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NOW TO THE CHAPTER.
Doctor Tiffany Mark held looked from left to right to observe any reaction from the news, but both stayed frozen. She coughed, "I'll give you guys some privacy."
Just when they heard the cabin door close, Elena turned in her chair, jaw dropped, "I told you right!"
"Well- it's , it'll be okay." He stuttered.
"No, oh my God no Damon look at me." she touched his shoulder to get his attention, "Tell me you are not freaked out."
"Okay." He shrugged, "I am not- not okay."
She stood up, "Damon it's going to be fine, it's a different thing that you're fellowship will be completed in some years and I am getting some serious roles, but if baby is on the way gives me two to three months before my body starts to change and-"
"Elena calm down." He breathed and turned to her, "I did some savings aside Mom's treatment savings too and I'll be getting a raise by the year's end- we can move into a place , we can easily afford the baby."
"Yes you're rich but I am not Damon!" she touched her belly in nervousness, "I have nothing- no savings no plans right now, I don't even know if I can be a good mother, I was never good at anything." her eyes filled in tears and slowly she broke into silent sobs, "Oh my God I am over!"
"Elena we're fine, we're fine."
"But."
"Shhh." He cupped her face, "I am not going to let you all alone baby." He lightly pressed his lips to her forehead and wiped away her tears, "You know I love you right?"
"Of course , I love you too, that's all I know." She bit down on her lip as he let his forehead fell against hers, "We'll think about this okay? I don't entirely hate the idea of you being pregnant."
"Entirely hate?" she sighed.
He shrugged, "I have no doubts about who I wanna spend my life with and who would be the perfect mother to my kids." He winked at her. She sighed and tried to smile, "I kind of wanted to get married before having kids, and I wanted to get married in a few years."
He faked a frown, "C'mon honey give me a little corner in that future."
"You own everything in that." She moved forward and kissed his cheek, "I want to spend my whole life with you, just be loved by you." She cupped the side of his face, "So are we doing this?"
"Hmm anytime of any day, right now?" he sat up. She laughed, "Not now butt-head , you have to ask my father."
"He doesn't even know that we're dating and living together at this point." He huffed, "Okay I'll do it, although I know how things are going to go."
"Baby you're amazing." She said as if offended for his hate towards himself, she just hated when he'd be less confident about things.
He held her hand and squeezed it, "You are sure about this right? Elena if you want to co-parent then maybe-"
"Damon." She snapped, "I don't want to freak out over something, I want to be with you."
"There are other ways, we don't have to get married if you're not sure."
"Is this really about me Damon? Just because we started dating now doesn't mean I am rushing into this, you know how I've always- wanted you." She said reluctantly , "I've waited years for you Damon, I don't want to ruin this over some anxiety about a baby."
"But your career , I don't want you to regret this." He said looking into her brown orbs, he knew how much she loved him just by looking in her eyes and he didn't want to see anything else in his eyes but love, especially not regret.
"So what? It's going to stop for an year right, maybe two not forever , but on the other hand , I get you and a family." She smiled, "My Career isn't that good on it's own , I'll never risk us for it." He'd never get enough of her sweet voice , her beautiful eyes, just over all how radiant she was. He wanted her to be his as soon as possible, it felt like the perfect end to his story.
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"When are you coming back?" he turned on the tap to the bathtub as he spoke on the phone, Elena had been in New York for a month now and although he visited for a weekend , he just missed her a lot.
"Mmm I don't know – but I have some exciting news."
"Yeah what?" he put the towels on the side as he went outside to get clothes for himself, "Damon i told about that David smith audition right?"
"Ahuh." He shrugged it off.
"Yeah I went in and auditioned, guess what? They called me! They want me in a lead." She said in a squeal.
"Wow that's amazing, when's it filming?"
"I don't know in two months."
"Elena." He coughed, "Unless the lead isn't four months pregnant and so on-"
"I know ,I know but maybe I'll convince them , they really like me. We even did some photoshoots yesterday, they are psyched to have me."
"Elena sweetie , I wish I could be supportive , but we're gonna get married and I am saying this in the non- rude way possible but you'll be big soon."
