CHAPTER 7
Comfortably Numb
Happy marveled at how small Lillie really was. He looked at the hand he was holding and down the small body. She was delicate. The complete opposite of him. But the same. Her mouth absolutely drove him mad. She didn't fucking listen worth a good god damn. He thought back about asking her to marry him and get his crow. He kissed her chest. He felt like she completed him as fucking dumb as that sounds. Lillie kissed his head and sighed. How could have he been so lucky. He kissed her hand. "Stop being weird, Hap." Lillie muttered pulling her hand away from him.
"Not being weird." he mumbled. She cocked an eyebrow at him. "You really are, what are you thinking about, baby?" Her eyes searched his. "You." her eyes narrowed a bit."Me?" He nodded kissing her. She kissed him back. She started humming just a dream by Nelly. "I was thinkin' about you, thinkin' about me, thinkin' about us, what we gonna be?" She smiled "Its a song, nerd." she said reply to Happy's confused look. Happy just shook his head. "Don't shake your head at me, Lowman." She rubbed the back of his head. Which he shook again to just in spite. "Do what I want." He muttered like a pouty five year old. "That much is very clear." She quipped back. He nipped her neck.
He pulled her shorts off. He kissed her stomach She cleared her throat. He pushed her shirt up. and it pulled off her. kissed the space between her barely there breasts. And toyed with the nipple piercings. "If we have sex I'm on top." she said looking down on him. "If?" He looked at her like she had to be kidding. of course they were going to have sex. "Yeah, if you're good, maybe." He frowned. "You owe me. Making me sit across that asshole. " She laughed. "I don't owe you shit. Its my body." He he nuzzled his face into her stomach.
"Your body likes me and what I do to it." His voice went right through her. " She ran her nails lightly over his scalp. "hmm. That remains to be seen." He glared at her. "Bullshit." Happy mumbled tugging on her nipple ring with his teeth. "How's your mom?" Lillie asked randomly looking at the tv. "Good." He said resting his head on her chest. She nodded. "Okay." "Why?" "Just wondering. haven't said much about her lately. Haven't had the chance to call her. "
An hour later Lillie's legs were throbbing. She was sore and sweaty but she couldn't have been happier. She patted Happy's stomach as she got out of bed. "You sure are welcome." he grunted rolling to his side. "Shower?" She asked as she turned the water on. He got out of bed making his way to the shower. iSPY started playing on the speakers in the bathroom. he groaned. She'd played that song over and over and over. It was making him go insane. "Hey Happy?" She called out from the shower. "What?" "I was thinking," "That's dangerous." "Shut your mouth. Anyways, I was thinking maybe one day we could get married or some shit like that." Happy stopped. He was about to step into the shower. "Or some shit?" He asked getting behind her. "Yeah, not now or anything but when we're ready but I think it could be a good idea." He turned her around and kissed her. their mouths moved together as Happy started up for round two.
"Oh I cleared some space for you in the closet and the garage. Just so you know." Lillie said in the closet as she put panties on and stepped into a Lilac an white iron lace romper. It had spaghetti straps and little white pom poms around the hem. She braided her hair into a fishtail braid she sprayed herself with a sweet smelling perfume. Hypnotize by B.I.G played on her phone as she put on mascara and blush. She put a gold hoop in her nose and gold studs in her ears. she slipped into tan ankle boots pulling her camera brag off the shelf in her closet.
CH7*CH7*CH7*CH7*
It was two weeks later after meeting with Maeve and her god son Malcolm. So here, I was I sitting outside on the stoop waiting for Happy to get ready. Malcolm was doing a rehearsal for the show tomorrow night and wanted me to come on by. He had asked to do a test run. Meaning, that I would get to the show for rehearsal and take the pictures I needed. He wanted to see where I fit in and to show me how he wanted to do things for the rest of the tour. He wanted to go over basic thinks like where to park and shit. The fun thing about doing this was that I could just do what I wanted.
Obviously, I couldn't climb up on stage or anything like that but I didn't have to stay in the "pit" as he called it. Plus, I got tickets if I wanted them. Emily and Erin stepped out from behind me. "Where are you guys headed? I asked standing up ad following them. The girls headed to their jacked up fully loaded truck that their Daddy had Erin for graduation. He gave Emily a Jeep wrangler with the same amenities. Both vehicles had lift kits on them and big ass tires. Making them almost impossible for me to get into. The thing about the twins is they are die hard Mac Miller fans. Seriously, it borders on obsession with these two. "Just for a drive. Want to come?" Emily asked she pulled out a cigarette and offered me one.
I gratefully accepted. "Oh well it just so happens that Malcolm McCormick gave me some extra tickets to his show tomorrow night." I said holding up the two extra tickets. Erin shared her sisters cigarette looking at me. "Who?" I chuckled. "Oh sorry, I forgot he goes by Mac Miller now." Emily dropped the cigarette and advanced on me. "No way." "Shut the fuck up. Are you playing?" "How?" "He booked me to do this tour he's doing on the west coast." Happy came out behind me. "Short tour." I shrugged. "I don't mind. Listen we have to go, so maybe I'll see you there or back here." "Won't be coming back here." Happy commented handing me an overnight bag.
I looked up at him confused. I waved good bye to the twins who were staring at the tickets. Happy handed me my leather jacket and climbed on the bike. "What would I do with out you?" I asked kissing his cheek. "Be cold." I ran my hands up his chest and around his neck. I kissed him harder leaning into him more. He smiled through the kisses tangling his hand in my hair. His tongue pushed past my lips exploring my mouth. One of his hands settled on my hip and traveled north to cup my breast. I always found it funny that he play with my tits even though I was barely an A cup. I was more legs and ass. The other hand slid down my back to my ass where he squeezed appreciatively.
I hummed at the feel of his hands on me. I pulled back slightly pressing my forehead to his. "Baby, we have to go, now." He kissed my jaw and down my neck. "Happy." I stepped out of his grasp. "You." "Yes, yes I know owe you." I said using air quotes I got on behind him and he backed out of the drive way.
Twenty minutes later we arrived at the venue. I was fuming. It would take maybe five to ten minutes Happy had purposely taken his time. Asshole. "All I'm saying is if I had made you late for church meetings you'd probably never talk to me again." "Probably." "Get fucked." I stormed away dialing Mac's number. "I'm here. Where do I need to be." Mac had me meet him back stage and he sounded fucking pissed.
