"Hey sweetie, you ok?"
It was first shift back since the disastrous night out, Shay hadn't seen or heard from Gabby for two days, but that didn't surprise her as she assumed Matt had grounded her.
"Never better" Gabby said sarcastically. She didn't know what was wrong with her but attitude just kept oozing out ever since the night at Molly's, Matts patience was beginning to wear thin with her, and she'd had more spankings the past two days than she had in her entire time with him. Ok well maybe not but her ass sure felt like it, he'd followed through with the threat of spanking her everyday if the attitude didn't disappear. "Gabriela I'll spank you until you can't take anymore if I have too." He'd said, and he was deadly serious, she'd received 20 with the belt this morning before reporting for shift, although it was painful it wasn't deterring the attitude.
"Gabby are you sure?" Shay was concerned she'd never been on the receiving end of Gabby's attitude like this before.
"I'm fine!" Gabby snapped "what's not to be fine about, I'm grounded and being spanked everyday, my ass feels like it's constantly on fire and I haven't sat down since the other night. And it's pretty obvious that Matt is fuming with me." Gabby glared at her best friend "I'm absolutely fine, in fact I may even go out tonight because I want to!"
Shay stood open mouthed staring at her, was she really contemplating leaving shift to go out, while grounded! "Gabby? You know your seeming very off the rails?"
"So what if I am! It's my life, I don't care if..."
"Gabriela Dawson!" Matt rounded the corner, he could hear her shouting at Shay from his office. "My office NOW!" She rolled her eyes at him before storming off towards his office.
"What was that about?" He asked turning to Shay.
"I asked her if she was ok, and she went on this long rant about how you'd spanked her everyday since the other night. She said her ass was burning and she hadn't sat down, but everything was fine. She said it sarcastically and then told me she was going out later and she didn't care."
Matt sighed "something's wrong and I don't know what it is, she's giving attitude constantly, I've spanked her each time and each time she's apologized but within a couple of hours she's back at it and ending up back over my knee. I thought maybe using the switch would have changed her behavior but it's done nothing, although if I threaten to use it she stops dead. So maybe I do need to use it again and make her see I mean business."
"Maybe... Casey? You sound like your defeated."
"No, not defeated just kinda fed up with it. It's not fun having to light up your girls ass every two minutes." He sighed again "right I best go deal with her, again. see you later."
"Bye Casey."
Matt walked through to his office and found Gabby sobbing on his bed.
"Baby?" He was really worried now, "what is going on?"
"I don't know" she snapped before putting her head back down on the bed and crying harder.
"This is not you Gabby, your emotional, snappy, giving attitude at every chance you get. The way you just spoke to Shay?"
Gabby lifted her head and looked at him "I feel so out of control. I'm trying to not snap at everyone I'm trying not to earn more spankings but I can't help it. Then you bust my butt and for a little while I feel better, but it's like I..." she stopped and stared at him.
"Your what baby?"
"Like I'm looking for ways to make you punish me because I'm punishing myself."
"Punishing yourself for what?"
"For allowing that man to touch me! For drinking too much! For being stupid!" She shouted at him. Matt didn't know what to say he pulled her close ssshhhing her and stroking her back.
"Gabby, your not stupid, and you didn't allow him to touch you. He assaulted you, there's a huge difference. As for the drinking well I can't argue there, you've been drinking far too much recently, I let it slide but I wish I hadn't. What happened the other night is not something I ever want to repeat. I'm sorry because I spanked you while still mad and instead of forgiving you I spanked you hard the next morning again. Harder than I'd planned to because I was mad that you'd got yourself into a state where you were throwing up hungover and then you started with the attitude again. Then I've spanked you hard each time you've stepped out of line even a tiny bit, with no warnings. That's not what we agreed, that's not what our relationship is about."
Gabby looked at him with tears streaming down her face, here he was apologizing when it was her who had caused this. She'd practically been begging for him to whip her repeatedly, it eased her guilt, her shame, and her anger. She could have safe worded but she'd just kept pushing to see how far she could push him. "Matt, I think part of me was testing you." Matt looked confused "I felt like I needed punishing, and it helped ease all my feelings for a short time but I think that I also needed to see you still loved me."
"Gabby.."
"No please Matt let me finish. After the attack, you let me do things I'd never have got away with before, I rolled my eyes at you so many times, answered you back, had a glass too many and you never blinked. Even on shift I'd do things and you'd ignore them. So I began to think you weren't taking me in hand because you didn't care. Then when you came to the club and dragged me home, I thought you were going to make me leave. But you spanked me harder than I'd ever been spanked and I knew then that you did love me but, I felt relief afterwards. The next morning after being sick you spanked me again and I gave you attitude so you spanked me harder, again I felt relief to all my bad feelings. So then I started doing things just to earn a spanking because although it hurt like hell and my butt is like a fire pit it made me feel relief."
