice.
" your so pissed you are going to marry me just to spite me." Ben played along with her.
" Yes Exactly." Miranda said leaning up on her toes to meet his lips. Throwing her arms around his neck.
"Telling me it's going to be okay" she said after there kiss.
"It's going to wonderful." Ben assured her pecking her lips and kissing her on the forehead as he held her.
"Come on let's get changed so we can go home." Ben said smiling.
"Why are you in such a rush?" Miranda asked knowing the answer with a slight smile.
"I want to have celebration sex with my fiance." Ben replied smacking her on the butt.
Miranda yelp smiling. "Please tell me you gonna put on your thong. I didn't even get to enjoy it." Ben groaned as they walked down the hallway whispering.
"I might have another." Miranda whispered back licking her lips.
"Now we are talking."
"Ben where is my ring. How do you propose to someone with out the ring. 3 times. You suck a proposals."
"You suck at being propose to and off course I have the ring. It's at home. You are going to love it. I got it custom made. "
"Oh you are fancy huh."
"Only when it comes to you baby." Ben said chuckling.
Ben ordered take out and picked it up on the way home. Miranda and Ben ate and talked like normal. "I'm going to go take a shower." Miranda said as Ben nodded his head.
After her shower Miranda put on burgundy lace trim side tie pull away thong and bra set. She forgot she even owned this one. Addison sent this as a gift in the mail to celebrate her divorce with Tucker. She looked at herself in the mirror, she felt like a Christmas present in May. She hummed softly as she put lotion on. She put on her black silk robe tying it up. She pulled her hair up once again leaving the heels off this time. She walked out into the living room. "Okay Benjamin Warren for the last time. Propose to me again." Miranda said biting her lip.
Ben looked up at her and smiled. He walked over to her and pulled her into him. Wrapping his arms around her short frame. He leaned down to kiss her lips. Miranda opened her mouth to let his tongue explore her. She moaned against his mouth as they broke apart. He grabbed her hand and pulled her into their bedroom, sitting her on the bed. Ben walked over to their closet and Miranda undid her robe taking it off and throwing it on the floor. She laid back on the bed, just as Ben came into the room.
Ben almost dropped the engagement ring box on the floor at the sight of her on the bed laid out like a spread. He was convinced that there was a drug name Miranda and he was her addict.
"If you were a drug Miranda. There would be no sober vein on my body." Ben confessed as Miranda sat up on her elbows.
" If love is a drug Ben, then I would be high on you forever." Miranda replied.
Ben extended his hand for her to take and she did. He pulled her up off the bed. To stand in front of her. Ben kissed down her body as he went to get on one knee.
"When I first me you, the fiercest, feisty, intelligent Doctor Miranda Bailey. I became intrigued. We only talked during surgery but I found myself afterwards not being able to get you off my mind and as those days went on, I thought why would I even try. After our first date falling in love with you was out of my control. As soon as you walked into my life, I understood why it never worked out with anyone else. I love you and I'll love you until I die and when life starts after that I'll love you then too. " Ben opened the case revealing her ring.
"Miranda Bailey, will you –"
"Yes I'll marry you." Miranda squealed for joy as happy tears slid down her face. She kissed him and hugged him before allowing him to take the ring out of the box. Ben slid it on her finger and Miranda had to refrain from jumping up and down. She looked down a the princess cut 3 diamond infinity white gold ring. She knew that it cost a fortune. Well over ten grand. "Ben this is beautiful. I love it so much." She said staring down at her hand.
Miranda let out a small scream as Ben lifted her up by her thighs and tossed her on the bed.
"How long have you had this." Ben asked gesturing to her thong set.
"I got it as a gift. From one of my friends. Almost two years ago." Miranda spoke.
Ben smiled before kissing her lips then down to her neck. He pulled the bow on her bra until it fell away before sliding it off of her. He watched as her nipples harden from the cold air. He loved to look into her eyes. Her eyes changed from lust, to urgency, to passion. She bit her lip in anticipation. Waiting and longing for him to put his mouth on her breast.
Ben put kisses all around her breast and Miranda let out a moan as he licked across her nipple before moving to the other one.
Ben kissed down her stomach before stopping at her thong. He stared at her before licking his lips. He didn't want to take it off her. He wanted to enjoy his fiancé wearing this thong.
He saw Miranda's eyes switch to urgency. "Ben can we skip the foreplay because I want you really bad." Miranda asked in between breaths. Ben raised an eyebrow because this was the first time she's ever asked anything while they were about to have sex. She normally shouted orders and demanded everything, he loved it nonetheless.
"I want to enjoy…This thong." Ben said looking up at her before looking back at it. Licking his lips.