"Listen, Mae might've beaten this idea into my head I wasn't really into it at first now I'm really not. I don't care how good you are I asked you to be here at a certain time I expect you to be here at that time not sauntering in when ever the fuck you want." I nodded. "I guess that means I'm fired, right?" He nodded. "I am sorry." I said trying not to get upset. I blew out a breath.
Mac watched me "You don't have an excuse or anything?" I shook my head and lit my cigarette. "I knew when I needed to be here, should have changed my schedule accordingly." Mac nodded taking my cigarette. "I like you." I chuckled. "Hard not too." I took the cigarette back. He smiled. "I do need a photographer. Its too late to get a new one. Just prioritize." He said looking over my shoulder. I knew he was looking at Happy.
"How long have you been with him?" I shrugged handing him the cigarette back. "Long enough." "He's in a biker gang?" I rolled my eyes. "Its a club." Mac laughed stubbing out the cigarette. "Clubs don't have members that look like that." I glared. "Its that kind of fucking attitude from ignorant people like you that ruin the MC's good name." I said "You don't know a damn thing." "HO ho and you do?" I poked him in the chest "Not only am I fucking a member, buddy boy. My father is one the founding members and my brother is vice president. My god father and all my uncles are in the Mc. Get fucked I quit." I said storming off. He caught my arm. "I didn't mean any offense." "You're being an arrogant asshole. Boss or not." "Lets go back stage I'll show you where I think is the best place to shoot and you give me your opinion." I followed him to the stage.
Two hours later We finished up. He gave me all the paper work I needed. I nodded my thanks and headed out. "So, uhm am I following you?" I turned completely forgetting that he was supposed to stay with me.
"Lemme make a call."
"What?
"Where are you?"
"Out."
:Obviously, are you picking me up?"
"What about your boyfriend? Can't he give you a ride?"
"I'm talking to him. That's why I called"
"Be round in two."
"Minutes, hours, or seconds?"
I smiled. then turned to Mac. "Here's my address, my roommates are expecting you." I gave him the spare key and showed him pictures of my roommates so he would know what to look for. "By the way, you'll lose your shoe if you go after Tavi. She's solely responsible for the clap outbreak at our college." "Good to know." I nodded and stepped back hearing Happy's bike approach. She turned to face Happy, he scooped her up kissing her passionately. She kissed his nose and forehead. Happy set her down by the bike and got on. Happy held Lillie's hand as she got on the bike. She waved to Mac and Happy growled. "Don't do that." Lillie sat down holding Happy's sides. He pulled closer and they took off.
*THE PARTY*
They got to the Lodge. The place was beautiful in Lillie's mind. Nestled just outside Olympia. The property sat on a huge lake. and had this stellar over look I thought it would be awesome to the sunrise on Budd Inlet. Lillie grinned. She had spent the last week and a half planning a huge surprise party for Happy's birthday. She had to keep it completely to herself which was more than incredibly difficult. Lillie had planned with with Lee (the Tacoma president) and her dad. They helped her get the word out about the party. The Lodge was a place friendly to the sons. Lillie had talked to the owner who had no problem with the party being held there. The Lodge was bigger than the Tacoma clubhouse and with as many people that were coming Lillie knew she needed a place to house everyone.
"Lillie, what is this?" Happy asked looking around at all the bikes. His girl shrugged. "I heard talk that there was some big event a party or something going on but It was supposed to be next week." Lillie said. She had asked that the Tacoma and Redwood Charters park behind the Lodge so that Happy wouldn't recognize anyone's place was packed. "But I thought it would be nice for us to have a quiet weekend ad celebrate your birthday and go see your mom. Maybe?" How did he end up with a girl like this? "Baby. you didn't need to do anything." Lillie gave him a look. "Shut your mouth, Happy you deserve it. Let's go."
He got off the bike and turned to help Lillie off. She was already off and rooting through his saddle bags for something. Happy grabbed his saddle bags and followed Lillie.
The pair made their was way up the walk way and to the Lobby. Lillie gave the woman behind the desk her name. The blonde smiled and gave Lillie directions to their room. Happy kept close by as they made their way down a flight of stairs . As they entered the room erupted with sound. Balloons thrown up in the air music blaring. Everyone shouted Happy Birthday.
In front of Happy was a three different charters. Balloons and confetti. Happy looked around the room. They were in the bottom part of the Lodge looking out on the patio through the glass doors. There was a fire pit and grills outside. Metal was being played loudly. Lillie made sure there was plenty of beer and food. Enlisting the help of her Mamma and the old ladies from the Tacoma charter for food and getting the party ready His friends were here and family beside his mom (she wasn't feeling well) but Lillie had promised they would make the trip down to see her soon.
Lillie stepped away as soon as she saw Donna. She nodded to the rooms where everyone was staying. The owner was so amazing. He was letting everyone stay for less than half he would normally charge. Lillie still insisted that she pay more than what he wanted her to. She knew how her people were.
The girls walked into Lillie and Happy's room. Where Donna helped her to get ready. Donna put on a Maroon silk bustier dress. Lillie stepped in to a electric blue lace long sleeved skater dress with a scoop back. They helped each other into the pumps. "God dang Don, you're a fucking babe!" Lillie said looking the brunette up and down.
"Stop have you seen yourself? I'm noting compared to you." Donna said fiddling with her pumps. Lillie stared at her best friend, shocked. "Donna," She hugged the brunette. "Please don't think that. You're gorgeous. Hand to god. I swear it." Donna hugged her friend and helped the girl into the electric blue platforms.
Lillie walked to the mirror for one final glance. Her hair was in a half pony tail. She thought she had debutante hair. Donna had helped her. Donna's normally straight hair was parted to the side and had beachy waves. After Donna had demanded a picture the pair teetered down the hallway. Lillie made sure to grab Happy's birthday present on the way out.
CH7*CH7*CH7*
Lillie and Donna waded through the mess of people to the bar. "Lillie, Whose you're friend?" Kozik asked getting cozy beside Donna. He eyed her up and down then looked to Lillie like, help me out here. " Hey Koz, You've met Opie's old Lady right?" She smiled as Donna turned to Kozik. His face fell. "Donna, you've met Kozik?" Donna smiled nodding towards Kozik. "Don't you have any single friends?" Kozik complained looking around. "There are plenty of crows here, Koz." He made a face of disgust and walked away.
