Note: Some of you may or may not know... but I stopped writing fanfics due to personal reasons. I needed to focus more on my family and writing original novels. Anyways, this story means a lot to me and I know it means a lot to you all. I felt bad about leaving this story hanging when it means so much to not just myself, but to everyone else too. So, I am here to finish this out. I have been getting so many comments on how everyone wants an update on it or asking me to please keep writing it. So, I binged the story in a day and began writing it again. I also caught so so many grammar and spelling mistakes throughout it and I realize I did a poor job editing. I apologize for that. Anyways, I am here to keep writing this thing. haha I hope you all continue to enjoy it. Thank you so much for the support and for the love. Thank you for sharing your stories with me and know that everything will be okay and get better. 'It can't rain all the time.' :)
Adrien stood on the smoking porch with Marinette beside him. He focused on making smoke rings, entrancing Marinette with them. She watched how they slowly floated up towards the sky in neat hoops. Some were bigger than others. Adrien laughed as she tried to stick her finger through some of them.
"How do you do that?" Marinette peered at him and leaned against the banister as he did it again.
"You have to have your mouth in the right position." Adrien shrugged and she looked at him with even more curiosity as he breathed in smoke and held it in his mouth. He made his lips into an 'O' shape and quietly coughed to push smoke out into rings.
Marinette watched as perfect rings flew up into the air and then her gaze fell back onto Adrien as he released the rest of the smoke from his mouth.
He held his cigarette out to her and she reached out to take it. "I don't think I can do it." She awkwardly giggled as she dropped her hand.
"Try." Adrien shook the cigarette at her and she gave him a look of playful annoyance.
"Fine." Marinette reached for his cigarette again when they were interrupted by a shrill voice.
"You know, Prince Ali, has a television three times the size of that one. And he is supposed to fly out and be with me soon. I won't be here for long." A girl with auburn hair in a loose hairstyle with white tips walked around the common room with Ms. Bustier. "I love your outfit!" She smiled at Rose and pointed at her pink dress.
"Thank you!" Rose smiled and got super flattered by the girl's compliment.
"Anyway, Prince Ali will be expecting me in due time! Oh… who is that?" Lila walked out to the smoking porch and swayed her hips as she walked up to Adrien, who backed up against the banister, clutching it in his hands. She smirked and walked her fingers up his chest, plucking the cigarette from his lips. "Mind if I smoke?" Lila put it between her lips and stole a drag from it. She slowly blew it out into perfect rings and Adrien blushed and swallowed hard as she placed it back between his parted lips.
Marinette crossed her arms over her chest and tapped her foot. "And who are you?" Marinette glared at her as Adrien resumed his relaxed state.
Lila walked over to her and got up in her space, looking her up and down. "Lila Rossi. Actress. I am pretty well known. You've probably seen me in films. I'm in over a hundred. I get to travel the world and I know Prince Ali. Don't you know? Oh wait…" Lila leaned in close and whispered into her ear. "You don't because you are plain and pathetic and no one likes you. I bet that hot guy on the porch doesn't even like you. I bet to him? You're a very good friend. Who am I kidding? You're so dumb that I doubt you even realize that. I thought asians were supposed to be smart. Guess I was wrong." Lila softly giggled as she pulled away from her with a smile on her face. "Isn't this porch just so CUTE? I'll have to tell the Prince all about it when I see him." Lila walked away and smiled over at Juleka. She fawned over her nail polish as Marinette walked closer to Adrien.
"What did she tell you?" Adrien watched the girl make her rounds, flirting with all of the other patients.
Marinette shook her head as Tikki swirled around her body, slowly grinning with sharp teeth.
"You are plain and pathetic. No one likes you. Adrien is just pretending to like you. He thinks you're just a good friend." Tikki sneered as she swirled around Adrien and covered him in red smoke.
Marinette's eyes widened as she got lost in Tikki's voice. Just a friend… pathetic… plain… He doesn't really love you… No one likes you… They're all pretending… lies… lies… lies…
Adrien watched her hands clench into fists and tremble. He looked her over and saw her whole body begin to shake. She was staring blankly at him as if she was looking through him.
"Marinette?" Adrien swallowed hard as he grabbed her upper arms to try and grab her attention. "What happened?"
She blinked as tears burned the edges of her eyes and he watched her begin to fall apart.
"Talk to me." Adrien peered around him to see if anyone noticed. She had been doing so well and now she was back inside herself again. "Shit. Okay." He went to pick her up and she pushed him away and shook her head.
