"Hey Miranda. The Chief from UCLA wants you to come back out there. I know it was only used to try to get Warren back but the interns really benefited from it and he wants you do residents this time."
"You want me to go back there. Do you get how heart breaking that was for me. He didn't want me. He walked away from me. I was humiliated. I'm doing better now and you are throwing me back in the lions den."
Miranda yelled frustrated. She couldn't lie though. She did wants to see Ben's face. It's been months now and Ben was a first year resident. Tuck even missed him so much.
"What's going on." Callie asked walking into the room.
"Oh great, send Callie or someone else." Miranda said.
"They want you Miranda. You whip those interns into shape." Richard's said.
"Uggh fine." Miranda gave in.
She packed her bag and got ready for her flight. After the flight Miranda got into the cab and directed them to take her to the hospital. She signed in and changed into her scrubs. Miranda put her bag into her locker. Walking out.
"Heyy it's Doctor Bailey." Sean said and Miranda turned around.
"Dr. Wright, if I remember correctly. Dr. Late guy." Miranda said trying to make sure.
"Yeah that would be me." Sean said laughing.
"I hope you've became punctual since the time I have been gone."
"I sure have. I won't make that mistake again. Have a nice day." Dr. Wright said to her as he walked down the hall way.
Miranda went to go buy her a drink and something to snack on.
In the cafeteria. She saw all the other attendings from the last time. "Hey Doctor Bailey come on over."
Miranda walked over to them.
"Hi." Miranda said sitting down.
Miranda conversed with them for a while. "did you have anything planned today." Dr. Hendrix asked.
" No I actually didn't. I'm a workaholic and I just didn't want to sit at my hotel." Miranda said eating her salad.
" You should scrub in with me. I have to respect a Malignant Angioma and I would like the company along with my star resident."
"Oh I appreciate you. Yes I would like that. "
"Okay it's in the next 30 minutes O.r. 3."
"Alright I will meet you there."
Miranda scrub in beside him as she hummed along to Aretha Franklin.
"Is that think?"
"Uh yeah, I sing it in my mind Every time I scrub. Twice. It equal up to the amount of time you are supposed to wash." Miranda explained.
"You are something else." Hendrix said walking in to get gowned. Miranda paused at the door when she saw Ben. It's been almost a half a year since she has seen him. She thought she was going to have get a new apartment but when she called the building owner. He told her that. His name was removed and hers was added. That's when she knew that they probably was never going to get back together.
Miranda looked into his eyes before looking away.
Ben looked at Miranda. Seeing her after months honestly deep down made him happy. "Dr. Warren." Was all Miranda said as she walked over to the patient.
" So doctor Bailey how you been since the last time I've seen you." Hendrix asked
"I've been taking everything one step at a time. Just me and my son." Miranda said looking over at him as he made the incision.
"Oh that's great I didn't know you had kids. How old is he."
"He is about to turn five. He really is the light of my life."
"Warren can you hold the retractor.? "
Miranda watched as Ben came beside her to do so.
"so Miranda are you single, engaged. Married or in a relationship."
"Actually I am single" She said and she could feel Ben's eyes on her, staring her down.
" okay great. Well if you don't have anything to do tonight. Would you like to go to dinner?" Hendrix asked.
She watched Ben's hand jerk. Shaking the retractor. "Steady Warren." Hendrix said.
"Um didn't you just get out of a relationship, an engagement. I thought."
Miranda gave Ben death stares. They haven't spoke in months and this is what he had to say. Only because someone was hitting on her. " Um yeah I did get out of an engagement. But I'm honestly done crying about it. It's time to move on." Miranda said looking at Ben seriously.
"So actually Ashton. I would love that." Miranda said.
After the surgery was finished.
Miranda took her gown off and walked out into the hallway.
"Dr. Bailey can I speak to you for a second." Ben said.
"I don't have time I have to go get ready." Miranda said turning around.
"I'm not asking this time." Ben said seriously.
Miranda looked at Ben angrily. Who did he think he was. If she didn't still love him and think that him being angry and demanding was sexy. She would have left, but She needed to let him think he was in control for once.
"what ?"
" Miranda why are you going out with him?" Ben asked.
"Why not."
"Don't you think it's premature."
"Benjamin Warren you got some nerve. I was reaching out to you for so long. I understand the way I did you was wrong. But the way you treated me was like I was a regular thirsty bitch off the street."
" Miranda what do you want me to say. I was hurt, angry, I felt dumb as hell."
" I understand that and I apologized. What else do you want me to say." Miranda yelled.
"I want you to tell me why." Ben yelled slamming his hand down.
"I don't know Ben. All I was trying to do was help him and he kissed me. I was caught off guard. I-
"You were caught off guard. But you had your shirt off. Are you crazy or am I. Why Miranda. Why would you do that to me."
"I just told you I don't know Ben. I don't know. It was stupid. It meant nothing to me. I feel guilty Ben, I felt guilty for months. I don't want to keep feeling like that. So, if you will excuse me. I'm leaving." Miranda said and Ben watched her pull on her fingers as she walked out the room.
