The Great Gig In The Sky

Kozik made it to the hospital in record time. qHe laid on the horn as the got to the emergency entrance. Happy got out as a group of nurses rushed out to him. They had Happy lay Lillie in the first trauma room they came to. "She has a heart defect." Happy said to a nurse who was working on Lillie. The nurse went white and nodded. He saw her reach for the scissors on the table and knew they were going to cut her clothes off.

The only thing Happy could actually think of was how mad Lillie would be if she didn't leave here with her clothes. "Can I help please?" Happy asked the nurse softly. The nurse stared in shock at the menacing biker in front of her. She nodded and worked around him. Happy took off her shoes and socks, working carefully not to disturb her. The Heart monitor was hooked up and it was quickly noticed irregular the beats were.

A nurse called out that someone from cardiology needed to be called. Happy worked quicker as he took her shirt and crop top off. He stared at his wife, if only he had gone after her and explained why he was with the crow eater...The nurse watched as grief wash over the tall man. She needed him out of the room to continue working on his wife. She nodded to the other nurses who dragged Happy out of the room.

The nurses distracted the Biker by asking questions about Lillie: How old was she? thirty something happy said staring at his wife. He was lost being caught up in his thoughts of possibly losing his wife. What was his relationship to Lillie? wife. Height? 5'0. Weight? maybe 90 pounds. What happened too her? Don't know. found her like this. Is she taking any medications? Don't know. Does she smoke? Yes." Happy answered the nurses questions all the while staring at his unconscious wife. Seeing her like that was breaking his heart.

Sure, they had only been back together only a couple days but he loved that woman with everything he had. "Sir, I have to ask you this before anything else happens." The random dark haired nurse said tentatively looking up at Happy. He looked down at the nurse waiting for her to continue. "Does your wife have a DNR?" What the fuck was that? Something in Happy snapped. "HOW THE FUCK DO I KNOW? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?" He roared throwing his hands in the air. The nurse hadn't moved. She stayed where she was hoping he couldn't see her shaking. She cleared her throat and continued. "DNR, Do Not Resuscitate. It means if something, if anything were to happen and we needed to revive her, the DNR would stop that." His heart stopped and he felt himself start to sweat. "Why the fuck...No I don't know."

Happy jumped from the chair he was in when the alarms in her room went off. The nurses in the room started called a Code blue, Someone shouted for a crash cart. Suddenly, Happy was surrounded by nurses and doctors attempting to revive his wife. It was ciaos. Nurses were running in and out of the room brushing by Happy he stepped in the room. The floor started spinning as he saw the heart monitor flat lining. He grabbed a hold of Lillie's hand. He just needed to be with her. "Sir you need to leave. We're taking her to surgery. You need to leave." He didn't hear the nurse, he stood looking down at Lillie. There was a commotion outside the room. Happy heard Lillie's name being shouted. He turned to see the twins pushing past the security guards and the nurses. They came to the door way and the head nurse, Katie lost her shit.

"GET THEM OUT OF HERE!" She screamed pointing at the three in front of her. Katie had the paddles in her hands "Guys, come on let the pretty lady help Lillie. She can do more than we can." He grabbed Happy and the boys wheeling them out to the waiting room. "Please let us know anything you can. Call me Kozik. "Kozik said to the nurse with a mind blowing smile. "I'm Katie." Katie said holding her hand out to the hot biker. "SHE HAS CHD." Jude shouted trying to get back to his mom. Happy and James struggled to hold him back. "They are a passionate bunch."Kozik said looking back at Katie. She smiled and nodded. "You don't say." Kozik chuckled in response and went to help get Jude to calm down.

Kozik walked walked back to the Lowman's and got them to sit down. Once they were situated Happy turned to his sons. "Did Quinn tell you?" Happy said leaning against the wall. The twins looked confused. "Tell us what? Quinn isn't even there." Jude said his head in his hands. Regretting all the shit he had ever put his mother through. "What the fuck do you mean he wasn't there?" Happy snarled shooting to his feet. He looked at the giant teens in front of him.

James had his head in his hands and Jude rubbed a hand over his face while looking up at the ceiling. "He wasn't around, Dad." James said quietly looking up at the man pacing in front of him. Happy stopped pacing when James called him dad. His heart broke even more seeing the pain and anguish on the boys faces. "What do we need to know?" Jude asked sighing, preparing himself for the worst. "Is there more going on with mom?" Happy shook his head. "I meant how did you know we were here."

He sat in front of his children. This was completely foreign to him. He was never good at comforting anyone. How was he supposed to make these kids feel better? "We just had a hunch something was wrong." James said looking over the nurses, who were in a group talking to each other. Occasionally, one of the nurses would look over to the small group of men in the waiting area. James was hoping one would come their way and tell them what was going on.

The doors flew open and the entire club came through with Gemma leading them. "WHERE'S MY BABY?" Gemma shouted barreling up to Happy. She glowered up at the killer." Katie approached the group and straightened her scrubs she was nervous but had to get over it. This was part of the job. She cleared her throat to get the groups attention.

"As you all know Lillie has CHD. It is clear, from her blood work that up until recently she was taking her medicine. The lack of the medicine and the sheer amount off MDMA in her system caused her heart to go into failure. It couldn't keep up with her. She is being prepped for surgery. She will be having Coronary artery bypass surgery it'll prevent another episode from happening. I just want to be clear with you guys, this has taken a toll on her body."

"Is she okay?" Chibbs asked before Katie could go on. She looked away from the group rubbing the back of her neck. "Her body was in a lot of stress. She was off the medicine for a really long time. We are keeping her as comfortable as we can." She stopped "That's not a yes." James said. "But its not a no either." Jude said hopefully. "You need to prepare yourselves for any possibility." Katie said The faces she saw were a mix of emotions.

"The surgery will help." Katie offered Gemma eyed the girl, she seemed familiar but the woman couldn't figure out why. She definitely didn't hang around the club. Where was this girl from? "You basically just said she might not even make it out of the surgery." Jude said anger flowing through his words. "I said you need to prepare yourselves." Katie shot back at the young man.

