Note: I uploaded a video to my youtube channel about this story and a little about me. My youtube channel name is Quantum Chickpea If you're interested. :)
Adrien slowly opened his eyes and peered over at Marinette. He pulled his arms down to find that they were stuck in place. "Great. Aren't we a lovely pair." Adrien sighed as he gave up.
Marinette swallowed hard and stared at him with tears falling from her eyes. He saw her tremble as she pulled against her restraints.
"It's okay. You're going to be okay." Adrien watched her anxiety spike. "Deep breaths."
Marinette shook her head and gasped as her thoughts took over.
"What if you have to go to the bathroom? What if your stomach gets sick? What will you do then? What if you throw up in front of him? What if he sees you get sick? What if you have a tickle in your throat and gag? What if-" Tikki circled her thoughts and she clenched her eyes tight, praying that it wouldn't happen.
"Marinette… It's okay, baby." Adrien tried to coax her back to him as the negative thoughts took her under. "You're going to be okay. They'll let you out soon, but you have to calm down."
Marinette took a shaky breath in and slowly let it out as her heart raced.
"Listen to me. Focus on my voice, okay?" Adrien continued to talk to keep her in reality, if only, for a little bit.
"Ready to go eat lunch?" Nurse Bustier knocked and opened the door to find Adrien whispering to Marinette. She watched how Marinette calmed down and she smiled at them. "Here." She walked over and took the restraints off of her.
Marinette sprang up and ran over to Adrien. She leaped onto his bed and draped her body over him, curling up against his side and hiding her face into his chest as she clenched his shirt in her fists. Adrien peered up at Nurse Bustier and sighed as he craned his neck down to kiss Marinette on the top of her head.
Nurse Bustier nodded and undid his restraints, granting him freedom to hold Marinette. "I'll give you two five minutes to calm down; before, you have to go eat. I'll be waiting outside the door." She nodded and walked out of the room, leaving them alone.
Adrien ran his fingers through her hair as he held her. "Hey, you're okay. You're free." Adrien swallowed hard as she cried into his shirt. "Deep breaths, remember?"
Marinette nodded and gasped for air as she tried again to catch her breath and calm down with his help. She sat back on her heels and wiped her eyes. Adrien sat up on his elbows, "There we go. Okay, ready to go eat? Not that I want to." He rolled his eyes and she punched him in the shoulder. "Ow…" He rubbed his shoulder as he sat up with a chuckle.
Marinette giggled and stood up, waiting for him to follow her to the door.
Adrien walked behind her as she left the room. Nurse Bustier walked them down the hallway and towards the cafeteria. With each step, Marinette peered behind her to make sure that Adrien was still there.
"I'm here." Adrien smiled and waved as he followed with his hands in his pockets.
Marinette smiled back as Nurse Bustier opened the doors to the cafeteria. Loud screams blasted out of the doors and Marinette froze up and trembled. Adrien ran up and wrapped his arms around her and quickly turned her around to hide her from the scene that was in front of them.
The smell of iron surrounded them as Adrien stared at blood. Lots of blood on the floor. He felt Marinette dig her nails into his chest as she shivered. Nurse Bustier ran to grab help.
People ran in from around them and took Juleka away. Marinette shivered and gasped as she tried to erase what she had seen.
"Shh… It's okay." Adrien swallowed hard as he tried to not throw up and stay strong for her. "It's all going to be okay."
Marinette shook her head and Nurse Bustier ran up to them. "Get her out of here."
Adrien nodded and walked her out of the cafeteria and back to their bedroom. He walked over to sit on his bed and peered up to see Marinette frozen. She clenched her hands in and out of fists as she hid in her hair. He watched her body tremble and watched her worry her bottom lip. Marinette didn't move or make a sound to the point that Adrien didn't even know if she was breathing anymore.
Her knees shook as she peered at the floor, tears streamed down her face as she gasped for air. Adrien sighed as relief took him over that she was in fact breathing.
The image of Juleka's slit throat, causing a pool of blood to slowly trickle along the floor. The image of how her eyes looked peaceful and how it seemed like she had finally found happiness. How Rose screamed and cried, rocking her in her arms. How Juleka slowly blinked as she warmly smiled. How they reached her right before she died, saving her. Marinette assumed they had saved her.
