Olivia sat in the dark snivelling.
She waited all night for him to come back.
At about 5am, she gave up on him coming back and headed to bed.
She laid in bed and twisted and turned until she decided to get up at 7.
She woke ginger up for a short walk.
When she was done walking her, she quickly went back to her apartment.
She was about to shower, but decided to try calling him, maybe he would pick up.
It went straight to voicemail.
Once she was done showering, she headed to her closet to get dressed.
She picked out her Max Mara white skinny pants with the matching blazer, she wore her Stella McCartney grey duster coat and a grey jimmy choo heels. She decided to wear her hair straight.
She grabbed her Gucci Dionysus bag and headed out.
She knew she needed to go see him, but she was a little scared of what he might say once he saw her.
He was mad but she wouldn't change the fact that she did it. She didn't regret the abortion, but she regretted getting her tubes tied.
She honestly didn't even know why she did it, she was just sad about the whole situation she found herself in. She also didn't believe Fitz would ever leave Mellie for her so she didn't think he would ever get the chance to have a child with her because she certainly wasn't going to have a bastard child by him. She didn't want that for her baby and that's exactly what her baby would have been, so she didn't regret the abortion.
She thought it was best to go to the white house before she headed to OPA.
She got there a little after 9, she knew he would be in the oval by that time, so she headed straight there.
Once she was outside the office, she saw Lauren.
"Is he in." She asked as she walked to the door.
"Yes Ma'am, he's in." Lauren answered quickly.
Olivia took a deep breath and walked in, she knew as soon as they started arguing the tears would start flowing..
He was looking through the window with a glass of scotch in his hand.
He didn't look angry, he looked sad.
He didn't acknowledge her.
She walked over to him, as she got closer, he turned his back towards her.
"You can't just ignore me we have to talk about this." she said softly as held on to his arm.
He still didn't respond to her.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." She said softly.
He wouldn't budge.
"I didn't do it for the reasons you think." She sniveled .
For the first time since she entered the room Fitz spoke.
"I never realized how much you hate me." Fitz said like it was the most obvious thing in the world, his voice was just above a whisper.
"Don't say that, I don't hate you." She was offended he would even think that way.
"You must, because if the thought of having my child disgusted you so much that on top of having an abortion, you got your tubes tied so it could never happen again, then you must hate me." The agony clear in his voice.
"That's not true, that's not why I did it." She was trying to get him to face her.
"Then why the fuck did you do it Olivia. You sat there and had your tubes tied and don't not tell me,I stood right here and told you I wanted two babies with you and you said yes when you knew the whole time that you had your tubes tied.!" He screamed so loud it frightened Olivia.
She stepped back.
"You were married Fitz, I was never going to have your child while you were still married to her, I didn't want that for our baby, I didn't want our baby to be labelled president Grant's bastard baby for the rest of his or her life, that wouldn't be fair to our child." her voice was full of emotion.
"If you told me, I would have resigned and you know that." he turned to face her for the first time.
"Exactly, and then I would have had the bastard baby that made the president resign, how is that any better." she said quietly.
As much as Fitz hated it, he could understand why she would do it. What he didn't understand was why she tied her tubes.
"And tying your tubes, what was your reason for that?" Fitz asked angrily.
"After I had the abortion, I don't know, but I was really angry with you, I just, I didn't put much thought into it, I just hated myself and the situation I was in, I never thought we would get back together and I never thought you would leave mellie, so I decided that in that moment I never wanted to have kids again, so I did it." she said quietly.
She waited for a moment, when he didn't say anything, she began again.
"I want you to know that aborting our child, wasn't something I did lightly, I thought about every option, over and over again, none of them was without consequence for our child, so I don't regret my decision, but I do regret getting my tubes tied, I've regretted it everyday since I've done it and I'll reverse it, if that's what you want"
She waited for him to say something, when he didn't, she sighed in frustration and headed to the door.
"Olivia" Fitz called. He was still looking through the window.
She stopped in front of the door.
"Reverse it, because if you don't, I will never to touch you again."
Fitz could be so mean sometimes, she hated when he spoke to her like that.
She made her way out the office without another word.
When Lauren saw her, she widened her eyes.
Olivia thought that she most likely overheard their conversation.
"Excuse me." Lauren said softly.
Olivia turned around to face her.
"Your mascara, Ms. Pope"
Olivia opened her bag, and grabbed her compact mirror.
She gasped.
