Chapter 11: 'Locked away'
PAST.
Elena was simply tired of crying , of being deceived and lied to, she didn't know what was going around her, Enzo had his arms wrapped around her as she cried into his chest. All she could think of was Friday night. She was so happy. Everything was so beautiful that night and now all it was , was a nasty lie.
She parted from his chest , "I am okay."
He cupped her face , "Elena I am so sorry for everything."
She removed his hands from her face , "Enzo I need some time. Please just leave me alone."
He frowned , "Why are you doing this Elena? Why are you crying over that son of a bitch?"
"Enzo I don't wanna talk about it , don't make me remind you what your 'girls' did to me , I know what Damon did , don't act like you played no part in spreading the word." She spat. She pulled away from his embrace and walked away from the corridor with people talking about her.
When she went home her eyes were red from crying all day. To her surprise Grayson was home. He heard her enter and walked to meet her before she could go upstairs, "Elena."
She immediately looked down hiding her face , "Dad uh , you're home."
"Yes I had a half day , you don't look so good, Is something wrong honey?" he asked trying to look at her face.
"No. I had a rough day at school. Its just work stress." She sighed.
"Okay come here." He guided her to the living room "sit."
She was already scared , what if Grayson knew?
"What's wrong?" she asked in a soft voice trying to appear normal.
"Baby you know I want the best for you, remember me and your mother decided in favor of that center back when you were a kid. Well you're still a kid but don't you think it's about time." He said politely.
"Dad I went there and tried it, that place still gives me nightmares, only I know how I managed to call mom , please don't make this decision , I am getting better." She tried to convince
"Well I can't see any progress Elena, Me and your mother spent all our lives trying to make sure you were okay , now it's time you stood up on your own two feet and tackle this." He huffed, "It doesn't mean we don't love or care for you."
"Dad please , I wont go there , it makes me feel far more worse."
"Well you wouldn't agree to any of my decisions that's understood, after all it's not like I am your real father that you'd even give an ear to me." He said in a disappointed tone.
She felt the tears stinging her eyes , "No Dad why would you say that?"
"Because it has always been this way Elena." He got up "John should be having this conversation with you but it's me." she sobbed , "No , don't say that." She held his hand , "Your my father , you've always been there for me , not him."
"Then for once , listen to me." His voice was polite again.
She nodded , "I'll think about it , please don't be upset with me."
He cupped her face , "You know I want you to be fine right."
She nodded, he leaned down and kissed on the top of her head , "Go rest."
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Caroline and Stefan were calling over the house phone again and again , Stefan even announced he'd be there with her shortly. But even though she needed his support , she was done right now. She wanted escape. She wore her over sized jacket and went outside, after an hour of frantic walking , she was finally there, she climbed the hill soon as by now she'd done it way too many times and on the other end she heard the sound of the water , she finally let out a breath of relief , she was here to tell her story. Just when she got near to climbing down , her shaky foot from the accident , did a little problem and she slipped bad , she let out a shriek but was under control once she felt a grip on her wrist that pulled her up, she turned in the embrace , she knew this touch, 'YOU." She seethed.
He pulled her to the dry and safe side and let her go.
"You knew I'd be here." She almost shouted at this invasion of privacy. "You took everything from me! My friends , my reputation and now this place."
"I had no idea you'd be here." Damon pursed his lips , "I already told you I come here when I am upset."
"And what are you upset about? Not ruining me good enough?" she snapped at him then created a distance between them, "You know what , I don't wanna be here."
She heard him sigh , "Elena you have to face me one day you know."
She couldn't believe his guts , she wanted to go ahead and scratch his unapologetic face. "I was stupid enough to trust you once Damon, I am not buying more of your lies, you're the last person that I would wanna be with right here."
She saw a look if hurt on his face , he took a step towards her , "you're not going anywhere till you not hear and understand everything I have to say."
She rolled her eyes, "Oh you have a defense? That's rather very glib attitude you're showing there, let me make it clear to you , I don't care. Even if you have a million apologies , it won't affect me. Nothing you say will."
He waited for a moment before finally saying, "Then tell me what I should do to earn it."
"get out of my life." She said rudely
He pursed his lips at her tone, they had some rough fights in the past but never did it hurt like this, "I can't do that."
She narrowed her eyes, "What? Calling me a whore wasn't enough for you?" her eyes filled in tears suddenly "Of course nothing mattered to you. The camp , the day at the carnival , nothing was real right? All those times where I was just seeing everything through rose colored glasses , all I was to you was a fricking number you'd brag about? You've done some shit to me Damon , cutting my hair , throwing my necklace but this by far is the worst thing you could have done, I can't take it anymore , i-I lost."
He took a step ahead but she backed away "no Damon! You won , okay, you and Enzo can go toast drinks with laughs over this , the time Elena gilbert trusted me."
"Stop it Elena , I never wanted to do this , I didn't meant it god dammit! I would never want to hurt you." He said before she'd leave in a rush.
"I wish you could manipulate me into trusting you because there is no other way I'd be able to do that Damon, I am a butt of jokes , my feelings are cheap high school gossip because of you!"
She went running in the other direction from him , taking care of not slipping cause if she did she'd end up in water. Surprisingly he didn't follow her. She never knew this day would turn so dark for her. She woke up giddy because they had talked through the night and suddenly all of it was gone. She was alone with an un settling feeling with it.
She couldn't exactly cry at home, and she felt like she couldn't do anything but cry or self pity right now. Ironic that he had called her absolute worth it and right now she felt so worthless and stupid.
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Tuesday morning brought more sorrow, after about a week her mother had helped her to bed and seeing what she went through the night , her mother was seriously considering for her to freeze her semester and go to that asylum.