Miranda sat up on the bed. "Take your clothes off." She said as Ben got off the bed to do so. He watched as Miranda moved in to a face down ass up position and Ben didn't think he could be anymore aroused and she always proved him wrong. "Now enjoy this thong and please take me." Miranda said. Ben licked his lips and nodded his head. He crawled on the bed and got on his knees behind her, sliding her thong to the side. "Your arch is impeccable." Ben groaned as he slid into her. He watched as Miranda grabbed a fist full of their sheets as he listened to her moan out. Ben put his hands on the side of her hips wrapping his fingers in the band her panties as he gripped the sides using that to move her on him.
"Jesus." Miranda moaned. "This is so deep Ben."
Ben moved her body back and forth faster, her moans and pants were encouraging him. "Fuck." Ben groaned as he felt her grip him as her body shook. Miranda pulsated around him. She felt Ben slid out of her and turn her so she was laying on her back. She stared up at him with lazy eyes as he finally tugged on the bows of her panties so they fell away and off. He put his hands under her thigh to lift her up as he slid into her once again. This time he spared no mercy as he pounded into her. Miranda reached out and put her hands on his arms.
Ben stared down at Miranda, every time he pulled out and pushed all the way back in, he was rewarded with a sexy animalistic moan. He continued this motion. "Ben." Miranda moaned out. Ben smiled looking down at her. He loved when his name left her full lips. "God. Ben I can't -I can't last much longer. I-"
"It's okay I'm close too." Ben said as he picked up speed and moved in a circular motion.
Ben kissed her lips passionately and sucked on her bottomed lip. This was Miranda's undoing as she moaned out at a high pitch sound. She grabbed the sides of Ben's face to look him in the eyes. Watching Miranda climax brought Ben to his own. "I love you Miranda." Ben moaned and grunted out as he came.
Ben was about to move from on top of her. "No, stay like this. It's okay, you can put all your weight on top of me." Miranda said as she put her hands around his back sliding them up and down as Ben laid on top of her, still inside.
"Benjamin Warren that was amazing. If this is how it felt because we got engaged. I'm oh so excited for our wedding." Miranda said as Ben chuckled.
"Miranda we always have good sex. Mind-blowing every single time. We are not lazy when it comes to that. We work hard at it like it's our job."
Ben smirked before saying "I mean it is one of my specialties."
Miranda laughed obnoxiously. "Yeah I wouldn't be surprised if you told me that you took classes and was certified." Miranda yawned.
"you can move off, if you want too." Miranda said
"I'm good right here. Ben said laying his head on top of her breast.
"My big baby." Miranda laughed.
"Yeah I'll be that. Shit this is better than pillows."
Miranda hit him on his arm, laughing. "shut up. Goodnight Ben."
A month pass and Miranda heard her pager go off but she rolled over and snuggled under Ben Ignoring it. "Miranda. Your pager." Ben mumbled.
"I don't want to go. I want to see you off at the airport." Miranda pouted. "I know but they wouldn't be paging you at home if it wasn't important." Ben said rubbing the side of her thigh.
Miranda clicked her teeth, sitting up.
She went and got change before, coming back into their room to see Ben still lying In bed. "Miranda I will come see you before I leave." Ben said.
"What if I am in surgery." Miranda asked.
"Let's just pray you are not, if not I will come to the gallery at least."
Miranda walked over to him and leaned down to kiss him. Ben grabbed her hand pulling her down on top the bed. Landing on top of him. She smiled as he placed his hands on her butt. "I love you." Ben said kissing her passionately
"I love you too." Miranda replied.
She sat up and left, driving to work.
Ben stopped at the hospital to see Miranda before he went to go catch his flight. He walked to the o.r board and saw she was still in surgery. He walked to the gallery and saw Richard and a couple of other doctors watching Miranda do a cholecystectomy. Ben walked over to the intercom. Pressing the button. "Miranda. I was just telling you that I was leaving and I will call you when I land."
Miranda looked up at the gallery. She was angry that she was in surgery, she wanted to hug and kiss him. She could feel the tears start to cloud her eyes. Only this man could bring these stressful and emotional emotions out of her.
"Bennn. I'll miss you and I love you. Be safe and call me tonight or I'll call you or depending on your schedule. Just text me and let me know. I want to hear everything and the apartment. I –
"I will." Ben said sadly.
She tried to blink back the tears. She didn't want anyone to see her cry. It was so unprofessional for these doctors and nurses to watch.
"Miranda come out here. I'll finish the surgery. " Richard said standing up.
Miranda looked up at Richard nodding her head. She snatched her gown and gloves off. Power walking to the gallery. Ben waited in there for her as she charged through the door. "Slow down" Ben said as she walked in and laid her head on him, putting her face into his chest.