Her eyes were puffy and red and her mascara was running.
"Thank you Lauren, I would have been walking around like a complete mess." she smiled halfheartedly and headed to the nearest bathroom to fix her face.
Once she was in the bathroom, she got some wet tissues to dab under eyes and she touched up her makeup.
When she was done, she took a few deep breaths and then headed back out.
She walked right into Cyrus.
"Liv" he shouted and hugged her.
"Cy, what's the occasion" she was a little confused as to why he was hugging her.
"What do you mean, what's the occasion, you almost got blown to pieces yesterday." Cyrus scolded,
Olivia forgot all about what happened at the capital yesterday.
"Oh yea, I almost forgot." she said apathetically.
"You're crazy! Listen, I'm going to see Fitz, why don't you come with me, even though I'm pretty sure you were headed there anyways and then we can grab some breakfast, I'm starving." Cyrus said as he began walking.
"I wouldn't go in there if I were you Cy." She said as she tried to catch up with him.
"What, why?"
"We're in the middle of a big fight and he's really angry, which means the minute you walk in there, he's going to unleash hell on you."
Cyrus wrinkled his forehead.
"I'm so tired of you two and your drama, I don't really feel like being his punching bag right now, so let's just go eat." Cyrus sighed.
They headed out the breakfast cafe' that was a few blocks from the white house and grabbed their usual breakfast pick and then headed to the park bench to talk.
"So, what did he do this time" Cyrus sighed.
"It was me this time." she said as she took a sip of tea.
"You?" cyrus asked surprised.
"Yea." she answered.
"What did you do?" Cyrus asked.
Olivia took a deep breath.
"I got my tubes tied and he found out."
"Woah, so I might as well avoid him for the whole year, is what you're saying?"
"Yea, he's really mad and he's not saying any because I think after the whole defiance thing, he doesn't to say anything he'll regret, which is good, because the last time he said some really horrible things" she said.
"Why did you do it, you know Fitz wants kids with you?"
Olivia decided not to tell him about the pregnancy.
"We weren't together at the time, I still don't know what I was thinking, he wants me to do the reversal procedure though."
"Well, are you?" he asked.
"Do I have a choice?" she smiled but it didn't reach her eyes.
"Well don't do it until after Ella's christening on Sunday." he matter of factly.
Olivia's eyes opened wide.
Cyrus shook his head.
"You did not forget!" Cyrus said in disbelief.
"You did not forget Olivia!"
"I didn't forget, I just thought it was next sunday." Olivia braced herself for an over reaction from Cyrus.
"Liv, what am I going to do with you." Cyrus said shaking his head.
"Don't worry, I'll be there." she kissed him on the cheek and hurried away with Bob her detail following behind her closely.
By the time she got to the office it was almost 12pm.
She had a busy work day, Abby took the day off, so she worked with Harrison on a few clients until it was was 5:30 in the evening. As usual Huck and Quinn did their own thing.
She decided to call her doctor, to set up an appointment to talk about the reversal surgery.
She set up an appointment for monday morning, the day after the the christening.
She spent a few more hours, answering emails and making sure everything was in order.
She called Fitz a few times throughout the day, put he didn't pick up.
At about 8, she headed home.
She took a shower and made some wine and popcorn.
When she was done eating, she went to her bedroom and laid down waiting to see if Fitz would come home, she was there for a few hours until she gave up and fell asleep.
The next morning she woke up, bathed and got ready for work like she usually did.
She called Fitz but he still didn't pick up.
She worked a full day and came home after 8, she ate her wine and popcorn, waited for Fitz and then went to bed.
She followed this routine for the rest of the week.
On saturday, she headed to 'Le lieu de la robe' her favourite boutique to get something for Ella's christening, she brought Ginger along with her to also shop for some accessories for her.
Once they got to the store Olivia, started looking at some Kate spade puppy supplies, because she couldn't figure out what she wanted to wear to the christening.
After shopping for Ginger for about half an hour, she decided that she wanted to wear something white, since she was Ella's godmother.
She shopped with the sales lady for a few hours, trying different dresses until she found the one.
She loved it, it was a Stella Mccartney bardot white crepe dress that had long sleeves. It was fitted and reached right under her knee. She loved how it had a pearl and diamond embellishment detail sewed at the waist.
Once she was done, she went to the salon and got her hair and nails done.
She took Ginger to her appointment at the doggie spa and then headed home.
Ginger was tired from walking around all day, so she headed straight to her mat to sleep.
