Olivia was back home with her team. She was glad to finally be home, she'd decided to take some time and work from home before she continued working on her new collection. She was blown away by the reaction so far and was mostly communicating with buyers and editors about the collection and then communicating with her factory based in L.A to prepare to fulfil the orders which was more than she'd estimated. She was also planning Lily's first birthday that would be coming up in weeks. She'd decided on a ballerina theme, she wanted all the little baby girls running around in pink tutus, she wanted a pink cake and pink decor. It would be intimate so Lily wouldn't be overwhelmed even though she knew her daughter had no aversions to being the center of attention.
She was sitting at the kitchen island, replying to emails when Erin walked into the kitchen.
"Morning Liv."
"Er, morning, how are you?"
"Good, I slept good."
Olivia remembered Erin kissing a woman at the club. She hadn't gotten a chance to speak to her about it because they barely got time alone together while they travelled back to California.
"Erin, I saw you kissing that girl, you're a little freaky."
Erin chuckled.
"Yeah I eat muff pie, didn't I tell you."
"Yeah but it's different to see it. I'm happy for you though, I just want you to be happy." Olivia said with a smile.
"I am, this is probably the happiest I can remember being, turns out when you're aren't worried about where your next meal comes from and being homeless, it's easier to be happy."
Erin took some strawberries from the refrigerator and washed them then sat beside Olivia on the island.
"OH MY GOD by the way that fight with Fitz at the club was crazy."
"Don't remind me. I can't take him anywhere."
"He knocked that guy out cold and then he started fucking up his friends all by himself I was like whoa."
"Yeah, I told him he needs to control his temper."
"He can fight though, like he can really fuck people up, that's kind of insane."
Erin ate a strawberry.
"Don't ever encourage him please, I'm trying to get him to control his temper."
Olivia reached into Erin's plate and took a strawberry. Erin chuckled and covered her plate.
"Heyyyy."
Olivia smiled.
"It was just one."
Erin shook her head and continued eating, as they caught up about their trip.
Fitz stood on the edge of the hatch door of the plane.
"In the drop zone. Ready for the big drop in 3-2-1…" someone from mission command said into their earpieces.
He jumped out into the black night sky. So did 11 other deltas behind him, one after the other. Fitz dived through the wind, 10,000 feet in the air and falling rapidly.
As soon as they were close enough to the ground he yelled, "chute" and pulled out his parachute and so did the rest of the deltas.
When they landed on the ground, they were just outside the compound of the king of Kashfar. They pulled off their skydiving suits and parachutes, then swiftly and quietly sprinted towards the compound, drawing their weapons as they ran.
Within 4 minutes, they'd killed their way up to the king's chambers. Fitz opened the door and pulled him out of bed and threw him on the floor.
His wife woke up screaming and Fitz dragged her out of the bed too then he cocked his gun.
'NO, PLEASE." The king begged.
Fitz shot him in the forehead and he fell to the ground. His wife screamed as he blood splashed on her face and in her mouth.
"NO." She screamed. "NO."
Fitz turned to her and pointed the gun to her head.
"PLEASE, MY CHILDREN, PLEASE." She begged.
Fitz shot her too and then he turned and walked out of the room.
"Where are the children?" He asked Anton.
"Crimson has them barricaded in the room down the hall." Anton answered.
Fitz walked down the hall to the room with the open door. Abby stood inside with three children.
When she saw him she stepped in front of them.
"Fitz. No."
He pushed her aside and she fell to the ground and he shot each child once in the head, a quick, clean death.
"You wanted me back, I'm fucking back, deal with it." He said as he walked out. "And burn this fucking castle down." He yelled. "So we can get the fuck outta here."
By the time Fitz had walked to the entrance they'd began to light the house on fire.
Two hours later, they were in Germany, the group of them had made a stop at the deltas favorite bar. Akio, Abby, Huck, Harrison and Anton were sitting together at the bar, while Fitz was at the back of the room, sitting on the couch. The other members were scattered about.
"You've gotta do something, what the fuck is going on with him, it's like I'm working for fucking Stalin." Abby complained.
"Our orders were to fucking kill everyone and burn the house down and we did that." Akio said calmly.
"They were children," Abby retorted.
"Fuck them kids," Anton said.
"I thought we were the good guys," Abby said.
"We are, how many people did the king kill, how many thousands of kids," Huck joined.
Abby sighed.
"All the same, he's unraveling, ever since he's been back, he's just different, like he's worse. I actually thought he'd be softer with the kid at home but it's made him worse."
"I know just what he needs," said Harrison.
He turned from his seat at the bar and stopped the woman that was walking by. He remembered her specifically because she was always in that particular bar, selling her pussy.