Ben followed her down the hall way hot on her trail. She went into the attending's lounge. She grabbed her bag out of her locker and her purse. She took her medicine and then proceeded to change her clothes. Right as Ben walked in.
Miranda blew out a loud breath. "What?!" Miranda said covering her bra covered breast. She didn't even know why. He have seen her naked thousands of time.
Ben looked down at her medicine on the bench. He grabbed it and picked it up, reading it. "Clomipramine, Miranda what? When? When did you start taking it. "Why?"
"I killed 3 patients." Miranda said shrugging her shoulders.
"Huh."
"I have the staph infection. There were tiny wholes In the gloves because we used a different company. And every patient I had and operated on that day. I killed with my hands." Miranda said.
Ben looked at her softly. He was sad that he wasn't there for her. He honestly wanted to hold her.
"Miranda you did not kill them. That was not your fault." Ben said seriously.
"I've heard many people say that including my therapist." Miranda said grabbing her purse and the bottle out of her hand.
"You really going out with him. You are something else."
Miranda scuffed." Goodnight Benjamin."
At dinner Miranda talked with Ashton. He was really nice. "How does Warren know about your engagement ending." Hendrix asked.
"Um truthfully. He was my fiancé. It ended with him." Miranda said looking at his face for a reaction.
He gave a surprised reaction.
"Wow I wasn't expecting that. May I asked what happen."
"Uh he moved here and was gone for almost a year. He came for a weekend and I was kissing someone else at the job." Miranda said blowing out a breath.
"Oh. Um I take it he didn't take it well."
"Yeah. I apologized for months and the last time I was out here. I told him the decision to stay with me was his choice and he walked out with out saying anything. This was the first time I have seen him in months." Miranda said and she looked like she was about to cry. She honestly was tired of talking about this and bringing it up.
"So, I see it's unresolved feelings."
"What do you mean?" Miranda questioned.
" He still loves you. Very much. He talks about you. I never knew the woman's name but we had a conversation about a woman hurting him really bad and he said despite that he loves her. He just needs time to get his head together and figure it out."
Miranda didn't know what to say. "And from you just telling me about what happened. I know you still love him. You should go to him Miranda."
"I don't know where he lives."
" I will give it to you. I have been over for a game and drinks." He said shrugging
"Thank you." Miranda said taking the address that he wrote on a napkin. "and thank you for dinner."
Miranda walked out of the restaurant and saw that it was raining. She looked out for a cab but she didn't see any. Miranda put Ben's address in her phone and saw that it actually was a five minute walk from where she was. So, she did the craziest thing she ever did. She walked. Her hair was soaking wet and her white blouse was wet clinging to her body. Making her purple bra very visible.
Miranda got to his apartment and knocked on his door.
"Hello- Miranda what are you.? Did something…. Did Hendrix do something to you." Ben asked going into a concerned role pulling her inside.
"No he didn't. I uh… Ben I still love you and I don't know what to do because I love you so much. I can't just let this go. I love you too much for us to just be over."
"Ben never in my life have I ever begged and wished to be with someone This is a low as it gets for me. I've been begging for almost a year but you are worth it. I am supposed to end up with you. We were supposed to be married. Miranda pulled out a necklace with her engagement ring attached. This is suppose to be on my finger. I know I said when we are sharing a life we talk, think, make decisions together and are loyal to each other and I messed it up but I want that again and this time I can't leave. I won't take no for an answer. I will pack Tuck up and move here and get a job at your hospital if that's what it takes because I can't go home without us being together. I-
"Miranda.
"No let me finshed. I-
"Miranda I l-
"Ben I'm not done I
"Miranda shut up. I'm trying to tell you that I love you too… I know it might seen as though, I took it too far and was blowing it out of proportion but if the person you love more than life itself betrays you. It flips your world upside down and things that use to make sense. Don't anymore. My world was grey and dark for a while. I tried to not love you. I tried to dislike you and despise you because the feeling I felt was the worse thing I every felt in my life and if I didn't love you, I wouldn't be hurting like the way I was. I tried telling myself and convincing myself that the love I have for you wasn't real, but I give in and I am standing here in front of you Miranda, admitting that I love you more than anything and you mean absolutely everything to me." Ben said grabbing her hand pulling her into him.
Miranda put her face into his body. "I'm sorry Ben."
"You don't have to keep saying it. I know you are and from here on forward we aren't going to bring it up again. I won't hold it over head. That's not fair to you." Ben said putting his hand on the back of her head to hold her close to him.
Ben used his finger to lift her face to look at him.
She honestly was scared to kiss him. She feared he might get ptsd, but she desperately wanted to.
Ben leaned down and met her lips in a sweet passionate kiss.
"I'm soaking wet." Miranda said pulling apart.
"Really, that fast." Ben smirked
She hit him on the arm laughing. "My clothes Benjamin. But you knew that already."
"I'll help you with that." Ben said pulling her shirt up over her head and tossed it on the floor. Miranda unbuttoned her jeans as Ben pulled them down for her so she could step out of them.
"I got your shirt wet." Miranda said. Hinting for him to take it off.
