I groaned looking at the large plastic jar in the large layout room on one of the tables. I didn't know what was inside, but it looked disgusting. It reminded me of the time Grissom had Greg give him a stool sample. I cringed glancing at it before laying a map out of the far table circling different areas.
Russell came in smiling at me snapping on gloves walking over to the jar. He opened it and I had to take a breath and hold it. The smell was horrible. He looked inside then with large tongs he stirred the liquid around putting the lid back on. He took his gloves off waving at me before leaving.
I took a breath still smelling the strong odor. I decided to leave taking the map to another room. I walked to Grissom's office. He hung up his phone seeing me come in leaving the door open. He sniffed the air as I sat down in a chair infront of his desk.
"Sewage?"
"Russell is turning into you. He has this jar in the large layout room that smells horrible." I said
"Is that bad that he is like me?" He asked
I shook my head holding it in my hand.
"No, but whatever he put in there is horrible."
He chuckled writing on a paper.
"You're in lab month is almost done. You can go to scenes soon."
"I am so happy." I said
He smiled a little watching me.
"What?" I asked
"Nothing, your being adorable today." He said
"Aww, that's so sweet." I said
"I am going to throw up from all this sweetness." Brass said, as he stood in the door looking at us.
"Come in." Grissom said
I stood ready to leave.
"I'll leave." I said
"You can stay." Brass said, coming in to stand next to me. "Gil, what does the month look like for meetings."
Grissom went onto his computer at the side looking at the next month. Brass smiled at me putting his hand on my back scratching it.
"I have meetings starting on the May 1st at 5:00 and then it continues every Monday at the same time till the end." Grissom said, facing us again.
"Send it to me, will you?" Brass asked
"All right."
Brass sighed looking at his watch on his wrist then he looked at me.
"Gotta go." He said
I watched him go then I looked at Grissom.
"I better go to." I said
"Sara?"
I turned looking at him.
"Yeah?"
He blew me a kiss and I smiled leaving.
I didn't see Grissom after that. Russell told me I could start the next night on a scene. I did a cartwheel in the hallway excitedly running yelling. Grissom waited for me after shift. I ran down the hallway stopping right beside him. He frowned at me putting his hand around my waist leading me outside.
"Why are you so happy?" He asked, as he slid into the car.
"I am working a scene next shift!" I said
"Good." He said, turning the engine on.
We went home and I was too excited to sleep. Grissom went to sleep as I went to the living room eating a sandwich watching TV. When Grissom woke, I was still watching TV looking exhausted, but I was so happy that I didn't care. We went to work, and Russell had a scene for me. I went to a junk yard where Brass was waiting.
"There is a body in a barrel with oil." He said, as we walked to a black metal barrel by some others. "Some men came to get them and found this guy."
I looked in seeing the top of the victim's head. The barrel was filled with oil. I sighed knowing this was going to be a messy job. I had the morgue guys take the guy out putting him on a mat. He was locked in a crouching position. I took a picture and then went in search of identification finding none. Putting on some coveralls I walked up to the barrel getting some long gloves on I put my hand inside trying to feel for a wallet. I concentrated not able to touch the bottom. Some junk yard workers were laughing somewhere as I continued to hunt.
"Hey sweetheart, need help?" A man asked
I ignored him thinking I felt something.
"I can help her." Another man said
They were laughing as the one man came over lifting me up making me fall into the oil headfirst. I screamed then sank into the goo. Brass heard my scream running over with his gun out seeing the men laughing and me with my legs sticking up struggling.
"Get away from her!" Brass shouted, aiming his gun at the men. "You! Help her out!"
The man who pushed me in lifted me out. I got the wallet unable to breathe because of the oil on my face. I wiped it off seeing what was going on.
"Sara, you okay?" Brass asked, having his men arrest the guy that pushed me in.
