Ben walked out of the hospital and he walked out to the street to catch a cab. He was just so angry. He felt humiliated, stupid and disappointed.
"Take me to the nearest hotel." Ben asked the cab driver.
He got out of the cab and went inside.
Ben looked down at his phone as it rung. He turned it on silent letting Miranda go to voicemail. He just couldn't understand. He tried to fathom why, but he couldn't find and explanation.
He got his room and went in the elevator. He walked into his room and sat down on the bed. Never in his whole life did he remember being so furious. He wanted to hit something.
Instead he decided to just try to lay down. It took him hours to go to sleep but eventually sleep found him.
Miranda walked out and in the lobby of the hospital she saw Ben's bags. She almost wanted to cry at the sight of them. He was so angry, he left them. She grabbed them and walked to her car. Miranda went home and tried to call Ben multiple times.
"Ben. I'm sorry. I did not mean it. I know you don't want to talk to me but please call me. If I could I would do anything to take it back. Just tell what to do and how to fix it. I want to make it right…I am not giving up on us." Miranda spoke, leaving a voice mail. She walked into their bedroom before climbing into bed praying to fall asleep.
The next morning Miranda got up and she had a short general meeting. She put on a skirt and a blouse before leaving the house.
Ben woke up and realized he left his bags at the hospital. He palmed his fore head. Before sitting up. He didn't even have his tooth brush. He looked at the time and he figured Miranda would be at work, so he would stop home shower, grabbed some clothes before leaving.
Ben left out of the hotel catching a cab. When he arrives at their apartment he went inside. He looked in the living room and looked at Tuck's toy dinosaur by the couch. He walked to their room opening the door. He looked around before turning the shower on. In normal circumstances he would be delighted to be home but this was just a never ending nightmare. Ben got into the shower. He showered, brushed his teeth and got dressed. He decided to pack another bag. He left out of the room just as the front door opened.
"Ben." Miranda said staring at him.
Ben didn't respond.
"You uh left your bags. They are in my car for you." Miranda said.
"Don't worry about it and I am just leaving." Ben said coldy.
"Wait where are you going." Miranda asked.
"Back to my hotel. To spend the day there before I go home."
"You shouldn't have to go to a hotel because of the mistake I made. Stay here. Tuck is with his dad and I can stay at Callie's." Miranda suggested
"No I'm-"
"Just stay I won't call or bother you. I know you don't want to hear or see me right now. But we need to talk." Miranda said with her back against the front door.
"I don't want to talk."
"Okay well I'll just talk and you listen. Please."
"I'm leaving." Ben said moving towards Miranda.
"Okay fine. I'm going. You can stay here. This is your house too and I promise I will not bother you or come back. Call me. When you are ready to talk." Miranda said opening up the door to leave. "I will bring your bags up, but I will leave them at the door."
Ben ignored her walking away to their bed room.
After he knew she was officially gone. Ben grabbed his car keys hanging by the front door. He pulled his bag in and he went outside. He drove to visit his brother while he was in town. "Hey" Ben said on the phone.
"Hey Benji how is everything." Curt asked.
"I have a lot going on. I'm in town and I wanted to visit." Ben said.
"Okay cool. I'm at home now. Come on over"
"I'll be there in ten." Ben said hanging up.
Ben pulled up in the drive way and he got out of the car. He had a pounding headache.
"Hey brother." Curt said opening up the door.
"Hey man." Ben said and he facial expressions showed how he felt.
"No offense but you look like shit" Curt said looking at Ben ushering him in.
"I have had the worse night of my life." Ben said upset.
"I'll get you a beer and then tell me what happened." Curt said walking to the kitchen.
"I came home to surprise Miranda because remember I told you I had to renege on coming home last month. I get there and Webber points me in the direction of where she is. I opened the door to find Miranda kissing some bald headed ass man." Ben said taking a swig of his beer.
"Kissing him, we're they in the middle of sex orrr…" Curt asked.
"No of course not." The thought almost made Ben sick.
"They were just kissing and her shirt was off. So they probably didn't get that far because of me." Ben said.
"Well do you love her still."
"Of course, I don't know how to stop that or turn it off. I saw her this morning and the thought ran pass my mind to hug her and kiss her. Instincts, I guess but then I was plagued with the nightmare of her lips on someone else.
"Do you think you can talk to her and work it out. In all of my life I have known you, she is the only one who has ever made you this happy." Curt suggested.
"I love her. I really do but it's just that my trust is ruined. I don't know if I could trust her again." Ben said finishing his beer.
"You know what they say. If you don't have trust.
"You don't have nothing." Ben finished his sentence.
"I'm sorry Ben." Curt said sadly.
"Me too"
Ben stayed at his brothers until the sun started to go down. He wasn't ready to go home, so he drove to the bar.
Ben walked inside and sat at the bar. "A jack and coke please ,and then hit me with double shot of whiskey and keep them coming." Ben said to the bartender.
"Wow sounds like you had a rough night." A women with a red dress said sitting down.
Ben laughed " yupe."
"Care to spill." She said
Ben looked over at her. She looked like a nice women, he looked down at her smooth brown skin legs. "It's okay to tell me." She said smiling.
"What's your name." Ben asked.
"Rachel, what yours."
"Ben. What are you drinking tonight."
"Uh I'll take a negroni" she said
"hey, the lady will have a negroni." Ben said to the bartender watching him nod his head.
Ben told Rachel what happened with Miranda and they also talked about her life.
"Hey you wanna get out here." Rachel asked running her hand up and down his arm.
Ben thought for a minute before saying "why not." He got up out of the chair and grabbed her hands as they walked to his car.
Ben kissed Rachel lips as she moaned. He kissed her neck and down her body. When you are sharing you life with a person you talk to them. Ben tried to shake his thoughts of Miranda out of his head he continued kissing down Rachel's body.
"You think with them, you make decisions with them." Ben wanted to smack himself to get her voice out of his head. Rachel grabbed his arm to turn them over and she slid on top of him placing her hands on his bare chest. Ben grabbed the sides of her hips as she leaned down to kiss him. "You are loyal to them." Miranda voice rang through his mind like a siren going off, repeating the words loyal over and over again. "I'm sorry I can't. Rachel." Ben said looking up at her.
"I can't do this."
"But your fiancé cheated on you. You broke up. I thought I could make you feel better." She said
"I am really sorry for leading you on. I thought I could do this but I can't. I don't think anything will make me feel better." Ben responded as she got off of him. She reached down and grabbed the articles of her clothing. Sliding her dress back on.
"You are a really nice guy. Call me if you let her go and you need someone." She said before leaving out of his bedroom door. Ben set up and put his feet on the floor before putting his face in his hands.
He looked over at his nightstand and grabbed her Engagement ring off of it. He played with the ring in his hand before throwing it as hard as he could against the wall yelling "Damn it Miranda"
Ben got back into bed once again before cutting the light off, attempting to fall asleep.
Ben packed his clothes to go back to LA. He was supposed to be off for a week and spend it in Seattle, but he couldn't stay here any longer than he had too. He couldn't stay in their apartment or sleep in their bed because it was too much. The apartment screamed Miranda.
Ben changed the sheets and covers on the bed, as angry and broken up he was about their ended relationship. He couldn't have her come to a bed that he had another women in.
He eventually had to talk with her. The apartment lease was up in a couple months which was supposed to be around the time they got married. They'd planned it this way so they could start looking for houses. Nevertheless, he needed to take his name off the lease when it was up and let her have the apartment.
He might even move to LA for good, versus coming back.