"At least brush your hair Lena." Her mother said softly as she ran her thumb over the lavender circles around her eyes to wipe the tear's residual.
She shook her head , "I really don't want to go anywhere today mom."
"I know but you do know how Grayson gets upset , he's already been pressing on that center thing, he will be more certain about sending you there baby." Miranda stroked her hair.
She huffed loud , that meant trouble , the image of that place was enough to send shivers down her spine, it was like a punishment package not a rehabilitation.
She got ready after the fight between what's worse between school bullying and that asylum was won by the latter.
Like she suspected, no one was over her controversy, posters were off but it didn't shut anyone. Every other girl was judging her out loud. She had blocked out her ears with her palms at one point. "Calm down Elena." Stefan said as he sat next to her in lunch.
She flinched, throughout the day she had heard girls narrate long stories about her and Stefan and it actually made her ashamed of her very 'close friendship' for once. "please leave me alone Stefan." She tried to sound as polite as possible.
Caroline too sat with them , "Elena if you're going to act like that , it's gonna give those bitches more to talk about." She said the bitches part out loud.
Stefan was very fast to present his defense, "I swear Elena I had no idea about any if this if I knew Damon was up do this, I'd never let him near you."
She felt tears come to her eyes just at the mention of his name.
"Why are you crying Lena , please don't." Stefan said cupping her face.
Caroline also got closer hugging her , "It's going to be okay Lena , you're not alone , Stef and I , we are always here for you."
Stefan nodded , "Just relax okay?"
She replied softly, "I am fine." Though she wasn't , she was getting paranoid every passing moment, every eye was looking at her , people just seemed to ignored Caroline's presence , as if all they were looking was at her and Stefan.
She could hear April talk a table away from her , "Seems like the Salvatore whore is far from sated with these brothers."
Before she'd turn to look at them , Stefan touched her face in reassurance speaking in a whisper , "ignore them."
"Why do you think she wanted both of them?" Grace asked in a loud voice to annoy her.
April almost chimed in a reply , "Damon for the dick , Stefan for the actual Salvatore experience and money."
Stefan rolled his eyes , "I really wish you had anything better to do."
She laughed in a taunting manner , "Comes from a guy who has regular threesomes with Frankenstein gilbert and the bastard step brother.
Everyone there was laughing , Elena felt her forehead sweating, cold chills ran through her body as she stared at all the crooked judging faces , the people laughing in her face, her breathing got erratic.
"That's not very nice April." She heard a familiar voice , it was the last thing she needed right now. The raven haired boy made his way to their table standing to the crowd facing the drama.
"Oh the second one's here." Someone said in between the laughing.
"Yeah whatever, you all know this bull crap is not true." He said not ashamed or afraid of the backlash.
"so you didn't screw like bunnies?" April stood up with a fake innocent amused face "Camp right?"
Damon snickered , "That's one of the reasons you or Enzo can never graduate darling , Elena was full fractured in Camp , not even her pinky was responsive , so there's that biological factor , but we all know that you knew that here , I know what bugs you April , that he wants her , more than he'd ever want you , oh we all know Elena isn't as easy as you."
She looked at him with anger , "Oh so Mr bastard blood turned righteous –"
He put up his hands as if telling her to stop , "I'll save you the trouble , yes I said all those things , I did."
Elena's eyes widened, even though she already knew the confession broke her every time.
He continued , "I wanted to pull them apart as much as you did April , it was frantic and selfish , but I did the first thing my mind told me to , without giving it a second thought , without knowing I'd hurt her so much or tarnish her reputation or even Stefan's. I didn't care , because I wanted them apart and I wanted them apart because I want her."
Silence fell in the room. He could hear Elena's sharp intakes of breath , he knew she was not okay.
"I admit in front all of you non-bastards that I want Elena gilbert and to even think that she'll give Enzo a chance after his ever so perfect date killed me , and I couldn't risk it so I lied , I told him that she isn't in fact the perfect girl he has an image of , which is a lie because there is no one in my life as –" he stopped to look around at her "as pure as her. And if anyone from now onwards gave shit about it to her or Stefan, I can do far worse than what you all have done collectively and you know it!" his tone at the end was of a warn , Elena whispered something to Caroline , both of her friends helped her up and begin to take her out of the hall.
"Stop Stefie." Damon followed them outside.
"Now's not the time Damon, she's dizzy." Stefan said worried.
"Leave her here with me , go get water " he insisted.
Caroline interfered , "She wouldn't want that Damon."
"I promise I mean no harm." He tried to convince and with even Elena's erratic breathing and shaking body she gave him a piercing glare.
Stefan passed her to him ,he quickly picked up her weak body handing her bag to Caroline , they heard a few protesting sounds from her till she gave up as he told her to focus on breathing. They were outside in open air , he helped her sit on a bench still in his arms , "Come on breathe."
Caroline sat on her knees in front of them , "She's getting so cold and stiff."
He glared at her then turned to Elena "No , no you're fine. Hey look at me." He cupped her face making her look at him
"just take in a breath for four seconds and let it go."he said in the softest voice he'd ever used , which compelled her to do so , he made her do it several times before she started to breath normal and her color went from pale white to her normal slowly.
"How do you feel?" he asked.
She was containing her best , "Angry."
"Just take it out on me."he said like his feelings didn't matter anymore. "Come on Elena."
Her face tensed up, she looked in pain, "I can't." she dropped her face to his chest hiding in it ,he felt her hands clenching his shirt for some sort of control , he felt his shirt wet from her tears, "I can't hate you , it hurts me."