Ben lifted it over his head and then stepped back to look at Miranda. He missed this so much and it looked as though she had gotten more curvier than before. " You are beautiful."
She smiled before picking her wet clothes up to take to the laundry room. She opened the dryer and put them inside. Turning it on. Ben walked up behind her and pressed his body into hers. Pinning her to the dryer. He felt up her body and ran his hand across her breast before he caressed them. Miranda moaned out from the feeling of him touching her nipples and breast. Ben put his hands in her wet hair tugging it to pull her head to the side. "Sorry, but we can do foreplay and take it slow in a minute, but It's been way too long since I have had you. I missed you." Ben said In to her ear. Miranda shivered at his words
"Show me how much." Miranda said innocently but nothing was innocent about what they were about to do. She already knew that this was going to be rough and she was intrigued and prepare for the sensual pleasure that was about to take place.
Before she had time to realize she felt her panties at her ankle. Ben slid his fingers around her core. Ben moaned, pleased to feel how wet she was for him.
Ben reach down and pulled his sweat pants down as Miranda reached behind her and unhooked her bra letting it fall off.
With Ben's first thrust into her. Miranda let out a huge breath. Not being with Ben in almost a year and a half and to be suddenly filled by Ben gave her a sweet, violent sort of pleasure. After all this waiting and dry spell she was almost high from this.
"Oh God, you're so tight," he whispered through his teeth as he began pumping in and out of her
Miranda held onto the dryer and arched her back. Maybe it was because of the vibration from the dryer and Ben moving inside of her, but she felt ready to release right then. Ben held on to the sides of her hips as he skillfully moved.
Miranda was loving every minute of their hot rough sex. Oohs and mmmm's left her mouth as she was reaching her peak
"God, just…fuck…I..you..mm.."
Miranda couldn't even form complete sentences anymore, and that was just the way Ben liked it. He continued to pound her from behind, with her sandwiched between him and the dryer. Each thrust lifted her higher until Miranda's feet were hardly even on the ground anymore. Her screams grew louder as Ben panted in her ear. Ben's mouth found it's way to the side of her neck and his teeth dug in just a little. Miranda's scream sent shivers down her spine.
After a few more minutes Miranda's voice was no longer audible. Ben felt her body shake over and over as he slammed inside of her. His pleasure had reached it's maximum and his thrusts became more forceful.
"Baby, I'm going to…" Ben started to say, but trailed off into orgasmic pleasure. Ben filled her.
Then he wrapped both arms around her midsection as he finished draining himself inside of her . Ben licked his lips and kissed your left shoulder.
Miranda's toes curled and her body was aching from pleasure. She could even move as she stayed still against the dryer. Ben pulled out of her and watched her for a second. His body still pulsing.
"Meet me in the bedroom, when you can walk." Ben said backing away from her. Walking out the door. All Miranda could do was moan and nod her head.
"Jesus christ." Miranda said when she got herself together. She walked into the living room to get her necklace. She open it up to slide her ring off the chain. Slipping her ring back on. She heard the water running from the shower. She walked into the bathroom and she joined Ben in the shower.
"All I have is men soap." He said turning to face Miranda. She looked at the water that ran down his body. "Thats fine. I smell like you now anyway."
Miranda and Ben showered and dried off.
Ben went Into his drawer pulling out one of his t-shirts for her to wear.
"Thank you." Miranda said sliding it on over her head.
Miranda climbed in bed next to Ben. Ben turned and scooted close to her wrapping his arms around her body.
"I love you Miranda."
"I love you too."
Miranda woke up gasping for air. She looked around and over at Ben. She pulled the covers up over her naked frame. "Ben." Miranda called out shaking him awake. She stopped when she saw the engagement ring on her finger. "Miranda? What's wrong." Ben asked sitting up rubbing his eyes.
"Ben I will make mistakes. But you have to promise me that you won't leave." Miranda rambled.
"Miranda what are you talking about. " Ben asked seriously confused.
"Just don't leave okay. I know that things will get hard. We won't see each other as much maybe once or month or every two months and I might do something stupid but you can't leave." Miranda said once again.
"Baby. Please tell me what's going on. I would never leave you."
"I had a dream that I kissed someone else and you left. Oh God it felt so real. It doesn't make sense though. I would never do that to you and the way you treated me. It was just horrible. " Miranda said letting the tears fall.
"Baby come here. Ben said pulling her into him and scooting down in the bed. Allowing her to snuggle into his chest.
"Miranda we just got engaged. I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to marry you. I wanted to marry you since date 3." Ben said kissing her on the head.
"But just don't cheat on me." Ben said seriously and laughing.
"I won't."
"Okay then. I'm going back to sleep now if that's okay with you." Ben said. Miranda cut her eyes up at him and then she sat up. She kissed him gently and then laid back into his chest. She held her hand up admiring her ring. "Dam this is really a nice ring. You really out did yourself. You love me don't you."
"I do. I really do."
"Goodnight Ben."
"Goodnight Miranda. Sweet dreams this time." Ben said closing his eyes. Letting sleep overcome him.