Harrison pulled out a few hundred dollar bills from his pocket and shoved it in her hand.
"You see my friend at the back over there, sitting on the couch, all handsome and lonely. I'd like for you to be his friend, just for tonight."
He pointed his nose over to Fitz and then turned around and smiled as the woman walked off.
"Let's see."
The woman walked over to Fitz and sat beside him.
"Hello friend," she said in her thick german accent.
She had over-dyed blonde hair and she was at least 5 feet 10 inches.
Fitz didn't respond to her so she reached over and ran her hand over his crotch, that was when he grabbed her hand and bent her wrist back.
"The ring on my finger, is not for fucking decoration."
"Ahhh-" she screamed but then he grabbed her throat so tight she couldn't speak let alone breath.
"Who sent you?"
She gurgled but no sound so he bent her wrist back further and squeezed her throat tighter. She yelped and her whole body quaked.
"Who?" he asked again.
She turned her head over, pointing to the bar, in the direction of the deltas.
Fitz flung her to the side and got up and headed over to them.
"Ah fuck, here he comes." Harrison said.
"Told you man, you should've left him alone." Huck said.
When Fitz got to the bar, Harrison was the only one who had turned his head and seemed to be avoiding him on purpose, he instantly knew it was him.
"What the fuck was that?"
"Nothing man, lighten up, it was just a joke."
"Tell that to her fucking broken wrist over there."
Harrison turned and looked to the back of the room to see the woman crying hysterically and holding her wrist, while another woman seemed to be helping her then he turned back around to see Fitz staring at him dead on.
"Do not ever do that again."
Harrison nodded.
"I'm ready to get the fuck outta here."
"Okay, give us two minutes so we can close up the tab." Huck said.
Fitz turned and walked out of the bar.
The second they landed at the base, Fitz received a mission directive to be taken out in two days. The timing was close because Lily's birthday was in 3 days but with one day to spare, he would be able to make it.
After he showered, he went out to smoke, which was a habit he'd broken after Lily was born but now it became his ritual before he went to bed.
As he lay in bed, he pulled out his phone and dialed Olivia. He spent most of his free time listening to her phone. He liked to listen to all the mundane things she did during the day, like she spent most of the day working and taking care of Lily but mostly he listened to make sure she was safe, she had her phone on her about 95% of the time, if anything happened to her, listening through her phone would be the quickest way to find out.
She picked up after a couple of rings.
"Great, you called back, I was worried you were sleeping."
"No, I left my phone, I just got back to my room."
He sounded tired and sad as usual so she tried to sound upbeat because in the weeks since they met up together in New York for her fashion show, he'd only visited her once and she felt like she was going insane so she could imagine how he felt.
"I'm so excited to see you, the party is going to be perfect. All her little baby friends will be there, probably fucking crying so I'll had ear plugs handy for you, don't worry."
Fitz chuckled. He'd heard all the planning whenever he listen through her phone, he also heard her confide in Erin about how worried she was about him, she'd been talking about it more and more lately so he planned to talk to her about it when he saw her, hoping that he would be able to bring it up without her knowing that he was listening to her phone.
"Thanks..umm...is Lily awake yet?"
"No, she's still asleep but babe, she did the cutest thing the other day…"
"What?"
"She rolled her eyes at me, I didn't even know it was possible for her to do that at this age. It's insane."
Fitz smiled widely.
"Why did she do that?"
"I tried to take a selfie with her, I was going to send it to you and so I was like you know 'Lily, come on, let's take a picture for dad' and I look over to her and she just rolls her eyes."
"Yep. that sounds like my daughter."
"I can feel you smiling through the phone, glad I could make you smile...well..Lily did but I can make you moan, if you'd come home."
"Goodbye." Fitz said with a chuckle.
"Bye, I love you so so much and I can't wait to see you."
"I love you."
Fitz hung up and placed his phone on the nightstand and closed his eyes until he fell asleep. He dreamed that he was crawling in between her legs.
"I just wanna lick my wife's pussy." He heard himself say.
Olivia chuckled and cupped his cheeks.
"You can do whatever you want?"
Next thing he knew he was sweating, she was the one who one in between his legs, sucking him. He could feel the warm place at the back of her throat that he loved. He was close, just a few more seconds and he would find release.
An alarm blared so loud he jumped out of his sleep. When he opened his eyes, he heard his morning alarm ringing and sucked his teeth. He was cold sweat running down his face.
"Fuck."
He turned it off and sat up, only to feel his massive erection. When he moved his covers he saw a wet spot on his grey pajama pants.
"Of course."