Jax came over hugging me hard. "Great party sis." I smiled and shrugged leaning against the bar. "Thought Happy deserved something nice. How are you Jax?" He shrugged and ordered four shots. Donna had took Opie away (that horny bitch.) and I wasn't sure where Happy was. "I'm me." He said shrugging. According to Mamma he and the new flavor of the week weren't exactly working out. I swear this boy will never get over Tara. I rolled my eyes groaning. "How old are you Jax? The angst is too real right now." He chucked. "Just telling the truth, Peanut." We sipped our beers and looked around at the mess unfolding in front of us. "What about you?" He asked looking over at me I tapped the ash off of the cigarette Jax had given me. "Good, great. I don't know wonderful I guess. I start touring with this guy for the next month and a half. The Monochrome Photography Awards is coming up. I'm hoping to god I beat Tavi. Show her she sucks more than just dick." Jax shook his head Chuckling.
Daddy came over with Chibbs, Bobby, and Tig. "Peanut." He hugged me and kissed the top of my head. I leaned into him. Scanning the room for Happy. "You did really good baby girl." Tig said looking around at the debauchery taking place around them. I beamed. "I really appreciate that, thank you." He rubbed my back. "You guys doing good?" Daddy asked sipping his beer. My smile got wider. "Oh, yes. Well I'm really happy." Daddy nodded. "You love him?" Bobby asked raising his eyebrows. I looked at the group of men around me. "Yes, what is this?" I raised an eyebrow doing a shot.
Daddy turned to me fully his eyes were a tad cold for my liking. "If you two settle down you won't be able to continue what you are doing now, Lillie. Going on tour, doing those motorcycle stunts. He doesn't need those kinds of distractions." I was silent listening to every word he said. "Well, that's why I'm going it now, plus, I don't know if mommy talked to you." I smiled and took a deep breath.
"I was going to ask your opinion about this; I got offered a spot at the university teaching intro to photography after I finish my masters." Bobby and Tig beamed. "What's the catch?" Daddy asked sipping his beer. "I go to Ireland for three months and meet some of the heads of my field. Work on most of the project for my masters there, since the heads of the department will be there I'll have one of the professors with me at all times so I can finish quicker. Come back stateside, finish and start working. Til I get my spot I'll be a teaching assistant. It could be just for a month even, just to get me started. Do you think its a good idea? To leave?"
Chibbs beamed and clapped me on the back."I couldn't be more proud of you. Have you talked it over with Happy?" I frowned a bit scanning the room for him. "Taking it one thing at a time." Daddy nodded. "You'll be fine Lillie-girl." Chibbs said. I nodded I hope so. "Shots?" I asked looking at the men. "Please?" I pleaded. We agreed on three shots.
Two hours went by and I still hadn't found Happy. I saw Donna and Opie. They were sitting on a couch a little away from the group. "Hey kids, want some drugs." Opie smiled and Donna clapped. "What can I do you for?" I asked leaning over the couch between them "Weed." They both agreed. I handed them a small baggie. I rolled a joint with them and we shared it. "You should take your lady out and dance Opie." Donna awh'd at the idea and clung to his arm. "Thanks a lot, Loser."
I winked and mock saluted him. After the couple left I walked outside, and sat down on a swing in the clearing. Hoping to god Happy wasn't fucking some crow bitch. I rolled up some joints and lit one. I heard some people talking on the other side of the clearing but I didn't really care. I closed my eyes leaning my head back. I kicked my feet a little to set the swing in motion. I got lost in my thoughts and someone sat beside me. I opened my eyes. It was Kozik. "Yeah?" I took another hit of the joint looking over at him.
"Hap's looking for you." I sighed. "I'm right here." Kozik got this concerned look. "I just need a minute." I said quietly. Under everything, I was so afraid that we would fuck this up. (Happy and I) I was actually thinking about marriage and kids and forever. A couple months ago that wasn't even a possibility. Here I am thinking about all these great things. Like hosues with picket fences. Parent teacher meetings. That shit fucks you up. "I don't want to fuck this up Koz." I said as he helped me up. I dusted myself off. "Then don't." I rolled my eyes.
"Such great advice thank you. You should have your own column." He chuckled. "You're getting yourself worked up for nothing." I nodded he was right. "Here. I need to stop anyways." I offered Kozik the joints. "One of those has some crushed up E in it. I can't remember which one though." Kozik tucked the joints away in a pocket of his kutte. "Gee thanks." He said none to pleased.
"What was rehab like?" I asked pulling out a cigarette. I offered him one and he took it. "You're stalling." Yes I know I am just answer the question. I shrugged. "Genuinely curious." He smiled a bit then frowned looking away. "Fucking awful." He passed me his lighter and I lit the cigarette taking a long drag from it. "Do you worry" He shook his head. "No. I have the club. I don't need it." I nodded. "Why?" I smiled taking another drag of the cigarette. "Just curious." He nodded and we headed inside.
I followed Kozik to the bar. Hopping up on the seat I ordered a beer and kicked my shoes off. "BABY!" I felt his warm hands on my back. He leaned on the bar next to me. He looked so different when he smiled. It warmed up his face. It put me at ease. It made me fell like no matter what everything would be okay. "Having a good night?" I asked pulling his birthday present to me. He sipped my beer and shook his head. "No." I frowned sitting up more. "Sorry to hear that." I said coldly. Fuck you dude. "Here I am, on my birthday with my friends and family and my girl is nowhere to be seen! How am I supposed to have fun if you aren't around." He pouted. I looked away from him he was a tad drunk.
Seconds later his hand were on my thighs picking me up and setting me on the cold bar. "Its better now you're here." I smiled. He nudged my legs so he could be closer to me. "I'm glad." I hooked my ankles behind him. "Should be, I'm awesome." He pressed his forehead against mine. "That you are, Lowman. Here." I pulled the box between us and handed it to him.
Happy looked up at me the to the box. The lid had H. Lowman written across it in cursive. He opened the box. I had looked everywhere for this certain gun. He had been talking about he talked about this gun since before we got together. But not only did I find this gun I found two. I put them in this mahogany box that was lined in black velvet. Above the guns inscribed on a gold plaque was "always".
Happy stared at the box for a while. I sipped my beer and waited. "Marcy." He said still looking down at the guns. I wrapped my arms around his neck. He hugged me to him after setting the box on the bar. "Marry me." He asked. I didn't move. I don't think I heard him right. "What?" His lips tangled with mine. "Marry me." There, he said it again. I hadn't heard him wrong in the first place.