"Damon." She whined, "Cant I enjoy something once."
"Sure you can, but it's denial."
"Damon you sound just like Dad right now and that's not what I look for in a man by the way." She snapped. He rolled his eyes, "Well for once I'd have to side with him Elena, because this is stupid really, unless you are hinting to kill the baby."
"Damon what's wrong with you, I'd never do that, you know better than to accuse me of something so serious over something so stupid God damn it."
"I don't understand you Elena. I really don't." he said loudly. "Suddenly this hobby is important than our child and than our relationship."
"Oh really? I don't value us? You didn't have guts to talk to my father about this." She spat, he bit his lip shaking his head, "I can do it with you miles away like that, come back already and I'll do it."
"Sure, I am not the one with issues Damon."
And that was their first fight as a couple, which would impact their relationship forever.
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He never knew he'd do it this way, with her being angry at him this way, he shouldn't have called her passion a 'hobby' , he didn't know how things turned so bad suddenly, maybe because of their past, she always felt like he needed an out, she didn't trust him completely that's what he thought, he'd hate when her confidence would shake like that. He loved this girl, he had always loved her, even when he didn't like her God annoying her would be his priority , and now he was hooked on her. He couldn't see anyone take her place. He wasn't going to let a stupid fight ruin this, he'd apologize as soon as possible.
"So Doctor." Grayson sighed, "What brings you to my place?"
"Uhmm." He was searching for the right words to start when Elena came downstairs to the living room, wearing a red floral dress , hair in waves, minimal make up but he didn't know how she was glowing so much, maybe it was all those days that he didn't see her because all he wanted to do is hold her, kiss her senseless, not think of a possibility that they wont be together.
"Actually Dad, I called Damon."
"Damon? You're on first name basis I see."
"Yes." She gulped, "Damon is my boyfriend."
Damon looked at Grayson and nodded, "But that's not what we wanted to tell you."
He gestured Elena to come closer to him, she walked up to him and stood by his side, "We want to get married." He said in a firm way.
"What? Elena is this some sick joke?" Grayson frowned, "You want to get married all the sudden? And that too to him?" he gave Damon a dirty look and shook his head, "This is unacceptable and offensive."
He looked at Damon and gritted his teeth, "Just because you work with me you think this is possible!."
Elena pursed her lips getting ahead, "Dad I think I can make my own decisions and this is the one I took."
He rolled his eyes, "I'd be relieved if you could actually take your decisions- this man right here wants to marry you for my money."
"That's insane Dad. Damon has money of his own , he doesn't need me or you." She argued looking back at Damon once , "I don't need anything just her to be with me Mister Gilbert."
"Elena he's manipulating you honey." Grayson groaned, "His mother has done it, trapping that loser widower – what's his name again?"
"Don't you talk about my parents that way." Damon clenched his fists, Elena shook her head at the harsh exchange , Miranda came inside and sensing the tension said, "Please tell him to leave Elena."
"Yes you'll marry no bastard." Grayson seethed, Damon bit his lip, " I'll marry her no matter what you do."
Elena frowned at her parents, "Dad you have to accept this, I love him, I love his family."
"Lena baby come here." Miranda cooed , "Let your father handle this."
"Mom stop treating me like a kid, I am serious, whether you like it or not I will be with him." She turned to look at Damon and offered him her hand , he held it after little reluctance but looked sure after that, Grayson gritted, "Elena you don't know him like I do."
"Dad he makes me happy." She interrupted.
"He makes a lot of women happy Elena, I've seen it first hand." Grayson's eyes focused on their joined hands, but Elena didn't left his hand, "he's lying Elena, you know that right?"
She nodded.
"Oh come on? You're going to believe the slut's son and not me? your father?"
Damon fisted his free hand, "Gray you're crossing a limit-"
"You crossed your limit you bastard!" Grayson got ahead to hold his collar and Elena got in the middle, she was pushed to the side by Grayson and she screamed when she saw Grayson punch Damon, he fell back as a result, Elena stood up quickly and reached forward, "No! No stop it." Before Grayson could punch him again Damon held his fist and twisted his hand punching him. Elena shrieked miraculously pushing Damon away from her father, "What is wrong with you?" she shouted.