He stood and stretched and grabbed his throbbing dick. He didn't masterbate, he usually took a cold shower and stayed in his room until it went down and even though it was painful, that was his usual routine and he did it because when he saw Olivia he knew all bets were off. Nobody could make him orgasm like Olivia did and most of the time, she barely put any effort, it just happened. Nobody's pussy gripped him as tight as Olivia's, it was like she was specially made for him. She knew how to keep him calm, how to make him smile, how to drive him crazy and most importantly, she gave him Lily and taught him what love was. Everyday that he woke up in that hellhole of a base, surrounded by people he didn't' trust, following orders to kill anyone regardless of what he thought or how he felt, he reminded himself of that love, even while he was plotting to kill about half the deltas. The list grew bigger everyday because know he saw how close Akio, Anton and Huck were, he was sure they knew as well, Akio would've needed help.
He mused about what would happen if he was able to successfully get rid of them, who would be in control after. His endgame was to leave but as it stood there was no one he trusts, if he couldn't trust Akio, who'd been his closest ally for almost then there was no one. He needed someone who after he left, he could call on in an emergency, someone who was loyal to him but who understood he didn't want to come back. He briefly thought about Abby but she hated Olivia too much and even if she was too much of a hypocrite to admit it, she was just as ruthless as everyone else there.
He walked to the shower and turned on the electric faucet then he brushed his teeth and stripped naked and stepped into the shower.
He closes his eyes and though he tried to resist, his mind wandered to Olivia and how warm and tight she would feel once he was inside her. He subconsciously grabbed unto his shaft.
"Don't fucking do this to me baby. Don't do this to me." He begged the imaginary Olivia that occupied his mind most of the day.
The moment he gripped his shaft he came immediately.
"Oh shit...goddammit."
He braced against the wall after his orgasm passed and sighed. He really tried to hold out but at this point, he couldn't control it, if even just the thought of her would bring him to orgasm.
Sometimes he wondered if Olivia knew how much control she had over him or the lengths he would go to for her, as the thought crossed his mind and he realized he was drifting he quickly dismissed it and finished his shower then headed out for his morning briefing.
Days passed and Lily's birthday was only 2 days away. He was excited to celebrate with her. He was imagining all the drama she would create, knowing his daughter it would be nothing short of a show.
He had one mission to complete then we would fly directly to California and spend two days there.
He was in a meeting when he phone chimed notifying him that he received a text message from Olivia. When the meeting was over, he pulled out his phone to check the message and saw that it was a video of Lily. He opened it immediately.
Lily was sitting in Olivia's lap at the jeweler's, waiting for the piercer to prep her tools.
"Do you think she's gonna cry?" Erin asked as she recorded the encounter.
"I hope not." Olivia said as she kissed the back of Lily's head.
"Okay, I just want you to hold her securely." The woman said as she brought the piercing gun closer to Lily.
Olivia held Lily tightly against her body while the woman held Lily's ears, sanitized it, pierced it then inserted Lily's diamond earring with one swift motion.
Lily looked confused at the sensation she was feeling in one ear. She made a face to cry, her eyes filled with water but then she just pouted, making a puppy dog face.
Olivia kisses her hair again.
"One more sweetheart and then it over."
The woman prepped the next ear and then pierced it and added the earring. This time Lily tensed up in anticipation and fussed as the held her. When it was over and she felt the pain, she cried this time.
"Ma-ma." She uttered softly with tears in her ears.
Olivia turned her around and hugged her tightly and kissed her.
"I know my sweet, mama is such a meany, look at what she did to you." Olivia said in third person as she kissed and consoled Lily.
"She is so freaking cute." Erin said from behind the lense.
Olivia reached into her purse and pulled out a lollipop and unwrapped it then gave it to Lily.
When Lily saw the lollipop she stopped crying and dived for it.
Olivia chuckled as she gave it to her to suck on then turned her around to face the camera.
"Say look dada, I've got my ears pierced like a big girl and tell dada you love the earrings he got you. They're beautiful."
The diamonds were dazzling in her ears and reflected light from every facet of the gem.
They'd discussed piercing Lily ears for Lily's first birthday which was why he'd bought her the earring weeks earlier and he was glad he's bought her the first pair of earrings but it didn't make up for the fact that he couldn't be there to see her get her piercing. The last thing he wanted to be was the kind of father that showered their kid with gifts to replace that fact that they're absent.
He smiled at the video. Lily was just a masterpiece of everything that made a baby perfect and he missed her but before he could drag himself in the dark hole of longing and self loathing, he snapped out of it. He'd be seeing her in two days.
Olivia woke up at about 6:30, it was going to be a busy day. She was excited that it was her baby's first birthday but mostly she was excited because Fitz would be there for the weekend. It seemed like he was always busy and had only been able to see her once since New York.
She looked over at Lily, sleeping peacefully with her butt perched in the air. She leaned over and kissed her cheek softly.