He took off one of his rings. It was his very first ring, his reaper ring given to him by the club. He also took off a chain from around his neck. He put the ring on the chain. Seeing as his hands were massive his ring wouldn't fit my fingers. "Me?" I was whispering. "yes or no?" He stood in front of me holding his ring on a chain. It was like one of those "I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her." Moments
" Seriously? Me though?" I pulled back from him frowning. I wasn't understanding this. "are you asking me because you want to or because of the guns? Because honestly, they weren't that hard to find. Maybe took me a week or so."
"Yes or no Lillie." "Well yea of course ya goon!" he put the chain around my neck and picked me up. "But seriously, was it the guns? Because I got you something else and I'm not sure what comes after marriage but." He kissed me taking my breath away. I linked my hands behind his head. He pulled apart from me staring at me. I gently held Happy's face. "Promise?" I held my pinky up Happy hooked his pinky round mine. "Always."
Happy threw an arm around me and looked at the guns. "It only took two weeks to find these?" He asked. I nodded. "Yea buddy." Happy shook his head. "How'd you do it?" I shrugged. "Don't you worry about that. Just enjoy it." I said. Sipping my beer. "You know I heard they someone had a pair but they disappeared as soon as they popped up." Happy said I stared at him. "If you don't like it you can give it back." I said getting annoyed.
I hopped off the bar and waded through the crowd. Fuck that. I had tracked those guns forever. It took me two weeks to get that shit. "Whatever." I mumbled walking outside and down the path to the over look.
I had wanted to do so much more with his gift. I wanted to get the filthy few branded on the box. Just because that was my favorite tattoo that Happy had. I got him some other stuff too just as a hey thanks for putting up with my shit type of deal but if he was going to be fucking butt hurt that I found the guns first well fuck him.
I stomped my way down the path a few more minutes. Getting angrier as I went. I finally reached the end to the over look and sat on the a bench and looked out at the water. Serves you right. "Should have just got him some fucking white tee shirts or something." I muttered picking at my fingers. I pulled out a pack of cigarettes and lit one.
I blew out the smoke and watched it curl up and disappear in the sky. I sat brooding watching the fireflies dance along the water. This was just fucking stupid. Couldn't he have said something like ya did good? I was going to get them whether we were together or not he had been talking about them for so damn long I was fucking tired of hearing about. That was a lie. Those guns were the only real thing he got excited about. "I'll just take them back." I muttered playing with his ring.
I laughed thinking about what hap would have done if i gave him white tshirts. Probably be more excited. I got up and walked back up the path smiling. I stopped to see the moon rise fully over the water. This would be something that I wanted to share with Happy. Something simple like a blanket an beer just watching the moon.
I heard someone behind me and I reached for my switch blade in my pocket. I turned and walked up the path some more. I saw Happy leaning on a tree smoking like he was waiting for me. I walked by him knowing he was watching me. I lit another cigarette and kept walking til I was pull off the path and against a tree.
Happy stared down at me. "How'd you get them?" I scoffed and shook my head. "What does it honestly matter? Why can't you just enjoy it?" I asked a little defeated. I looked at my shoes and just wished I just ignored the entire thing. I could be doing a show tonight. But I was here.
"Just fuckign tell me, Marcy." I shook my head. "I have tracked those god damn guns for god damn ever. Just in case they turned up and I could give you a heads up. They turned up two weeks ago when you were on a run. So I got them. I helped the guy get a lead on some dumb revolutionary war button and he gave them to me. I didn't fuck anyone or even smile." Happy stared at me and shook his head.
"Why?" I arched my eyebrow at him and put my hands on my hip."Because I fucking love you. Even though you're turning into a god damn sap." He snapped back in my direction. "What the fuck did you just say?" the breath in my throat hitched. "You heard me, pal. I said your turning into a god damn sap." He let loose a dark chuckled and pinned me to the tree. "Little girl, I don't think you know who you're talking to." I tilted my head to the side and looked confused. "Who am I talking to then?" I bit my lip trying not to smile. He looked me up and down and leaned in closer to me. "The fucking Tacoma Killer." I swear to god if my panties could drop they fucking would have. "Is that right?" I arched an eyebrow. He nodded and licked his bottom lip. Happy pulled me to him. "I love you." He said kissing me.
We walked back up to the Lodge in peace. "So it didn't take you two weeks to find them." He said after a while of silence. "It took me two weeks to get to them." I said carefully. "I thought it would cool to name them something like thing one and thing two but that's more of my thing and I thought you would think it was dumb or something." I said. He didn't respond. but grabbed my hand and laced our fingers together.
We got back to the party and it seemed like the party was in full swing. I guess we hadn't been gone that long. "I'm sorry for blowing up at you." I said stopping us. Happy looked a good bit surprised at my words. "I just wanted to do something really nice. To show how much I care. I've never had someone in my life that I care about as much as I do you and I just wanted to show you that." I smiled a little and kept going. "I was just going to get you some shirts and socks but I felt like that was shitty. Like you deserved more. I shouldn't have ruined this for you." Happy was holding my hands and listening.
HAPPY*
I didn't even know what to say to Lillie. I felt like this was just a joke or a dream and I was going to wake up or someone was going to come out telling me they were clowin'. She's just pouring out all this love. Not that she wasn't normally loving but this was something he had never been apart of or received. God damn what did I do to get someone like her? She thought of everything and pulled out all the stops. Shit, I would have been cool with just shirts an socks.
I fuckin asked her to marry me on a god damn bar. She deserves more than that. She deserves better. She got those fuckin guns. And that cool as box they came in. Every part of this party was in detail made for me. How had he let someone get so far under his skin? "Hap?" I looked down at my girl lookin' all concerned for me. Like worried that I didn't like all that she's done. "Baby, its great." She gave me this sly ass smirk. "God damn right it is, boo." I smiled and shook my head.
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Lillie sat at her lap top looking at the map in front of her. She wrote down a town name and the distance from her. She had just got back from one of her missions as she called it. Having to hunt down some dumb asshole. Just like she did with the guns she gave Happy for his birthday.
She rolled her shoulders. Lillie hadn't heard from Happy in a while which, in her mind was good. It would give her enough time to get her head straight before he came home to her. Gave her more time to try and figure out how to tell him that she wasn't going on tour with Maeve's god son. How she beat the shit out of him for making a move on her again. How to bring about the fact she wanted to go to Ireland for a couple months with Maeve and finish her masters but that was coming up so soon.
