Beep-beep-beep

The heart monitor slowly sounds off in rithem with starlights heart has she lays in the hospital bed, tubes sticking out of her mouth as wires are connected to her torso.

Twilight and Spike off to the left and Sunburst and Applejack off to the right. All three were occasionally glaring at twilight.

This is your fault you realize that right? Asked Applejack.

Not my fault she couldn't take the pressure. Everyone kept glaring and Sunburst looked like he wanted to kill.

Just before Applejack or Sunburst could rip twilight apart Celestia and luna enter the room.

Hello you two, says celestia I'd love to talk but i need to talk to "Princess" Sparkle.

The others quickly left seeing how angry celestia was. As the door closed behind them celestia started.

Twilight Sparkle your actions couldn't be more disappointing.

Really? responds Twilight, she tried to brainwash us, destroy us, almost destroyed the world and I'm disappointing?

YES! Yelled celestia getting close to twilight's face causing her to jump in fear and shrink back.

Your suppose to be the princess of friendship, however from what I've heard you've been next to nothing but threatening and cruel. I'm starting to question if you deserve those wings Miss Sparkle. Walking to the door celestia continues.

In the meantime i need you, Sunburst and Applejack to come with me.

The Crystal heart was shattered in an accident.

What?!

I'll fill you in on the way now come. She says as the two of them leave.

In Starlight's nightmares

Ugh...Where am I now?

Then her old village shows around her

What? How am i here?

She then sees her old friends. Hey everypony... umm

What are you doing here?! said double diamond. We told you we don't want you anywhere near this village or us again. As they all surrounded her.

Now hold on i...i Starlight studdered backing away only to bump into sweetie belle.

Oh no. said Sweetie belle your not going anywhere. The ponies then start to close in around her. No no guys stop I'm not that monster anymore I'm not.

Then why haven't you given him back his mark yet hmmm?

I...I

Yes Starlight she hears from behind her why not me?... her dreamscape father says.

That's what i thought now be a good mare and take your punishment like as adult Says Sweetie belle.

In the hospital room 1 week after the Crystaling

Princess Luna teleports into the room feeling Starlight's distress.

She walks over...

Back in Starlight's head

Bbbbzzzz

What why isn't my magic working?!

Why? Asked party favor. We made sure if you ever came back we could contain you. Now lets deal with you proper.

No no no no Starlight starts to panic breathing heavy she started to run managing to bust out of the closing encirclement. As she ran past a building saw herself in a mirror her old self

Well well hello Starlight. the reflection said

No your just an illusion I'll never become you again i can't.

Oh but you can. You hate the way your treated by everypony else, you hate Twilight. It's only a matter of time. You can run but you can't hide from what you really are. The reflection stated as the mirror disappeared as starlight stared into the mirror again seeing her current condition.

I really am the same monster...

After staring at herself briefly she lays down, curls up and starts to whimper.

I'm just a monster. I don't deserve happiness. I don't know what to do. I can hear the crowd getting closer. They want me dead. They want me to suffer. It's over and I'm...I'm...

I...I'm scared...

Enough!! A voice cuts through the village as everyone disappears.

Just then luna appears

Young Miss Glimmer stated Luna

Princess Luna. Starlight said backing away then bowing deeply.

Peace Starlight you need not bow.

I'm sorry if I come off as rude, but what are you doing here?

I'm here to help you.

Help me? No Pony can help me I'm just that monster again. I can't keep going like this. I...I keep trying and trying but no matter what I do what I say nothing goes well. Twilight, Sunburst, Applejack, Spike they all probably hate me. Starlight then collapses and starts to cry. Just like everyone else.

Luna said nothing and proceeded to walk next to starlight. She then layed down an put her wing over Starlight as a source of comfort. After another 10 minutes Starlight stopped crying.

I'm sorry princess this is my problem i shouldn't drag you into it.

Starlight you aren't dragging anypony into anything. We want to help. Miss Sparkle has already been reprimanded and has been forbidden from seeing you until you wake up and want to see her.

I jumped right infront of them ohh i am horrible.

No your not. says Luna as she lifts Starlight' head with her hoof. "Applejack, Spike, and Sunburst are waiting for you to wake. They are worried and they care about you don't doubt that."

After a moment of silence starlight asks How long has it been? How long until I'm awake?

"It's been a week. you've been in a medically induced coma to keep your body from further damage. Your body should be fully healed in another two weeks however when you wake is entirely up to you."

A week huh and another two til I'm healed...

Thank you Luna you've really helped and please tell the others it's not their fault.

Your very welcome and i will however now i must go, i wish you well Starlight Glimmer i will check on you again soon and remember your much stronger than you think. Luna said leaving through the moon.

One last thought goes through Starlight's head. "Can i forgive her?"

With twilight 12:45am

It's been a week since Starlight tried to kill herself and it's starting to affect me. Firstly Pinkie, Shining Armor, Applejack and Spike are more distant only talking to me when needed and my dreams are plagued with Starlight's bloody broken body on that hospital bed. However i can't understand why. I mean she tried to brainwash us destroy our lives and equestria. How am i the bad guy here? I know all that is undeniable so why when i think about it do i have a stabbing pain in my chest?

I can't stop thinking about the things said to me as i left.

You're terrible Twi.

Princess of friendship? You don't deserve a party or my friendship.

Your a failure, you'll help discord but you'll torment her? you don't deserve those wings.

No matter who it is you have an obligation and duty to help not harm especially as a princess mom and dad are ashamed of you as am I.

Fluttershy and Rarity both agree i did wrong but haven't abandoned me yet, though they keep there distance too which i understand. I still appreciate them sticking around.

Uugghh this isn't helping. Twilight says to herself as she walks upstairs and lays down in bed. However she is unable to sleep her brain still swerling with problems.

Once asleep her night was once again filled with nightmares just like the days before.

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