"Happy birthday Lily."
Olivia sighed as she took a minute to prepare herself mentally for the day and then stood and stretched. She was ready for the day.
They'd invited kids from their wealthy gated communities, they invited kids from Lily's mommy and me class, some of Lucky's family and some of her workers had babies of their own or small children in their family were invited to come as well. In all, she had about 30 children who would attend Lily's party in addition to the 45 adults that were accompanying them. She had enough food, favors and drinks for 100 people, far from the intimate get together she'd planned to throw but she couldn't help it, it was Lily's first birthday, she wanted it to be memorable.
Olivia washed her face and brushed her teeth. She had both Fitz and Lily's outfits picked out along with her own. They'd be matching, somewhat, Lily would be wearing a baby pink leotard and pink tutu, she'd be wearing a pink minidress and she got a pink cotton button down for Fitz and white bottoms, she knew he'd hate it but he would wear it for Lily.
After fumbling around for another half hour after freshening up, she finally went downstairs. Gregory was already in the kitchen with a group of staff, getting the food ready. Most of the food was ordered through catering but there was some food Greg prepared himself and garnished himself. She allowed him to hire staff for the day to help him prepare and serve it.
"Greg, how's it going?" She asked.
"Good. I prepared some breakfast for you, I know you'll be up and about all day but I'd prefer if you did that with something in your stomach." He motioned over to the dining table over had walked pass.
She smiled.
"Thanks so much, I am kind of starving."
She went back to the dining room and took a plate from the table and took one of the buttery, freshly baked croissants Greg had prepared and then she poured herself from tea.
Erin walked down the stairs moments later and saw her.
"What's up?" She greeted.
"Hey, Greg made us food."
"Oh perfect, I'm hungry as fuck."
Erin took a croissant as well and poured herself orange juice.
"What's the schedule for today, I know the party starts at 12."
"Yeah, so the party company should be here by 8 to begin setting up. It's going to be beautiful weather today so I'm thankful for that and the party decorator should also be here by 8 to 8:30, so once the rental place drops off everything we can start setting everything up.
They walked to the living room. Olivia brought her croissant and some eggs with her to her living room, which was now a storage area for party favors and decoration as well as hundreds of balloons tied in groups of 10 that hovered in the ceiling thanks to the helium.
Everything was pink and cream, there was also a little gold.
"When is Rumi coming?" Erin asked.
"An hour maybe, but I want to see if we can get a few things done before then."
"Okay but let me just finish breakfast, that crossiant did nothing for me, it's so good."
Olivia chuckled.
"Yeah, I'm still hungry."
They walked back to the living room and finished eating breakfast.
Olivia timed Lily perfectly and when she knew Lily would be waking up soon, she went upstairs and took the baby monitor so she could hear when she cried. It wasn't a sure thing because sometimes Lily would just sit up in the bed and wait for someone to get her without making a sound.
Olivia and Erin got to labeling the party favors when the decorator she'd hired arrived with his team and took over. It was perfect planning because when Olivia went back to check on Lily she was awake.
"Happy birthday." Olivia said as she lifted Lily in the air and kissed her. "Happy birthday sweet Lily."
She hugged her gently and kissed her disheveled hair.
"Let's call dada, he should be on his way and I know he wants to see the birthday girl."
Olivia pulled her phone from her waist and dialed Fitz. She'd been waiting for Lily to wake so she could call him.
She facetimed him and waited as the called rang out.
"Maybe he has bad service...we'll try again in a little while."
She brought Lily to the bathroom and set her water for a bubble bath. She filled the tub with about a quarter capacity of water and then added suds and placed Lily inside, she immediately began splashing water as far as it could reach.
"Lily!" Olivia laughed as she got wet but didn't stop her.
Lily giggled and splashed in the water. Sometimes when she looked at Lily she looked like such a big girl and other times she looked at Lily she saw how tiny and fragile she was. Lily had grown out of whatever chubbiness she had as a newborn. Both her parents were extremely slender and with Fitz at 6'3, Lily was already taking after his height because she was on the taller side of the average 1 year old but like her mom, she was extremely tiny and slender even with her height.
Everyone told her she spoiled and babied Lily but there was no amount of spoiling or babying that seemed enough when it came to Lily.
Lily splashed again and this time some of the suds went into her eye. It was non irritating soap so it wouldn't hurt or burn her eye but all the same Olivia quickly wiped it out.
She took her time washing Lily's hair and cleaning and pampering her baby then she washed her off and wrapped her in her robe and took her back to the bed. She dried her off and lotioned her skin and then put on her diaper.
"Let's call dada again."
"Da-da." Lily repeated. "Dada dada dada."