"I got the wallet!" I said
He watched me wipe more goo off my face then I opened it looking inside. Later, I walked into the lab still in the coveralls holding evidence bags. Grissom and Russell were talking in the hallway seeing me.
"What happened to you?" Russell asked
"It was great!" I said, walking past.
They both looked at each other then back at the direction I went.
Grissom chuckled at the story I told him about the scene as we drove home. He got us inside the house and kissed me. I moved away as he smiled a little touching my cheek with his hand.
"You never cease to amaze me." He said
I smiled before walking to the bedroom. He shook his head going to the kitchen. I slept against him as his phone went off a couple of hours later. Grissom sighed waking grabbing his phone.
"Grissom." He said, closing his eyes.
"If you don't want your wife to be buried in oil then tell her to drop this case." The voice said
Grissom opened his eyes sitting up awake.
"Who is this?"
A click told him that the person hung up. He looked at his phone seeing it was a fake number. He looked at me sleeping beside him. Grissom was reserved the next day. I went about the case as he disappeared. He appeared later knocking on the lab door I was working in.
"Hey, where have you been?" I asked, looking at a hammer I found at the junk yard ground not far from the barrel.
"I was talking to Brass and Russell." He said "Are you okay?"
"Yes, are you?" I asked, looking at him.
"I am fine." He said
I smiled looking down.
"That is my line." I said
He smiled a little looking at me.
"What's going on?" I asked, walking over to him.
"Nothing." He said
"Your acting weird.' I said
"Whatever is happening should not worry you." He said
"Grissom?"
He slid his hands on my arms searching my eyes.
"Your very beautiful."
I gave him a confused look.
"Your scaring me now." I said, moving back to the table. He chuckled leaving.
I decided to go back to the scene. I told Russell I was going. When I got there a cop and Brass were there waiting.
"Dad, what are you doing here?" I asked, getting out of the Tahoe with my case.
"I didn't have anything else to do." He said, watching me walk over.
"What is going on?" I asked
"Nothing is." He said
I stared at him a moment then walked past him with a flashlight. He motioned the cop to be on guard as he walked closely with me along the area.
"Grissom is acting weird and so are you."
"No more than usual." He said
I laughed stopping to face him.
"Tell me what is going on."
Brass looked at me sighing.
"Someone made a threat towards you. They don't want you investigating this case."
"That's it?"
"Yes, Grissom is just protecting you."
"I wish he would have told me." I said
"He didn't want to worry you."
I shook my head walking again. Brass walked over and stopped watching me look around. He looked back at his officer then back at me.
"Nothing." I said "It doesn't make sense."
I walked up to Brass looking around.
"I can't find anything."
"Maybe it was a hit." Brass said
"I think so to, but you would think there would be a fingerprint or something."
Brass nodded. We walked back to the vehicle.
"Going back to the lab?" He asked
"I suppose." I said
He touched my arm.
"Don't be mad."
"I'm not mad." I said
He hugged me then watched me get into the Tahoe. I drove away scratching my head frustrated because of the lack of evidence. I turned down the road leading towards the strip when a large truck swerved towards me. I quickly swerved out of the way as it swerved again causing me to lose control. My vehicle rolled down a ravine as I screamed. It stopped twisted and broken. I laid on the ground away from the wreckage. I coughed moving my head looking up the hill seeing flashing lights. I slowly moved my body feeling pain in places.
"Sara!" Brass yelled
"I'm here!" I shouted, coughing as I stood. Brass ran down scared.
"Honey, are you okay?!" He asked
"Yes." I said "I had my seat belt on and it broke throwing me out of the window."
He hugged me against him as I closed my eyes.
"Did you see the truck?" I asked
"Yes, I put a call in. I called an ambulance."
"No need I am fine." I said
"Let me look at you!" He said
"Dad, honestly I am okay." I said "Don't tell Grissom."