"Can we see her?" Gemma asked looking up at the young nurse. Happy stared incredulously at Gemma. Had she lost her fucking mind? He just said that Lillie was in surgery. The young nurse looked away from Gemma not wanting to make the women more upset than what she was. When the nurse didn't respond Happy did. "She's in surgery. NO you can't see her." Happy snapped.

Gemma lifted an eyebrow at the girl. It clicked just then. "You were in Lillie's class. I remember you, now. She used to tutor you. You were always at the house." Gemma nodded and crossed her arms over her chest. Gemma felt better that it was someone who knew Lillie that was taking care of her daughter. Katie smiled and walked away and the group followed her up two floors to Lillie's room. "She was moved up to the cardiac wing." Katie said over her shoulder to the group.

They followed her to a room at the end of the wing. Unfortunately, there were other nurses wheeling her bed out. "Taking her to surgery. Should be out in a few hours." The orderly said the group with a hopeful smile. Happy stepped forward and kissed Lillie on the forehead. He watched as she was wheeled away hoping he would be able to see her smile again.

"What the fuck happened?" Gemma turned on him. "She went out with Quinn." He taking a deep breath. "Why the fuck was she with Quinn?" Clay hissed looking at Happy. "She found me talking to a crow eater that she bashed in the face." Happy said looking away the anger he had suppressed all evening was bubbling to the surface. "Why did she bash." "That's what I was trying to figure out." Happy barked.

He owed nothing to this fucking bitch why was she getting in his fucking face? "Maybe if you weren't fucking around." Gemma snarled "Get the fuck out of my fucking face.'' Happy growled taking a step forward. "Dad, she's going to be okay. Just come sit." James said as he and Jude pulled Happy to the chairs in the waiting area. Happy let himself be pulled to the chairs and sat down.

For the next couple hours James and Jude told Happy what Lillie had been like when they were growing up. "One summer Ma bleached her hair right?" Jude smiled at the memory leaning forward in his chair. James laughed looking over at the men who sat around them."She went through all this trouble to bleach and dye it blonde. Her hair was super long so that made everything more difficult. " James pitched in clasping his hands behind his head. Jude nodded and continued. "It was one thing after another and she kept getting more and more upset so she finally after like two weeks, she got her hair to the shade she wanted it. This was like two weeks of messing with it. She really liked it walked around blonde for what maybe week?"

Jude asked looking over at James who shook his head in disagreement. "Nah, not even. I'd say maybe three days." Happy looked at his sons waiting for them to continue their story. "She decides after all this trouble that she couldn't stand her hair. HATED IT. Fuckin' hated her hair. She ran around the house, like a mad woman. Asking us why we let her go through with it. "What kind of sons would do this? Let their ma do such a thing. Ya saw how much trouble I was goin' through an ya still let me go through with it. Who does tha?" James smiled mimicking Lillie. "She tried to dye it back an it turned this lovely shade of acid green." Jude finished the story. James howled and Happy chuckled. Just then Katie approached the group smiling.

Happy stood, she motioned for him to sit down and sat in the chair opposite him. The group gathered around her. Waiting for her to start her report. "Surgery when great. She did amazing. No complications whatsoever. She is in her room resting. Should wake up in an hour or two." Happy smiled and looked at his sons and his brothers. Relief washing over him. He felt like he would fucking float away. "However," Katie said looking Happy dead in the eye. "There are some things I'm going to need you to do for me."

The group stared Katie. Gemma crossed her arms. " If Lillie is still as stubborn as she was in high school; she's going to make the next couple weeks impossible. But it is imperative that you heed my words. For her sake and yours. She isn't allowed to smoke. Can't do it. Of any kind. You know what I mean. Keep drinking to a minimum. Actually, no drinking til she's fully healed as well as fatty foods. This experience and the surgery has really done a number on her body. She needs rest and plenty of it. I'll tell her the same thing but this needs to happen for heart to get stronger. She's going to have to take it real easy for a while. No riding, no driving, no heavy lifting. NO strenuous activity of any kind." Katie said her eyes falling back to Happy hoping he was getting what she was putting down in front of him. .can't do anything for awhile no. As it stands she'll be here for the rest of the week maybe longer depending on how she recovers."

Happy nodded and heard a snort from behind him. He knew it was Kozik. "We can try." Kozik said crossing his arms. Katie glared. "No trying here. You NEED to make sure that she does these things. If you truly care about her, you WILL do it." She smiled at Kozik as she got up fro the chair.

"You can go in and see her now. Keep it one at a time please. And no longer than 15 minutes at a time." Happy stood and looked at Clay and Gemma. "You go first." He said knowing they had to get back to the club house. The couple nodded and smiled at Happy, who sat back in his chair and closed his eyes.

"Hap, hey ma's awake." Jude said nudging him with his foot. Happy opened his eyes looking up at Jude, whose eyes were red and puffy. He got up and followed Jude to Lillie's room. Before he reached the room, Happy could hear the music coming from it. He let Jude go in to get James. The twins knew Happy wanted to talk to their mother alone. Happy watched on from the window in the door. James was in bed with this mother, his arm around her shoulders and her head on his chest. He looked concerned. James kissed the side of his moms head and got out of bed.

He and Jude left the room. "We're going back to the club house. There's some stuff we have to take care of." Jude said mysteriously but Happy nodded and his kutte up in front of the window in the door, he turned up the music slightly and took off his boots.

Lillie laid on her side her eyes closed. "What the fuck were you thinking?" Happy whispered rubbing his face. Lillie frowned but did not open her eyes. "You stopped taking the fucking medicine, you're fucking smoking molly now? How fucking old are you? Fucking take off with Quinn?" Lillie closed her eyes tighter wishing he would just go away. He was worse than her father. Everyone was getting on her fucking back. Even the twins had put their two sense in the mix. She needed some kind of outlet. These past couple days had been too fucking ridiculous to deal with. "What is going on with you, Lillie?" He got in bed with her and She curled in to more of a ball.

"You really hurt me, Happy. And seeing with the girl or any girl... I can't let it go. All I see is you and that bitch in my bed and those feelings come back. Like I would literally kill who ever you are with and you for being with them. I know that it makes me seem like this crazy psycho but I don't care. I DO NOT SHARE. Part of me is super amazed you want to be together and be apart of the boys lives and give that a try but you want to do that with out figuring it out. All this out. Its like you want to just pretend that nothing ever happened." Lillie looked up at Happy watching his face. He was quiet taking her words in as she spoke them. He knew they needed to have this talk.