Matt stared at his girl, she was gorgeous and honest and kind. How did he miss these things, how had he not worked it out. "Baby I'm so sorry, if I'd have known I'd have done things differently. Maybe we could have avoided all this." He kissed her forehead and held her tightly, deep in thought. How was he going to solve this, no how were they going to solve this. "Right here's what we're going to do. Firstly you will apologize to Shay, you will remain grounded for now, while you are grounded you are going to write a journal of all your thoughts and feelings, we will talk about these once a week. If you feel you need a spanking you come to me and I will administer one if you give me valid reason to, by talking to me properly about what ever it is bothering you. If I don't feel you need to be spanked for it we will talk it through, if it warrants spanking you will chose the instrument to be spanked with. Once you feel completely that you have forgiven yourself then and only then will you be ungrounded. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes sir"
"Good and Gabby if you ever hide your true feelings from me and cause us to end up here again, your bottom right now will feel like a warm up. You'll be switched until you can't stand."
Gabby looked into his piercing blue eyes and could tell he was serious "yes sir, I promise."
"Good now go find Shay and apologise please."
She bent down and kissed him, already she'd felt some tension leave her body. Why she hadn't just spoken to him she did not know, she'd never been good at talking even as a young girl. She left the office and headed to find Shay, she found her sat in the common room with all the truck guys.
"Shay can we talk please?" Gabby said quietly, "in private."
"Sure sweetie, come on." They left the room and headed for ambo, opening the doors Shay climbed in followed by Gabby. "What's up?"
"I'm really sorry about earlier, Matt and I talked, I've been bottling a lot up but he's going to help me work through it."
"Did he bust your butt again?" Shay asked concerned about how many more spankings someone could take in such a short time.
"No. I'm not sure if he will at home or not but for now no. Shay listen, I've deserved every single stroke I've received these past 72 hours. I've pushed and pushed until he's taken his belt, the cane or anything to me. The spankings were making me feel better but only for a short time."
"Gabby your going to have to explain, why did you need to feel better?"
Gabby explained to Shay what she'd just said to Matt. Shay listened closely and agreed Gabby had definitely lost her way for a while. Gabby explained the plan her and Matt had just spoken about and Shay agreed it sounded like a good solution.
"It sounds good to me sweetie, this way you'll talk about how your feeling, and if needs be Matt will help take the bad feelings away. But if you don't talk to him you know he'll light your butt up again. Sounds like a win win."
"Yea if it's not your butt being lit up!" Gabby joked. She already felt lighter, it was good to not have a black cloud hanging over your head.
"Well your the one that controls that" Matt said, he'd just walked across the apparatus floor behind ambo and overheard the last bit of their conversation. He looked at Gabby and smiled, "I can always remind you of that in my office?" He winked at her.
"Nope I'm good thanks" she winked back.
Shay laughed, "seriously guys I don't need your sex talk on the back of my ambo!"
They all laughed loudly, it was the first time Gabby had laughed in days.
Ambo 61, truck 81, squad 3, battalion 25, factory fire
They all rushed to their places and headed off towards the fire, when they arrived the place was completely ablaze, truck 24 was on scene as was squad 4 and ambo 52.
"What we got?" Casey asked jumping out of truck.
"Grinding factory been alight for 30 minutes, still people inside. We think about 40 but no ones sure."
"Ok, truck search and rescue, squad you take left side we'll take right. Cruz, Otis get the ladder and Ariel up attack from above."
Everyone moved quickly. Boden stood watching the smoke carefully he knew if the smoke changed the entire building could go.
"Fire department call out" Mouch called "Lieutenant right side clear"
"Over here" someone was shouting but no one could see from where through the thick fog, "please help."
"Mam, can you tell us where you are?"
"By the grinders far left corner"
"Casey, assistance required grinders far left quarter."
"I'm coming Severide. Dawson, Hermann with me, Mouch search that last are and then get out!"
"Copy that."
The made their way across to where Severide and squad 3 were trying to remove the grinder from pinning the lady they'd found.
"Mam what's your name?"
"Lisa"
"Ok Lisa, I'm Gabby. Look at me, we're going to get you out ok?"
"Ok"
"Alright guys your good."
"On my count, 1,2,3 lift"
As they lifted the grinder they realised Lisa's legs had been completely crushed. Gabby stabilized them as best she can and let's the lads remove her from the blaze.
"Good work Dawson." Severide said as they got outside.