"Honey." He said
"Don't tell him." I said
He slowly nodded helping me up the hill. He took me back to the lab and I walked slowly inside. Grissom met me at the front desk after shift. He didn't say a thing about the accident, so I assumed Brass did what I wanted and didn't tell him. Russell appeared looking struck.
"Sara, are you okay? I just heard what happened." He said, looking me over.
"What happened?' Grissom asked
"Brass phoned me telling me that a large truck went after Sara on the road and her Tahoe rolled down a ravine."
Grissom looked at me with alarmed eyes. I sighed knowing this was going to be bad.
"Why didn't anyone tell me about this?" He asked
"I'm fine." I said
He got his phone out going outside. I looked at Russell nodding to him before leaving. Grissom was yelling into his phone when I joined him. I knew it was my dad on the other end. He hung up coming to me.
"Grissom, I am fine." I said
He touched my face and then my arms looking at me all over.
"You didn't have to yell at dad."
He came closer kissing me. I moaned as he slowly moved his soft lips over mine. I moved back and he pulled me closer. I could not get any closer. He moved back opening his eyes looking into mine.
His hand went to my cheek cupping it.
"You really like me, don't you?" I asked
He didn't answer as he moved his fingers over my cheek. I closed my eyes moving my cheek into his hand. His lips went to my head as he sighed closing his eyes.
"It's amazing that you survived that unharmed." He said
"Let's go home." I said
"Hospital first." He said
"No, I am fine." I said
"Hospital." He said
I groaned as he led me to the car. We sat in the emergency room waiting to be looked at. I was told I had broken ribs. They wrapped them and we were sent home.
"They wrote you out a prescription." He said, as we drove.
"I don't need it." I said
"Sara, you will need these pills."
"No, I hate pills."
We got home and he was unusually silent. He took me into the bedroom taking my shirt undoing the wrap to look at the dark bruising on my stomach.
"I didn't even feel them." I said
His hand went to them.
"You're in shock." He said
I nodded shivering looking down at his hand carefully going over the bruises. He wrapped me up tightly. I crawled into bed. I started to feel pain on my side. When I woke the next day, the pain was terrible. I decided to act as if nothing was wrong so not to worry Grissom. I took some old pain killer pills I had for a broken wrist a year ago. Grissom watched me walk out of the bedroom.
"Ready to go?" I asked
"I am, but I don't think you should go." He said
"Nonsense." I said, getting a takeout mug for coffee. I came back out looking at him in the living room then I walked to the front door. He gave up walking out with me.
Dad came to see me at break. I was holding my stomach as I walked over to the trash by the counter in the corner of the room throwing away my sandwich bag.
"Hey, how are you?" He asked
I turned looking at him letting my stomach go.
"Fine, don't tell Grissom you saw me holding my stomach."
He looked worried for a moment.
"You got checked out, right?" He asked
"We went to the hospital and they wrapped my ribs."
"Sara, if you're in pain you need to take something."
"I am fine."
"Honey, you could have really hurt yourself." He said
"Please just…. leave it alone." I said
He touched my arm.
"You two look serious." Grissom said, walking in to get some coffee.
"I was just telling dad about the case." I said
Grissom poured some coffee in a cup then he looked at us.
"How is the case?" Grissom asked
"On going." I said
Brass was silent as he rubbed my arm.
"Jim?"
"Hmm?" Brass said, looking over at Grissom. "What did you say?"
"The case?" Grissom asked
"Oh, we found the truck. I have the team checking it for prints."
"Good." Grissom said, walking out leaving us.
"Sara, promise me you will take it easy." He said, quietly.
I nodded hugging him.
"I love you." I said
"I love you, honey."
I left him to go to the morgue to see Doctor Robbins. He was taking off some bloody gloves when I came in.
"Sara, what brings you here?"
"A checkup."
"For who?" He asked
"Me."
"I just work on the dead, not the living." He said
"Can we make an exception? I need this to be between us."
He looked uneasy for a second.
"I don't want Grissom to worry." I said, coming closer.