Olivia chuckled.
"Yes."
She took her phone from the bed and facetimed him and once again, it rang out.
She sighed.
"New plan, we'll wait for dad to call us, yeah?" Lily didn't respond.
Olivia walked Lily to her bedroom and sat her in the bed and took her time fixing Lily's hair into a ballerina bun. At 1 years old, she had hair that fell to her shoulders, just long enough to be pulled into a cute little bun. She added pink clips and a pink scrunchy around her bun.
When she was finished with Lily's hair, she left her in her robe and brought her downstairs, she would hair to put in her outfit when the guests started to arrive.
Fitz was supposed to arrive around 12:30, she'd confirmed it with him up until two days prior. He hadn't answered her last few calls but she imagined he might not have any reception, depending on the method of travel he was taking to their home.
The day proceeded and by 11am, the party was set up with all the decorations, tables, chairs set up. There was a bouncy castle. A face painter to paint their faces. She'd hired actual freelance dancers to dress as ballerinas and dance during the party. Everything she could think of, she did. The only thing that wasn't yet brought out was the food and cake.
She had Erin watch Lily so she could shower and try to get dressed in time for 12pm which was the start time of the party.
When she stepped out of the shower, it was just in time to hear her cell phone ringing. She ran over quickly, hoping it was Fitz and it was.
"Babe, where are you?" She said, skipping any kind of greeting, she was too anxious to see him.
"I'm not gonna make it."
"Wait ..what?" What do you mean?"
"I'm not coming."
"Fitz-"
"Just..please, take a few pictures and record everyone singing her happy birthday for me. I have to go. I'll talk to you later."
He hung up before she had a chance to respond. She called him back immediately but it went to voicemail so she texted him.
Livie: are you okay? I just need to know if you're okay? Physically...mentally...emotionally?
A few seconds later he responded.
Husband: I'm fine just enjoy the party and remember to make the video.
She felt devastated and she wondered if she was dramatic for feeling the way she felt...like she wanted to cry. Was he not coming home at all or would he just miss the party? Why did his voice sound like a mixture or anger and sadness.
Her entire day felt ruined but even so it was Lily's day and she didn't want to ruin it for her.
After she pulled on her dress, she straightened her long curly hair and applied a little concealer under her eyes and mascara and lipgloss and she was done. Originally she planned to go all out for the family pictures they were going to take but mostly she was dressing up for Fitz but if he wouldn't be there she wasn't going to put out that much effort.
As she was finishing up, Erin walked into her closet.
"You want me to get Lily dressed?" She asked
"No, I'll do it, I'm done."
"It usually takes you longer to get ready?" Erin said.
"Yeah." She stood up and checked herself in the mirror before turning around to Erin. "Fitz isn't coming so who am I getting all dolled up for."
"He's not coming?"
"And now I don't even want to go, I just want to cancel and tell everyone to fucking go home."
"Come on, that party downstairs looks fucking sick, Lily's going to enjoy it and so will everyone else, this day is for Lily remember."
"I know, I just had this vision in my mind of what her first birthday was going to be but now it's gone to shit but your right, it's Lily's day it's not about me."
"And I'm sure he probably feels just as shitty as you since he's gonna miss it."
"Yeah, I don't know, he's been talking about it all week and then he just calls me all cryptic and sad and it doesn't help that I'm so paranoid and over protective so now I'm just playing every worst case scenario over in my mind."
"Worst case scenario like what?"
"I don't know, he didn't tell me what happened...maybe last minute he had a mission or something, it just sucks."
Olivia took Lily from Erin.
"Anyways thanks for watching her, go get ready and then meet me downstairs."
"Okay, I'll be quick."
It was almost 12:30 when Olivia walked out to the yard. It was more people than she expected it to be just half an hour into the party.
She saw the photographer she hired, walking about with his camera, recording little details of the party and snapping pictures.
Once everyone saw her, she found herself busy with Lily for almost an hour. Making small talk, greeting her friends and their children.
The servers walked around handing out hors d'oeuvres, while the ballerinas danced and the face painter painted faces of the line of kids waiting for their artwork.
It was almost perfect except she couldn't be present in the moment because her mind kept wandering back to Fitz. As she sat in the chair while Lily got her face painted, she decided to text him again.
Livie: Are you gonna be able to come at all this weekend or no?
She locked her phone and gave Lily her attention. She could see the camera man snapping pictures of Lily as she painted her face.
By 2, she gathered everyone around the main table, where Lily's three tiered pink cake stood.
The party planner handed her a mic.
Olivia, stood with Lily perched on her hips as she waited for the last few people walked over to the table. Lily kept grabbing for the cake in front of them.
"Greedy just like her mum." Olivia said into the mic.