Stefan brought them a water bottle and Damon helped her drink some water, "You don't need to think about this right now Elena."
He stroked her hair continuously , "I know you're scared, I understand but I am right here for you."
"'Please go Damon , I am fine." She said slowly.
"Not yet Elena , I am not leaving until I am convinced you don't need me around." He said firmly.
Stefan gestured Caroline to get up. She nodded and watch them converse in whispers.
"What did you have for breakfast?"
Elena was annoyed at first but when he repeatedly asked questions she begun answering them slowly seeing how forming answers to his simple questions gave her an escape from her current mental state. Soon she was leaning back against him answering how a red velvet cake is made. He would ask her again and again how she was feeling.
"I am anxious." she'd say some what annoyed.
He cupped her face , "I know, you'll be okay Elena, I promise."
She started opening up in a while slowly, but looking at Stefan and Caroline giving her the 'sorry' looks she stopped.
Damon looked at them and sighed, "I need to talk to her , not in front of you two."
"What is it?" for once Stefan didn't trust him.
"It's none of your business , that's what." Damon said with equal detachment in his voice.
"It's pretty much every person's business in this school right now." Stefan spat back this time.
"Stefan it's okay ,I can talk." She didn't want one more fight ,the last thing she needed was being called the bone of contention between them.
"You sure Lena?" Caroline asked politely.
"Hmm."she pursed her lips. They both left her with him.
They both remained quiet for long enough till he finally said ,"I didn't know what I was thinking before I did what I did."
She bit the inside of her cheek
"I am the last person to give a fuck about a reputation, it's never been good , I'll never be able to achieve that perfect character thing cause I am already classified as-"
She interrupted, "Don't do that!"
"Do what."
"You screwed up Damon , now don't mix it with all this gloomy past of yours." She looked away.
"But it's true , I never thought it mattered Elena, I am not saying anything to win you over. I just want to explain myself and after that if you want to end this, I will not ask for any chances." He held her cold hands rubbing them for circulation. She sighed as if telling him to go on.
"I was jealous, you completely ignored me in front of him and why wouldn't you, so I thought the only way I could get a chance with someone like you would-"
She shook her head, "Someone like me? What does that mean? Damon you cant be this insecure about yourself, why would you think that you'd be un noticed to me? because you don't play any instrument? Or is it because you are Stefan's step brother? Because you consider yourself some outcast? Why would I care about those things?"
"But you do, the way he sweeps you off your feet with everything that I am not and don't deny that-"
She snapped "Shut up Damon, I did appreciate all those things , but its all that is or ever will be , I like to be around you, you make me so – so comfortable with myself, I've never felt anything like this with anyone. I don't care about any of those things Damon, You pretty much-" she sighed "Made me head over heels fall for you at camp."
His pupils dilated as if it was a hard thing to believe.
"I never thought about Enzo that way but yesterday-"
She started to breathe fast again , "It just broke me."
"Elena i-"
"I felt like the biggest idiot alive for thinking that you felt the way I felt , that you understood me better than anyone whether it's my mom or Care or Stefan – I was finally confident about everything , about myself, about my mental state, I felt like freaking Audrey Hepburn and the next thing I know- I felt like the biggest idiot , a disgusting number-I never-" she broke into sobs "All of that went away, that pride I had in myself for a moment. The trust I had put in you without thinking twice and believe me it hurt me. Everyone is laughing for a reason because I made a fool out of myself thinking me and you are something." she felt him wrap his arms around her , she was crying against his chest but it actually soothed her and calmed her down
"I am sorry Elena. I am so sorry." He mumbled ,"I'd never want you to feel like that, Trust me you aren't a filthy game for me, I screwed up so bad but believe me never did I want you think that." He made her look at him , "No one in this whole town understands me like you , heck no one in the whole world does it like you, I know you'll manage without me , but I don't think I can." He moved from the bench and sat on his knees to see her better , "I did it because I couldn't lose you."
She wiped her eyes , "But you did lose me , in a worst way."
"I can do anything to make up for it Elena , just say the word." He said sincerely.
"That's how bad you want me ?" she asked not certain, she felt his hand press hers into a tighter hold, "That's just how bad I wanna undone this , you have no idea how much I want you." He didn't have any humor on his face , "Probably more than where the limit line of sanity ends , I know I am forward and scary-"
Why did he want her? it made her suspicious, no doubt he was gorgeous and had his own mysterious aura which had girls drooling but He wasn't after girls as much as his 'friends' she hadn't seen him or heard of him fooling around with people. He was conservative in that way. Sometimes she'd think he did it to negate his mother's reputation but today he confessed he didn't give a shit about reputations.
"But how will you recover my reputation?" she asked interrupting his speech. He paused for a second , he looked hurt that she wasn't considering to give him a chance.
"I will-I."
She didn't know why but she couldn't see the hurt on his face.
"I'd tell people again and again till they stop asking." He tried to sound un affected by her attitude.
"You'll tell them what?"
"That you have nothing to do with me." he suggested trying his best to be strong and unemotional "That it was some little stupid trick against you that went too far- I don't know , I'll- do something about it, I'll handle it , I just want you to be okay." He held her hands in his protectively , "Don't worry about it, this isn't worth it."
She nodded and softly said , "Okay."
"And I just wanna say , what we shared over camp or now is important to me. Every single thing you told me about yourself ,I've not taken it for granted. Even though I ruined this between us. I cherish the time I was with you." He told her sincerely. She found so much regret in his blue eyes. It did melt her. When he got up on his feet letting her hands go , she instantly missed his touch, were they going to be strangers now? He was signaling Stefan and Caroline to come back , she reached for his hand, almost too anxious to touch it or not.