Marinette continued to shake her head and gasp as she began to cry. Adrien began to panic that she would draw attention. He grabbed her hand in his and touched her chin with the other, bringing her gaze up to his. "I need you to focus for me, baby. If I don't get you to our room and they see you like this? You know what happens."
"Pathetic, stupid girl." Tikki hissed as she placed her clawed hands over Marinette's mouth. "You live in a fairytale land. When are you going to wake up to reality, hm? HE DOESN'T WANT YOU! Look at him. Look how he stares at your like you're pathetic and WORTHLESS!"
Marinette shook and began to scream. Adrien flung his hand over her mouth and pulled her away from the doorframe. He held her against his body and let her fall apart. Adrien sank down to the ground and shushed her as he rocked her.
"Marinette." Adrien whispered into her ear, trying to calm the storm that was raging within her. "I don't know what she said to you, but I can tell you… it can't be true. I love you."
Marinette shook her head and pushed him away as she brought her knees to her chest and bit down on her fingers. Sobs racked through her body and Adrien tried to hold her again as she hysterically cried.
Each time he tried to touch her, she hit his hands away. Adrien gave up as two orderlies ran out to grab her. They stuck a needle in her hip and took her to their room. Adrien felt anger bubble up. He hadn't been this angry in a while and seeing Marinette so broken made him sick to his stomach.
He clenched his hands in and out of fists as he found Lila talking to Alya.
"You make the Ladyblog, right? I watch it all the time…" Lila gushed at Alya about her online blog. "I love the vlogs that you do. Oh my god…" She touched Alya's shoulder. "When you talked about the food they serve here? I was so appalled. I knew I had to come here to change that. That's why I'm here. I want to help you all." Lila smiled and was interrupted by a finger tapping on her shoulder.
She turned to see a very stern man with his arms crossed over his chest and a toe turned out. "What did you say to my girl?" Adrien glared at her and the rest of the patients backed up.
"Nothing that she didn't already know." Lila smiled and walked up to him, pressing her breasts against his chest. "And what is your name? I didn't get a chance to ask you."
"I'm going to ask you again… what did you say to her?" Adrien gently pushed her away from himself.
"Oh, why bother with the boring stuff? I want to hear about you…" Lila bat her eyelashes at him as she played with his black shirt. "Don't you want to know about me?"
"Really don't care." Adrien took her hand from his shirt and threw it off like she was disgusting. "What did you say?"
"Adrien, why are you so angry? She's super nice." Alya smiled and Adrien flashed her a look of disbelief.
"Yeah, she complimented my nails." Juleka chimed in and Rose nodded in agreeance.
"She said my outfit was cute." Rose agreed with Juleka and Adrien scoffed in complete shock.
"You guys have known Marinette longer and you're going to let this… vixen over here sway you?" Adrien gestured at Lila with his hand.
"I'm a vixen am I?" Lila smirked as she giggled and ran her hand along his shoulders as she walked past by him.
"NOT! In a good way." Adrien glared at her as she giggled at his words.
"She knows a prince. A PRINCE!" Mylene spoke out and Ivan nodded.
"She does!" Ivan chimed in as he wrapped an arm around Mylene.
"I mean she's pretty hot too." Kim shrugged as Lila bat her eyelashes at Adrien.
She wrapped her arms around his neck and touched the tip of his nose with her index finger. "Who needs an insecure girl like her, hm? How can you want that when you have all that you need right here in your arms?" Lila grabbed his hands and put his arms around her waist. "Don't you agree?"
"No. I don't. I just want to know what the hell you said to her." Adrien took his hands off of her and shoved her away.
Lila rolled her eyes and walked up to whisper into his ear. "You keep asking questions and I'll make sure you never leave this place. I have my ways. Trust me." Adrien straightened his posture as she giggled with a smile and backed away from him. "Who wants to show me around?" Lila's voice became cute as she smiled for the rest of the group. "Kim?" She put her hands behind her back and flirted with him.
"Sure." Kim smiled and led her around the common room.
Adrien swallowed hard and cleared his throat as he rubbed the back of his neck. He walked out of the common area and to his room.
He opened the door and shut it behind himself, resting his back against the door. Adrien's attention went to Marinette on her bed. He sighed and sat down beside her, peering down at her peaceful face.
"What are you gonna do, kid?" Plagg swirled around him and he tried to wave him away.
"Nothing." Adrien whispered under his breath as he moved dark strands of hair from Marinette's face.
"That girl says she can get you locked up in here forever. I bet she could do it. She seems to have her ways." Plagg snickered as he wrapped his hands around Adrien's throat.
"I don't think she can. She's all talk." Adrien focused on Marinette and brushed the back of his fingers along her cheek.