"What you did was seriously fucked up and it fucked me up for a long time. It still does. It got in the way of everything. The other part is like fuck you you really hurt me move the fuck on already. That's why I went with Quinn. But as usual I couldn't fucking do anything. You're stupid face gets in my head and I think about you marching in and declaring your love for me. Like that would actually fucking happen but its stuck in my head. But I need to tell you I want to be with you, I really, really do but This is too fast for me Hap." She spoke softly.

She had closed her eyes and was now crying. "What fucks me up the most about all of this is that you never asked me to get your crow. Like, you're waiting for someone better to come along. To that, it wasn't enough I have your kids. Like, I'm the last resort or something. I just... that whatever happens on a run stays on a run bullshit don't work. " Lillie hiccuped hiding her face in her hands. Happy was shocked. He never got the chance to ask her to take his crow something always came up. What he wanted more than anything was to ink her.

"Baby." he whispered in her hair. She cried harder he kissed her forehead. "I've wanted you to have my crow from the first time I saw you." Happy whispered wiping her tears away. "Liar we hated each other the first time we met." Happy chuckled kissing her nose. "Yeah but you were fucking hot." He said kissing her bottom lip. "I'd like to think that I still am." Happy chuckled nodding in agreement with her. "Why? "Because you were the hottest girl I had ever seen and thought one day my crow would look good on you. NO matter how much you fucking pissed me off. I didn't want anyone else to have you."

Lillie thought back to the first day they met. She was three months into her freshmen year. She was walking with some friends just hanging out. They had been laughing at a joke Lillie had made. She was carrying her stack of books under her left arm. When Happy barreled by her going in the opposite direction, he collided with her shoulder knocking Lillie over and sent her books flying in a million different directions. Happy stopped and headed back towards Lillie.

He had just got the call from clay asking him to watch over his daughter, Lillie. Seeing as he had just did a three year stint in prison.. he had no idea what the fuck this kid looked liike. Clay wanted him to start following her right then so he had no time to research or call anyone. "Fuck sorry about that, kid." Happy said picking up the books. The group of girls around the two burst out laughing. Lillie grabbed the books from him.

"I am not a kid." Lillie spat up at the asshole who knocked her over. She got up and teetered sideways. He caught her and looked her up and down. She was tiny but holy fuck was she hot. She was wearing four inch chunky heels and high waisted short pleated skirt with a button down shirt that was tucked into the skirt. He noticed her leg was bleeding. "Get fucking real dude." Lillie said backing up from him. Looking from the bleeding scrape on her leg to Happy. "Be nice, at least he said sorry." One of the girls spoke up. Lillie shot her a glance and rolled her eyes. "Fuck you, Tavi. I am always fucking nice. if he was watching where he was going I wouldn't be bleeding right now." Happy huffed. "Whatever, bitch." He turned and walked away from her. He didn't have time for this fucking shit. He needed to find Clay's daughter. Just then her phone started ringing.

"Go fuck yourself you fucking asshole." She called after him answered and then answered the ringing phone.

"Hello?

Hey Baby.

Hey mamma.

I was just checking to see how you were doing. Everything alright?

Yeah. Well, no Yeah I just got barreled over by this fucking asshole. I'm just bleeding a bit.

What the fuck? Seriously? Is Happy there? He's supposed to be following you around. Daddy, put him on it.

Who? What the fuck? Mamma, I don't need a fucking tail."

Happy near broke his neck to look at the girl. What in the fuck. Is this Clay's kid?

"Fucking shit. What in the fuck. Mamma you want me to be watch by some rando named Happy? Please tell me your kidding.

Daddy, and I just want you to be safe baby girl. I have you even met him yet? I heard he's a great tracker.

No Obviously I haven't met him yet. The fuck If I know where this dude is.

He could be watching from a distance. No, if he saw someone hurt you, he'd be right there with you. Specially since you aren't 18 yet.

Just because I'm not 18 doesn't a damn thing.

Hold on baby, daddy, is going to call him to see where he is."

Lillie turned and started walking away with her friends. Happy followed close behind her. They made it past a few buildings as the small girl argued with her mother. The girls kept looking over their shoulders at Happy getting more nervous as he followed them. She whipped around glaring at the tattooed man with a Beretta Nano in her her tiny hand.

"Hold on mamma." She pointed the gun at him. "Do you fucking mind pal? What didn't get enough fucking fun outta knocking a lady over?" Happy smirked at the girl and took a step towards her. She smiled and was about to pull the trigger when his phone started to ring and he turned away. She shot past his ear and turned around and started talking to her mamma.

"I just had to take care of something.

Baby, ask the mans name it could be him.

I am not asking this pycho's name.

Marcy Elizabeth, just ask his name

NO. Mom.

Is he covered in tattoos baby?

Yeah he's covered in tattoos.

Then that's him baby.

Alright, I have to go Mamma, I love you.

Love you too baby girl, daddy says he loves you too."

She looked over at the fucking creep. He was supposed to be her tail. Well, fuck him. He still had his back turned to her group of friends. Lillie nodded to them, dropping the gun in her bag they rushed in to the building and made their way through the building to their apartment.

"Hap?

Yeah?

What is this I hear you knocked my fucking kid over?"

Happy didn't know what to say to Clay. He turned around and the girls weren't there. Fucking shit.

"You know this isn't how you're normally protect people Hap."

Happy looked around wondering where the fuck he would find them now.

"She's good Clay just a scraped her leg." He muttered walking around the building.

"You better watch your back now brother. That little girl can hold a grudge worse than Gem." Clay laughed into the phone. Happy rolled his eyes. Fucking club princess. Just what he fucking needed right now. He looked around trying to figure out where to look next. He was fucking pissed at this point.

"She pulled a gun on me, Clay." Clay roared into the phone

"Well, she is my daughter Hap." Clay laughed some more.

Shot at me too."

Clay got real quiet it for a minute.

"Do what you have to do. She needs to fall in line at some point.