"Thanks"
Everyone got out with no fatalities but quite a few serious injuries, the lady they saved from being trapped under one of the grinders lost both her legs due to crush injuries, and some had serious burns. 51 secured the building and headed back to the firehouse.
"Casey, Severide my office please." Chief said as they touched down.
"What's up chief"
"Looks like this wasn't an accidental fire, arson want to speak to both of you. The found a coil inside the factory they think was used to start it."
"Ok chief."
"Reports as quickly as possible."
"Sure thing." They both replied. They turned to leave but chief asked Casey to hang back a minute, Severide headed for his own office while Casey sat down in one of the chairs in front of the chiefs desk.
"What's up chief?"
"I understand you and Dawson have had some issues these past few days?"
"Yes sir, we are dealing with it."
"Casey, what I need to know right now is if you think she's distracted from the job. I understand she's had quite a punishment from you."
"She did sir, but as you know she's very used to walking round and working with her ass lit up. I think she was distracted when we first got here. I'm sure you've heard from Shay and that's why your asking?"
"Actually Shay didn't come to me, I went to her after hearing Dawson yelling at her. But yes she did fill me in."
"Well we spoke after that and have worked out what the issue is and how we're going to deal with it. She's grounded until further notice and we will be discussing her feelings weekly as she is now required to write any negative feelings down. We've discussed that if she feels guilty, shame or anything else she's currently feeling and feels like it needs to be dealt with she comes and speaks to me, she does not give attitude to anyone. If she feels it warrants a spanking I will administer it, if she can give me a valid reason. It's true she's taken a fair amount these past few days, and as I understand it she doesn't want to sit down. You may notice she's standing up a lot, even to eat?"
"That I have Casey."
"That's because when this all started the other night I punished her when still mad. Not only did she receive a hand spanking but I used the brush, cane and switch. The next morning she received the paddle and my belt. And she's received 20 with the belt every time she's given attitude since, which has been a fair amount. Her last spanking was this morning before shift. I was prepared to spank her again when I heard her shouting at Shay but she finally let out what was going on so I've decided to hold off on the spanking for that for now. However if it's repeated I will of course light her butt back up."
"Understood. Casey, I'm not one to usually get involved but are you sure she doesn't need professional help, do you think she stopped counselling to soon?"
"No sir, I can deal with it. I think she'd convinced herself that she'd dealt with it after the trail and that's why she stopped seeing her, I didn't spot the signs and for that I feel terrible. But I have to try and help her through this myself before trying to make her see the shrink again."
"Ok Casey, you know where I am if you or Dawson need anything."
"Thank you chief."
Shift was busy, ambo was out pretty much all day and night, and truck was out a fair bit to mainly rescues but a couple of small blazes. Squad 3 however had barely any calls, Severide spent his day talking with arson he'd been asked to give an evaluation of the scene, as the evening draw in he finally emerged in the common room and headed towards the spot Matt was currently sitting at reading his paper.
"Casey do you mind if I borrow Dawson? We'll keep our radios on."
"Sure what for?"
"The suspected arson from earlier, I could do with someone with her eye."
"Ok, just watch each other's backs."
"Will do."
"Dawson, your with Severide." He shouted across to her. She looked at him confused.
"Ok, Lieutenant. Where we heading?"
"Severide will explain." She started to follow Severide but Matt stopped her "Listen to everything he instructs you to do ok?" He whispered.
"Will do" she whispered back.
"So where we off to?" Gabby asked as she climbed into Kelly's car.
"That blaze from this morning, arson have asked me to look into it for them."
"Oh ok, why did you want me?" She asked hissing as she sat down.
"Two reasons. One I need someone's eye I can trust, and you Dawson have a very good eye for things. Two I wanted a private word with you, but I already know some of the answer to my questions by the way you just sat down." He turned and looked at Dawson "how many spankings have you had the last three days?"
"Erm I'm not entirely sure, there was two pretty serve ones for my behaviour at Molly's, then I think it's been four or five doses of the belt, 20/30 each time."
"Jesus Dawson!" He exclaimed "no wonder you hissed when your butt hit the seat. Why so many? I asked Matt and he brushed me off with he was handling it." She looked at him sheepishly "Gabby! I heard you and Shay this morning, you two barely have a crossed word let alone shout at each at work!"
"I've been bottling a lot up, but Matt knows about it now so hopefully we can work through it without me pushing and misbehaving until he whips me."
"Dawson, we all love you. And you know we all know right?"
"Know what?!"
"What this is really about? Even if Matt didn't see it straight away!"
"How? I didn't even know." She trailed off into thought of this morning in Matts office, it was only then that she'd really thought about why she'd been behaving in the way she had.