Marinette winced and a soft whine escaped from her lips. Plagg smirked and swirled around the two of them with a sharp toothed smile.
"Oh no? Look what she's done to Marinette." Plagg rested his head against Marinette's face and Adrien cringed at how it looked.
"Don't fucking touch her." Adrien went to shove Plagg off when Marinette woke up, causing Plagg to dissipate.
Marinette gasped and sprang up, crawling back into the corner away from him. Adrien gave her a confused expression as he crawled closer to her. He watched her shake her head.
"It's okay. You're okay. Can you talk to me?" Adrien kept his voice calm and watched her shake her head. He became more frustrated and suddenly slammed his palm beside her head on the wall, causing her to jump and duck her head beneath her arms. "Sorry, Sorry. I'm just frustrated." Adrien took his palm from the wall and ran it through his hair.
"Am I really just a friend?" Marinette swallowed hard and mumbled from her folded arms.
"What?" Adrien couldn't understand what she had said. "I couldn't understand you."
Marinette peered up with a broken gaze and puffy red eyes. "Am I just a friend to you?"
Adrien was shocked by her words and suddenly pulled her into a hug. He ran his fingers through her hair and pulled her away to touch her face. He brought her gaze to his and focused on her. "You are more than a friend to me. You are my best friend and-"
Marinette burst out into a whimper as she fought to hold back a sob. She pushed him away by his chest and he held strong against it.
"Stop. Stop and let me finish. I wasn't done. Marinette." Adrien grabbed her arms and held her still. "I was saying that you are not only my best friend, but you are the love of my life. The only reason I am still here and possibly being released. You are my light. Do you understand me? I love you. More than anything in this world." Adrien shook her slightly and watched her stare at him. "Hear me?"
Marinette closed her eyes and swallowed hard as she tried to focus on his words. "I'm not just a friend?"
"Hell no! Would a friend do this?" Adrien ran his hand along her neck and sank his fingers into her hair as he pulled her in for a passionate kiss. She squeaked as he touched the small of her back and yanked her closer. She grabbed his bicep and gave in as she parted her lips and he dipped his tongue between them to run it along hers.
Marinette softly moaned as she fell back with him on top of her. She grabbed his shirt and pulled him closer as he rolled his hips against hers. She wrapped her legs around his hips and got lost in his kiss as he gripped onto her.
Adrien broke the kiss, causing her to gasp for air as she caught her breath. "I'm sorry." Marinette pressed her forehead against his and he broke out in a soft laugh.
"What else did she say, baby?" Adrien whispered and Marinette gave in.
"That I was pathetic and no one liked me. That everyone was pretending. That I wasn't smart and how she thought I would be because asian's are supposed to be smart." Marinette's voice broke and more tears fell.
"That's not true. You are stronger than most of the people here. You're not pathetic and everyone likes you. We all like you." Adrien ran his fingers through her hair as he peered down at her. He kissed her forehead, cheeks, and then her lips. "I love you. And again… people shouldn't stereotype others. Stereotypes only hurt people and are made up to turn people against one another. Build lies and create this fake image of someone that does not exist. All it does is cause pain. Suffering. Not everyone fits into a box made up by people."
Marinette nodded as she sniffed and kissed him back. "I know you love me, but what about them? Who's to say they like me?"
"They like you." Adrien sighed as a knock sounded on their door. He quickly got off of her as Ms. Bustier opened the door.
"Group therapy." Ms. Bustier smiled and became concerned as she saw Marinette wipe tears from her eyes. "Are you okay?"
Marinette nodded and cleared her throat as she stood up. "I'm fine."
"Alright. Let's go." Ms. Bustier led them to the group therapy room.
Adrien and Marinette took a seat within the circle and waited for Dr. Fu to speak. He tapped his pen against his clipboard and waited for everyone to quiet down.
"Alright, most of you may have noticed that we have a new guest. Lila, why don't you introduce yourself?" Dr. Fu pointed at the new girl with his pen.
Lila cleared her throat and stood up, brushing her hands down her skirt. "As most of you know… My name is Lila Rossi." She touched her chest and smiled at them all. "I am a well known actress. I'm sure you have seen me in films. As you know… Prince Ali and I are super close. Practically inseparable."
"Yes, we know that. Why don't we talk about why you are here?" Dr. Fu tried to drag it out of her.
"I'm not a compulsive liar if that is what you are getting at, Dr. Fu?" She touched her chest as she spoke the next words. "I am insulted that you would even accuse me of such things."
"You lied your way into Prince Ali's home and they found you in his bed, wearing his shirt. He wasn't home and was away on business." Dr. Fu read her chart and wrote something down.