"Marinette?" Adrien tried to speak to her and Marinette swallowed. "Are you okay? I tried to shield you from it. I tried to-" Adrien felt guilty. He felt like it was his fault that she had witnessed it. "It's all my fault. I'm sorry."
Marinette gasped and trembled as she tried to keep her resolve intact. Tried to keep her mind in a solid state. Adrien gripped his hair and groaned, hitting himself in the head over and over again. "I'm a terrible person. I should have seen it faster. I should have-"
Marinette burst out into tears and fell to the ground, holding her knees to her chest.
"You broke her, kid. It's all your fault. You did his. You made her fall apart. You made her cry." Plagg slithered around Marinette and mocked Adrien. "This is all your fault."
Nurse Bustier walked in to check on Adrien and Marinette. She opened the door to find Marinette on the ground. Nurse Bustier looked up to see Adrien with his hair in his hands, gripping it and trembling with his knees to his chest. She sighed and crouched down in front of Marinette.
"Marinette?" Nurse Bustier touched her shoulder for a moment. "Juleka is okay. She'll be okay. She is stable and Rose is with her now. I'm sorry that you saw that, but it isn't Adrien's fault. It isn't anyone's fault. It was unpredictable."
Marinette sniffed and nodded as she stood up. Marinette crossed her arms over her chest as Nurse Bustier walked over to Adrien.
"Adrien?" She sat down on the bed beside him and watched him flinch away from her. Nurse Bustier put her hands in the air and then in her lap. "It's not your fault that Marinette saw what she did. You did the best you could to keep her from seeing it. Juleka made the decision, not you. It is NOT your fault. None of this has anything to do with you two. There was nothing either of you could do." She touched his chin and turned his face towards her own as she smiled.
Marinette found herself getting jealous that Nurse Bustier was touching him. That she could speak to him. Words crawled up her throat, but her anxiety quickly followed. It stuffed the words back down into her chest.
"I know you blame yourself all the time. That you have constant blame circulating in that mind of yours, but not everything is your fault." Nurse Bustier smiled at him and watched his eyes turn red from unshed tears. "It's okay to feel. It's okay to cry."
Adrien shook his head and pulled away as he crossed his arms, peering at the wall. Nurse Bustier sighed and stood up. "You have individual therapy next. I hope that you two will see that it's not your faults. After that, lunch will resume."
She stood up and walked to the door, taking Marinette to therapy first.
Adrien picked up a book that was near him and threw it at the door as he screamed. Nurse Bustier ignored the sounds of his anger as she lead Marinette down the hall.
Marinette peered over her shoulder with tears streaming down her face as she watched men in white run into their room. She turned to run towards the door, to stop them, but Nurse Bustier grabbed her arm to hold her back.
"Let it go." Nurse Bustier cringed as Marinette burst into tears, shaking her head to argue.
Nurse Bustier pulled her to therapy and helped her sit on the couch in front of Dr. Fu. "Your 1 o'clock is here."
"Thank you, Ms. Bustier." Dr. Fu smiled as he took in the sobbing girl on his couch.
Nurse Bustier was going to explain the situation, but Dr. Fu held up his hand to silence her. "Hello, Marinette. How are you doing today?"
She shook her head and rocked back and forth. Dr. Fu grabbed a clean sheet of paper and passed her it. "How about we draw how you are feeling? How you see yourself?"
Marinette took it with a shaky hand and all she drew was Adrien being restrained to the bed. She threw it angrily at him and Dr. Fu smirked at her. "That's a new emotion."
She gripped her knees to her chest until her knuckles turned white as anger filled her. She'd never been so frustrated, so upset, and so angry. She wanted to punch them in the face and escape with Adrien. She wanted to burn the building to the ground until all that was left was a pile of smoldering ash.
Marinette panted as her anger settled into the pit of her stomach. You can't blame him for being angry given what he saw! You can't restrain him for feeling anger, frustration! You can't do that! Stop doing that to him! STOP IT! She screamed words towards Dr. Fu in her head and glared at him.
"Now, let's try this again, Marinette. Draw how you perceive yourself please." Dr. Fu handed her another paper.
Marinette once again drew Adrien in the same state and threw it at him.
Dr. Fu handed her blank paper after blank paper, only to get the same result. He sighed, "I see that we're not going to get anywhere today. I think that's enough for now."