She heard chuckles.
"Okay, first of all, I just want to thank everyone for coming. I'm so grateful you all could celebrate my baby's first birthday and make it special."
Olivia looked over to the tower of gifts that piled up for Lily.
"Thank you for all the gifts and the kind wishes, we really do appreciate it. Her dad wanted to be here but work kept him away, he's also grateful to everyone who came and made her birthday special."
Olivia wondered if there was anything she was forgetting and was about to step off until Erin leaned over and reminded her they were going to cut the cake.
"Oops, I forgot to cut the cake." She said with the mic catching her sound and amplifying it.
She heard chuckles again.
Erin lit the candles on top of Lily's cake.
"Yeah, so we're going to sing happy birthday in- and by the way, I want everyone sing no mumbling either ...in 3..2..1….happy birthday to you." Olivia sang.
They all sang the happy birthday song which Lily ignored because she was busy grabbing at the cake.
"Okay Lily, blow out your candles in 3...2...1…"
Lily stared at Olivia.
"I figured." Olivia said with a chuckle as she blew out the candles for Lily.
"Happy birthday sweet girl. Mommy and daddy love you." She said as she gave her a sweet kiss.
The party continued while Greg took the cake to the kitchen to cut it in slices so it could be served.
When the song 'can't stop the feeling' came over the speaker Lily danced, swinging her arms back and forth as she spun.
"Go Lily, go Lily, go Lily." Erin egged her on as she laughed.
"Leave her alone," Olivia said, she laughed as well.
Her daughter definitely has Fitz's sense of rhythm or lack thereof.
Olivia spun her around and danced with her. She was glad that Lily was enjoying her party, everyone she spoke with told her how one year olds rarely enjoy their first party and mostly cry or fuss but she knew her daughter.
Olivia looked over to Erin.
"Can you tell the dj that this music is horrid."
Erin cackled loudly.
"My pleasure."
She wanted to instil good taste in music in her daughter from an early age. After a few minutes of a Taylor Swift song, the music changed to the Jackson 5.
"Better, much better."
Olivia said as she kissed Lily and danced. The camera man walked over to her. Olivia began to sing to Lily.
"I never can say goodbye, no, no, no, no, now…..Never can say goodbye….Even though the pain and heartache….Seem to follow me wherever I go….Though I try and try to hide my feelings…..They always seem to show….Then you try to say you're leaving me…..And I always have to say no….Tell me why is it so…...That I never can say goodbye, no, no, no, no, now….Never can say goodbye…"
When the servers returned with the cake, Olivia fed Lily her vanilla cake and soon after Lily fell asleep in Olivia arms. Her nap usually took place around 12pm but because of the party and excitement she wasn't able to sleep until a little after 3pm.
Olivia took her bad to the bedroom and laid her in the middle of the bed and took off her shoes and tutu so she would be comfortable in sleep.
She went back downstairs, the party was from 12 to 4pm. In the hour that remained she helped to hand out party favors and tried to get everyone to finish as much food as possible.
Guests started to leave the party around 4, drifting off in groups.
The party supply company returned with a truck to begin breaking down and packing up all their units. The decorator and his team began cleaning up and by the time Olivia looked around, there wasn't much left for her to do.
She sat on the kitchen island, snacking on some of the cotton candy left over from the party when her phone rang. She answered immediately when she saw that it was Fitz.
"Fitz, what's going on? Why aren't you responding to my texts?"
"I'm sorry, I just saw it so I called you."
"Do you have an answer for me?"
"Livie, honestly I can't really talk about this right now?"
"When can we talk about it? When will I see you?"
"I don't know, probably not tonight."
She her face fell flat.
"Uh...can you send me that video from the party, I really need a little pick me up."
Olivia palmed her face when she remembered the video.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry, I totally forgot."
"Are you serious? I can't tell?"
"No, I am but-"
"-Olivia, I asked you to do one thing for me and you didn't?"
"Fitz...it's not a big deal, the-"
"-It's not a big deal?" He screamed. "Her first birthday and all I asked was for was one goddamn video. How fucking hard was that Olivia?"
"Why are you so angry?" She tried not to raise her voice. "I got a photographer record the whole thing, he said he was going to edit it and send me back the video in a week, I'll ask him if he can do it a little faster so you'll get to see it."
"That's not the point though-"
"No, the point is that I worked my arse off to plan this fucking party and all you had to do was show up and you didn't so don't get mad at me because I was too busy being the only parent there."
She was crying now and Erin heard the yelling from the living room and came to her.
"-Right? I'm the shitty parent. Got it Olivia."
"Baby, that's not what I'm saying."
"Whatever Olivia, I gotta go."
He hung up.
Olivia palmed her face and shook her head.
