~Chapter 3~

Elsa

It had been a few months and I still felt surrounded by strangers. The talking snowman was a bit much at times, but I found he knew how to make me laugh. Kristoff, Anna's fiance, was quite a character and I could easily see how much he cared for her. The person who felt the least nervous around was Anna. I felt drawn to her somehow and I felt in my gut that she was telling me the truth. Even though we looked nothing alike, it was a nice thought to believe that I could have a sister like her. Then she introduced me to the unconscious man who had been asleep these past months. His name was Marcus and apparently he was my husband. This was the hardest detail for me to believe. Anna never said so, but I felt like I was the one who had put him into this sleep. I had to have been the one responsible and I hated myself for it. The fear was all-consuming and as much as Anna tried to distract me, it wasn't enough.

Anna did her best to explain what happened to Arendelle regarding the 'Great Flood' as the incident was named. She told me I was a queen and a wife all within the same day and it was all so overwhelming. I couldn't possibly lead a kingdom I knew nothing about, so I was happy to let Anna take charge. It took about a month for things to really shape up in the territory of Kalde. Staring out as ruins gradually became buildings and homes began to take shape. A kind man by the name of Reuben spoke highly of the man who was my husband, but the whole situation was very awkward.

It was a time consuming process, but the new Arendelle was coming along. A makeshift palace was built up and one of the first things Anna did was reach out to our cousin Rapunzel in Corona for man power to help build the kingdom up. Rapunzel wasted no time in sending over a handful of people to assist the kingdom building process. I tried my best to stay away from any progress that was being made with the building plans. My powers were so unstable and I had no idea how to control them. One wrong move and everyone's hard work would be torn down my icicle spikes or something. Anna hardly left me alone and I know she meant well, but being around her or anyone was hard. She was my sister and that's what she reminded me constantly, but even knowing that, I felt a disconnect. Anna insisted we share a room for my comfort, but I had to beg her for the opposite.

"I need my own room. What would happen if I have a nightmare and freeze you on accident? It's not worth the risk."

Anna covered her mouth trying to contain laughter. I felt like an idiot for worrying so much, but how could I not? There was so much at stake and I could destroy lives within seconds at any moment.

"Come on, Elsa. I know things are...complicated right now, but it'll be fun. Just like when we were girls. It will be a do over for the both of us."

Anna wouldn't back down and she wasn't afraid of me, so I let her have her way. I wondered if that was usually what happened.

I wandered down the halls aimlessly with crossed arms keeping my hands as far away from people as I walked by. Then I found myself at a dead end with the nearby room that housed my husband. Timidly, I entered the room and found him there looking like he was just sleeping. Though those eyes have never opened, I felt drawn to him. Even so much to the point that I saw him in my dreams. I peered down at his left hand and his gold wedding band around his finger and looked at mine in return. It was only a ring, but I knew what it represented. A life with this man I had no memory of and wasn't sure if I ever would. I slid the diamond ring off my hand and placed it on the table beside the bed.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.