Marinette glared at him harder as Nurse Bustier took her back to her room. She shrugged her off as they got closer to the room.
"I know you're angry, but this new emotion is refreshing and a good thing." Nurse Bustier smiled at her and she shoved the door open, finding Adrien passed out on his bed.
Nurse Bustier stood in the doorway and waited to see what Marinette was going to do. Marinette turned around with her fists at her sides, knuckles turning white. She wanted to yell at her. To tell her how she felt. How she wanted out, but she couldn't get the words out.
Nurse Bustier waited for something to pour from Marinette's mouth as she watched her press her lips in a thin line. Marinette shook her head and turned to face Adrien. She sat on the side of his bed and touched his face, brushing his damp hair from his face.
Adrien's eyes fluttered open and he warmly smiled at her as he noticed the small one on her lips. "Hey." His voice was quiet and weak as he peered into her eyes.
Nurse Bustier waited for a moment; before, she walked over and undid his restraints. "Lunch will resume soon." She walked back towards the door and left.
Adrien sighed as Marinette peered into his emerald eyes. "You okay?"
Marinette nodded as she swallowed hard. He smiled up at her and touched her dark hair. "How was therapy?"
Marinette shook her head and grabbed her tablet to write. She used her finger and passed it to him.
"Crappy. I didn't say much and all I was thinking about was you." Adrien set the tablet down and peered up at her. "Why don't you just talk to me? You should know by now that I won't judge. That I won't make fun of you. That I won't say anything mean to you. Please?"
Marinette worried her bottom lip as she thought. Being mute was exhausting and she was struggling to not just talk to him. To not just use her words and not her fingertip. She shook her head at him with a saddened expression.
"It's okay. I can have patience." Adrien smirked at her and got up.
He held out his hand and she took it. "Let's go eat. Well let's go get you to eat. No promises." He winked at her and she scowled at him. "Okay, I'll try to eat."
Marinette sighed, giving in. She followed him to the cafeteria where they were served a balanced meal. She sat down with Nino and Adrien, ignoring the table of her friends. She didn't want to face them or hear what they had to say about Juleka. If she heard about it, she didn't know if she would be able to eat or keep her sanity intact.
"Dude, that shit was crazy." Nino picked up a bite of food and Adrien moved his vegetables around as he watched Marinette.
"Can we not talk about it?" Adrien stabbed a potato with his spork and stuck it into his mouth, without chewing.
"I mean. Did you see it?" Nino ate a piece of fruit.
"Yeah, I saw plenty. Drop it." Adrien ran his fingers through his hair, causing strands to tangle around his fingers.
"Sorry, man." Nino stopped talking as he looked over at Marinette to see her utensil was shaking. "Oh."
"She's not handling it well." Adrien sighed as he pushed more of his food around his plate.
"So, Dr. Fu said that if I continue the way I'm going… I'll be out by the end of this month. He says my anxiety is well managed now." Nino smiled as he ate more.
"That's great Nino." Adrien smiled at him and touched his shoulder. "I'm happy for you. I will miss you though."
"I'll come visit you." Nino smiled and Adrien chuckled.
"You better. Can't leave me in this shit hole and forget about me, man." Adrien shook his head as he chewed the potato piece and ate it.
"Dude, I'd never forget you. You're kind of a big deal in and out of here, man." Nino laughed and Adrien rolled his eyes.
"Don't remind me. My father is sending his photographer here soon." Adrien stabbed a carrot with his utensil and brought it in front of his eyes to focus on it.
"IN HERE?" Nino's eyes widened as she realized how ridiculous it sounded.
"Oh yeah. In here." Adrien snorted and shoved the carrot into his mouth.
Marinette stuck a piece of potato into her mouth as she listened.
"My father doesn't care that I'm in here. Right now it's a nuisance to him. I'm in the way of getting his newest collection out." Adrien rolled his eyes and Marinette peered up at him with a shocked expression.
Nino looked at Marinette and then at Adrien. "Did this guy not tell you?"
Marinette shook her head as she set her spork down.
"He models for Gabriel." Nino gestured towards Adrien with his thumb.
"Shut up, man… I hate it." Adrien rolled his eyes as Marinette put it all together.
She swallowed hard and licked her lips as she thought about his eating disorder and about his father. She thought about his jeans and how they looked high end. How even his joggers looked fancy for being plain.