"Why not go to the hospital?" He asked
"I did, but I need some pain pills?"
"Didn't the hospital prescribe some?"
"Yes, but I know there are others."
He motioned for me to have a seat in his desk chair by his desk. I walked over sitting down. He rolled another chair over sitting down infront of me.
I slowly lifted my shirt taking off the bandage showing him the horrible dark bruises on my stomach.
"Wow, this looks bad. How are you standing?" He asked
"Pain killers." I said
He reached over touching one and I winched.
"Sara, you should not even be here."
"Can you get me a prescription?" I asked, pulling down a shirt throwing the gauze away.
"What kind of pills are we talking here?"
"Please help me?"
He sighed getting out a prescription pad. He wrote out a pain killer than handed it to me.
"Our secret." I said
He watched me leave.
I walked out relieved feeling an ache already. I left to fill it then came back working. Brass invited us to eat after shift at his favorite diner up the street. I sat down across from Brass waiting for Grissom to come. I opened the pill bottle taking a pill drinking some water as dad looked at his phone. He put it down looking at me. I smiled sitting back looking back outside. Grissom came in joining us. I felt loopy realizing I should have just taken half of one. Grissom chuckled at Brass's story as I laid my head against his shoulder. Our food came and Grissom poked me to eat. I looked down at my food then I laid my head down on the table beside my plate on my arm.
"Must have been a tiring shift."
Grissom looked at me then nodded. He woke me to leave and then we walked out. Once in the car I put my head back on the headrest sleeping. He touched my hand then started the engine. We went home and he carried my limp body into the house. He put me into the bed.
He touched my cheek then took my shoes off. He removed my pants hearing a sound. As he looked at me, he reached into my pants pocket finding the bottle of pills. He looked at them.
I moved at two the next day feeling so sore and miserable. My clothes had been taken off and I was left in my bra and underwear. I went to bathe and dress for the day moving stiffly. I could not find my pills, so I took one of the ones I had for my wrist.
Grissom stood dressed drinking his customary cup of coffee at the desk in the living room. I walked over putting my hands around his waist.
"Hello." I said
"Hello." He said
I smiled laying my head on his back then I walked to the kitchen getting some coffee. I heard something as I poured coffee turning to see Grissom at the door leaning against it with my bottle of pills on the island.
I looked at them as he calmly looked at me. I drank some coffee reaching over taking the bottle placing it in my pocket looking at him. I walked out past him to the front door. He walked over without his coffee looking at me.
"Ready to go?" I asked
"No, not yet." He said
I swallowed not knowing what to expect.
"Are you going to yell?" I asked
He reached down taking the pills from my pocket.
"Where did you get those?" He asked
"I went back to the doctors and got some stronger pills." I said
He looked at them then at me.
"Do you know that these are hard to get?"
"I guess the doctor has a crush on me." I said
"I am throwing these away and getting you the one the doctor prescribed to you." He said "Who is this Robbins person?"
I looked down as he realized who it was.
"Oh no, tell me you didn't go to Robbins."
I looked at him.
"I asked him to help me."
"Sara!"
"It's not his fault. I begged him to help me."
"I am throwing these away and I will have a talk with him."
I watched him go to the kitchen. He came back without them then opened the door allowing me outside. My mind was obsessed about getting those pills out of the trash all shift. The pain of my injuries hit me as the second half of the shift came. I winched and groaned every time I had to bend over. Brass came down the hallway seeing I was getting a drink of water from the fountain. I turned and he saw beads of sweat on my forehead.
"Dad, can you drive me home for a moment?"
His hand went to my face.
"Your dripping in sweat."
"I forgot my pills the doctor gave me at home."
"You got the pills?"
"Yes, I need them."
He looked at his watch then he nodded. He drove me home and I made my way to the kitchen finding them in the trash. I broke one in half eating it. Brass watched me hop down the stairs of the house then jump into his car smiling.
"Better?" He asked
"Better, thanks."