Ok

I'll let you to it. Try to keep her in check, Hap."

The line went dead and Happy swore. He got on the phone with Blu, the intelligence officer for Tacoma asking for Lillie's home information. Hoping she would be there. He spat on the ground and made his way across the campus to the student apartments.

Lillie sat in her apartment sharing a joint with her roommates. She dabbed a peroxide covered rag over the cut on her leg. Her roommate Tavi turned the music up and mingled with some of the people who were hanging out. "I can't believe you pulled your gun on that guy." Her roommate Emily giggled blowing an O ring from the smoke she blew out. Lillie shrugged and started giggling with her. "Yeah, well fuck him." Lillie muttered taking the joint back from Emily. "What about Jericho? Tavi asked hopping up on the kitchen counter.

Lillie rolled her eyes. Jericho was her somewhat boyfriend she had met at a party off campus. They had been together for almost a month now and he was turning into a real asshole. "Weren't you supposed to meet up with him today?" Lillie looked over at Tavi and glared. "Fucking shit. Yeah." She walked back to her room to change. She took her shirt and her bra off careful not to disturb the nipple piercings she just got. Or the bruises that covered her side. A lovely reminder of her last encounter with Jericho. Lillie stepped out of the skirt and pulled on a SAMCRO shirt she stole from Opie. It was was a dress on her.

Lillie jumped and turned seeing, Happy the freak from earlier. Standing in her doorway. She was relieved it wasn't Jericho. He had a habit of bursting into her room like that. He had started to get rough with her and right now she couldn't handle another round of fighting with him.

"Ever hear of knocking, asshole?" She shouted throwing her shirt at him. "Are you out of your god damn mind, little girl?" She was fucking furious. Little girl? Is he real right now? She picked her shoe up off the ground and threw it at him. The man was raging he started walking towards her. She balled her fists up. This mother fucker was about to catch these hands. Happy stood a foot away from her wanting to beat the ever living shit out of the small person in front of him.

"You ever shoot at me again, or throw another thing and I'll fucking kill you." Her eyes almost popped out of her head. "Seriously? SERIOUSLY DUDE? YOU WERE FUCKING FOLLOWING ME." She shouted and pushed the giant of a man. She was honestly real tired of fucking dudes telling her what to do. it wasn't her first time thrown up against a wall. It probably wouldn't be her last. This guy needed to get over himself.

"I really, have better things to do than to be threatened and thrown against a wall, so if you could put me down, now preferably that would be nice." He let her down and stared at her. He didn't hit women, his mother taught him better but fuck if she met this girl she'd probably condone it. "Its my god damn job, little girl." He caught the arm that was about to slap him and yanked it up, lifting her off her feet. Lillie screamed in pain clawing at Happy to let her down. Happy dropped her surprised by her reaction. She laid crumpled at his feet holding her side. Happy picked her up and took her to the bathroom, he set her on the counter and Lillie leaned into the wall holding her side.

Happy went to move her arm so he could see where he hurt her. "I'll fucking bite you if you touch me." Lillie whispered her face and upper body hidden by her hair. Happy chuckled darkly "Don't threaten me with a good time." He said and moved her hand causing the girl to hiss and move away from him. "Fucking shit." Lillie breathed trying to get through the pain she was feeling. Happy glowered and lifted her shirt. He stopped seeing the massive black and purple bruise that consumed most of her sidd and lower hip. She yanked her shirt down. He looked from the bruise to the Lillie's face. Who the fuck would actually hurt her? Lillie wouldn't make eye contact with him.

Her other arm was still protecting her side. Before Happy could say anything the pair heard shouting from the living room. Lillie's whole demeanor changed. "No. please no." she whispered more to her self than Happy. he saw her tears and was on high alert. "WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE? THAT FUCKING BITCH! WHERE THE FUCK IS SHE, TAVI?" Happy looked to Lillie, she looked so helpless. "Wanna meet my boyfriend?" Lillie said trying to smile. "He fucking touch you?" Lillie looked away from him and got off the counter. "Back the fuck off. Alright? Asshole?" Lillie pulled on shorts and walked around the corner.

Lillie came face to face with her "boyfriend" Jericho. Before she could say anything Jericho hauled off and slapped her sending the girl across the room. She landed with a thud at Happy's feet. Happy stared at the man. "Fucking get dressed we're going out." Jericho drawled. "I have plans so that's a no." Lillie said carefully sitting up and looking over a Jericho with a smile. She wiped the blood from her mouth and got up ignoring Happy. who walked up to the asshole and threw his fist into the guys face. Lillie watched as Happy beat the shit out of the guy. She enjoyed it for a moment. It was kinda fucking hot. She looked Happy up and down. He was really fucking hot. "You can stop now asshole." Lillie said nudging him with her foot.

Happy stepped back and looked at the little redhead beside him. She was staring at the man he had just beaten the shit out of. "You going to tell my dad about him." She was holding her arm over her side. Happy just looked at her. He noticed the freckles that were splattered all over her face, her big dark green eyes and her pouty little lips. God damn. He shook his head still taking in the presidents daughter. "You're staring, asshole." Lillie glanced at him then back at Jericho. He wanted to just look into her eyes for a little bit longer.

END

Lillie looked up at Happy taking him in. Still fucking sexy as fuck. Still protective. "I don't know if I can trust again. Hap." Lillie said quietly looking at the man beside her. He was silent. "What do I have to do to get you to realize that won't ever happen ever again." Lillie sighed she wanted to say let me tattoo my fucking name in huge ass letters across your entire body so no one else will ever touch you again. Why not if he says no then that'll prove it right?

Lillie shifted a bit and looked over him. The left side of his neck was bare. "You could get my name tattooed right there." She said touching his neck. "Is that what you want?" He asked "Will you do it? Do you want to?" She asked him cautiously. He moved around a bit thinking about the request. There's wasn't much to think about it. He wanted to do it. "Anything for you babe." Happy kissed the top of Lillie's head. She laid across him, her head on his chest.

Happy ran his fingers through her hair. "We good?" She asked as she yawned. "Yeah, we'll take it slow for a while. I'll get your name tattooed here." He touched her neck indicating where she wanted her name tattooed on him. You'll get my crow here." He rubbed over her hip bone and thigh. "and we'll be golden." She nodded sleepily. " He nodded closing his eyes.