Olivia took a bath and got dressed in her pajamas.
She realized she hadn't eaten all day, so she decided to order some chinese take out. She ordered chicken wings and french fries, and decided to watch the news as she waited for the food to arrive.
Fitz's face was plastered on every news channel, everyone wanted to know when he was announcing his re-election campaign, if he was running for re-election and who would be running his re-election campaign.
She turned it off, she didn't even want to think about that right now.
She waited in silence for about 30 minutes until the delivery man knocked. She ate quickly and then headed to bed.
When Olivia woke up the next morning she was feeling very anxious.
She knew Fitz was going to be there and after ignoring her for a whole week, she was annoyed with him and wasn't looking forward to seeing him.
She started to get ready for the christening, it started at 10am and it was already 8:30.
She showered quickly and tried to decide which shoes to wear.
She wore her hair long and wavy with dewy makeup with a light pink lip gloss.
She decided to pair her dress with her Alaia pom pom heels in the blush pink color.
Once she was done, she looked over her appearance in the mirror and headed out. She didn't want to drive so she asked Bob to drop her.
Once she got to the church, she saw the motorcade parked up so she knew he was already in the church. She took a deep breath and got out of the car and walked inside the church.
Fitz was standing there with Karen and Gerry, Olivia was shocked, she had no idea they came to visit. She was walking down the aisle, as soon as Karen and Gerry saw her, they sprinted towards her. They crashed into her so hard she almost fell.
"Liv." They both screamed joyously.
"Hey guys, your father didn't tell me you were coming to town and you guys didn't call me either." she laughed.
"We wanted to surprise you" Gerry said.
They were practically fighting each other to hug her.
"You guys are huge, how much have you grown since I last saw you, Gerry you're almost as tall as your father and Karen you're gorgeous, I bet all the boys must be going crazy at school."
Karen was blushing and Gerry still hadn't let go of her.
"Liv, I'm so glad you're here." Karen said as she jumped with excitement.
"Dad told me you have a teacup puppy. Is that true" Karen with wide eyes.
"Yea it's true, her name is Ginger." Olivia laughed.
"That is such a cute name,Can I meet her please please please." Karen begged with puppy dog eyes.
"Sure, but you have to ask your father"
"Dad said I could go as long as it's okay with you."
"Okay, I can take you to go see her later."
"Yes" Karen screamed and hugged Olivia again.
"Geez Gerry let her go, you're gonna mess up her dress." Karen scolded.
Gerry let go.
Even though Gerry was 14 and Karen was 11, Karen was the more authoritative of the two.
Fitz was at the front of the church, he couldn't help but smile when he saw how Olivia interacted with his kids.
He also couldn't believe how beautiful she looked in the dress she was wearing, "No wonder Gerry could keep his hands off of her" he thought to himself.
Olivia walked down the aisle, with Karen holding one hand and Gerry the other.
Once she got the stage, she greeted Fitz.
"Mr. President." She said as she saw Cyrus and James heading their way.
The kids headed to their seats and everyone was getting in order to start the ceremony.
"They know." He said as he turned to her.
"What?" Olivia was confused.
"The kids know about us, I told them last night so you don't have to act like that." He voice was friendly.
"I'm not sure how to act, you haven't spoken to me in a week." She retorted.
Fitz was about to say something but the orchestra began playing music, signaling the start of the ceremony.
She was still trying to process the fact that he told Karen and Gerry.
The ceremony flowed smoothly until it was time to hold baby Ella over the pulpit so the priest could bless her.
Fitz wouldn't stop staring at her, the whole time the priest prayed.
She stared back, he eyes were intense but not threatening and having baby Ella in front of them given the reason they were in the whole fight to begin with didn't help.
After what seemed to be the longest prayer ever, they finished the ceremony and gathered to share a drink and toast. Of course Karen and Gerry flocked to her side again. They kept her entertained with stories about school and all the while Karen gushed about her crushes, who seemed to change every week.
Fitz was not too far from them, listening to their entire conversation.
After about an hour of everyone mingling, Cyrus made his thank you speech and everyone was on their way out.
"So Liv, can we go see Ginger now" Karen asked excitedly.
"Yes, but we do have to figure out how we're going to get you to my apartment though." Olivia said.
"Karen and Gerry can ride with you, I'll add an extra car with agents to follow behind." Fitz said startling them, they didn't realize he was behind them.