"Damon."
He looked down at her, waiting for her to say something.
"I forgive you." She looked up to meet his eyes, she sighed holding his hand anyway, "I don't hate or dislike you, I wanna be around you still , after everything. I just- like I said before-"
"Done?" Caroline interrupted their conversation she hadn't heard on. Elena let his hand go.
Damon was literally clenching his jaw with frustration as Elena nodded at her friend. Stefan helped her up and for once he was mad at Damon. It was like he wanted them to stay away from each other. Damon pursed his lips, he didn't want a scene with Stefan right now, he didn't wanna piss Elena off. He had realized that if he wanted her to be happy , he had to bear with Stefan.
"I'll talk to you later." He said with a defeated look. She nodded as she walked away. Maybe she was stupid to forgive him again, but just the thought of it not being over made her feel happy and somewhat content.
"So the little fling , it's over right?" Stefan asked in an awkward tone while he was dropping her home. "Fling?" she flinched at the word.
"How far did it go though?" He asked not keeping his eyes off her till Elena pointed at the road.
"Why are you asking?" she said with a raised brow "Stefan, wasn't it that you wanted , me and damon to not fight all the time, not hate each other?"
He nodded , "Yeah but I didn't exactly want this too , I mean , he's not like that."
"Like what?"
"Elena as much as I love him , I know that he is not a- an-" he hesitated "An ideal p-person." Some how it made her laugh , how saying something foul about him , hurt him this much.
"I mean I know deep down- huh , I don't even know that." He swallowed thick , "He'll come around with the whole brother thing , it's you I worry about , I mean-you already face so much daily , Damon is not easy you know right? Like just see the trouble you faced from barely knowing him. I wont ever hate him Elena, I just don't want to because of you , I don't want him to hurt you- you understand me right?"
She nodded smiling , he was so nice and innocent, she could pull at his cheeks! "Don't worry Stefan I wont make you choose if it comes down to that."
"Damon has this thing you know, he obsesses over things , he gets it , he likes it for a while and then it's discarded. Then he gets other things to obsess over, he wanted a car and-"
"I get it Stef, I was there when Damon did all that." She chuckled, "Trust me."
"I am Elena , I don't care about choosing , I know what's right when it is- I just don't want you to regret it, Enzo and Damon, gosh! I don't know, you know that Jamie from the basketball team is-"
She squealed , "Stefan ughh one more time you try to set me up with basketball players I'll jump off the freaking car!"
"Okay , Calm down, it's your own little choice , if you're doing this for a prom date, I'm always available." He grinned.
She rolled her eyes, "Yeah like I care about prom, Although a Salvatore upgrade sounds good." She joked , his jaw dropped , "Times like these Elena , it's when I think you're messed up."
"Is it because I called you an upgrade?" she taunted him , "Because I totally exaggerated it."
He playfully smacked her shoulder, "Says the girl who used to stuff her bra till she got actual development in her body."
She gasped, "you said you'll never mention it."
He stopped the car infront of her house , "Hey it's only fair, next time you talk shit about the money maker." He pointed to his face, "Make sure you have no socks in your undergarments."
"I didn't stuff it with socks" she threw a punch on his arm , "You're a dick!"
He grinned , "Last time I checked , you have hots for toxicity now."
She gasped, "Does that mean you wanna impress me."
"I rather swim in my own blood, now get out of the car , I have to take it for service." He touched the steering wheel lovingly.
She rolled her eyes getting out of the car "Why don't you service this planet by buying a new car because this one sucks."
He laughed ,"Ha look who's talking Austin healey owners!" he closed the door after her saying something like "Damon's right , it's only here because the city dump yard refused to accept it." He drove away but she still shouted , "It's an antique you moron."
"Like your Dad!" he shouted from the window before taking a U-turn and drove fast to the other end, she shook her head mumbling a "Jerk." It was about 9 in the night , she had stayed at Caroline's place for a while with her and Stefan , watching a chick flick they had insisted on to calm her down and it worked.
Before she'd ring the bell , she felt some one garb her by the waist and like a flash turned her around away from the door , before she could shout , a hand pressed over her mouth , she saw wide blue eyes, she knew them, It was Damon, she sighed of relief pushing him a little, "You scared me!"
He smirked, "My intentions exact."
She shook her head, "What are you doing here?" she asked above a whisper.
"What do you think I am doing? I am waiting for you, you didn't quite finish that little sentence of yours there. "he said with a naughty look in his eyes.
"You couldn't call or wait till tomorrow , how long have you been here?" she asked worried a little that he'd been waiting way too long ,it was mid winter and he wasn't wearing anything too warm.
"I drove here after school, Car's parked in the back street so don't worry-"
She interrupted, "After school? Like you waited 5 hours , you're lying you didn't – oh God! Damon what's wrong with you!"
She started to unbutton her oversized coat , he chuckled ,"What? Here?" he gave her a lewd expression , she shut him up with a glare, "Shut up."
"I am fine , don't take it off." He said holding her arms , she shook his arms off with a huff and slipped the coat off her body , pulling it over his shoulders, once her arms locked around his neck, she could feel his breath falling against her face. She slowly removed her hands for him , "It'll keep you warm."
"I'll drive home if you complete your delayed statement about me, I am starving and-"
"I like you." She sighed deep after saying it , "I wanna be with you."
He smiled letting his forehead fall against hers, "Umm what can I say- I mean you're not exactly my type-" she almost kneed him in his stomach before he chuckled, "I am kidding! God you're scary."
"I don't know how this will work out , everyone at school hates me, we can't hang out here, my parents are too strict about it."
