Chapter 1: The Beginning

Justin wasn't happy with himself. Every day for last 2 months he kept thinking to himself. why did Jensen and he's family take me in and adopt me. He didn't understand why however in he's heart of soul, he didn't really care where he belongs it's not like he's on the street or at home with mum's boyfriend anymore. Clay just finished he's shower, and he walked into the bedroom where Justin was sitting there on the bed. " you can use the shower now." Clay said in a soft voice. Justin got up from the bed and said " who you meeting. I can smell aftershave on you." Jensen face went all blushly red. "Anyway, I'm getting in the shower now." As Justin walks off with a smirk on his face. He can't help to feel a bit jealous.

Clay had interesting text from Hannah. "Helmet do you fancy going to one of my favourites restaurant." Jensen got a bit confuse. He thought he knew every single fact about Hannah. Widened smile suddenly appeared on blush face, for some reason he find it attractive to learn new fact about Hannah. He texts back saying " Ok where is it too, what is it called and what time." Justin head appeared round the corner of the door " Sorry Jensen but where is the towel." Justin ask politely. " In the cupboard next to the shower. Oh, and Justin I'm going out in the minute for couple hours." Justin just nodded and went back into the shower room. Another new message from Hannah, Clay pick up he's phone and read the message and it describe where it is but she didn't want to tell what the place is called and a time.

Justin walked back into Clay's room half naked and realising that Clay was still in the room sitting on his bed. "Justin! put a top." has he giggle but uncomfortable. Clay didn't mind it; he was trying make him laugh which succeed. "Sorry I didn't realise you was here. I thought you was out; you know making out and having sex." Justin said with soft giggly laugh. "Shut it Justin." Clay laughs with Justin. Clay pick he's phone up and turn the screen on, he rushed up has notice the time "Shit i need to get going. Justin are you alright here." Justin was about respond but Clay need to go, so Justin just gave him a nod.

Justin was a bit jealous but did not know why he felt jealous. all he wanted was love as well, holding someone in he's arm, kissing with passionate and also making sweet love. He knows that the Jensen family will love him has one off their own, But every time Justin talk to Clay or even look at him, he get butterfly's. Is it wrong for having feelings for Clay? Isn't its incest technically. He rubbed he's hand on the back of the neck knowing that he is confuse and know that Clay won't feel the same has him, so to be at eased Justin put them thoughts back of he's mind.

Hours later

Clay sneakily and quietly open he's bedroom door, thinking that Justin is fast asleep and trying not wake him up. However Justin was laying on he's bed with he's phone in he's hands frequently tapping the screen hard. " God dam it. For fuck sake." He said in the frustrated voice. "Hey man. Your still up." Clay said in a casual voice. Justin sat up and looked at Clay, he casually put the phone down and gave Clay a one big smile. "Welcome, back did you used a condom." Justin giggle to himself. Clay gave Justin the look of embarrassment and went red in the face. "So, who did you meet. Who was the lucky girl you sorted out?" He said in a cocky voice, Clay knows that Justin use get all the girls, he uses be a fuck boy, but Clay knows that the days are now over. "I met Hannah Beaker and no we didn't have sex and before you say no, we didn't make out." Clay said with no hesitation.

Justin gave another friendly smile to Clay and laid back down with he's phone in his hands, but instead he wasn't tapping the screen so hard. Clay was getting undress in to shorts and shirt and felt relive. Having shorts on and short sleeves shirt make him free from heat and from sweatiness at night. Justin was sneakily watching Jensen undressing he love every moment even started to get erected. So, he shook he's head in shame and turn he's back to Clay. Why am I getting erected I'm in to girls although I haven't been touch since before i was homeless. More and more thought was racing. Clay asked Justin "Why did you shook your head and turned around." He said i a weird gesture. Justin got embarrass and turn bright red in the face.

Justin slowly turn back to Clay and said to Clay "Watching something that was not right on my phone." "Why do you look embarrass then." Clay said in confusion. Justin pretended that he didn't look at Jensen while he was undressing. If he told the truth to Jensen god knowns what Jensen would think of him. So, Justin said to Clay "No I'm pissed off. Jensen please!" Clay gave a frustrated look and was so confuse why all the sudden Justin got mad. So, Clay got in to bed and faced to the boring wall to avoid contact, just in case doesn't annoy him again

Justin felt bad for shouting at Jensen he knows it wasn't Jensen fault he know it was himself. Feeling so much anger and frustrated mind keeps on racing with thoughts. Thought that he doesn't want to acknowledge them but didn't have the choice. He started to cry himself to sleep.