"Because we know you Gabby. None of what happened was your fault, you need to stop beating yourself up about it."
They made their way across town talking about everything Gabby had been feeling recently, finally they pulled up outside the factory, and headed inside.
"So this is where arson say they found the coil" Severide said kneeling down, "wait something isn't right." He was eyeing the walls near where they were and the floor, "the fire pattern isn't right for it to have started here."
"What do you mean, someone tried to set it ablaze but it caught before they could?"
"I don't know. Maybe! Follow me."
He started walking along the sides of the factory floor checking every inch he could. Finally he settled about three foot from the original coil placement. "Look" he said, "another coil." Gabby opened her mouth to ask a question but he waved her quiet. Examining the coil in his hand, he spotted something else, wires stripped from the protective casing and seemingly leading towards the coil arson found and in the opposite direction.
"I think they created a circuit, fan out but watch your step. Remember photo anything you find."
Dawson nodded and headed in the opposite direction.
An hour later they'd found ten separate coils with wires attached, they made sure they had photos of it all before heading of back to the house.
"Good work Dawson, thanks for your help."
Gabby felt good, she'd helped prove something was arson and hopefully they'd be able to find something to link it to someone. The minute they got back she headed straight to Matt's office.
"Hey babe." She said closing the door behind her, locking it and closing his blinds.
"Erm, hey. Whatcha doing?"
"Just wanted some alone time with my man." She said unbuckling his belt and pulling his trousers down slightly.
"Gabby we're at... oh my god" she'd cut him off my taking his balls in her mouth and sucking gently, his cock suddenly very alert and very hard. She smirked at him before taking him whole. Working her way up and down in an agonizingly slow pace, using her hand to massage his balls at the same time.
"What have I done to deserved this." He breathed, as his head flew backwards and his eyes fell closed as she picked up speed, moving her hand to grip firmly around the base of his shaft and help her movements.
Gabby didn't reply instead she continued to pick up the pace in sucking him. He bit down on his lip, trying with all his might not to scream her name as pleasure took over his body. She felt his body stiffen as his hot load shot down the back of her throat. She sat back on her heels and smiled at him as he came down from his recent orgasm.
"Bed!" He ordered. Before picking her up and placing her on the bed, he kissed down her sensitive jaw line and on to the spot on her neck that made her crazy, while his hands unbuckled her belt and pushed her pants and knickers down, sliding his hand into her sweet spot he could feel she was already really damp. He thrust two fingers deep into her while kissing her moans into his mouth. "Ssshhh" he told her. She giggled as he made his way down her body before kissing her inner thighs and replacing his fingers with his tongue. She pulled the pillow over her head and screamed into it. He plunged his tongue deeper and messaged her clit with his thumb, feeling her body begin to buck he inserts his fingers once more while his tongue flicks across her sensitive area, she bites down on her lip roughly and he gently nibbles the area and slips another finger inside her curling them upwards to reach her g spot. Reading her bodies movements he continues to finger fuck her picking up pace the more her body bucks. Before long he feels her muscles tighten and she grabs his pillow and screams his name into it. He greedily licks at her juices while helping her through her orgasm.
"We should do this more often" she joked when she'd finally come down from her high.
"Oh I'm not finished with you yet" he said winking and flipping her over, causing a little shriek to escape from her lips. "Sssshhh" he hissed in her ear "you don't want Kelly to hear" she buried her head as he entered her from behind. His cock felt great inside her hot, moist hole. He bit his lip again to mask his own moans, as she moaned into his pillow.
"Matt" she whispered desperately "faster, harder"
He picked up the pace, fucking her fast, hard and deep, each thrust hitting exactly the spot she needed it to, her pants and moans signalling he was doing all the right things. Before long he felt her body begin to stiffen, he reached forwards and rubbed her clit and she came twice over, clamping down on him and causing his own orgasm to explode.
They collapsed on the bed, holding each other tightly. Matt kissed her gently "you are a very naughty girl Miss Dawson. I think I may have to punished you later for taking advantage of your Lieutenant on shift." He winked at her.
"If that's the case, I may have to do it more often" she teased back.
Just then Matts phone pinged.
Dude office sex is great but can you not do it while I'm next door. Sev.
Matt showed Gabby the text.
"Oh god" she giggled. "Sorry Kelly" she said through the glass that separated the two rooms.
"Definitely need punishing." Matt said while kissing her. "Now if you've quite finished taking advantage I've got some reports to finish up." he gave her a playful wink, making her smile right through to hers eyes, something he now realized he hadn't seen in a little while.
"Sure Lieutenant" she replied kissing him back.