He hushed her by pressing a kiss to her warm lips , she smiled as he parted, "Don't worry lena I'll figure it all out , we don't need to give a shit to what everyone at school says, we'll manage here, I just wanna know what you feel. I know you're over what happened but me I still feel , ya know"
She completed "Guilty?"
He nodded with a sorry face
She cupped his face making him look at her , "I forgive you Damon, I know you hurt me- but i know you didn't want to."
He kissed the tip of her nose, "Gosh this is why I lo-like you so much!" he sighed , "Okay give me a kiss and I'll be on my way."
She shook her head, "You said you were starving , I am not letting you go like this."
"So-"
"Can you climb the pipe to my room?" she asked suddenly , "I'll make you something and we can- you know , hang out."
He bit his lip, "Uh let me check my schedule." He looked up then grinned looking at her , "All clear."
She kissed his cheek. He sighed , " I really am gonna climb that pipe – it's kinda high."
She rolled her eyes, "Oh you're height phobic , well it's whether you deal with it or go home."
"I'll deal with it." He said instantly.
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Caroline was surprised to see her so glowing , it was almost too suspicious, she still didn't wanted to annoy her by asking questions but she couldn't help it. When Stefan joined them today he seemed upset almost disappointed.
"why are you so down?" Caroline asked when he missed her daily gossip even after her repeating it.
"I am not down." He replied with a sigh.
Elena narrowed her eyes, "what happened? Is that car of yours-"
He didn't let her finish, "He came home at four and he was wearing your coat."
She closed her eyes with 'got caught' look on her face, "Stefan."
"Don't!" he snapped.
Caroline was looking at them eyes wide, "No way , Damon?"
Elena sighed looking at them, "Look I know what you both must be thinking that I've lost my mind maybe."
"YES." They said together
She nodded with an ashamed smile, "Yeah I figured that out, look I know what you guys think , that maybe I am desperate or so – but it's not like that, he's- he's very sweet."
Stefan frowned, "We still talking about Damon?"
"Yes, he's very sweet, I know it's hard to believe, once he starts talking he is so nice , he's understanding ,he calms down all my nerves."
"He was on your nerves from the last decade." Stefan interrupted her.
"But that's because I was a bitch to him and we kept on fighting and fighting , till one of us surrendered and now, it's – there's so much to talk about, there's this little bubble of ours, you guys wont believe it but I've never once met someone, who could handle me during-" she swallowed thick "Those times."
They both knew she was talking about her panic attacks. Stefan held her hand as if letting her get rid of those memories of her harsh panic attacks, her hours and hours of crying ,screaming , hurting herself , vomiting from it. He had seen it all , sometime it would be so severe that she'd scratch her arms or pull at her hair or clench her teeth enough to make her jaw locked and gums bleed.
"What do you mean? What does he do that we cant?" Caroline asked as if slightly offended.
She blushed ,"Multiple things, he just distracts me." she kept herself from gushing.
She waited for them to speak but they just watched her blankly.
"Look I don't care what anyone else says here, I just wanna give my explanation to you guys." She tried to convince them.
"You wont regret this right?" Stefan asked worried.
Elena nodded. He got ahead and hugged her "Then I am happy that you're happy. I hope everything you said is true."
She felt a huge weight shift off her chest. Now she could be with him around them at least.
When she saw him later at School that day , she felt an instant pull and before she knew she was walking to him.
"H-hey." She said ignoring the eyes around them.
"Hi." He said looking back at Klaus who was sitting with him.
She looked over to Klaus, he raised a brow as if acting like he didn't care.
"I told Stef and Care." She said after a moment of noticing him not getting up to talk to her in private.
"Told them?" he acted a little unaware.
She knew he wanted to act like they weren't together , he signaled her to be quiet, she knew he wanted to save her from more comments at school.
"I told them that we are together." She ignored his silent protest.
Klaus looked amused , "wow."
Pretty much everyone was trying to eavesdrop now.
"Elena." He said in a whisper.
"No-no" she looked around "What's your freaking business? You wanna know? Yes I am with him because I like him." She almost shouted at some catty girls who were around on purpose.
Damon got up from the bench, "Elena calm down." He held her by the arms turning her to him.
She took a deep breath when he stroked her cheek telling her to breath deep.
"I forgot what I was saying."
"Saying that you told Stefan and Caroline." He replied softly.
"Uh yes-" she smiled and leaned forward to kiss his cheek "They approve."
Klaus coughed loud.
Damon rolled his eyes. Elena too turned to look at him, then back at Damon "Why don't you introduce me?"
"He's the guy who spray painted a dick on class's wall, his name's Niklaus but we –"
She slapped his chest, "Introduce me."
He turned around and looked at Klaus giving him a disappointed look. "You know Elena."
He nodded, "yeah the one you used to call Ursula and said she looked like-"
Damon interrupted him, "Girlfriend, she's my girlfriend."
Elena put out a fake smile , "Not for long if I keep hearing things like that."
Klaus chuckled," Oh Darling , he's much worse than that." He got ahead and shook her hand also pressing a kiss to her palm, "Welcome to the gang."
Damon pulled her hand away from him, "Yeah, she's not in any 'gang' nor will she be."
"Why? I wanna be in the 'gang'" she said at once, "I wanna know what you've said about me all these years."
He turned red, "Elena, come on that's history.' , "So will this relationship be if I tell her all that shit." Klaus added in a taunted voice. Elena grinned at him.
Klaus interrupted them, "So when will you both tell Enzo."
Elena sighed, "I called him in the morning. He was fine when I told him- he says he needs in person consolation and apology." She giggled.
Damon narrowed his eyes, "So?"