She would go on tour, come back sleep a day or two then be gone again. This engagement, him asking her to marry him was really making her uneasy. She wasn't even twenty-one yet. Yes, she wanted to be with Happy on a more permanent level but she wasn't ready for marriage or to have kids. She wanted to travel around the world still what if he wanted her to become some house wife? But a house and some shit. She absolutely loved Happy more than anything in this crazy world. Lillie sighed and closed the map in front of her this wasn't going to be easy.
Lillie got up and got dressed getting ready for her shift at the bar. John had gone away for a while and she was going to be working a lot the next couple weeks. She fluffed out her hair double checking her waterfall braid. It was going to be a long shift. Open to close but at least she as in charge of the music. She hopped on her bike, adjusting her bag before she started it. Sooner than she would have liked Lillie found her self sitting in front of Sneaky Pete's.
Psycho Killer played loudly through the speakers as Lillie bobbed along to the song refilling a customers drink. "Didn't think you worked day shift." Teddy one of the bars regulars commented receiving the drink from the redhead.
The girl shrugged looking away from the man as she wiped her hands on the black apron tied around her waist. "Needed something to do I guess." She muttered cashing the man out. "Could do me." He chuckled drinking his beer. "Or you could go fuck yourself." Lillie suggested turning away from the drunk.
Someone else chuckled and making Lillie glare at whoever laughed. She saw Eddie the intelligence officer for SamTac. "What are you doing here, Eddie?" Lillie asked filling a glass for the man. He shrugged accepting the beer from the tinny redhead. "Tonight's gunna be a wild one, Locra asked me to stop by and check in on the place." Lillie huffed setting her hands on her hips.
"Think I'm going to burn the place down or somethin'?" She shot back at him glowering. Eddie rolled his eyes, he didn't take to well to people giving him attitude. "Cut you're shit Lil, whatever problem you have, fuckin drop it." Lillie turned her back to him and rolling her eyes. Lillie picked up her phone and changed the song.
It was a couple hours later and the bar was filled to capacity. The crowd was getting ready for the Bike show that was set to go on for later that night. Lillie was pulled her black ankle sock back up her heel before slipping her small foot back in to her tan Timerlands.
"Can I talk to you for a second, Lillie?" JoJo asked standing against the office door. Lillie looked around seeing if Kaya was around to take her spot at the bar. Seeing that Nora took her place behind the bar Lillie nodded to JoJo and followed him in the office. Once inside JoJo shut the door and crossed his arms over his chest. "What's going on with you?" He asked flatly staring at the redhead who sat on the desk in front of him.
The man had noticed a big change in the girls demeanor. She was quiet and pissy always stuck in her head. Her mood was dark and where it was usually light and bubbly. "Don't want to talk about it, Jo." Lillie said looking at her man sighed he knew it was no use trying to get her to talk if she didn't want to. So "How do you want to handle tonight? You going to ride?" Lillie shrugged thinking about the show.
She had to run the show, make sure the ring girls were all set, get the Dj set up, make sure the pyro guys were where they needed to be, make sure the bouncers were dispersed evenly between the back lot where the show was and the bar, and control the crowd. "I don't know." Was her response. She really didn't know if she could do all that and still do the show. Plus she had to close out the bar as well.
"You know, you've been pretty weird since you got back from your little getaway with Happy. Did something happen when you were gone?" JoJo asked seeing if she would actually talk to him. "He asked me to marry him." The redhead said looking out the back window.
JoJo let out a breath not sure how to respond. That was news indeed. It was big news, huge in fact. Most girls would have been making a scene about it. The getaway had been weeks ago and since getting back her mood had darkened more and more with each passing day.
"That's fucking great! Lil, congrats!" he said hugging the small person. "If you say so." The response threw the bigger man. "The fuck does that mean? Be happy, he wants to make an honest woman out of you." Lillie shook her head glaring at the man beside her. "Not so honest really. Doesn't know half the shit I really do around here. He's gone all the time and when he is here all we do is fuck. I care for him deeply, I love him but that is grounds fro marriage." Jojo pulled away from the girl and looked around the room before he said anything. "You're being dumb. And letting stupid shit cloud your judgement. He wouldn't have asked if he didn't want to be with you."
The freckled beauty folded her hands in her lap. "This isn't any of your concern. I'll do the show. Just drop it and get ready, ya'll need to practice." The beauty said hopping off the desk and opened the office door. "Just talk to him." Jojo said following her out. "Just mind your own business. Mind yours and I'll mind mine." She countered walking to the back of the building where the employee lockers were.
"How can I in good faith know you aren't going to go all cowboy and do something stupid because you can't get out of your head?" The tattooed man said following so closely behind her he almost stepped on the back of her heels. "Back off. Alright? I'm doing a pretty good job keeping everything on the up and up. Why don't you have a little faith in me?" The girl said turning around so quickly she bumped into the taller mans chest. "Because we still have some unfinished business to tend to after the show." Lillie rolled her eyes untying the apron from around her waist. "You do not need to worry about that. I've been looking forward to that, nothing is going to happen." She said reassuringly. The man walked away from her going back out to the bar.
An hour later Lillie had all the girls changed that were going to be in the show, made sure that the extra bartenders who had come into help were up to date with what needed done. Kayah and Davey took over the bar and got everything ready for the nights event. Jason got the bouncers together splitting them between the back lot where the show would be and the bar. Jarace helped the pryo guys get their stuff over to the back lot for the fireworks that would go off after the show.
Lillie climbed up on to the bar grabbing the mike from Eddie who had made an appearance by her side. She stood straight adn surveyed her audience. Making eye contact with a few of teh bouncers, giving them their cue to start rounding people up. "Alright, alright, alright." Lillie started looking around the packed bar. She smiled and laughed some of the patrons clapping and shouting out dirty suggestions at her, drunk idiots.
"Ladies and goons, Thank you for coming out tonight. I see a lot of familiar faces in front of me and can only say how fucking wicked it is that each and everyone of you show your support for us. I think y'all are here for a show so lets go get it started, yeah?" She shouted laughing as the crowd agreed. She hopped off the bar with Eddie's help and made her way to the back with the rest of the crew to go over to the lot.
"Hap and the rest just go back." Eddie said pulling a pack of cigarettes out of his kutte. She had enough bouncers in the bar that would be able to get everyone out and over without needing any help. Eddie fell in step beside her as she neared her bike."Okay?" Lillie said cocking an eyebrow at him. Eddie shrugged a little weirded out that she didn't seem happier to hear the news. he got on his bike and followed around the building to the furthest lot.