One Week Later

I woke up to someone fucking poking me and let me tell you what that fucking pissed me off. "Get off me." I growled opening my eyes. What or who I saw in front of me pissed me off. Fucking Tara Knowles. This bitch. Let me tell you a story about Tara Fucking Knowles. If you don't already know this bitch let me tell you a fucking story about this bitch. Tara dated Jax all through high school, like right before he prospected for the club. They were madly in love it was beautiful for a while. Jax was completely smitten with this bitch. I mean all he talked about was Tara; she was so cool, she was the best, great in bed, my fucking forever.

Then, she got his crow. She got his crow and he was barely even a prospect. Seriously? I thought it was a bad idea from the get go. But who listens to me? No one that's who. It all changed after she got his crow. I guess she realized that hey this is fucking permanent. Do I want this life? She went and instead of telling Jax or anyone for that matter that she was having second thoughts she went and applied to college at this college a million miles away from here. She finally tells Jax and is like run away with me. We could have this great life away from here. No one will know who we are, blah bla blah bla. She gets into his head and really fucks with him.

He's like I didn't even graduate high school what am I supposed to do with you in bum fuck nowhere? All I have wanted my entire life was a Harley and a kutte. She's like well fuck you I'm leaves and it destroys Jax. So you can imagine my rage when I thought I would never see this dumb gash again and here she is poking me with this god damn needle.

"You need to get the fuck out of my room." Lillie growled at Tara, who was surprised at the aggression the woman in front of her was giving her. "Did I do something wrong ma'am?" Tara asked trying to figure out what exactly she had done. Lillie sat up in bed with a groan. "Ma'am you really shouldn't move around. You're going to stress your heart out." She went to touch the woman and she slapped her hand away.

"You have done so much already. Get the fuck out." Lillie directed nodding to the door. She grabbed her water cup and started sipping the water. "You really have some nerve coming back here. I mean you didn't get off enough from hurting my brother that you had to come back and do some more damage?" Tara looked at the woman's chart. What the fuck was she on. "Mrs. Lowman." "Just get the fuck out, dude."Lillie yelled

Happy went to get breakfast for himself and Lillie when he heard shouting coming from her room. Alarms were going off and people were running in and out of her room. He recognized it was Lillie yelling and ran to the room. He found Lillie being restrained by three orderlies, who were trying to get her back in bed. She was struggling against them trying to get at someone. He looked across the room seeing Tara Knowles. Shit. "Happy get them off of me." Lillie pleaded he walked to her.

The orderlies backed off and Happy came towards them. He picked Lillie up and carried her back to bed. "Baby girl, what the fuck?" He asked putting her back in bed. Lillie still had yet to take her eyes off of Tara. Happy got Lillie to calm down enough to let the nurse put the Iv back in. "I don't need this shit. Just let me alone. STOP POKING ME PLEASE." Lillie looked up at the nurse. She was antsy, having been kept in the hospital for so long all she wanted was to leave and be with her family in her own clothes. Tara was still staring at the girl in the bed from the corner of the room when Jax came in with Gemma and Abel.

Lillie was still on edge and for some reason Tara was still in the room. "Oh fuck."Jax muttered looking between his sister and Tara. He kissed Lillie's temple. "What the fuck are you doing in here?" Gemma snarled at Tara and kissed Lillie's cheek. "Thank you. Fucking thank you. Why are you here?" Lillie said happy that someone was finally sharing her views. Happy sighed rubbing his face. "Gemma, she can't get worked up like this." Gemma's expression softened slightly as she looked at Happy.

"I'm your doctor. Li" "Its Mrs. Lowman to you." Lillie spat at Tara. It was too early for this. Happy thought to himself. Lillie looked over to Happy. Lillie took a deep breath and decided to just ignore the stupid gash. "She's been in here for god knows how long how are you her doctor? Why haven't we seen you in here before?" Gemma asked bouncing Abel on her hip. "To put it frankly, no one else wants to Lillie as their patient." Tara said matter-of-factly. Lillie swore shaking her head. "That's bullshit and you know it. I have been nothing but nice and respectful." Lillie stared Tara down. "Well other people think otherwise." Tara said crossing her arms over her chest. "FUCK YOU TARA." Gemma and Lillie said in unison.

Lillie looked to her mother and held her arms out, wanting to hold Abel. "Can she hold him?" Jax asked. Tara sighed. Lillie glowered at her brother. He was supposed to be on her side. Why the fuck was he asking that dumb bitch anything? "With help, she needs someone to help hold Abel." Lillie grumbled about it being a slap in the face to have some dirty gash, who had never had children to talk to her about kids and tell her what she could or couldn't do, but stopped from a look from Happy. It was obvious that he was tired of this shit.

Lillie cooed at her nephew. Abel giggled and Lillie's face lit up. She laughed at the baby and clapped her hands. Lillie sat up and crossed her legs. Tara rolled her eyes. She knew who she was. She took the chart from Lillie's bed and read over it. "You need to stop smoking, drinking and exercise more. No riding, driving no heavy lifting. We have to limit the number of visitors you have. Its having an effect on your recovery. But you are doing stellar. " Tara said curtly.

Lillie ignored her and smiled at the baby who had caught a piece of her hair and was yanking on it. "Didn't anyone ever tell you its rude to pull hair baby boy?" Lillie sang quietly. Abel shrieked and babbled at her almost jumping out of her arms. Lillie laughed wildly at Abel and She shook her head. "You're trouble. I can see it now." Lillie looked over at Happy with a grin that reached from ear to ear. "You can tell he's going to be a little shit like his dad." Happy smiled and nodded "Wise ass too." He said leaning over Lillie's shoulder to look at Abel. Lillie chuckled bouncing the baby on her knees. "Wouldn't be a Teller if he wasn't." Gemma chuckled nodded in a agreement. Lillie looked from Abel to Jax, waiting for him to put his two sense in the conversation. She noticed a the shared looked between Tara and Jax. What the absolute fuck, was that about? Lillie thought to herself.