"So he invited me for Sunday brunch." She smiled.
Klaus rubbed his hands together , "Ho ho ho trouble in paradise."
Elena rolled her eyes, Damon restrained himself from further outburst. "Call your mom tell her you're with Stefan today."
"Why?"
"I wanna take you home that's why." He said in a matter of factly voice. She had been to his house , all the time literally, but with Stefan and Caroline. This was going to be new.
PRESENT
Damon had given Elena and her mom full privacy after lunch, he knew Miranda didn't like him , well she despised him. That was it. He feared once she went back Elena was going to have major doubts about him.
He even heard Miranda when he arrived home. How Damon was just using her to piss Grayson off because of professional grudges. Elena insisted to Miranda staying the night. She agreed taking the guest room , he knew she'd stay, she had came with a reason and that was to take her daughter back. They always did every chance they got. He was convinced he had a big argument coming with Elena tonight, he didn't know what kind of things she was told.
He was facing the picture wall in their room,lost in thought. Would he ever get his life again? When he felt two soft arms go around him.
"Oh hi-" he said amused, he did not expect this.
He turned around to cup her face, "What's up?"
She giggled a little, "is it your way of asking how bad it was?"
He was clueless, "What?"
"She doesn't like you." She said with an ashamed look.
"Correction, she hates me." he rolled his eyes.
"Yeah near to that, she just kept on talking for hours and hours how much of a dick you are-" she stopped and giggled "And so many stories that I don't believe in, it was one percent I am worried about you and ninety nine percent, I hate the Salvatores."
He shrug, "She's speaking what she's told." He didn't wanted to point at her Dad directly.
"I know, she asked me to go back home with her." Elena huffed.
"And?"
"Pshh like hell I would." She laughed heartily. He watched the glow in her cheeks , the confidence she had in him. Things were getting better.
"Why?" he asked enjoying her voice even.
She stopped , "Because you called her here, you knew she'd do all this , try to pull us apart even though we're so vulnerable at this point but you still did, because I missed her. you didn't care that she'd ruin all this progress we made. You risked your feelings again." She said all of a sudden tensed.
She bit her lip, "I've never had such a Damon repelling conversation , God knows what Dad was gonna do, At one point it got so much , I couldn't keep up without alcohol."
"Lena you know you shouldn't be drinking, it's bad for your-"
"I know Mom I know-" she said irritated , then laughed "I've said this like the millionth time today."
"You must be tired."
"Tell me about it , listening to your mom talk about your abusive, threatening, psychopath husband."
He picked her up and threw her on the bed crawling on top of her , "I am the worst."
She cupped his face and kissed him on the lips letting it stay for a moment before parting still closer to her "The worst."
He kissed her back this time holding both her hands and slowly pinning them above her head ,he could feel her arching up to touch him. "But I love you." She said softly looking into his dreamy eyes with love.
He start peppering kisses on her bare skin , even though she hadn't changed into her night suit.
She felt her thoughts drifting as he made love to her neck , she was welcoming the pleasure, but from the back of her mind she could still hear that voice from her session. She suddenly shuddered in fear, and as if he sensed it , he stopped cupping her face, "You okay baby?"
She nodded, "yeah it's just- never mind."
"Tell me." he left her hands , helping her to sit, he rubbed her back, "want water?"
She nodded, he got up and poured him some. She drank a sip or two.
"Who was I with besides you, Enzo? You told me-"
He shook his head, "Enzo, no you two never happened, You know he's a popstar now."
Her eyes widened.
"His dad helped him launch his first album and he took it from there, he even wrote a song about you-eh what's that called, she was suppose to be mine you moron!" the way he said it made her laugh.
He too smiled, "He's cool though , we met him before your accident, he's – don't make me say it, he's still a friend-ish ."
She nodded, "Okay , so how many boyfriends did I have other than you?"
"Umm there's one or two directors , but if you're talking the serious ones , there's only one other."
"Who's that?" she asked resting against his bicep.
"K-kol Michealson."
She had heard that name , in her thoughts , they both fighting like crazy over him where she remembered him pushing her.
"He was your on and off for when I went to college , he is an Orthopedic , well he was in Mystic falls hospital."
"Oh ,so is like – Is the Doctor thing a type of mine?"
He chuckled , "I don't know."
She sighed , "So what else-why did we break up?"
"Because he was – he was an asshole to you." He said after a long breath.
"You broke your arm in an accident and you had to go to the hospital , he worked there , I don't know things happened and he somehow-"
"How old was he?"
"Yeah he was almost 30 at the time ." Damon didn't put much thought to it as if he wanted to get over it.
"When I came back you had broken up with him , but you had this on off thing, your Dad had got his licensed cancelled after he found out he was using Barbiturates on you to suppress your panic attacks , so he was mostly chasing after you , guilt tripping you into a relationship ,saying how he was only trying to help you and he lost his job on it. You were easily convinced and you'd run back to him each time. It got worse, once you actually realized he's not actually the ideal person he claims to be. You started talking to me , and then it went to physical abuse , whatever , we pulled you out of it." He said almost clenching his fist at the thought of it.
"Oh" she couldn't believe she was in such a relationship.
He pulled her into an embrace , "I didn't wanna tell you of all this, but like your Doctor advised."
She nodded, so it was Kol. But why did they fight over him.
"So I cheated on you with him?" she asked silently. He looked at her, she grabbed the hem of her shirt , a little worried of how he'd react.
"No." he said as if offended.
"I remember us fighting about it." She said dragging herself away from him.
"It was a misunderstanding, it was- can we not talk about this?" he didn't know why he felt angry.
"Why?"
