Inside Sunbursts house
So it's been some time since we've seen each other how have you been Starlight Sunburst asks
Well it's umm is it hot in here I'm gonna open the window get som-
Starlight! Sunburst yells his voice startling her, listen i understand if you don't want to talk about certain things.
Grrr starlight lightly growled
but you have ignored every question I've asked in favor for opening one of my windows for the last 20 minutes. Continued Sunburst
Please Starlight talk to me i can't keep this up ethier tell me or please leave.
FINE! yelled Starlight
You want me to talk! i lost it being alone after you left ok! Everyday i woke up and for a moment i could be happy, only for it to be crushed by the realization you! were! Gone! Starlight Yelled stomping her front hooves.
I hated myself and began hating cutie marks! It didn't help that my mother died the following week and dad became borderline abusive. I had no one i.. was.. alone!!.. and i tore myself apart. From those shards of pain and anger i became twisted and sick.
Years later i took over and brainwashed entire village to do my bidding, I became a heartless monster.
After twilight stopped me i fell back into that pit of anger and despair which led to me trying to destroy the world using an ancient spell and was beaten. The only reason I'm alive right now is because of celestia's good will. Now I'm a prisoner in my own body to a newly crowned princess who threatens me constantly on a daily basis and the only one who gives a flying buck about my well being is her Dragon!
So there Sunburst there is your explanation! You now know the truth about Starlight Glimmer are you happy!! Starlight yells ending her emotion filled rant as tears fall from her eyes like waterfalls.
Starlight then proceeds to fall on the ground and wail her heart out almost to the point she couldn't breathe.
Sunburst is stunned into shocked silence as Spike comes over and attemps to comfort her and fails.
After a few minutes Starlight gets up breathing heavy.
I'm so-sorry Su-Sunburst I'll leave so you c-can get on with your life and duties i shouldn't expect you to understand being alone. Says Starlight calming down as she looks behind her when reaching the door and leaves tears still falling down her face.
Starlight oh Starlight what has this world done to you? Sunburst questions sadly then grabs a bottle of whiskey from the kitchen as he drinks at the thought of his once best friend suffering so much without him. Suddenly her actions make alot more sense.
Starlight walked depressed down the street of the Crystal city towards the castle.
Starlight Starlight! Spike called out running up behind her.
What spike? said Starlight
I know it's rough but-
But what. said Starlight cutting off spike as she turns to face him pain and anger once more filling her features. None of you know me or what it feels like it suffer so much with nothing and no one so just shut up and just
leave!
Me!
Alone! Starlight yelling at the dragon as she then turns and runs away in tears.
10mins later spike arrives at the castle
Spike where is Starlight? Asked Twilight
Spike processed everything that happened and how Starlight lost it.
Oh shit Alright, Applejack! called Twilight
Yeah Twi. she responds
Go with Spike i need you to help find starlight she apparently lost it due to stress and ran help find her would you, i need to focus on things here.
Got it lets go spike Applejack said as she and spike ran out the door.
Elsewhere with starlight
On a hillside just to the west of the city Starlight lays on her stomach staring over the city alone.
She debates what to do next
She's stuck between leaving and...well theirs a cliff off to the right but that can wait for a little while longer.
Should I go back home? No dad has undoubtedly heard he'll want nothing to do with me. No one cares now no one ever cared. she thinks getting up.
In the city
Spike and applejack continue to look for Starlight when they stumble into Sunburst.
Sunburst? Asks spike what are you doing here?
There's no time starlight is in danger come this way. he says leading them west.
What how? asks Applejack
She's suicidal. states Sunburst in a grave tone she jas been suffering her entire life she may have been pushed too far this time we need to stop her.
There says applejack spotting Starlight up on a ridge looking to the sky.
Starlight don't yells spike
Starlight stumbles back and looks down shocked. what are you doing here?! She yells down at them.
Starlight please don't jump please! Yells spike again tear beumming his eyes.
Starlight i'ma comin up stay there Don't move! Applejack yells up before turning to Sunburst and spike.
Keep her calm you two I'm gonna talk her down. Says Applejack
How? Asks Spike desperately
I'll talk her down bevause know what she's going through. Applejack responds as she starts up the trail.
5 mins later on top of the cliff.
Starlight? says Applejack
Go away
I'm not gonna do that i need you to step away from that ledge.
Why? So Twilight can emotionally abuse me some more?
So ponies can beat me?
So i can keep suffering in this living Tarderus?
You don't know me or what I'm going through besidea you guys don't care unless it benifts you so leave.
That's not true i do know what yer going through star i went through it too.
Yeah right starlight says as applejack takes a deep breath.
When i was younger my parents died on a job i don't know what happened no pony ever told me not even granny. but after it happened i felt like the world was against me i hated myself and pushed my family and friends away. I was so alone and it was my fault. Explained applejack
Your the same way. Applejack said approaching starlight but do you really believe if no one cared that i, spike, and Sunburst would be out here? We care starlight just come with us we will help you. Applejack said holding her hoof out
I...I.
I'm sorry Applejack Starlight says backing up to the cliff ,but I can't do this anymore. Starlight then lets herself fall the last thing she hears is the horrified scream of Applejack.
Finally I'm free
So that got heavy fast
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I've recently republished after major edits. Why i have that song uptop well i feel it really sums up the feeling of this chapter.