"He makes bank, man." Nino laughed and Adrien shoved him.
"Cut it out. I don't see any of it. My father keeps it all for himself." Adrien rolled his eyes and stabbed a piece of his steak.
He zoned out on his plate and stared at what was on it, calculating. One baked potato, medium sized, is… 161 calories. The steak… is about… 679 calories… Carrots are… 82 calories…
He began to write it out on the table with his finger as he added it all together. Juice is… around… 117 calories.
Marinette watched him with her head tilted as she watched his lips silently move. He cut his steak in half and waited for no one to be looking, brushing it into a napkin. Half of his potato fell to the same fate. She sighed and poked at her food as she watched him resume pushing his food around his plate.
Adrien got lost in his thoughts. So, I've eaten around…
"Well, I'm done. I'm going to go throw my stuff away and then head to play some games." Nino stood up and walked away from the table, causing Adrien to lose his train of thought.
Marinette waited patiently for Adrien to be done eating; before, she followed him to get his tray checked.
They walked back to their room so that Marinette didn't have to hear about Juleka. They spent the rest of their time laying in bed, sketching on their tablets.
Adrien drew a strange creature and showed her it. Marinette burst out in a fit of giggles. She added a weird outfit to it and Adrien chuckled.
Adrien laid back with his arm behind his head and sighed as he stared up at the ceiling.
Marinette bit her bottom lip as she took him in. He was gorgeous, even with dark rings beneath his eyes. She began to sketch him on her tablet. Marinette glanced from her tablet to him and back again.
"What?" Adrien moved slightly and Marinette shook her head and he went back to how he was laying.
She finished and turned her tablet to face him. He glanced over the drawing of himself and how she saw him. He swallowed hard and shook his head. "I don't look that good."
Marinette pouted her lips and nodded. Adrien sighed and peered at the ceiling. "I'm fat and ugly. I wish I was skinnier. I wish I looked better." He pulled out a ziplock from the side of his bed and Marinette stared at him. "Turn around."
Marinette shook her head and crossed her arms.
"You really should turn around. Staring at me, won't stop me." Adrien opened the new ziplock and waited for her, giving her time to look away.
Marinette stubbornly waited for him to put it back and not do what he was about to.
"Fine." Adrien brought two fingers to his mouth and jammed them to the back of his throat, gagging, and hiding in his hair.
Marinette flinched and tears fell down her cheeks as she watched him empty his stomach. She grabbed his wrists and trembled.
"Adr-" Half his name made it past her lips in a trembling voice.
Adrien froze with his fingers at his lips. He was about to make himself throw up again when he heard it. "What?" His voice was hoarse as he swallowed hard.
Marinette shook her head as she bit her bottom lip.
"No, you almost said my name." Adrien zipped up the bag and shoved it back into hiding.
She breathed out to try and calm down as her anxiety spiked.
Adrien sighed and grabbed the bag back out, proceeding to empty his stomach in front of her.
"Adrien." Marinette whispered his name and took a deep breath, finding it hard to talk. "Stop."
Adrien closed the bag and shoved it back into hiding, again. He wiped his mouth as he began to breathe hard. His name on her lips, shocked him. He quickly jumped up from the bed. "Give me a moment."
Marinette let him go as she held her arms to her sides, feeling like she messed up.
Adrien ran to go rinse his mouth out and brush his teeth in the public bathrooms, nearly knocking over the attendant as he ran back to their room.
He came back to a confused Marinette, sitting on his bed with parted lips and doe eyes. Adrien smiled as he got on the bed and touched her face. "Say it again." He was giddy and excited and his heart felt full.
"Ad- Adri- Adrien?" Marinette let the word play on her tongue for a moment.
Tears ran down his cheeks as he kissed her over and over again on the lips. She fell back onto the bed with him on top of her as he chuckled, kissing her even more. She giggled and peered up at him. "Again." Adrien sighed as he rubbed his nose against hers.
"Adrien." Her voice slowly became less crackly and more even. The more she said it.
"Marinette." Adrien sighed her name as she parted her lips and he dipped his tongue past them, tangling his fingers into her hair.
Marinette softly mewled against his kiss and wrapped her legs around his hips.