"You need to remember to have those on you." He said, pulling out and driving.
"I know. I forgot." I said
"So, what did the doctor actually say?"
"A few broken ribs." I said
"Good." He said
We drove back and I went back to work. Grissom was busy with meetings and didn't recheck the trash when we got home. I threw out the trash so he wouldn't. I began taking more of them sometimes five a day as the weeks went by. I got more unable to stop.
Brass got a lead on the people that had made threats on my life. He brought a man in that was the boss that had put a hit out on the man in the barrel. Grissom relaxed knowing that he was behind bars.
Time went by quickly as we were all busy with scenes. The year passed and I was addicted to the pills I was taking. I secretly met with some man that helped me get them.
One night, Grissom pulled me to him in bed as he sighed closing his eyes. I moved in bed the next day seeing him smiling at me as he held his head up with his hand.
"How are you doing?" He asked
"Fine."
"I was watching you sleep." He said "You are perfect from head to toe."
"Have you been checking me out?" I asked
"Yes,
"You need to stop ogling my body while I sleep."
He chuckled looking me up and down.
"I can't help when I see something I like." He said
"What do you like?" I asked
"Everything so far."
I sat up laughing getting up feeling a sharp pain. I stood not turning around so Grissom could see my face.
"I'll be right back." I said, walking to the bathroom. He was watching me till I closed the door. I took out my bottle from under the sink with shaking hands and got a pill out swallowing. I sank down to the floor letting it work. I came back out seeing he was gone. He was on his phone looking at something on the computer at the desk when I came out walking over kissing his head. He never even acknowledged me. I gave up walking to the kitchen.
He still sat at the desk looking at the computer as I walked in. I sat on his lap putting my arms around his neck attacking his neck with my lips. He concentrated on the screen. It wasn't until I hit the spot that made him weaken. He moaned closing his eyes allowing me to continue my exploration.
"Problems?" I asked
"Yes, but that feels good." He said
I pressed my lips to the spot again.
"We have to get ready." He said
"I am not done yet." I said
He moved his head to the side.
"Brass told me they picked up a drug dealer." He said
"So?"
"He mentioned that a woman matching your description has been buying pills off him. Brass doubted him, but the man knew your name and he said you were wearing a CSI vest"
I stopped kissing his neck then I moved back watching him open his eyes looking into mine. I moved off him slowly as he grasped my arm.
"Obviously the man saw me and is making up a story." I said, trying to get my arm out of his firm hold.
"What reason would he do that for?" He asked
"I don't know. He could think that by mentioning my name he would get extra privileges." I said, getting my hand free.
He stood observing me.
"I should get ready." I said, walking into the bedroom. I went to my closet jumping when the bedroom door slammed. I turned seeing him standing near the door watching me.
"Sara, why would that man say he knew who you are?" He asked
"I don't know." I said
He walked over with fire in his eyes.
"What is going on?" He asked
I swallowed taking off my shirt I slept in putting a blue one on I got from my closet.
"Answer me!" He yelled
I jumped again wanting to run.
"Where are the pills?" He asked "You hid them somewhere."
"What are you talking about?"
He looked around the room then back at me.
"Sara, where are they?"
I silently looked at him.
"Tell me where they are?"
"I don't have them."
He went to myside of the bed opening the bedside table drawer looking through it. He took a bottle out looking at them. I watched him silently slipping into the bathroom getting them out from under the sink putting them in my bra then I came out. He closed the drawer looking at me.
"Are there more?" He asked "Where else have you hidden them?"
I dressed hurriedly. He walked over as I made it to the door.
"Grissom!" I cried, as he searched me feeling the bottle. He reached into my bra taking the bottle out. I looked at them in his hand then I tried to open the door causing him to shut it blocking my escape. He flexed his jaw looking at me.
"I knew you were acting differently." He said
"What are you going to do?" I asked
"How long has this been going on?" He asked
"I…. a year."