"How long do I have to be here?" Lillie asked smiling at Abel who was blowing spit bubbles. "Another week." Lillie almost dropped Abel. Happy looked over at Gemma and Jax all three exchanged a look. Lillie shook her head. "That is impossible. Can't happen. The twins have to get in to school and get into the sports. I have to move into my house. I have to meet with a couple people regarding some jobs. We need to get our bikes and our licenses over here. And not for nothing," Lillie covered Abel's ears and smiled at Tara. "I'm not staying here with you, you fucking cunt, torturing me and making god damn eyes at my brother like you're going to mount him. So fuck you and your fucking face. I'm not staying here."

Tara stared open mouth at Lillie who had uncovered Abel's ears and was hugging him to her. Tara left and Lillie sighed and leaned back into the bed holding Abel. She brought her knees up and laid Abel back on them. Lillie looked up to see the looks Happy, Jax and were exchanging. She looked to her mom who was looking down at her hands. Lillie sat up narrowing her eyes. "You have to stay here." Happy said not looking at her. Lillie scooted away from him. "You gunna do all that with the boys?" Lillie side eyed the man when he didn't give her a response. "I didn't think so. Ma, can you take me to the shower?" Lillie asked pulling her gown closed behind her. Gemma nodded and helped Lillie off the bed.

"How are you that fucking short?" Jax asked breaking the silence. He watched as Lillie's feet dangled off the bed trying to reach the floor. Gemma started laughing as well. "Get fucked, Teller." Lillie said finally reaching the floor. She looked up to see everyone smirking. Once Gemma got Lillie in the shower she turned to Jax and Happy. "How are we going to tell her? She needs to know you're going away." Gemma said sitting in a chair by the bathroom door because Lillie was adamant that she didn't need any help.

Jax shook his head looking at Happy. "I don't know Ma. She's going to flip." He looked at Happy. "The longer we wait the worse its going to be." Happy said listening for the shower. He didn't want Lillie walking in on their conversation. It killed him that she wouldn't get out before they went away to jail. Just then the shower turned off.

Lillie leaned against the wall braiding her hair. She was feeling stronger and stronger everyday. She pulled on panties and a bra. She stepped into a black maxi skirt that had slits that went up to her mid thigh and a black halter crop top. She opened the door and smiled out at her family. She convinced herself she was just being paranoid. They were just worried about her. She was about to say something when her phone rang. It was Declan. "WHEN THE FUCK WERE YOU GOING TO TELL ME SAMCRO WAS BEING LOCKED UP?!" Declan screamed into the phone.

Jax, Happy and Gemma heard him clear as day. Happy hung his head and went to get up and he heard snapping from the bathroom. He looked up to see Lillie snapping her fingers at him and pointing for him to stay where he was. "Declan, I've been in the hospital. My heart gave out the night I got here." She said quietly glaring at everyone in the room.

"What?" He hissed. "Yeah. I'm good now. I didn't know the Mc was going away til you said something. So, I'm going to deal with that and call you later." She said picking at her nails. "Aye, talk to you soon." He chuckled. Lillie hung up and brushed her teeth careful not to get any foam on her outfit.

Lillie carefully walked out of the bathroom. She was thinking of calming things: oceans, beaches, cabins, lakes. Things she like so that she wouldn't stress out her heart. She leaned against the counter figuring out her words. "So, that was Declan." She looked around the room tapping her fingers on the counter. "He had some delightful news to share." She stared at Happy he looked down at his hands.

"Turns out, the club is being locked up. So, unless I am mistaken that includes you and you." Lillie said motioning to her husband and her brother. She was using her mom voice her quietly but deadly voice. Tara came in just then "Sign these and you can go." She said thrusting the file of papers at Lillie. She beamed at Tara and took the stack of papers. She flicked through them signing what needed to be signed. Tara handed her a bag of her medicines and left.

"What just happened? Jax asked looking around at the group. His sister was humming and getting her bag together. "What did you do?" He said getting up from his chair. Lillie stood up facing her brother "What I had to." Her phone started ringing and she walked out of the room to answer it. Jax stared after her and went to find Tara. He came back after a couple minutes fuming. "I'm going to kill your wife." He snarled. Happy crossed his arms over his chest. "She fucking had someone plant fucking weed in her office and told Tara she would tell her supervisor that Tara was high while working on her." Happy started laughing he stood following Lillie out of the room.

He watched Lillie on the phone. Her back was turned to them. Her top showed off her back and was held together by three thin spaghetti straps. She was leaning against the wall talking animatedly to whoever it was on the other end. "She ca't do that to Tara, Hap. I won't have it. She's your wife, I get that but." "Its fucked up, I'll talk to her Jax." Happy interrupted. The pair walked down the hall to meet up with Gemma and Lillie.

"She took it rather well." Jax mused and Happy nodded. Happy had expected more yelling and fighting from lillie. Gemma shook her head bouncing Abel on her hip. "You just wait til she gets either of you alone. Then tell me how well she took it." She kissed Abel's head. Happy caught up to Lillie he went to kiss her she pulled away giving him hard stare. Gemma elbowed Jax and nodded to the couple in front of them. as if saying, see? I told you. Lillie was still staring at Happy who was glaring her. She patted his cheek and made her way down the ward. Happy scooped her up.

Gemma periodically glanced at her daughter as they drove back to the clubhouse. "How'd you get Tara to release you?" Lillie shrugged flicking lint off of her skirt. "Threatened to plant weed in her office and tell her superiors and say she was being unprofessional." Gemma laughed speeding up a little. "Are they together?" Lillie asked looking out at the window. Gemma sighed. "They are. She's pregnant with this kid." Lillie groaned "How long are they going away for?" Gemma pulled up on the Teller Morrow lot. "Three years." Lillie threw the door open and hopped out. "The the fuck didn't you try to stop it, Mamma? You know she's going to do the same thing to him again. Tara only want's Jax if he's out of the club. This life isn't for her, you know that." Gemma got Abel's car seat out but didn't answer her daughter.

Happy pulled into his spot and looked over to Lillie. Gemma was reasoning with her as she stomped to the club house.

Lillie threw open the door and stepped inside. Her phone started to ring and she walked away from the men and answered.