"What is wrong with me? He wouldn't stop spitting shit about my mother, I am gonna rip this cunt-" she gasped as she realized she had slapped him across the face, his mouth slightly agape now as he took a step back, "So this is your decision then?"
"No, No there is no decision, Damon!" she held his wrist but he pulled away, "You know what? I – I uh don't think I can talk to you right now, for a while, if you don't have the guts to call spade a spade, I guess this can't work after all."
"Elena he is just manipulating you, this son of a bitch knows all the tactics." Grayson pulled her by the arm, "Go to your room."
"Dad I am not sixteen anymore."
"You're not going, do you understand me? If this is your behavior after I trust you on your own, you have disappointed me." He bit the inside of his cheek and looked at Miranda, Elena looked back at Damon and he shook his head at her, "Good bye."
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Present
"Open up the damn door." Stefan yelled for the umpteenth time and Damon groaned as he got up the couch and went to open the door, Stefan couldn't help being surprised at his appearance , ruffled hair, dark dead eyes , a usual five o clock shadow turned into a full bad rough shave, "What? This is literal trespassing by the way."
Stefan got inside after a sigh, "Well now it's not."
"Ugh what do you want again?"
"I am here to remind you that you have a life." Stefan said with a tight lip, Damon gasped sarcastically, "Oh right a life! Like when I get up and go to work and come back home to smell my wife's clothes and her conditioner for her scent? Or where I get to look forward how the happiness of everyone around me is swallowing me?"
"She is gone Damon it's going to be four months now."
"Thanks for the hope." He smiled wide followed by rolling his eyes and going to the kitchen, "Uhh look I know you might get mad but uh- Mom and Dad and of course I think that you should move on, she was my best friend but you're my brother and you're killing yourself."
"I know you have my best interest or whatever but no thank you." He shrugged it off as he picked up a knife and thrusted it into an orange, Stefan flinched , "Can you not do that?"
"I always cut them this way." He huffed, "You know I once sliced my thumb pretty hard and-"
"Yeah Elena saw it and when she was dressing it she vomited- from all the blood, you've told me this like a hundred times." Stefan waved it off, "But she's not here anymore Damon."
"That's a little harsh." He leaned on the counter, "So what do Mom , Dad and you suggest , a ranch trip or something?"
"No uh, you remember Cassie, Mom's friend Lisa's daughter."
"No idea but go on."
"She's moving to New York and she's a doctor so-"
"Oh." He looked up at the roof as if thinking, "so you guys suggest I fuck my wife out of my system by screwing some-"
"Not that, but it wont bite to meet her."
"Yes it bites me, it bites my ass, I tell you I am hugging my wife's sweater every night and you suggest Cassie, you know fuck off."
"Fine I am not forcing you, it was a suggestion, not a-"
"I am good. " he let his hands up in surrender, "I am not losing it okay, Elena is going to come back."
"How? And When? "
"If I have to wait all my life I will." He said plainly as threw the orange in the garbage can, "because she is somewhere without me right now and she has no one, not you, not parents who care about her."
"God Damon! What if- what if."
"Don't say it."
"What if she's dead." Stefan spat, "What if she's dead damn it!"
"She's not dead Stefan, I know she isn't."
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Past
Was this really a new beginning? But nothing was wrapped up, she was on a plane to New York, she had a baby from the man she loved, who wasn't in the picture anymore, since his last very detached text message.
Elena,
You know I love you, you know that, but then there is this very immature factor, Grayson has me out of the hospital, he won't let me see you and honestly I feel like I can't, I am a man, I know, but not getting your support that day has me let down, I know this won't last longer, I'll find strength to look past it but that is not right now, it doesn't mean the baby isn't my responsibility. I'll get in contact soon.
She had re-read that text a million times that week but later she deleted it, she had to, this was a new life, she was going to figure it out, take acting classes till the pregnancy finishes and then slowly move back towards life.
With a baby.