"Because I told you what's important." He said a little louder than he intended, "Seriously? What's with the questions, why? Where? Who ? I have had it for a day." He said it lowering his voice, trying to be polite , he took a deep breath, "Please." He added.
She didn't say anything. He cupped her face , trying to make her look at him "It's not relevant to anything Elena , it's just a misunderstanding."
She hissed removing his hands from her face, "I don't think so , you're being very suspicious-" She got up from the bed, "You cant expect me-" he too got up from the other side, "Oh right!" he said loud.
"I cant expect anything from you- not even to trust me." he said annoyed.
"If you'd just tell me why we were-"
"I DON'T NEED TO PROVE MYSELF." He shouted , making her shudder , "Five fucking months Elena- five fucking months I see you , deciding whether you wanna be with me or no? I keep trying and trying to make you remember any single little thing that will permit me to at least be around, everyone keeps telling me how it's a total waste of time to keep working on it , you kept telling me that I should forget my freaking 'wife' but I never said a thing, I kept trying , all I ask you is trust me on one thing and suddenly I am the monster from your nightmare."
"DON'T SHOUT!" she fired back
"And you can do that? You don't know what I am going through every single fucking day! I feel like a stranger with my own wife , I wanna kiss her, oh I cant do that , I wanna push her into a freaking wall or a table in the kitchen and make love to her, nope cant do that anymore, i wanna talk children , nah she'll think it's too forward ! Don't you dare start with me now." He ranted loudly.
She blushed from his words but the expression on her face didn't change, "I am not starting anything , you started this."
"You know what? Kill me , that's what you want right?"
"Stop being dramatic Damon." She squealed moving away to the dresser to change her clothes.
"Don't act like you don't want it- you just want that one reason to shout at me , push me away and who's better reason that Kol fucking Michealson , well congratulations because you made me lose my shit."
"Leave me alone." She shouted
"What?"
"Just go." She said plainly.
He bit his lip, "You know what I am gonna go, I am done being the left out person that I am , you know what I am tired of this clockwork and I am tired of you." He said backing away a little.
She bit the inside of her cheek , "I never asked you to stay."
He nodded, "I did any way because I am a fucking idiot." He turned away from her , she felt tensing up , she fisted her hands into a ball, "Fine go to hell."
"Better hell than you." She heard him say as he approached the door after picking up is jacket , she couldn't take it anymore and picked up one of his watch boxes in the dresser's rack and threw it at him. It hit him on the back and he hissed turning, she looked at him scared a little , he looked hell angry, he closed his eyes for half a minute , she was frozen on her place "That's it you psycho minx" He announced suddenly pacing towards her , she couldn't register what was happening, Run? Hit? She could do neither right now , he was almost a whole 4 feet away as he yanked her forward to him and crashed his lips onto hers , he picked her off the ground looping her legs around him as he pushed them both to the dresser wall, She took a sharp breath as he parted from her lips ,his lips moved from her cheek to jaw down her neck to her collarbone , he pressed hard open mouth kisses on her skin, She moaned from the feeling throwing her head back against the wall giving him more access.
"Oh you hate me but not this right?"
She moaned louder as he bit her shoulder before nibbling on it, "Please-"
She heard her dress torn in half before he tore it out of the way. She could feel his rock hard body against her every inch , he moved down and ripped the lace off her breasts , she gasped loud, it felt so sharp , she winced slightly and before she'd swallow whatever happened , his mouth was back on hers demanding , his tongue battled hers for dominance , he parted from her pressing kisses to her mouth , "never wanted to hurt you baby girl."
She looped her arms around his neck pulling him closer as she battled to take off his shirt , he moved her away from the wall , and not leaving her lips as he crashed them on the bed , he left her arms pulling his shirt away from his body before he grabbed her wrist and bounded them on her either side, "But you're driving me nuts." He crashed his lips against her and ravaged her mouth with a bruising kiss, he parted from her lips down the way her neck. "Please." She moaned with closed eyes arching her back to touch him.
"You want me right?" he said in a taunting voice.
She nodded.
"Say it."
"I want you, I want you sooo bad." She said in a moan.
"Didn't you wanna be all alone." He said trying to tear himself from her. She scowled at him "I swear if you left me here now , I'll kill you."
He nodded , "I know , your tendency to throw things speaks."
She felt guilty for a moment , "Because you were going."
"I am not going anywhere till I am done with you." He said with darkened eyes towering her , he leaned down palming her breasts , she felt her breathing pick up as he rolled his tongue around her nipple before nibbling on it , she felt her center shudder ,he pinched the other un attended nipple, till he got done with one and repeated the same thing on it. Her hands were pulling at his raven hair in pleasure , she called out his name as he kissed below her chest. She heard him chuckle, she wanted to smack his face.
Unlike earlier , he agonizingly slowly slided down her panties from her long olive legs , "God you're so darn beautiful Elena , just like the time I saw you first, you don't remember right? Well you cant."
She squeezed her eyes closed as he fingered her , "Uh uh baby girl , eyes wide open or I stop."
She nodded with a grunt opening her doe glassy eyes."Please , please don't stop." She urged him to continue.
"Such a dirty request with those honey wide eyes of yours." He continued to move his finger in her before adding another one , she arched her back, "Oh-h Damon."
He curled his fingers inside of her , she squeezed her eyes shut feeling her toes curled , she felt like her breath got stuck , and nothing was as important as taking a breath.
"Gooood girl." He rasped further , "You want me to make it all better?"
She nodded instantly, "yes- yes please baby."
He smirked leaning down and licking her slick button before taking it in between his warm lips , he heard her scream , she pulled hard on his hair for control as her relief washed through her. In a few moments her wildly heaving chest got a rest , she took shallow breaths falling back on the pillow.