Adrien slipped his hands up the hem of her shirt and cupped her breasts as she arched her back against him. He ran his tongue along hers and she moaned against his lips as he ran his thumb over her peaked nipple. He groaned and rolled his hips against her. "God, you're beautiful."
Marinette gasped as he pulled down the cup on her bra to touch her breast with his bare fingertips. His hands were soft on her skin, softer than she could imagine. She captured his lips and wrapped her arms around his neck as he rolled her nipple between his index finger and thumb.
She trembled and clutched his shirt in her fist. Adrien smirked and kissed down her neck, pushing her shirt up and over her breasts. He wrapped his lips around her nipple and she clutched his hair and arched her back in a soft moan.
Adrien grabbed the blankets and shoved it over them as she hooked her feet into the band on his joggers, shoving them down past his hips. Adrien stopped to peer up at her as he sprang free from his pants.
Marinette got lost in his eyes as light filtered through the white sheets and caught them, making them glow. He smirked and undid her jeans, pulling them down her hips.
Her hands trembled as he kissed from one of her hip bones to the other. "Is this okay?" Adrien peered up at her and she nodded. He peered back down to bite her hip, causing Marinette to bring the sheets into her fists.
Adrien slowly kissed above her panties and trailed kisses down to her clit as he pulled the lace fabric down her hips. Her skin was smooth and soft. He smiled up at her as he pressed a kiss to her swollen bud.
Marinette peered down at him as he explored her. Adrien ran his finger down her folds and trailed them up her smooth lower lips, stopping at her clit to circle it.
She panted and closed her eyes as he slowly teased her with his fingertip.
He crawled up her body and she felt his warm cock rest between her thighs. She raised her hips to rub herself along it and he groaned. "I don't have condoms here." Adrien ground the words out as she shook her head, wrapping her arms around his neck.
"Pills." Marinette spoke and he groaned against her kiss.
She pushed him onto his back, tangling them in the sheets. She kicked off her pants and panties as he fixed the sheet over them. Marinette bent down to kiss him again and he got lost in her as she moved her hips, catching the tip of his cock on her tight opening.
He groaned as she swirled her hips and teased him. She slowly began to roll her hips until his swollen head slipped inside. He gasped and parted his lips as she slowly eased down onto him with slow rolling movements. He gripped her hips and watched her lips part as her eyelids lowered.
Adrien dug his nails into her hips as he felt himself sink inside of her. "Ah, Marinette." Adrien softly moaned her name as her thighs trembled and she got used to him. She felt stretched open and full. Felt like she was whole and loved. If even for a moment. She felt like she was wanted by someone, for once. Needed by someone.
She didn't care if it wasn't healthy. Something about it made her feel more amazing than any sensation a knife could give her.
Adrien pulled her down to kiss him again, brushing his lips against hers while his tongue ran around hers. He wanted her to move. Needed her to move. "Marinette, move please."
She nodded and bit her finger as she began to roll her hips and rise and fall. Marinette gripped the sheets as she continued to tease her clit on him and ride him at the same time.
A knock sounded on the door and Adrien cursed under his breath. Marinette quickly got off him and laid beside him, beneath the sheets, shoving the hem of her top down. He quickly pulled his pants up, pretending to cuddle her as she pretended to sleep.
Nurse Bustier walked in and stared at them with a raised eyebrow.
"She got tired." Adrien smiled awkwardly at Nurse Bustier and she shook her head, ignoring it.
"You have to eat your snack and then I suggest you two go to the common area. I know it's hard with them talking right now, but it's not healthy to hide in here." Nurse Bustier walked out the door and waited for them.
Marinette quickly shoved her panties on, while Adrien relaxed against the bed and burst out laughing.
Marinette slapped him with her jeans and he touched his chest, laughing harder as he groaned. "Not fun-funny."
"Admit it, it's pretty funny." Adrien burst out laughing harder as she shoved her jeans on.
"You- terri-" Marinette shoved him and he grabbed her, yanking her back towards himself to capture her lips with his own.
"Say it." Adrien smirked at her as he ran his fingers between her thighs and she softly moaned. He knew she was close. He had been close too.
"Awful." Marinette swallowed hard and he kissed her harder.
Nurse Bustier knocked on the door and he broke the kiss, noticing how her cheeks turned red. "Finish later?" Adrien winked at her and Marinette bit her index finger and nodded.
One Song I wrote to:
Only Us from Dear Evan Hansen