"What about you dad, are you coming?" Gerry asked.
"You have to ask Olivia?" Fitz smiled because he knew she wasn't going to say no to Gerry.
"Can dad come?" Gerry asked.
"Of course, well order takeout and snacks and we can all watch movies and be couch potatoes for the night" Olivia smiled, she knew Fitz pulled that on purpose.
"Yess" Gerry exclaimed.
That was the most excitement she had seen from him all day.
They went back to Olivia's car. Fitz left first and Olivia and the kids followed shortly after.
When they got to the apartment, Fitz was already inside waiting for them.
Karen walked in and saw Ginger, she screamed and ran to her.
"She is soo cute, aren't you girl" Karen played with ginger while Gerry stood not too far away watching her.
"What do you guys want to eat." Olivia asked.
"Pizza" Gerry yelled.
"Burgers" Karen yelled.
Olivia smiled.
"How about both" she asked and they both nodded.
"Fitz, what about you?" She asked as she grabbed her phone.
"I'll have what you're having" he said a she kicked his shoes off and laid on the flat on the couch.
She started to take her shoes off.
"Oh my gosh Olivia, your shoes are so cute, I love them." Karen gushed.
"Thank you kare"
"Dad, can I get shoes like this" Karen asked hopefully.
Fitz sat up with an eyebrow raised.
"Can you walk in shoes like those"
Gerry started laughing in the background.
"Shut up Gerry, I can't walk in them but they're fun to have."
"They're still way to high for you karen, you're 11." fitz said.
Karen pouted.
"But they're so cute." Karen said as she sulked and put them down.
"Olivia where did you get those?" she asked as she turned all her attention back to Ginger.
"I got them a while ago when I went to new york on a shopping trip." Olivia said as she looked for the phone numbers to call the restaurants online.
"A shopping trip, that sounds like a dream" Karen said wantingly.
"Actually I'm going on another one in a few weeks with my best friend Abby, we're going to France ."
"Really, can I come?" karen asked nervously.
"I don't know if you father would let me take you out of the country kare, but I would love it if you could come" Olivia said hesitantly.
Karen walked over to the couch and dropped herself on Fitz and wrapped her hands around his neck.
"Daddy please please let me go, please, I'll be on the best behavior you've ever seen in your life, I promise." she begged.
Fitz pretended to ponder but he knew he was going to let her go.
After few moments of letting karen beg Fitz said yes.
For the next half hour while they waited for the food to be delivered, Karen couldn't stop talking about Paris.
They ate together and watched the Parent Trap, which Fitz dozed off during.
Everytime he fell asleep, Karen woke him up to show him something about the movie she thought was too interesting or funny for him to miss.
Olivia thought is was hilarious how Karen wouldn't allow Fitz to sleep and she loved how much she adored him.
When they finished watching parent trap, they watched a few more classic movies and ended the night with clueless, which both Fitz and Gerry couldn't keep their eyes open for.
"Okay karen, do you want to wake them or should I" Olivia said as the ending credits played.
Karen smiled mischievously.
"I'll do it." she jumped up and got some water from the kitchen and pour it slowly on Fitz and then Gerry.
Fitz jumped up but Gerry took a little longer.
"Oh come on" Fitz said half annoyed, half joking.
"Karen, you don't wanna start this game with me." Gerry warned playfully.
"Okay, Karen, you're sleeping in my room with me, Gerry you can sleep in the guest room with your father." Olivia instructed.
Everyone got up and headed to their rooms.
Olivia and Fitz still had barely spoken since they left the christening.
Karen brought Ginger to sleep in the bed with them, Olivia didn't mind she just didn't want to spoil ginger so she would get used to sleeping in the bed, she also gave Karen one of her pajama sets to sleep in.
Fitz and Gerry got in bed and fell asleep right away.
Olivia wanted to sleep but she realized Karen was still a little anxious.
"Kare, you okay" she asked.
"Yea, I just wanted to ask you something." She said nervously.
"Sure anything" Olivia was pretty sure she knew where this conversation was headed.
"Dad said he loves you, do you love him?"
She asked nervously.
"Yes, I love him a lot,you and your brother too." Olivia said truthfully.
Karen smiled widely.
"Good because we love you too and does this mean that I can come over more, like a lot more?"
"Of course, I get lonely here all by myself, I would love if you came over more."
"Okay great because I plan on being her all the time." Karen giggled.
"When I grow up, I want to be as smart as you and dress just like you."