"Is everything okay?" Erin asked.
"Fitz asked me to record when we sang Lily happy birthday and I forgot and he's mad at me."
"Didn't the camera guy record it? He'll get it in a couple days."
"That's what I told him." She said with a sigh.
She didn't remember taking a lot of pictures precisely because she had hired a photographer but she decided to look through her phone anyways. She found a picture of her and Lily, standing by her cake. She'd asked Erin to take it for her.
She was annoyed at him for yelling at her but she decided to be the bigger person and send it anyways. She didn't know what he was feeling and why he blew up like that but she had to imagine it had to do with the fact that he missed the party he's been excited about for weeks.
She texted him the picture.
Livie: I know it's not good enough but this is all I have right now.
"You sent it?" Erin asked.
Olivia nodded.
"I'm really tired. Thanks for everything today Erin, I have no idea how I could have pulled this off with you."
"You know I had to show out for my niece."
Olivia smiled and stood.
"You're a crybaby just like me. I cry for everything." Erin said with a chuckle.
"Fitz makes me cry if we argue, if he tells me he loves me, if we have sex, anything."
Erin laughed.
"Yeah , you're whipped bad. That's good though, your husband is exactly the person you supposed to be whipped for."
"It sounds a lot more fun than it actually is. He holds my heart in his hands like a tiny little dove."
Lily began to coo over the baby monitor.
"She's up, I'm gonna go to her."
Erin nodded and continued to the kitchen.
As Olivia walked up the stairs, she saw a text back from Fitz.
Fitz: this is perfect actually. Thanks. I'm sorry I yelled at you, I'm just so stressed out and really mad at myself for missing her party but that's no excuse for blowing up like that. I'm sorry again. I love you.
She read it and smiled.
Olivia: it's okay. I understand and I Love you too just please try to make it home tonight.
Lily was almost at the edge of Olivia's bed when Olivia walked in the room. She sprinted over to her and grabbed her before she could crawl off and fall.
"Lily." She yelped.
Lily chuckled as Olivia held her.
"That's the last time I let you nap on my bed missy."
Olivia kissed her.
"Are you hungry? Let's see if we can't find you something to eat." She said to Lily as she simultaneously checked her diaper.
She was wet.
"Let's change you first."
He drove down the driveway of their house.
It was almost 1am, when he walked in the door. He saw Zeus dashing over to him and he jumped on him.
"Hey buddy." Fitz said lightly as he pet him.
He had planned to take him back to the base with him so at least he could have part of the family with him.
Zeus jumped his two front paws up in Fitz's shoulder.
"Alright zuzu, go lay down."
Zeus ran off and Fitz headed upstairs. When he walked into their bedroom, as he thought, Olivia was asleep, with Lily cuddled beside her.
He made a beeline to the bathroom and turned on the shower. He didn't even want to kiss them until he was clean.
He'd been home for all of 4 minutes and already his cock was twitching in his pants.
He showered, a little longer than usual to give himself time to calm down but it didn't help. His body hurt, especially his face and the water which usually helped, did nothing to ease his discomfort.
When he dried off, he walked to the vanity mirror to look at his face. It was still as bad as it looked when he last saw it and he hoped Olivia wouldn't freak out too much when she saw it.
As he was about to walk to the closet he stopped and turned off the bathroom light then headed back to the bed.
The sound of the shower running was breaking through Olivia's sleep but she was so tired that it almost felt like she was dreaming. She heard the door open and footsteps but it still sounded far away, especially with the low music she'd left playing before she went to bed waiting for him.
His core burned, like he never felt it before and he couldn't stay away. Not tonight, it would be physically painful, it was already painful. His hard, throbbing cock needed to be inside her. He needed to feel her skin, her hair, be inside her walls. He just needed her because he was hot and only she could cool him down.
Olivia was laying with her back to him when she felt him reached over her and press his palm against her cheek and turned her head slightly to him, pulled her away from Lily.
It was pitched dark, with the moon barely adding a low glow of light to the room. She couldn't see him but she could feel him.
He could feel his cock twitching, like a ravenous monster who knew it was almost feeding time.
He leaned down to kiss her and when their lips met, he found open, inviting lips, waiting to return the kiss. Without a second thought he got in between her legs. He needed relief, he needed the pain to stop. There was no way he would last more than a few seconds inside her, he could try and fight it but at this point, it was out of his control and he was mentally preparing to figure out another way to take care of her because he probably wouldn't be able to recover for another round or maybe he would, he sometimes underestimated the things his body was capable of when it came to his want for his wife.
He was naked because he needed to be as close to her as possible. He reached down to Olivia and felt his way until he pulled off her underwear while Olivia simultaneously opened the buttons of her silk button down pajama top.