He looked at me in surprise.
"Grissom, when things are bad, I just take them and…." I said, stopping as I looked at him.
He looked at me scared.
"Please just give them to me and pretend you never saw them." I said, whispering.
"Sara, I will not do that! You have a problem."
"No, it's not a problem!"
"Your ribs are healed!"
"You don't understand!" I said, as I walked around the room. "Life is hard for me. Work is hard. I need them to take the edge off."
"You are talking like an addict." He said
I just looked at him feeling tears go down my cheek. He walked over sitting on the bed looking at the bottles.
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know." He said, looking at the bottle. "I don't know what to do."
"Grissom…. please?" I said
He didn't say a thing. I stood leaving the room. I went to the spare bedroom locking the door then I laid on the bed crying. Grissom went to work leaving me. He walked into Brass's office putting the bottles on his desk.
"That guy was telling the truth?"
Brass frowned taking the bottles looking at them.
"Where is she?"
"Home. Locked in the spare bedroom." Grissom said
Brass put the bottle on his desk.
"What are you going to do?"
"I don't know."
"Why don't you let me talk to her?" Brass said "I know all about this sort of thing."
"All right."
I slept in the bed winching at the pain in my stomach. I woke sweating needing a pill. I winched trying to find them then I realized that Grissom had them. I put my arms over my stomach crying as the pain intensified. Someone came in the house and I attempted to stand. I heard a knock at the door, and I unlocked it falling to the floor. The door opened as Brass came in.
He knelt down picking me up taking me to the bed. I shivered feeling blankets come over me. He sat on the bed touching my head.
"D…dad."
"Ssh, it's going to be all right. You're just going through withdrawal."
I moved my head wishing I had a pill. He held my hand as I moved around.
"Sara, you know my story. You know about my addictions. I went through it all. The pain and the tremors. I was a mess. Here you are going through the same thing."
I listened as I kept my eyes closed.
"The worst is yet to come, baby." He said "You have to be strong and fight this."
He touched my head and cheek as I moved winching and crying.
"It's not worth losing everything I lost. You are a strong woman. You can do this."
I felt bile come up my throat. I pulled myself to the side throwing up on the floor. Brass moved as I did so. I collapsed back on the bed not moving. He leaned over me touching my neck then he stood back looking at me.
Grissom wiped my head with a cold cloth later. I laid on our bed breathing slowly. Brass left to check in as Grissom took over. I was white and glistening with sweat. He wiped my cheek and I moved swallowing. I didn't open my eyes as he moved the cold cloth back watching me.
"Dad?" I said, weakly.
"It's me, Sara." Grissom said
I opened my eyes seeing him.
"Where is dad?"
"He went to the station. Would you rather see him?"
I touched his hand with mine shaking my head.
"I'm sorry." I said
"Your dad talked to me and I realized that I can't be mad at you. I love you and want to help you."
I closed my eyes opening them seeing him.
"You have every right to be mad." I said
"No, this is not your fault. Addiction is hard to deal with." He said, wiping my head again.
I closed my eyes enjoying the feel of a cold cloth on my skin. Grissom watched me turn in the bed curling up in pain. I screamed shaking as he tried to help me. Brass came later hearing about the terrible pain I had. He sat on the bed pulling me up against him. I laid my head on his shoulder as he rubbed my back.
"It's almost over, honey." He said
I moaned praying that I would be able to be strong.
"The pain is almost over." He said
I felt it coming back Brass moved back as I lifted my head letting it fall back as I screamed holding myself. Brass set me down as I moved thrashing around. He held me trying to be a comfort. Grissom came in seeing us.
"Gil, get some water and a sleeping pill. She can sleep through this!" Brass said
I screamed more thrashing violently as Grissom went to get the pill and water. He came back seeing that Brass was holding me against him rocking me back and forth.
"Ssh, it's over." He said
Grissom gave him the pill.