Lillie parked her bike in the center and adjusted her shirt. The black veeneck tshirt hugged her perfectly as did the short dark wash jean shorts she was wearifn
CH7*CH7*CH7*CH7*
It had been a rough week, and a rough two months but the tour was finally over. Lilly couldn't wait to go home. She and happy and been fighting since she had left. All she wanted to do was to take a shower and see him Everyone was incredibly please with her pictures. Malcolm had driven her home so she could get cleaned up and then they were going to hang out. But she wanted to get a nap in and ride her bike over to his God Mother's place. Ever since she won the Monochrome Photography Award Happy had become more and more distant. It was really bothering her. She needed to talk to him about Ireland and set things straight.
Malcolm pulled up to her building. Lillie hopped out of the SUV and waved goodbye. Watching as the suv backed out of teh drive way She noticed Happy's bike. He told her he wasn't going to be back for a couple more days. Lillie sprinted to her door. She pushed it open and bolted into her room. The last thing she heard was the door hit the wall. In front of her was Happy and Tavi. naked. in. her. bed. She went dead cold. Her ears started to ring. Lillie blinked a couple times and rubbed her eyes. her bag was open at her feet. There amidst all the junk was her gun she didn't even think about it. Lillie grabbed her gun, took off the safety and fired a warning shot above the naked assholes in front of her.
Lillie saw tavi's mouth open but didn't register her making any noise. If she had to guess Tavi had probably screamed. The pair got out of bed. She saw Tavi's mouth moving. What could she have to say? Lillie met tavi's eyes and the girl scurried out of the room. All that was left was Happy. She looked at him but didn't see him. It was so weird. She felt nothing. her body was buzzing. Tavi was in front of her again. Didnt she give her a warning? Not shooting her should have got the point across. guess not. Lillie crossed the room and punched the girl in her face. She crumpled on the ground. She started flashing in and out. One minute Lillie was on top of the roommate hammering her small fists in to the girls face. She punched hard and harder with every blow. Tavi's blood covering her more and more.
Next minute She was pulled away then she was kicking the girl. She decided she was going to kill her. She had too many chances. This was supposed to be her best friend? Then Happy was saying something. But what? she realized she was being held back slightly straining against someones arms. She looked behind her and saw Kozik. He smiled. Trying to comfort her. It was that was it all the sound came flooding back to her. She smiled at Kozik. She cleared her throat and continued to smile at happy. "this is okay. actually this makes what I'm about to say so much easier to say." Happy was staring at her intently. She picked up her bag and got out her pack of cigarettes. she lit one and in haled deeply. She looked into his eyes. "I've been fucking Mac, I'm sorry Malcolm since I started working on the tour with him. That's why I never got your brand, crow, whatever. I never loved you."
She watched as he processed what she said. She smiled wider as the doubt clouded his eyes and left again. She inhaled more of the cigarette as she picked up Happy's and the whores clothes, including his kutte and threw it off the balcony before locking her self in the bathroom and blaring her music. She heaved into the toilet. She heaved again and began puking. she couldn't stop it. when she was finally done she called Malcolm, telling him she needed him to be there in ten minutes. Lillie opened the bathroom door and grabbed the first bag she could find. she started packing ten minutes later Malcolm came in.
Malcolm found her sitting on the floor surrounded by bags. To say that the room was trashed was an under statement. There were hole in the walls bed was over turned so was the desk. There were feathers everywhere. "What's wrong, Mama?" He helped her stand up. "He fucked Tavi in my bed." She said simply gazing at t'he bed and the torn mattress. She sniffed. He helped carry out her bags to the suv. "I'll meet you at Maeve's." Lillie said quietly she set a box of happy's stuff on the ground. She poured lighter fluid in the box and dropped her lit cigarette on the clothes and pictures. She hopped on her bike and took off letting the box burn. Malcolm shook his head watching the box burn. He got some dirt and sprinkled it on the fire effectively putting it out. He got in the suv and headed to his god mothers.
Lillie was waiting for him when he got to the house. "This place is massive, what could you have possibly done to have get kicked out?" She asked. Lillie narrowed her eyes at him as soon as she spotted the soot on his white shirt. He had some on his face as well. "You shouldn't get involved. And you should have let it burn." He chuckled opening the trunk for her. "I'm nosey. Couldn't help it affairs of the heart are my vice." Mac said watching as Lillie climbed into the trunk her ass peaked out of her shorts as she searched for a certain bag. "You never answered me about what you did to Maeve get her to kick you out of here." Lillie said scooting out of the trunk. There was those legs and that ass. He licked his lips. His eyes running over her curves. He watched as she moved around. He couldn't hear what she was saying at this point. She started backing out of the Mac helped her out of the trunk, holding her hips as she tried to steady herself. "Thanks." He shrugged taking the bag from her and walking up to the house. He showed her to an empty room and set down her bag.
"Where's the bathroom?" Mac pointed right behind her. She nodded picking up her bag and headed back that way. He leaned against the wall trying to figure out how she was so calm. He had seen her and happy. It was clear that they were madly in love. If it was him he would have locked himself way with bottles upon bottles of liquor. Never wanting to see the light of day again. So why would he fuck it up like that? Mac knew for a fact that Lillie was nothing but faithful quick to defend her man no matter the cost. She beat the shit out of one the groupies for looking at Happy. He didn't understand these guys, granted he was no saint but if Lillie ever gave him the chance he's lock that down in a heartbeat. He came to the conclusion that reality hadn't set in just yet. Why not take her mind off of it for a little bit longer. Mac pulled out his phone and began making a few calls.
Meanwhile, Lillie was in the bathroom getting undressed. she needed a shower like you wouldn't believe. She turned on the water and sighed feeling the water hit her back. She was departmentalizing. Locking her feeling away. The past was the past. It happened now it was time to move on. She told herself. She got out of the shower brushed her teeth and started putting some make up on. She had stopped wearing make up all together because Happy didn't care for it. Why not get back into the swing of things now? Lillie shook her head. It had been so long since she left her hair curly. She had been straitening it since she went on tour with Mac. It was just easier to do. Lillie looked through her bag, she found a blue and white romper with criss cross straps across the back. She put it on trying to decide if she needed a bra with it or not. Or if it was too short or not.