He was ready to rip it off her but he tried his best to control himself and he also realized that his eyes were adjusting to the room and he could see more so he knew Olivia would be able to see more as well and the last thing he needed in the night was for her to see him.
"Just a few more seconds, just a few more seconds." He repeated to himself over and over again.
His entire body ached, he muscles were sore and bruised, his face was the same only it was also being held together by stitches but somehow his cock was the most excruciating.
"I know just how you feel
But this time love's for real
In time it will reveal
That special love that's deep inside of us
Will all reveal in time"
Debarge's Time will reveal played smoothly in the background.
Fitz lost patience when Olivia was down to the last two buttons. He scooped his arms under her and leaned down between her legs, momentarily pulling her down to his hips and then closed his eyes and slowly guided himself inside her. It wasn't without difficulty, it took her time to adjust to him. He'd forced her walls open wider than they'd seemed to want to go and even though she was soaked and he could feel her wet and warm, wrapped around him, clutching him, it still took her time to adjust. He heard her whimper and he tried his best to wait. Seconds passed, maybe 2 or 3 he was so close and he couldn't wait, he began thrusting into her.
"I'm sorry baby...I cant wait-I can't."
He tried to go slowly, his first two stroked her uneven and ragged but slow but then he lost it. He was trying to hold out for her, he didn't know how long she needed, if she was suffering as much as he was and needed release immediately or if she needed time to get there, it didn't matter, he held her throat and began pounding into her.
She screamed.
It hurt, even on a normal day when Fitz went too deep it hurt so they'd silently agree that he wouldn't go too deep but today wasn't a normal day. For the past two weeks, she'd been anticipating his return today, imagining all the ways she wanted him to fuck her and all the ways she wanted to fuck him, fantisizing about all the dirty things she wanted him to whispered to her. For days this was all she could think about, she was preparing herself mentally and physically until he called her and told her he wasn't coming so all of that went to shit but then he shows up in the middle of the night, pounding his cock into her pussy as if it was his last night among the living.
She could barely form a word with his hand pressed against he throat but she could feel her walls swelling.
She began gasping for air, feeling her ogasm right there.
"Fuucc- " she choked out, "ahhhh-" she felt liquid seeping out of her.
She grabbed his back and dug her fingernails in him.
Fitz had been holding back as long as he could to the point where he felt dizzy. It hadn't been two minutes yet but it was his time. He closed his eyes and let go and seconds later, he was crippled by his orgasm. The pleasure shot down to his toes.
He couldn't move but he already felt Olivia pulsating around him, cuming on his cock, milking every last drop of his cum out of him. He could hear her too but his eyes were still closed.
Her legs trembled, her body trembled, she was grinding her pussy on him, riding out her orgasm, enjoying his cock and all the cum he'd shot into her.
Subconsciously, he was elated that she came, consciously, that elation didn't break through his post orgasm haze.
He was frozen. He'd already loosened his grip from her throat, then after a few moments stuck kneeling in between her legs, breathing raggedly like he'd run a marathon, he dropped beside her on the bed.
His body was numb... pain free...he didn't feel anything...except for complete ecstasy.
Olivia laid with her legs spread open, she figured her pussy needed some air after what just happened. Fitz didn't say a word beside her, all she heard was labored breathing.
Otis redding's 'try a little tenderness' was playing now. It was ironic that that song came on considering what they'd just done to each other. There was nothing tender about it. Her throat was a little sore, she was also sure that Fitz had 10 scratch marks etched into his back so she couldn't complain.
Lily was sleeping, she thought it was hilarious what Lily could sleep through but then again, she was probably just used to them.
After laying still on the bed for a few minutes she reached down between her legs and ran her fingers over her pussy, it felt sensitive after a rather intense orgasm. Fitz was still beside her so she assumed his was sleeping but she needed to be sure.
As if he read her mind he said.
"Don't-even-think-about-it."
It all lazily joined together in one word.
"About what?" she asked.
"Round 2."
She chuckled and then she felt him pulled her body into his side and hugged her tightly. She raised her head slightly and kissed his chest then reached a little higher and attempted to caress his cheek but Fitz stopped her before she could touch him. He took her hand and kissed it instead, trying to keep her away from his face until morning. He didn't really think it was that bad and it would practically disappear once it healed and had a few laser treatments but he knew his wife wouldn't be as calm as him.
Olivia was confused as to why he stopped her from touching him but still leaned down and kissed him softly on the lips, he didn't stop her this time. She leaned back against his chest.
"I'm so glad you came tonight." she said softly.
"Me too."
Fitz reached over to Lily and softly caressed her hair. He lay his head back down, closing his eyes until he drifted off to sleep, feeling whole.