Standing in her new apartment, which was huge, not like her last apartment she bought with Stefan and Caroline, she was instructing movers about the furniture, "I really don't like my couch here." she told a curly haired man , suddenly bile rose to her throat , she turned but found herself throwing up in a flower vase, "Ughh!" she groaned when she got done, the four men watching her with concern, "I am pregnant."
They got back to work as she looked at the vase with disgust, "Well there goes Stefan's house warming gift which I didn't like anyway, thank you baby."
Her phone buzzed loudly as she went to the bathroom to clean her mouth, "Huh." Think of the devil, she said as she picked up Stefan's call, "Elena, was you moving a secret from Damon or not?"
"Umm it wasn't a secret but he didn't want to hear from me so I didn't tell him."
"Well I might have accidently told him.' His voice lowered all of a sudden, "and honestly he's not thrilled over the news."
"That's not my problem Stefan, his baby has taken over my fucking abdomen and like Damon is very un-cooperative. I am dealing with the worst break up of my life which has literally shook my world and it's upside down." She spat, "So if he's not 'thrilled' about a tini-tiny detail, I am done." She felt tears coming to her eyes.
"Don't cry lena." Stefan said in a soft voice, "Hey please, I promise Care and I will be there in a few days."
"I know Stefan,I know it's just that no one understands what I am going through, everyone just keeps tossing me around, After years I find enough self-esteem to get away from Kol's limbo and I get stuck in Damon's? how can someone do that? He knows I am in pain and he still somehow blames me? I've done everything I could have done. I forgave him for the shit he did to me- I love him forgetting the previous heart break then we got into this pregnancy, you know how scary that is." She bit her lip, "I can't be a mother, I can't and I literally have no one, never had anyone, but I trusted him instantly when he said we're going to be a family, Damon wants to play house and Elena jumps in because she fucking loves him, she loves him so much that she doesn't think twice about her life, her dreams, her damn career."
"I understand Elena."
"You don't understand, you know how many auditions I've been to? How many classes I've taken, all I've spent on photoshoots, I throw it all away to be a damn house wife but I wish , I just wish that I hadn't because now I am alone in the doll house Damon set up, you know I knew , I knew that I shouldn't trust him, that all that love crap, you're amazing crap is a lie, it throws itself out once a real fucking problem comes around, you know how terrible this is? Being alone? And you know how fucking pathetic I am? I still love him."
"Elena." He sighed
"I can't hate him and it's killing me, I think about his face and I start crying, I just want him to tell me he's going to be there for me, but instead I get a bloody text and guess what , he didn't give me a call, I am not even worth a call, while I am here dying, I feel like nothing is going to survive , like my relationship is sinking along with everything Damon can't dial a number, he can't answer a call, and he knows it's making me crazy, he knows that my desperation for him is the best punishment he can give me for something I am to be blamed for, which is his damn insecurities."
"Why are you going off on me!" Stefan choked out, she grabbed the sink and stepped back feeling her head spinning, her sugar level was low again, "because I know Damon is right there listening to me."
"Uhh."
"Isn't he?" she swallowed thick, tears forming in her eyes, "Yes." She heard his voice, after two weeks she heard his voice , she clutched the hem of her dress as anger shoot up her body straight to her head, "Go fuck yourself." She shut the phone and tossed it on the couch as she walked back to the living room, "Seriously I don't like this couch here!"
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Finally, she got in the sheets on her bed and turned the TV on, she breathed in and out as if meditating , finally things were setting in, last month was a rush, crazy in love to pregnant to want to get married to breaking up in the worst way. Now she was in a new city, pregnant, heartbroken, was this real! This can't be real, her future was screwed up, she touched her stomach, well she wasn't all alone, she had this baby right now. She caressed her stomach ,trying to feel what the TV commercialized all the time. A baby, she never thought of a baby, could she handle a baby when she couldn't handle herself? Will her baby have what she did? Like being sick this way, she didn't want that for anyone. She breathed in deep, "Okay baby, hi uh, you know it's just you and me, I really can't speak anymore, I tried calling Caroline and I don't want to hear about how everything will magically fall back into place and since you can't say those words to me-"
Her phone ringed and she gritted her teeth reaching for it, 'Damon'
Her heart started racing, why? Why was she like this? She can't just pick up after what he did, his reckless abandon yet again.