There was a knock on the door and Lillie still figuring out if it was going to work or not. She wasn't wearing it for Mac she wanted to be comfortable and not look like a slut with her ass hang out. Nor did she want to look to done up, it was just going to be her mentor and Mac. "God damn, Lil." Mac said staring at her. She smiled at his reaction. "too much right?" He shook his head " I'm going to have to step it up if we're hanging out. You're going to make me look like." "A dirty hobo." Lillie interjected Mac laughed. "I just came in to ask if you would be cool if some of my friends from the tour stopped in." She tilted her head to the side a little confused. "Why are you asking me that? This isn't my place." He leaned against the doorway his hands in his pockets.
"Didn't know if you would up for it." He said shrugging. She smiled touched at his consideration of her feelings. "I'll be fine. Don't worry about me." He smiled turning away from her. She went back frowning at her reflection. Mac watch as she fussed with her appearance. He shook his head and grabbed her hand pulling her away from the Bathroom. "You look fine." He said "Now you have to help me get dressed." She rolled her eyes following after him. "Are you five?" "Can't a guy get fashion advice from his friend." They entered his room which was one down from Lillie's. I'm going to hop in the shower real quick." Lillie nodded. She walked into the closet and her mouth fell open. it was a beautiful space. While Mac was in the shower Lillie snooped through his clothes looking picking out things she liked. She busied herself looking at his shoes. They were amazing. She picked out a pair then went to his socks, she found a watch that she was absolutely in love with and then pants. she was stuck on blue jeans or khakis. she decided she would ask him. she looked at shirts a blue that matched her blue...
Mac came out of the shower with a towel wrapped around his waist and Lillie no where to be found. He heard faint music coming from his closet and headed over that way. He opened the door Big Poppa by B.I.G was playing through the speakers. She was at the far end of the room staring at the shirts in front of her. He walked up to her an rested his head on her chin trying to see what she was looking at. She leaned her head against his lost in thought. Mac put a hand on her hip and stood taller. "Khakis or jeans? "Jeans." She hummed along to the song. "I can't figure out..." She trailed off thinking She spotted denim button down and grabbed it handing it to Mac. He took it she picked up a blue and white hat and handed that too him. I need to make a call. She said walking away from him.
"Hello?
Don?
Lillie? What's wrong?
Happy and I are done.
What?
We're done.
What happened.
He fucked up. I gotta go okay?
Okay Lillie.
Love you.
Donna hung up the phone and felt sick. She looked up at Opie who had been watching her. "What's wrong, Babe?" Donna looked down at the phone in her hands. "That was Lillie." He watched her mulling over her words. "She said she and Happy were done." Opie looked confused. "What do you mean?" "She said he fucked up. But wouldn't say anymore." Opie nodded. This wasn't going to be good.
"You okay?" Lillie looked up, seeing Mac standing across across the kitchen island from her. She shrugged. "When are your friends coming?" He shrugged "Soon." She nodded. Her heart felt so heavy in her chest. Every beat felt like a ton of bricks against her ribs. "Guess I should tell Maeve that I'm coming sooner." Mac just looked at her. "Okay." She chuckled shaking her head. "You know, that's why he did this. He thought I wasn't going to accept the spot. So he did this to push me away." She laughed bitterly. "he actually thought I was going to turn down the spot." Mac sat on a bar stool waiting for her to continue. "I was. he's been pulling away since we went on tour. It's like..." She choked on her words. "I would have only been gone a couple months. He didn't think." She shook her head. pulling her self back together. "Four fucking years and he does this." She scoffed holding her head up. She needed a distraction. "You need to shave."Mac smiled sitting up straighter. "Maeve will be by later." Lillie nodded leaning across the table toward him. "This is your place. Why did she want you to stay with me?" Mac smiled and shrugged. He wasn't going to say.
Lillie sat on Mac's bed waiting for him to get done being dressed. He opened the bathroom door but didn't come out. Lillie walked in and hopped on the counter watching him preen. "That looks really nice on you." Mac looked over at her as he continued to shave. His phone beeped and Lillie picked it up scrolling through it. He didn't mind really. They spent the last two months on the road together. She had kept in him in check plus she didn't really put up with his shit. She was easy to be around and that's what he liked about her.
She tsked shaking her head. "This one has to go."she said leaning close and showing his phone to him. "She's just waiting for you to knock her up." He smirked "She's a good lay." Lillie scoffed "You need a good girl, Mac. Or someone who isn't a sleaze. She kept scrolling "why do you have so many pussy pics on here?" flicked through deleting them. He shrugged continuing to shave. "They don't bother you? I mean look at this?" She pulled one up. He didn't look. "I'd send it back to them. no thanks no thank you. if they're willing to do this who knows what they are capable of. plus their the ones who tweet about the sex right as soon as you go to pee. Talking shit." She was fiddling with his phone. "What are you doing?" Mac asked rinsing the shaving cream off his face. "You are always start shit when you're quiet. He slid closer to her. "Nothing." She chewed her lip. "These trick ass hoes ain't loyal." She muttered holding the phone away from him.
He stepped between her legs, his hand on her thigh as he reached for his phone. "Why did you take this?" She asked quietly looking at a picture he had taken of her. it was from earlier. She was staring at herself in the mirror. Her phone chirped she gave him his phone and looked at hers. It was Donna. wanting to talk. She had made up her mind it was time to move on. Mac moved away from her but she caught him. "Is it bad I want to make him jealous? Does it make me make look like them?" she nodded to his phone, her hands slid over his bare chest to grip his shoulders. He saw anxiety and hurt lurking in her eyes. She shook her head and smiled getting rid of the butterflies in her stomach. She needed to keep it together. Her phone chirped. "Let's make him jealous." She smiled. "The least we can do right?" Mac said picking up her. He turned around his back against her chest. "Smile." Mac held up her phone. Lillie smiled draping her arms over his chest and kissed his cheek. The camera shutter clicked. Lillie blew out a breath. Mac fiddled with her phone. "Donna is mad at you." He said "She won't be the only one." Lillie said getting down off the counter.