"Did you sort them out?" Declan asked.

Lillie chuckled leaning against the wall. "Not completely, I'm trying to be nice."

Declan chuckled at her response. "You, nice? That is a shock."

Lillie playfully frowned. "Hey, I can be nice." Lillie countered.

"When do you get out? Maybe I'll pay you a visit."

Lillie smiled feeling pretty proud of herself. "Pulled some strings, just got to the clubhouse."

Declan huffed he didn't want to know how or what she had done to do it.

"Why did you call Declan rolled her shoulders, she wasn't going to fight with him over this dumb shit.

"Wanted to know how our friend was doing, but you haven't had time to work him over yet."

She pushed off the wall. "I have not had the chance. I'm going to let you go, I've got to go."

But before I let you go. I'll be down in a week and start showing you the ropes so when the boys get out we can just start and not worry about getting anything messed up." Declan said quickly.

"Okay Declan, talk to you later."

Lillie waved to the group at the bar and went to Happy's room. She sighed laying on the bed and closed her eyes. Happy followed Lillie to his room. She hadn't said much since she found out they were going away. "You can't threaten Tara or her job like that Lillie." Lillie sighed rolling over to look at him. "We're really going to do this? That's how you want to start okay, Happy." She got off the bed and faced him crossing her arms over her chest as she did so. "Don't worry about shit that has nothing to do with you." Happy shook his head stepping closer to his wife. "Watch you fucking mouth." Lillie took a step back and scoffed at the man in front of her. "Fuck you, Happy. Or what you'll take me for a round or two in the fucking ring? Get fucking real, pal."

"Little girl." He closed the distance between them in two steps towering over his girl. She looked up at him unimpressed and angry. He saw something in her eyes that he hadn't seen before, ever in her eyes. Something that bubbled up to the surface. Hate. "I don't need your fucking shit Happy. I got enough going on in my head then to think about you swinging at me. I'm sorry, I want you, I love you but its been sixteen years. You don't get to talk to me like I'm some out of line bitch. I have a lot of anger towards you." Happy sighed. He was honestly just ready for this shit to be over so they could move on. He sat down on the bed trying to figure this shit out. Lillie sat with him trying to figure out how to get past all the anger. They sat together in silence for a while thinking and wanting each other. All she wanted was him, his hands, his mouth all over her. Am I a god damn teenager? what the fuck? She held his hand and laughed a little.

"I know its a lot for you to take in Lillie, I know I've fucked up. I honestly thought you were better off with out me. Did it kill me hearing about you and the boys all the time? You better fuckin' believe it did. I figured that you hated me so I thought it worked out for the best. You don't even know how long it took for mom to look at me or even talk to me. I'm sorry for hurting you, for leaving you to raise those boys on your own. I'm sorry for all of it. I'm asking you to forgive me, please. But I will understand if you can't get passed this or if you don't want to be with me. I wouldn't blame you." Happy spoke softly looking at his beautiful wife, she came to stand in front of him. Lillie kissed his hands never taking her eyes off of him. She pushed past his knees so she was directly in front of him.

"When did you start having such a low opinion of yourself, Happy?" She shook her head and kissed his forehead, then pressed a soft kiss to his lips. He looked away from her, how could he have a low opinion of himself? "Look at what I do for the club, what I did to you. It didn't take much to see that I am right about how I feel." She kissed the top of his head holding him tighter to her. "Get out of your head, Lowman. You've been in there way to long." She tapped his forehead with her finger before pressing her head to his. He chuckled, "If you only knew." His hand rested on her small hips as he laid his head on her shoulders. "I can see, I don't have to know. Stop it." She kissed his bottom lip. "I love you, I want to be with you." Happy wrapped her up in his arms holding her tightly against him.

He buried his head into her chest. "Let's get past this, baby." She tilted his chin so he would look up at her. She hiked up her skirt and sat down in Happy's lap, straddling him. Happy nodded in agreement. His hands sliding up her back and untied the halter top pulling it away from her. Her hands roamed over his chest as she kissed and sucked on his neck. Happy palmed her ass. Lillie's hands slid to the hem of his tee shirt, she pulled it up over his head tossing it behind them. Her eye took in his chest, shoulders and torso. She bit her lip taking him all in. "God damn, Happy." She breathed. Happy still holding Lillie. She bit his chest

The next day

"Lillie?" Happy said kissing her cheek. "Get up we have stuff to do." She didn't get up instead she rolled over and flipped him off. Happy chuckled and picked her up. "The boys are back. We're having church, you need to be there." Lillie groaned she patted Happy's chest to put her down. The only way she was going to wake up was if she started moving. Lillie stretched opening her eyes and followed Happy to church.

She saw her boys standing by the table with Jax and Opie. She also saw plain kutte's on the table. Clay hammered the gavel on the table everyone sat down and looked to Clay. "What has Declan said?" Clay directed to Lillie. She sat up more and cleared her throat. "A couple of items here; First wanted to know how our friend was doing." Lillie emphasized friend.

Meaning Jimmy O but she was't going to call him out in front of her boys. "Second and more importantly; Declan will be here in a few days, going to train me I guess, he said it would be easier to learn everything while you're away so when you get out we can continue like nothing happened. They don't expect the MC to run guns while more than half of you are locked up." Clay nodded accepting the information she had given. "Do you want me to go?" Lillie asked Standing up. Clay shook his head. "We need you to clarify somethings for us." Lillie shot a look to the boys. They wouldn't make eye contact with her.

"How old are the twins now?" Clay asked. "Sixteen." "Whens their birthday?" Why the fuck was this goon asking me this? Did he not know his grandsons birthday? "March 24th." There was a look around the table their birthday was around the corner. "But they are set to graduate early?" Chibbs asked. I crossed my arms over my chest this was going to be shitty. "Actually, I wanted to talk to the boys in private about this." Her heart was sinking. They had worked so hard but not all their credits from school in Ireland had transferred over. They had a half year left to complete and credits to make up. "Due to this bullshit school system most of your credits didn't transfer." The boys hissed looking from each other to their mother. "The Charming school board wants to have you tested to see if you'll place in their "advanced classes." Its all whole joke all the shit they would set you back. I'm waiting to hear back from a few high schools in and around Oakland. To answer your question no, not at this time."

