Chapter 8: Tired
Klaus, Ben and Five found lots of books, most of them readable. Five found a nice cosy corner and starts reading. Klaus is still looking through the destroyed library but isn't sure what he is looking for. He feels restless, he is missing something and he has the feeling that if he would ask Ben what to do he had no answer that would help him. The day has still a few hours of light left, most of the fire had stopped and he got used to the constant falling ash in the air.
"Five I will be out for a while, but I come back before the dark. Would you like Ben as company?" Klaus had to send Ben back to being a ghost, not able to touch or talk to anyone except Klaus, he would do his best to keep him corporal while he is gone so Five doesn't have to be lonely. He would manage for a few hours.
"Where are you going?" Five questions without looking up from his book, he is already deep focus on his study to go back and isn't really paying attention.
"Just out. Maybe finding something to eat or some notebooks for you." Five waves his hand and returns his whole concentration back at his book. "Ben it seems like it is us again. Let´s go." Ben follows him out, only for Klaus visible again. They make their way pass a few shops and even when he had only said it for Five to think he has a plan, he picks up a few notebooks and pencils so his brother can write down the theories he has.
"That´s nice of you." Ben praises him like a child that does something good. He knows something is wrong with him, he is missing parts, Ben tried to explain it to him but he didn't get it completely, he only knows that dying takes more of him away, that's the reason he tries to avoid it.
He isn't sure what takes him back to the Academy, he had spent year trying to forget this place even exist. But it is like everything he does nowadays he feels like doing it so he does it. Easy. Locating the backyard of the academy, where once had stand Ben´s stature proudly is enough room on the grass for what he intends to do. Without consulting Ben he finds the garden shed and takes a shovel.
"Klaus what are you trying to do?" Ben questions. Klaus doesn't feel like talking so he points to the gravel piles on the street where their dead siblings are lying, now hidden from their view. "Oh. Can I help?"
Klaus thinks about it. Digging graves for their siblings is something he felt like doing. He could have ask Five to join but he was busy researching. Ben could help carrying the bodies but digging was something he wants to do alone. It feels like he has to do it on his own. "Later." Klaus answers and Ben let him continue to work, without questioning his doing or the need to do it alone. He is just there, staying at his side as he had promised all this years ago.