He towered her with a proud grin , she was dazed, "You wanna fight me now princess?"
"I didn't wanna upset you." She said in a whisper.
"But you did it , you've made me so much angry." He clenched his teeth, "and it makes me when more angrier to see you think I am done with you cause I just started."
He unzipped his jeans , throwing them away to God knows what corner before he ripped her thighs open, "Wider baby wider." He ordered in a dark tone. She complied to him and raised a little cupping his face , she kissed him softly with no tongue , he melted into her kiss, she parted then kissed him again , this time smiling against his lips.
He pulled back after her soft gesture , "None of that- I wont be at peace with myself before I fuck the life out of you."
"You'll be guilty." She smirked holding his chin.
"I will be ,immensely , but I don't care right now. Lets make that worth right?" he said darkly as pinned her arms above her head and entered her in one quick move.
She felt the air knock out of her , being one with him was such relief , she didn't know why did she not do it before, it was the most fulfilling experience of her life. He kissed a pleasure spot under her ear as he moved inside of her, "You're mine." He whispered in her ear, "I am only allowed to make you feel this way."
His breathing picked up similar to hers, "And be inside of you, no other fucking man can make you feel like I do." He growled.
She moaned out loud.
"Can you let this go for that? Did you think you did or would?" his breath felt hot on her ear.
She shook her head feeling him stroke each time harder than the previous. She finally caught to his movements and started to meet him on them.
"Use your pretty little mouth." He seethed
"I wouldn't." she screamed "Ohh do that again." She squeezed her eyes shut when he made his thrusts harder. "You're so tight baby." He moaned into her neck as her walls almost cut off his circulation. "Just mine. All mine , Say it!" he ordered. She felt her orgasm approaching , she felt her nails ripping through his shoulders "I am yours, Ahh-h oh – God, I love you so much." She screamed his name over and over with his final thrusts her orgasm ripped through her, after a few thrusts he spilled inside her, he pulled out of her as she quietly moaned , she felt him put the comforter over them , he kissed the top of her head, "I love you."
She smiled as he kissed her lips softly, "I was rough on you." She said in a raspy voice, cupping the side of his face, their noses touching.
"I took my revenge." He grinned proudly.
"I like your revenge." She bit her lip. He blinked with heavy lids. She kissed the tip of his nose, "It's okay you can rest Doctor."
He chuckled, "I don't wanna rest I just wanna look at you all night, next to me, one with me."
"That'd be pretty great but you have a working day tomorrow, so-"
She heard his shallow breathing which was evidence that he gave in to sleep. She giggled quietly looking up at him and swept the wild sex hair off his for head to a side. He was so gorgeous, she felt her heart melt, butterflies in the base of her tummy. She pulled the comforter over his toned chest and moved to sleep in his arms. Even though he was asleep he held her protectively.
The cold air from the window had been disturbing his slumber for a while, he wasn't wearing anything and it didn't help. He slurred, "Shut the window love."
He heard no response ,then he remembered he himself had bolted the window. He rubbed his eyes sitting up in his bed , all alone. It wasn't like it was early ,when he checked the clock it was nearly nine. His eyes widened. He had a pre surgery meeting. Elena knew about this, how could she not wake him up? He felt a little pissed at her , he got up with the blankets and closed the window in a swift move.
"Elena!" he called opening the door to his room , maybe she was with her mother.
He shut the door angrily when he heard nothing from her, he had no time, he got in the shower, afterwards changed his clothes as he went downstairs , he looked around. "Elena?"
He heard nothing , finally he gave up his ego and knocked on Miranda's room.
"Yes?"
He entered , "Have you seen around Elena ?"
She shook her head, "No, why , what's wrong?"
"She's not-" he picked out his phone, "Oh she had to meet Stefan for work."
"I haven't even heard her downstairs Damon." Miranda got up ,"She wouldn't go without saying good bye."
He called Stefan. Like Miranda had predicted she wasn't with him.
"When did you saw her last?" Miranda asked him as they began looking in the house.
"Last night." He wasn't a heavy sleeper but last night had him exhausted.
"Try to remember." Miranda said eagerly like a child who lost her doll.
Now that he focused, he did remember her moving out of his hold, he had said something like , "Where are you going?"
She had kissed him hard on the lips whispering , "The Bathroom love, I'll be right back!" he had turned away with a yawn , but it was still dark. He didn't remember if she came back or no.
"So she's just gone."
"No that- no!" Damon said confused running a hand through his hair.
"She's just messing with me." he added fooling himself as he called her name in various rooms, "Elena it's not a joke anymore, come out!" When they went to check in their room again, Miranda looked at the thrown watch box other things discarded In the dresser.
"Oh my god it looks like someone kidnapped her!" she shrieked taking out her phone "I have to call Grayson."
He held her hand, "No-no , Its not, I" he didn't know how to explain, "We did this."
"What do you mean?" she said shocked.
"We had a little fight and then-"
"You hurt my daughter?" she didn't let him finish , she held his collar,"Where the hell is she Damon , what did you do to her? Did you kill my daughter and now covering up with this drama."
"What?" he pushed her hands away from her collar, "No, it was just"
"Shut up! Talk to the fucking police."
"Listen lady Elena is my wife and her mind is freaking shambles , now I know you and your husband have nothing better to do but say shit about me , but I have to find her. you know I didn't do this , you know I love her." he said loudly.
She stepped away impacted. He looked around the room. Her clothes were here, her phone was here.
He turned to her, "I think we have to call the police."
"Why?" Miranda asked some what scared.
"Because she didn't go , she was taken."
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