"Hello." She hated herself right now.
"Elena, I am – I am sorry."
She hated those words, she dreaded those words, how can someone just shatter your heart and say sorry? How is that ever going to fix it.
"for what Damon? For bailing on me yet again? This time with a baby on the way-"
He interrupted, "No Elena I haven't abandoned you, I just needed time."
"And let me guess, time out is done."
"You slapped me!" he finally said loudly.
"And you being an egotistical jerk just took off and left me all alone again, I cant stand back and watch as you hit my father Damon, he's my father."
"I know Elena but you saw what he did, I couldn't control myself, he wasn't shutting up." He huffed, "But you know what I don't care about that anymore, I don't care about any of it, all I know is that I cant live without you forever."
She bit her lip as tears started running down her cheeks, she sat back in her bed, she had missed his voice so much that it actually felt like music to her right now, she hated and loved it right now, he continued, "You have no idea how hard it's been for me, everywhere I go,ghh I come up to our spot everyday with the bridge , I thought I'd find you, I just couldn't stay away-"
"Well you could have tried my house."
"I thought you wouldn't want to see me as well, I just know I don't deserve you at all."
"yes." She nodded touching her stomach, "You deserve to be hit by a bus right in your crotch."
"Elena please let me be with you, let me see you." He said in a whispery voice, "If I don't see you for another day I'll actually go nuts and tell Stefan to run me over with a bus."
"No you can't." she sighed deep, "You can't come here, I wont let you ruin this for me again."
"Elena I promise you let me see you once, we can talk about everything, we can fix everything baby, we don't need a bloody approval from anyone, I love you that's it." He said firmly, "I am not going to contemplate this! You know what? My mother made a lot of wrong decisions, marrying Giuseppe isn't one of them, I am never going to regret that ever, if it weren't for her, I'd never meet you or my brother or have a father, I don't know how Grayson got to me in that moment, but it's never going to again, anything that leads to you isn't a regret for me."
She pursed her lips, wiping her eyes, "So what if I let you see me?"
"I'll make it up to you but always know I never abandoned you, you aren't alone, not until I am alive." He said with faith, she got up the bed and walked to her window, "Where are you?"
"I am in our spot by the bridge. Huh I like it here."
"What after you make it up to me." she asked suddenly. He chuckled, "I don't know Elena, my to do list is just to hunt you down, keep you forever right now."
"Hmm that's quite a list." She had a hint of a smile.
"Elena" he swallowed thick looking at the crescent moon in the sky, "I love you." He sighed, "The spot, the town , the sky- it means nothing if you're not here- it's just not right."
"So what is Damon? I am not coming back to town. No."she shook her head and moved back to sit on her bed, low blood pressure, screw you.
"Okay, don't panic." He breathed , "Well can I come there?"
"What? You mean New York? Damon your whole life is in Mystic falls you cant just-"
He interrupted , "No, no! my life isn't here, Elena, you're in New York, then my life is there."
"What do you mean?" she frowned
"Elena I belong where you are, I don't want to be somewhere like Mystic falls where the moon isn't bright enough, the wind isn't fresh all of a sudden and it seems like a ghost town suddenly, I know the reason, it's exactly how I felt away from you all those years, let me be with you, if you don't want to come back, let me come there." He convinced, "I want to."
Her heart was beating fast from his words, if he'd be here she'd kiss him or maybe check his temperature after that for being too poetic, it sucked everything sucked without him, "Come."
"What?" he sounded so surprised.
"Just get here Damon and we can think what to do next." She swallowed thick, "I- I love you." She breathed in deep and repeated, "I love you Damon."
"Hey, I am on my way baby, everything is going to be okay, we'll survive this."
"I know."
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A/N:
Hey guys the response on this seriously sucks, thanks to the two to three sweethearts who do, just so you know the more response= the frequent upload
Because I cant think of a story when you throw it into garbage lol.
What was your fav part? (or is this story really pissing you off?)
Next chap:
Future: Elena comes back!
Past: (You can guess tho)
So who's excited, let me know because crazy stuff is coming ahead