"I don't lie. He knew I was there. I received an invitation." Lila scoffed at Dr. Fu and peered around the room.
"Yes, an email telling you that if you did show up on the premises they would have you removed. He then emailed that he would send you a restraining order." Dr. Fu read her chart and looked up at her. "Care to speak on that?"
"Surely that's for individual therapy. What happened to patient confidentiality?" Lila giggled and waved him away. "Plus that's a little joke we have."
"I see. You are absolutely right. Forgive me." Dr. Fu nodded and peered around the circle, stopping on Marinette. "Marinette. How are you feeling today?" Dr. Fu smiled at her and She worried her bottom lip.
Adrien rolled his eyes as he thought about how obvious that question was. Marinette didn't look good and it was obvious that she was battling something. He watched her lick her lips and begin to part them to talk, but then she froze up. She brought her hands into her lap and began to fiddle with her fingers as her knee bounced. She crossed an arm over her chest and chewed on her nails.
"Clearly, she is overwhelmed by my presence." Lila gave Marinette a wicked smile that no one else could see, except Adrien. Adrien read it loud and clear.
Marinette balled her fists in her lap and Adrien crossed his arms over his chest with an angry expression. "No one is overwhelmed by you. If anything they're underwhelmed by you."
"That wasn't very nice of you, Adrikins." Chloe scoffed and only made Adrien more angry. His blood boiled and his fists clenched until his knuckles turned white. "She is a respectable and nice girl."
"I swear to all things…" Adrien went to get up, but Marinette grabbed his thigh to push him back in his seat.
She shook her head and Adrien peered at her with a saddened expression. He watched Marinette peer through her dark veil of hair at him.
"Well, I think that's enough for today. Seems like we all have a few interesting views on this situation. We'll talk about it in individual therapy." Dr. Fu sighed and put his pen back on his clipboard.
Ms. Bustier walked back in to gather everyone and take them to the common area.
Marinette kept her head down as she walked with Adrien. He held her against his side as the girls all giggled and chatted around them.
"Oh my god… did you see how she got so jealous of me in there?" Lila leaned into Chloe and giggled. "So, pathetic. Don't you think?" She peered over her shoulder and looked at Adrien whispering something to Marinette. "No wonder she's in here." She spoke loud enough for Marinette to hear.
Marinette shot a glance up at the group and stopped walking. Adrien felt her shoulders tremble and watched how her toes pointed towards each other. She closed up more, bringing her shoulders up to her ears as she began to feel small.
"I mean she couldn't even answer a simple question." Lila laughed and Chloe joined in on the fun.
"Marinette?" Adrien touched her chin and brought her gaze to his, but she clenched her eyes shut. "Baby?"
Marinette hid inside herself and pretended like she couldn't hear him. Like she wasn't visible. She just wanted to disappear and not be there anymore.
"No one likes you. Just listen to them talk." Tikki swirled around her and grazed her shoulders with her claws. "How they mock you…"
"Marinette?" Adrien tried again to reach her, but it wasn't working.
They hate me. They really hate me. I'm pathetic. I'm stupid. They were never my friends to begin with. I should disappear. I should die. No one would miss me. No one would care if I was suddenly gone. No one would even notice. I'm terrible. I'm awful. I'm a bad friend. I'm so stupid. I'm-
Marinette fell to the ground and curled up with her knees to her chest, rocking back and forth with her forehead pressed against her folded arms. Adrien felt his anxiety rise as he thought about what they would do if they found her like that. Saw that she had broken all over again. He panicked that they would never get out of that hell hole because of her state. She had reverted back and he knew it. Something in it bubbled something up in him. Caused him to become angry. More angry than he had ever been before. More than he thought was even possible in all of his years being held down by his father.
Marinette started to cry hysterically and scream as she rapidly began to scratch at her arms with her nails. Began tearing at her flesh and trying to end it all.
"Shit." Adrien began to try and grab her hands to keep her from it, but he couldn't get a grasp on her. She began to shove him away in her blind fury, scratching his arms with her nails. "You need to stop. You're okay. Marinette, I need you to calm down…"
"LEAVE ME ALONE! LET ME DIE! I JUST WANT TO DIE! WHY WON'T YOU LET ME END IT?" Marinette burst the words from her mouth, causing a scene as she ran to their room to grab what was hiding in his book.
Adrien ran after her and flung their door open, finding her flinging his books from his shelf until she found it. Her vision was blurry from the tears as she opened the book and pulled out the jagged metal piece.