Clay looked from his grandsons to his daughter. "They want to prospect. What are your thoughts." Lillie looked at her father. She shrugged her shoulders. "I always told them I'd rather they prospect here than anywhere else. I'd like it to wait til you are released." Honestly, she'd rather die than have her boys prospect. What kind of mother would that make her? Putting her boys in the line of fire? But if she didn't give her consent now, they would probably go behind her back and do it. If they waited til their father, uncle, and grandfather got out at least then she would know they would be that much safer. She felt Happy's hand on her back and turned.

"I know how that looks. So please stop looking at me like that." She looked around the room. "Either they have my blessings or they do it behind my back creating bad blood. So judge me please. I don't care." She stood taller looking around the room. "Why couldn't you be my mom?" Opie said tapping the ash off his cigarette. Piney slapped Opie upside his head. But the rest of the room laughed. Happy hugged me to him and I smiled sitting back in his lap. "What do you think, Hap?" Clay asked chuckling. Happy adjusted himself. "I agree, wait til we get out. I don't want this asshole corrupting my kids more." Happy Jerked his head towards Kozik. I beamed back at Happy and he kissed my shoulder. "Anymore questions? Clay asked looking around the room.

"You said you're looking into schools in and around Oakland, why?" Opie asked. "Better schools and sports teams. More of a challenge for them. Charming is nice but it doesn't have the resources that Oakland has." I stated simply. Eyeing his cigarette. "Holy fuck, you're that mom." Jax said staring at me. I looked him up and down my hands on my hips. "Is that a problem Teller?" I glared at him. He shrugged. "Just surprised that's all. Party girl to soccer mom. Its kind of funny." This asshole is getting on my god damn nerves. "It is funny, so funny that even with the fuck up with the credits they are still graduating early. Unlike you." Is what I wanted to say. I got and left the room.

Lillie went to Happy's dorm and changed into a tee shirt and joggers. Normally, this would be something she wore to bed but she needed to feel comfortable. She walked out to the bar to see Tara holding Abel. "So, when were you going to tell me you were knocked up with my nephew?" Lillie asked quietly sitting beside her. Tara jumped and glowered at Lillie. "You shouldn't be up. You should be resting." Lillie rolled her eyes. "This isn't my first time Tara, I know what I can do."

Tara glowered at Lillie. "Thanks by the way for this morning." Tara snarled. Lillie sighed and stuck her tongue out at Abel. Who giggled and kicked his feet. "I always wanted a little girl." Lillie said quietly Tara wasn't sure if she was talking to Abel or her. She waited for Lillie to continue. "Now my babies are prospecting and I don't know what to do." She made a funny face at Abel and glanced up at Tara. "I did what I had to do Tara." She rolled her eyes. "You are just as spiteful as ever. Just Like your mother." Tara said hatefully. Lillie took Abel from Tara and danced around the room with Abel.

"Did you ever think for once in your life that maybe you hurt us? You knew what the club meant to Jax and I, we were raised with in it and you try to take that from him, us. How do you think that felt to us?" She spun around with Abel looking at Tara. "You take someone's dream and make it seem like its the worst thing in the world. And you think we should just welcome you back into our lives like you did nothing wrong?" Lillie didn't hear the Chapel doors open or hear anyone coming out of the Chapel. Everyone heard what she was saying. Abel cooed and giggled.

"I didn't think..." Lillie cut her off. "You don't seem to ever do. You said you were't ready for his crow. You said you were having second thoughts and you went and did the one thing that was most important to Jax and then you leave taking his heart with you. And you make it seem like it was all on him. when it was you." Lillie looked up giving Tara a hard stare. Lillie handed Abel back to Tara.

"Its all or nothing Tara. We aren't a family you can half love." She leaned in close to Tara. "Next time you hurt him or my family I'll slit your eyes wide open so you can watch me gut you like a fish and strangle you with your intestines." Lillie patted Tara's shoulder and kissed her cheek. "Fuck you Lillie. You ain't shit and you know it. the only reason you're mad is because I didn't take you with me. Don't fuckin' threaten me." Tara called after Lillie who stopped to hear what Tara was saying.

Jax and Happy looked from each other then to their partners. Lillie was smiling this Cheshire cat smile. Lillie looked to Happy then to Jax and turned around. "Baby girl," Lillie cooed to Tara "That wasn't a threat, it was a promise my sweet girl. She tilted her head slightly still smiling. Tara backed up and looked to Jax. "I'll make good on my word right now if you want. If you really want to see how serious I really am." Tara glared at her. "Like I said bitch you won't do shit." Lillie laughed. "Jax you have a ghetto princess over here. Where'd you learn that? hmm In Chicago? What did you walk along the rough side of the tracks for a bit? I doubt you spent anytime on the south side. Maybe your drunk daddy taught you?" Lillie was goading her. She wasn't going to swing unless Tara went first. "Fuck you, you think you're all big and bad but you're still a scared insecure little fuckin' bitch." Oh girl. hold on. Lillie's smile grew. clearly enjoying the reaction she was getting out of Tara.

Tara leaned forward a bit so they were eye to eye. This bitch right here. OOOOO boy. Lillie was giddy at this point. "Fucking Tara, unlike you I don't need a man to protect me. I can do that all by my big girl myself. Fucking hit me Tara show me how big and bad I am." Tara went to swing and was pulled back by Jax. Lillie clapped her hands in excitement almost jumping up and down. "Boy, you sure are mad huh?" Lillie giggled biting her lip. Tara stopped struggling against Jax and both stared open mouthed at Lillie. Happy shook his head, wrapping his arms around her.

"That's like Tigg fucked up. Jesus christ." Juice said. He stared at Tigg who had this weird look on his face. Lillie stood staring at Tara still smiling. Lillie didn't take her eyes off Tara she left with Jax. Once they were out of her sight Lillie turned to face Happy. She had one thing on her mind and he was the only one who could take care of it. "Fuck me up, daddy." Lillie said quietly when she pressed a kiss to his full lips. Happy's eyes widened in shock. Happy scooped her and made the short trip to the his dorm room. The biker kicked the door close and locked it.