"I'm going to miss you." Miranda choked out.
Ben looked as all the other doctors left the room, giving them privacy.
"Me too." Ben said kissing the top of her head. Wrapping his arms around her body to embrace her.
She looked up at him and Ben wiped the tears out of her face. Before leaning down to kiss her. Miranda captured his lips in a forceful passionate needy kiss. "Ben I am developing an ache in my heart and a ache between my legs that I want you to take care of." Miranda said looking back and forth in his eyes.
"Uh Bailey turn the intercom off." Richard said awkwardly.
"Sorry." Ben and Miranda said at the same time.
"Walk with me." Ben said grabbing her hand. She intertwined hers with his as they walked to the front door of the hospital.
Miranda and Ben stopped at the door.
"Okay, so I guess this is it. Until you are able to get a break or a day off. " Miranda said rubbing his arm.
"Alright I'll see you later." Ben said hugging and kissing her once more.
"I love you." Miranda called out
"I love you too." Ben said as he walked to his cab.
Miranda watched as the cab drove away.
A couple months has passed. Miranda got home and stretched out a cross her bed. She pulled out her phone. Hitting face time. Hoping Ben would answer. "Hey baby." Miranda said looking at his face appear on the screen.
"Hey Miranda." Ben replied giving her his million dollar smile.
"I'm sorry I missed your call and then you missed mine. We have been playing phone tag all month. " I know I'm sorry. I just was busy and my schedule is crazy and I know that you are busy with surgery and with Tuck." Ben said.
She could still see him in his scrubs. He was laid on the bed in the on call room.
"Yeah." It will get better Miranda said.
"How is Tuck anyway."
"He is good he just-" Miranda paused hearing his pager go off.
"Dam it." Ben cursed looking down at it before meet her eyes. "I'm sorry Miranda. I-"
"No hon it's okay, go I understand. I will talk to you another time. Have a good night." Miranda smiled.
"I love you" Ben spoke seriously.
"I love you too Ben." Miranda said with the same amount of seriousness.
She heard the call end as she put her phone on the dresser. She looked over at the selfie of him and her and his cross word marriage proposal framed and sitting on her night stand. She twisted her engagement ring and looked up at the ceiling before pulling the covers up over her shoulder and rolling over to fall asleep.
6months passed and Miranda looked down at her purse. Hearing her phone ring. She looked over at Callie as they walked through the mall together. She pulled it out of her purse. Smiling when she saw the name. "Ben." Miranda smiled. "Miranda." Ben responded smiling. He loved hearing the sound of her voice.
"Are you calling me because you are about to get on the plane. Because I took off to pick you up from the airport. I'm just hanging with Callie right now until you land." Miranda said excitedly. She was excited to see him after 9 months of him being gone.
"Miranda that what I was calling about " Ben said slowly and she could hear the sadness and hesitation in his voice. "What." Miranda said as her face fell.
"My Resident picked me to scrub in on a craniotomy to remove a deep brain tumor….I could pass it to someone else and-"
"Don't you dare do that…. I understand Ben." Miranda said slowly developing and attitude. She did her best to hide it from him because she didn't want to make him feel anymore bad than he did about choosing his job.
"It's okay Ben, there will be a next time. I was just uh looking forward to seeing you after 9 months." Miranda said breathing out to calm down.
"I know me too. I'm sorry." Ben said.
"No it's okay.. really. You should study some and then rest so you can be prepared. I love you. Call me tomorrow." Miranda said as silent tears fell out of her eyes, running down her face.
"I love you too and I will." Ben said before hanging up.
"Damn it." Miranda cursed before wiping her tears.
"He's not coming." Callie asked
"Nope. He is scrubbing on a stupid ass craniotomy." Miranda said with an attitude.
"Miranda you know if you were an intern you would have jumped at the chance." Callie's said trying to get her to see his side.
"I know it's just that I miss him like crazy. We barely get to talk on the phone and when we do it's for five minutes almost every two weeks. This is the second time he was supposed to be coming home and he didn't. I just want to see him and be around him and I want sex. I want good mind blowing sex all night." Miranda complained.
"Phone sex?" Callie suggested.
"We did that once. It was good. It did enough to get me off the edge. But we don't even have time for that." Miranda said wiping her tears.
"I'm sorry." Callie said hugging her.
"Me too." Miranda mumbled.
"Lets go to the sex store and get you some toys." Callie said pulling her along to the adult store.
"Callie I'm not into all that. I want the real deal, not no toy."
"Don't knock it until you try it. In fact, I'll treat you to one."
Miranda laughed loudly as they walked along.