"Take this." Brass said, as I lifted my head moving my mouth to the side to not take the pill. "Sara, it's okay. It's just to help you sleep."
"Mmm." I moaned, moving away.
Brass sighed putting me down on the bed putting the pill in my mouth. He then lifted my head to drink the water. I swallowed then I moved crying as the pain shot right through me.
"Just let the pill work." Brass said
He rubbed my back as I cried. He looked at Grissom who was sadly watching me. He lifted me up again rocking me back and forth. I felt the pain start to go away.
"It will be over soon." He said
I started to cry against him shaking as the pain came back. It slowly started to go away leaving me drained and to weak to fight. Dad was a huge comfort at that time. He kept holding me rubbing my back.
"Just let it come." He said
I relaxed feeling sleepy. He gently lowered me back and then stood putting the blankets over my body. He sighed relieved as he looked at me. He walked out of the bedroom keeping it open seeing Grissom holding his head standing in the living room.
"She's sleeping." Brass said
Grissom turned seeing him.
"Good." Grissom said
"Gil, I am here for you as much as Sara. If you need to talk, I have time."
Grissom smiled a little at his friend grateful to have him.
"Make some coffee." Brass said, smiling as well.
I slept moaning a little in my drug induced sleep as they talked in the other room. It was late when they wrapped it up. Brass walked back into the bedroom checking on me then he went out. Grissom changed coming in climbing into bed beside me watching me in the dim light. He touched my hand at my side closing his eyes. I moved later whimpering as Grissom woke holding me against him.
"Your almost over the hurdle." He said
"No….No!" I cried
"You need to fight." He said
"Hurts!"
He kissed my head holding me against his chest. I calmed down breathing in and out deeply. I went back to sleep moving away from him.
Grissom rolled over waking seeing that it was daytime. He stretched opening his eyes seeing me still lying beside him. He lifted his head in concern as I was almost gray looking. He leaned over me touching my neck feeling a faint pulse. He sighed relieved looking down at me.
"Sara honey." He said, caressing my cheek with his thumb.
He lifted up one of my eyes then sat back watching my chest rise and fall slowly. A knock on his door distracted him. He went to answer it seeing Brass holding two coffees and a bag.
"Coffee and bagels." He said
"Thank you." Grissom said, taking one of the coffees.
"Well, how is she?" Brass asked, placing the bag on the island in the kitchen.
"She looks bad. I think she's okay." Grissom said
"Let's take a look." Brass said
Grissom followed him into the bedroom watching the older man walk around the bed sitting on my side touching my wrist and my head.
"I think the worst is over." He said
I moved at the sound of his voice. They both silently watched me as I opened my eyes a little.
"Dad?" I said, weakly.
He squeezed my hand smiling at me.
"Hey."
"Where's…Grissom?"
"I'm here." Grissom said, walking over.
"How do you feel?" Brass asked
"Dying." I said, closing my eyes.
"You will for a time. Your going to get better." He said, leaning over kissing my head.
I opened my eyes again as he sat back.
"Are you leaving?" I asked
"I have to go to work soon." He said
"I…am sticky." I said
"You can have a bath." Grissom said
"I need to go now. I'll check on you later." Brass said, standing letting my hand go.
I felt his loss when he left. Grissom came back in walking to the bathroom. I heard water being run then he came out carefully lifting me up in his arms. I let him undress me then he gently placed me in the hot water. It felt so good. I watched him get a washcloth as he knelt at the side of the tub. He washed me then helped me out putting a shirt of his over me carrying me back to the bed. I felt so much better.
He sat on the bed as I held his hand resting. I got up the next day still very weak. I held onto things as I walked. Grissom was going to go to the lab. I heard him moving around in the next room. I held onto the doorway pleased that I made it this far. Grissom came into the living room looking cute. He stopped seeing me.
"Sara, you need to stay in that bed."
"I need to move around." I said
"I made some soup for you. It's cooling on the stove."