Clay woke up from he's deep peaceful sleep. He looks over to Justin bed and found Justin was still there asleep looking so peaceful just laying there helplessly. Clay was still thinking about last night why he was so angry over simple question, wanted to know what was cause him to act like that. Clay just push that them thought back of he's mind and thought off a good idea to cheer Justin up. He sat up and look at the phone and a message from Tony pop up. Hey Clay, I need a favour. Can you call me when you see this? He wondered what is the favour for and what does Tony wanted from him. So, Clay got up and walked out the bedroom to go to the toilet and sees mum. "Hey honey. did you have a good sleep?" Clay responded back with annoyed gesture. "Yes, mom anything else would like to know." Ms Jensen gave Clay a horrid look and said to Clay "Good, but you don't need to speak to me it like that. Anyway, me and your father are going out mid-afternoon and be back till late. So, l will be leaving you $60 spend it wisely please."

Clay was thrilled that he's parent are going out tonight. House free just him and Justin for the night. " Ok mom thank you and sorry saying it rudely that i had good sleep." He rushed to the toilet with big smile on he's face all happy.

Clay walked in to he's bedroom and starting to get change into more formal cloths. He remembered that Tony message him and need to ring him to know he want's. I hope it's nothing bad or anything. Clay was thinking to himself.

So, Clay grab he's phone and exit he's bedroom and started to ring Tony "hello." Tony said in gratefully voice.

"Tony you told me to ring you when i see the text you sent me. What's up."

" Can i come your house for a quick chat." In concerned voice

"Sure, come over."

Clay ended the call but texted tony. Message when outside. He put the phone down on the desk and look at Justin. Justin was tossing and turning and at the same time sleep talking like he was having a nightmare, a bad one by the look off it. So, Clay started walk over to Justin has he was a bit concerned and reached Justin. He can see that Justin been sweating badly, muttering, and toss and turning. "Justin. Justin. Justin!" Justin shoot right up along with heavy breathing, looked so terrified.

"What the fuck. Why did you wake me up?" Justin said in confuse and slightly angry.

"You were having a bad dream. I thought it might snap you out of it sorry."

"It ok, I was having a bad dream need that. Thanks Jensen."

" It cools anyway mom and dad off out tonight so it just us." Clay said with excitement.

Justin was so happy to hear that and thinking to himself just them tonight, although still a bit terrified from the nightmare. So, he look at Clay with relive and hint off gratitude, suddenly he look over to the desk and can hear the phone ringing. Clay rushed over to the desk and pick up the phone and answer the call

"Hey I'm outside waiting and hurry." Said Tony

"Ok coming."

" Who was that Jensen." Justin ask in concerned.

"Tony. You coming down has well to see him."

" Nah you can go. Me and Tony still not really like each other." Justin said

Clay nodded at Justin to symbolise that he is going down to meet Tony, but however Justin still confuse why he have turned up. So, Clay left the room to meet Tony at he's front door. Justin sat up and started to think about he's actions from last and the way he spoke to Jensen, but however no point keep on thinking about it, all he can do is apologise. So, Justin got up and starting get changed, at the same time he can hear Tony and Clay talking and wounded what they are talking about. Justin walked to the door and slightly open the door enough to hear their conversation however was not enough to hear properly. Clay slam the front door and Tony just got in to his car. Clay was storming up the stairs and Justin rush on to his bed.

The door slam open and Clay entered and slam the door shut after him. "What's up Clay." Justin asks. Worrying about Clay. "Tony told me that Jessica been slagging off Alex because he just broke up with her. But she also been slagging Hannah off has well but that what pissed me off the most." Justin did not really know what to say and don't how to help. Jensen and Hannah are close has they are besties, but Jensen is my brother. "Jessica properly want to blame people. Do you think Hannah knows, that Jessica been slagging her off." Clay doesn't want to know if Hannah might know, because this might drive her to depression has, she not long come out of psychiatric unit. Justin sat down next to Jensen and put he's arm along Jensen shoulders. " Well if she does know I will be there for her. Like i was there for you." Justin heart melt and felt loved he was happy to hear that from Jensen, now got butterfly's.

"You be there for her has you was with me bro." Jensen feel more relax about the situation.

"Anyway, why working yourself up about it, it only bitchyness from Jessica." Clay laughed but still worried about Hannah.

"Anyway, got something planned today for both of us."

"Really cool and what the plan." Justin asked.

"We are going out for dinner then we will come home watch movie or do stuff separately."

Justin love that idea and be happy spending the night with him. Clay was excited to take Justin out to cheer up him, but it seems we was already happy because on what Clay said about him even now clay starting get butterflies in the chest.