"Stop! Marinette, you don't want this! This isn't you!" Adrien went to grab a hold of her to keep her from doing what she was about to, but she was too fast and too strong. "MS. BUSTIER!" Adrien began yelling for help as Marinette took the blade and jammed it into one of her wrists. "HELP! MARINETTE! MS. BUSTIER! God damnit!" Adrien burst out as he panicked about what he could do to end it.
She angrily jammed and dragged the metal down her other wrist, causing blood to pour down both of her forearms. Adrien jumped on the bed and wrapped his arms around her from behind, not caring if she stabbed him with the metal piece or not. He freed one of his arms from around her shoulders and pried the sharp object from her closed fist. He threw it across the room and rocked her, making a soft hush noise in her ear as she sobbed. He ripped pieces of his shirt off and used them to add pressure to the wounds, while the staff took their sweet time.
"MS. BUSTIER! SOMEONE! HELP!" Adrien cried out again and then ran his fingers through Marinette's hair to try and calm her. His voice became soft in her ear. "It's okay, baby. It's okay. You're going to be okay."
Nurse Bustier ran into the room and covered her mouth as she saw Adrien covered in blood and crying over a passed out Marinette. Nurse Bustier walked up to press her fingers against Marinette's pulse, feeling a weak movement beneath her skin.
"Hang on." Nurse Bustier pushed the button on her radio and within moments staff ran into their room.
An orderly went to grab Marinette from Adrien's grasp, but he only pulled her closer to his body.
"Honey, they got to take her. If you want her to be okay? They have to take her." Nurse Bustier tried to reason with Adrien enough to let her go. "I promise, she'll be okay. You have to let them take her."
Adrien couldn't even think or hear what she was saying. He just knew that Marinette needed help and no one was willing to help her. To help him. So, he resorted to what he knew. He had to take care of not only himself, but her. He had to save her.
"Adrien." Nurse Bustier tried to reach him. She touched his shoulder and he flashed a look up at her that spoke more than any words could. A look of raw carnal anger. One she hadn't seen on his face in a long time. "Sedate him." She never wanted to say those words, but she knew that within moments he'd be a problem.
"DON'T TOUCH HER!" Adrien burst out as an orderly took a hold of Marinette.
"Here we go again." The other orderly rolled his eyes as he grabbed Adrien by his shoulders and held him back, so the other man could take her away.
Adrien flailed and fought against him as Nurse Bustier bit the cap off of a syringe and shoved his jeans down to administer the sedative into him. The room spun and he found himself losing control of his surroundings.
"Lay him down. I'll restrain him." Nurse Bustier instructed the orderlies to lay Adrien down as she sighed. She felt so guilty about it all. She would have reacted the same if the person she loved had done that. "I'm so sorry, Adrien." She fastened his wrists into restraints and then his ankles.
Nurse Bustier followed the two men in white out of the room and went to assist with Marinette, when Dr. Fu called her on the radio.
"Come to my office." Dr. Fu's voice was irritated and urgent, making her jump.
"On my way." Nurse Bustier spoke in a professional tone and then let out an exhausted sigh as she turned around to head towards his office.
She walked up to the door and knocked on it. Dr. Fu told her to come in and she slowly opened the door.
"Come in and sit." Dr. Fu gestured to the chair in front of his desk.
She sat down and waited for him to speak. She knew what it was going to be about and a part of her didn't want to hear it. If she heard it then it would be a reality and she didn't want to even think about it.
"I want to talk about Marinette." Dr. Fu rested his hands on his desk.
"I figured you did." Ms. Bustier sighed as she waited for his next instruction.
"I don't know what happened to her. Out of all of our guests… she is the last one that I thought would go this route. I hate to do this, but she's going to need to be put into solitary. I can't handle her harming herself or others. That also means that Adrien is going to need to be heavily watched. There's no telling what he will do." Dr. Fu spoke in a serious manner and Ms. Bustier nodded.
"Yes, Dr. Fu." Ms. Bustier agreed with him as much as she didn't want to. "For how long?"
"As long as she needs to be. Adrien won't take it well and I suspect that he will spiral." Dr. Fu sighed as he flipped open Adrien's chart. "Actually, I know he will. It won't be pretty. Not after what he saw."
"I know and I'll deal with it if it happens." Ms. Bustier nodded and went to stand up.
"I want him restrained for some time too. Until he seems to be of sound mind." Dr. Fu closed Adrien's file and Nurse Bustier agreed with him.
"Of course." Ms. Bustier stood up to leave and make her rounds. "I'll go make my rounds and tell the staff to move Marinette to a room in the far wing."
"Thank you, Ms. Bustier." Dr. Fu smiled at her and she smiled back as she left.
Songs I wrote to:
Disappear by Hoobastank
Papercut by Linkin Park