August 26 – Day 3: stargazing/promise
Disclaimer: I still don't own Junjou Romantica and probably never will. All characters belong to Shungiku Nakamura. No profit is being made from writing this story.
The stars are the jewels of the night and perchance surpass anything which day has to show. – Henry David Thoreau
Inky blackness shot through with sparkles of light met his eye as he looked through the telescope's lens. It seemed so serene and peaceful even among the harried bustle of the Tokyo nightlife. Misaki stepped back from the telescope and saw his reflected image staring back at him from the window pane. Finding the telescope in Usagi-san's room had been a treasured discovery. He'd almost forgotten how beautiful it was to gaze at the stars through its lens. A shadow of movement caught his eye as he saw his lover come up behind him. Strong arms wrapped themselves around his waist as the older man lay his head down on Misaki's shoulder.
I've been staring at the sky tonight,
marveling and passing time.
Wondering what to do with daylight
until I can make you mine.
You are the one I want; you are the one I want.
Akihiko couldn't resist his impulse to wrap his arms around his lover. The younger man honestly had no idea how much his cuteness affected him. Not to mention the delicious sight as he was bent over slightly looking through the telescope. And if he told Misaki just that, he knew he'd be called a pervert. But the truth was the truth and he couldn't deny it. "Enjoying the view, Misaki?" I know that I certainly am.
Misaki shivered slightly as he felt warm breath tickling the back of his neck. The older man hadn't even orchestrated any lecherous actions yet and he was already reacting to him. It seemed that lately he'd begun to crave the touches and kisses that the older man would bestow on him. Naturally, that made him reevaluate how he felt in concern to Usagi-san.
I've been thinking of changing my mind.
It never stays the same for long.
But of all the things I know for sure,
you're the only certain one.
You are the one I want; you are the one I want.
"I've always found the night sky to be so beautiful. Watching the stars makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world at that moment. So many stars lay scattered across the sky. It seems like it'd be impossible to count them all." He could feel the strong pulsing of his lover's heartbeat against his back, the steadiness of it comforting him.
I've been counting up all my wrongs,
one sorry for each star.
See I'd apologize my way to you,
if the heavens stretched that far.
'Cause you are the one I want; you are the one I want.
The night sky reminded him of both himself and Usagi-san. From this view it looked like the stars were being protected by the heavens themselves. Like how Usagi-san would always protect him and even now he felt that way with his lover's arms wrapped securely around him. Like his personal security blanket, ensuring that nothing would harm him. "Now that I think about it, the stars and the sky are like us, Usagi-san."
Akihiko looked at Misaki curiously. "Is that so? How does it remind you of us?"
Resting his head back on his lover's chest, he replied, "Because you always protect me, just like the night does for the stars. It's like the sky has its arms wrapped securely around the stars. And that makes them shine all the brighter."
I won't find what I am looking for
if I only "see" by keeping score.
'Cos I know now you are so much more than arithmetic.
Akihiko had to smile at his lover's reasoning. "Is that so, Misaki? Then know this – I'll always protect you, no matter what. You are mine, Misaki, and I love you." He turned the younger man around so that he now faced him. Akihiko raised his face so he could look straight into those green eyes that always bewitched him. "No matter what happens, I'll never stop loving you. I couldn't stop…not even when I die."
'Cos if I add, if I subtract
if I give it all, try to take some back.
I've forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact
that you are the sum.
So you are the one
I want.
Misaki felt tears start to well up in the corners of his eyes. The things that his lover would say…they always managed to make him cry with their intensity. He'd wavered over his feelings before, but now he couldn't deny his feelings for the older man. He rested his head against his lover's chest, feeling the strong rhythm of the heart that showed its love for him daily. "And I'll never stop loving you, either, Usagi-san. You'll always be the one I want."
When the years are showing on my face
and my strongest days are gone.
When my heart and flesh depart this place
from a life that sung your song.
You'll still be the one I want.
You'll still be the one I want.
You'll still be the one I want.
You'll still be the one I want.
Song used: Arithmetic – Brook Fraser