Olivia smiled.
"Thank you Karen, that means a lot to me" Olivia said as she squeezed her hand gently.
Karen cuddled Ginger by her side and fell asleep soon after.
Olivia sat up thinking about her conversation with Karen for a little while then fell asleep.
The next morning Fitz was the first to get up.
He woke up Gerry and told him to get ready to leave because they had to catch their flight to get back to boarding school.
He went into Olivia's room and saw Olivia with Karen snuggled up under her arm.
It warmed his heart to see that because he knew Mellie would never do that and she was her mother.
He was about to wake them when Gerry burst into the room and jumped on Karen.
"Wake up kare, I told you I would get you back" Gerry laughed and bounced up and down on Karen.
Fitz was dying laughing.
"Gerry get off me, you animal" Karen screamed angrily.
Olivia heard all the noise and woke up too.
"It's a good thing you woke up Liv, because you were next." Gerry teased and got off the bed.
Olivia laughed.
Karen sat up and folded her arms and pouted.
Fitz picked her up and put her over his shoulder.
"Come on kare, you have to catch your flight back to school." Fitz said as he spun her around.
Olivia never saw Fitz like this with his kids before.
She was sorta sad that they had to go back to school after the long weekend, they were so much fun to be around.
Fitz had one one agents pick up breakfast for everyone.
Karen followed Olivia's every move, she even watched her get out the shower.
Olivia headed to her closet and Karen followed.
"Oh my god, this is your closet." Karen gushed.
"This old thing" Olivia tried to be modest.
Olivia went through her clothes to pick out her outfit for the day.
She knew she wasn't going to work today so she opted for something more casual.
She was going to be at the doctor for most of the day and then she would just work from home in the evening when she came back.
She threw on a pair of light wash Paige jeans and a cream oversized knit sweater by Burberry, she decided to wear her Stuart Weitzman black suede highland boots and her navy blue max Mara duster coat. She wore her hair up in a messy bun and grabbed her saint Laurent bag.
She was about to but some concealer on when heard someone walk in the closet.
"Girls, it's time to go" it was Fitz.
"Of course he didn't knock he probably wanted to catch me half naked" Olivia thought.
"One sec" Olivia said holding up her hand up.
"Liv, you look great but why are you dressed like that, aren't going to the office." Fitz asked confused.
"Karen can you give us a sec please." Olivia said to Karen.
"Sure Liv." Karen said as she took a pair of her shoes to try on outside.
Karen had been trying on everything she could get her hands on.
"I'm not going to the office today I have an appointment and then I'll finish up whatever work I have to do from here." Olivia said as she put her concealer on.
"An appointment? For what?" Fitz asked.
"I'm going to see my doctor to let her know that I want to reverse the procedure. You know if you had picked up the phone when I was calling you all week instead of ignoring me, you would have known that." Olivia said with attitude.
"You're really going to reverse it." Fitz asked doubtfully.
"I told you I was, why wouldn't I" Olivia answered.
Fitz pulled her in for a tight hug.
"I thought you weren't going to touch me until I reverse it." Olivia said sarcastically.
"Oh please, you know I can't keep my hands off you." He chuckled.
"Liv, I know I was pretty harsh when you told me what you did, but I want you to know that I understand why you did it, I might not agree with it, but I understand." Fitz said softly.
"You know Fitz, just because I'm untying my tubes that means I'm going to get pregnant any time soon. I'm going back on birth control."
"I hope you do, I will switch your birth control pills with vitamins and I bet you'll be pregnant by the end of the year." Fitz mocked.
"You not serious are you?" Olivia asked with her arms folded.
"Of course not… Or am I." Fitz joked.
Olivia was about to start arguing but Fitz kissed her.
Karen walked in simultaneously.
"Ewww, Gerry come look, they're kissing" Karen yelled out to Gerry as she wrinkled her nose.
Gerry ran into the walk in closet.
"Dad, come on, you're such a show off." Gerry complained.
Fitz laughed.
"Okay, is everyone ready?" Fitz asked loudly.
"Yep" Karen said loudly.
"Ms Pope are you ready." Fitz asked as he kissed her cheek.
Olivia nodded
"Dad come on" Gerry said annoyed.
"Suck it up Gerry." Fitz teased as they walked out the closet.
Olivia knew Gerry had a crush on her when he was smaller but she assumed he grew it out.
She thought is was funny to see Gerry turned red whenever his father showed her any affection.