Donna Sat at the bar waiting for Opie to get out of church. The doors to the chapel opened and everyone spilled out. Happy was there for club business or just avoiding Lillie. But he was here. She had, had a drink or two while she waited and was mildly tipsy. She watched Happy trudge over to the corner of the room and sat with his head on his arms. Opie was talking to Jax and knowing the pair it would be a while. Donna finished her drink and walked casually over to where Happy was sitting. He looked up as she reached him. "I just wanted to let you know that Lillie had planned on taking that spot in Ireland. She was only going to be away for two and a half months if that. She planned on finishing her masters here in the states. Maeve said once she had finished with her masters the university was going to offer her a teaching position. Like an intro to photography. Is what I think she said. OH, " Donna leaned closer to him. "She had it worked out to where she would be gone right around the same time as the charity runs that were coming up, so that you both wouldn't be waiting around for the other one." She stepped back. The once scary man looked like he was going to be sick. Donna smirked.
After What Donna had said Happy drove back up to Seattle. Happy opened the door to Lillie's room. The room was an absolute mess. Her bed was turned over the mattress was torn up her desk was on the other side of the room, there were holes in the walls. Her pictures were strewn over the the floor Her dressers were empty. She was gone. Everything was gone. Happy walked through the room and into the bathroom. He stared at the mirror. "Don't break my heart." was written. what was that? blood. fucking shit it was blood. No lipstick it was lipstick thank christ it was only lipstick. Happy felt like he was going to throw up. What had he done? He sat on the floor his head in his hands.
Mac woke up with a start what the fuck was that? He heard it again. It was pounding on the front door. Mac groaned throwing his head back to his pillow. A muffled groan came from the body beside him. Despite his annoyance of being rudely woken up he chuckled. Her legs and arms were thrown over his body her face was pressed into his side. He rubbed his face and sat up. She hissed from the sun hitting her face. Lillie sat up scowling. The pounding got louder. Mac got out of bed and headed to the sound. He heard small feet scurrying behind him. Mac went to the door and sighed Maeve barged in. "Flights changed. We've got to go in two hours." Lillie Nodded.
It had been three days since Donna had talked to him about Lillie. He hadn't heard from her at all. Happy went to see her old apartment. The twins hadn't seen or heard from her. Donna wasn't talking to him. He couldn't get a hold of Maeve. He went on a search for the Malcolm kid Lillie had gone on tour with. Happy finally found out where the kid lived and decided to pay him a visit. Even if she was there at least he would see her.
Happy knocked on the wooden door. He held his breath hoping to god Lillie wasn't going to answer the door. The door opened and Malcolm came out. "Hey man, what's up?" Is Lillie here?" Malcolm shook his head. "nah bro, she isn't. Heard from her? Not for a couple days." Know where she is?" "Not her keeper. Not for nothing man but I've got stuff to do. So" He nodded towards the door. Happy nodded and turned to his bike. Maybe if he stopped looking she would show up.
Two months later Happy got a call from Clay that he needed to come down to charming.
Donna sat in the office with Gemma when two bikes pulled in to the Teller Marrow lot. It was Kozik and Happy. Since the club found out about Lillie and Happy's break up, things were just weird. There was this tension hanging in the air. Donna knew Lillie had called Gemma and told her the bare minimum of what happened. Something like, it just wasn't working out between them. They were on different paths, some shit like that. Donna was the only one who really knew what had happened and what was going on.
She hated that Lillie made her promise not to tell anyone. Until she was ready to talk. But it had been two months since she had contacted Gemma and Clay. Now, the club was in a frenzie looking for her best friend. Donna knew her friend was hurting but this was going to far. The longer she kept her mouth shut the more problems it would cause the club. Clay was already starting to loose his shit. Donna saw Happy and glowered. How could he do what he did to Lillie? How? It made no sense to her. She thanked her lucky stars that Opie didn't have that fucked up club mentality. Do something terrible to your woman so she would leave, make the right decision, be safe. What happened to for better or worse? Richer or poorer? Donna shook her head, enough was enough. She loved Lillie but from their phone call last night, there was no way Donna could keep quiet.
She was going to tell Gemma. "Gemma?" The older woman looked up at her from the computer. "Gemma, I need to tell you something." Before Gemma could say a word the office phone rang. She sniffed and picked up the phone. "Teller Marrow Motors?" By the excitement on Gem's face, Donna knew it was Lillie, after a few moments Gemma's face fell and her eyes turned a murderous glare from Donna to Happy. After a few more moments Gemma hung up the phone taking a deep breath. She turned to Donna but she was still staring at Happy. "Lillie accepted the position in Ireland." Gemma said trying her very best to keep calm. Donna nodded.
"Did she say anymore?" Donna asked not looking at Gemma. "We both know that she did." Gemma walked to the office door and jerked her head for Donna to follow. As she walked behind Gemma, Donna saw Happy making his way to her. He looked like absolute shit. Good. Fuck him. Donna bypassed him following Gemma closely. Before Happy could get to Donna church was called and the guys walked into the clubhouse. Happy looked over his shoulder at Donna before going in. Gemma marched into the clubhouse, getting a bottle out from behind the bar and poured them a drink. Gemma didn't look or say anything to Donna as they waited. An hour had passed leaving the two women to stew. Donna's heart broke for her best friend. The chapel doors opened and the men filed out towards the bar. No one looked happy. The mood in the club was dismal.
Gemma went to Clay pulling him back into the chapel. The man was barely keeping it together. Say what you want about his relationship with Jax. But his relationship with Lillie was completely opposite. He was the epitome of a doting father. However much he could be while the president of a motorcycle club.
"Donna, do you know where my sister is? Jax asked. The sorrow in his voice killed Donna. She shot Happy a dirty look. "Have you asked him?" She nodded to Happy. All she wanted to do was to throw the glass in her hand at the mans head. "Donna." Opie warned putting a hand on her shoulder. Jax shook his head. "Please, Donna." Donna finished her drink. Her eyes locked on to Happy. "I'm serious Jackson, have you asked him? I mean we all know Lillie pretty well. Why would she just disappear?" She got louder as she spoke. "Donna please. We don't need this." She stared at Jax shaking her head. "He fucked her fucking roommate IN HER BED." The small woman stalked towards Happy. "She fucking loved you. Did you know that? She wouldn't shut up about you. She gave you something special. Something she had been saving for that special person. You took her virginity and broke her fucking heart!" Donna yelled up at the man. He closed his eyes and looked at Opie who was pulling Donna away from him."Its none of your business. Its in the past." Donna launched herself at Happy. He had enough of this bullshit. "ITS IN THE FUCKING PAST? IN THE FUCKING PAST? TELL ME WHY MY BEST FRIEND IS IN IRELAND PREGNANT WITH YOUR FUCKING TWINS. YOU FUCKING TELL ME HOW THAT IS IN THE PAST."