"No thank you." I said, carefully walking over to the couch. He watched me sit down then lie back. He walked over putting some pillows behind me and a blanket over my legs. "Grissom?"
"Hmm?" He said, standing up beside the couch.
I patted the couch and he sat down.
"You take such good care of me."
"I could do more." He said
"I just wanted to thank you. I know I am not that easy to live with."
"You're not, but I have grown accustomed to your habits." He said
I smiled weakly looking down. He made me raised my head putting his hand on my chin. He moved closer kissing me. He moved closer putting his hands on my arms then moved them to my back. I kept my eyes closed as he moved back taking a breath.
"I need to go to the lab." He said
I nodded opening my eyes laying back. He stood hesitating then he left. I sighed contented.
A week later I was in the lab. Russell had me on strict lab duty. Dad met me at my break in the hallway. He led me to Grissom's office to talk with him about a concern. I stood beside him feeling his arm come around my waist. He led me outside in the hallway kissing my head.
"You got some color back." He said
I hugged him.
"You okay?" He asked
"I don't know."
He moved back searching my eyes.
"I feel sad."
"You feel sad because you have stopped doing something bad. I felt the same way. You can't rely on pills to take the pain away." He said, pushing my hair back from my face. "Honey, if you ever want to talk, I am here, and so is Grissom."
I nodded letting him kiss my cheek before walking away. Grissom looked up as I came in shutting the door walking over straddling his body. I searched his eyes then I laid against his him putting my head on his shoulder. He put his arms around me moving his lips to my neck. I looked at the computer as he moved my hair back getting better access.
"Do you forgive me?" I asked, moving back to look at him.
"For what? Did you break something?" He asked, concerned.
"I meant for the pills."
"I told you I did."
"I know, but I get the feeling you haven't."
He slowly moved standing lifting me up on his desk.
"Listen to me. I am only saying this once. Yes, I was very hurt that you chose this path, but I soon realized that you were crying out for help and I never even noticed. I blamed myself for a while then it just left me. All the anger and distrust. Now I just love you even more than I did. I want to protect you and take care of you. Do you understand what I am saying?"
I nodded as he stood infront of me.
"This is not going to come between us. I love you." He said
I reached over touching his shirt as he touched my cheeks.
"I need to go to work." I said
He realized what time it was and let me go. I jumped off his desk walking to the door. Grissom cleared his throat sitting down in his chair. I stopped at the door thinking then I looked back at him. He looked at a paper before signing it. I slowly walked over to him.
"Grissom?"
"Hmm?" He answered, looking at another paper.
"Grissom!" I said
This time he put the paper down looking up at me.
"Yes?"
"Stand up a minute." I said
He gave me a confused look then he scooted his chair back standing facing me.
"What?"
I smiled a little before grabbing his face with my hands pulling him forwards till my lips hit his. I gave him a kiss that he would never forget. He slowly put his arms around me moving his hands around my back. He was not prepared for such a passionate kiss. I thought mine would fall off as I pushed harder moving my hand in his hair. A knock at the door caused him to groan in my mouth. I kept him centered continuing to kiss him.
The door opened as Catherine came in.
"Gil, you need to…." She said, stopping as she saw us.
Grissom moved his head looking at her as he moved back looking shell shocked.
"Sorry to intrude." She said, smiling.
Grissom cleared his throat letting me go as I smiled moving away.
"I should go." I said, walking to the door. I looked back at Grissom seeing he was still recovering. Catherine chuckled at the state of his hair. He fixed it with his hands sitting down.
I walked out smiling leaving him to recover.
After shift was over, I waited for him outside. He came out walking over carrying keys. He opened the car door for me.
"Sara?"
"Yes?" I asked, looking at him.
"I…."
"I enjoyed it to, Gris." I said
He watched me get into the car watching as he shut the door. He got in on the other side looking at me.
"Let's go home." I said
He nodded sitting back starting the engine.