Just as I am
Looking out the window, staring at the rain
My mind went back to earlier that day
We'd had an argument; he'd said that we were fine
He'd said that I was wrong, what I had heard was just a lie
I looked into his eyes until he broke my gaze
he broke down and said it was a onetime mistake
Why couldn't I just accept him, just as he was
I said that I can't trust him, this wasn't the first time
he looked at me and shook his head
it was over now, to him, I was dead
I held my head high, as he walked right out the door
I stood there all alone, just like the other times before
I need, I just need
someone to love me, just as I am
someone to hold me, just as I am
Someone to trust me, just as I am
Someone who thinks I deserve love
I just need
Someone to love me, just as I am
There's no one here to listen and I'm left all alone
Stare out the window and I'm hurting inside
I cry along with the rain
I don't want to love again
cause I don't want to hurt again
I thought about my life here
There's nothing to stay for
I want to leave, run far away
Just run right out the door
The time had come for me to go; to leave the past behind
I packed my bags and left the key,
I need to go where I can be free
somewhere to just be me
I need, I just need
Someone to love me, just as I am
Someone to hold me, just as I am
Someone to trust me, just as I am
Someone who thinks I deserve love
I just need
Someone to love me, just as I am
I found a new city, new job, new friends
You crashed into my life so fast
I never understood
How you seemed to know when I needed you,
But you were simply there
You made me laugh, you made me smile
You brought me in your life
your job, your friends, your family, your secret hidden past
It loomed over your head; you were afraid I wouldn't last
If I knew just what you did, in your work outside the states
You thought I couldn't handle it, if ever you should break
I said that you were wrong, don't ever think that way
I was proud of what you did
You keep us free; you keep us safe
Because you put your life at stake
I finally found
Someone to love me, just as I am
Someone to hold me, just as I am
Someone to trust me, just as I am
Someone who thinks I deserve love
I just found
Someone to love me, just as I am
You got the call, I hate that special phone
But that was the way of your life
You had two days to situate your affairs
Before you had to go
You organized your friends, you organized your work
We committed to each other for the rest of our lives
Our last night together, that will never leave my mind
You didn't know if you'd return, and I tried to make you see
That I love you, will always love you
My love would never fail
Please come home to me because
I finally found
Someone to love me, just as I am
Someone to hold me, just as I am
Someone to trust me, just as I am
Someone who thinks I deserve love
I just found
Someone to love me, just as I am
One final kiss, one soft caress
You left the room and closed the door
as my tears began to flow
The sobs rang out for hours on end,
You walked out the door, my very best friend
I felt like my life was about to end
I went on with my life, but without you
It wasn't much of a life
Slowly, I drifted away from those we loved
Because of the pain of being there without you
They tried, believe me, they tried
But they are not you, you promised not to die
The knock came on my door, not too long ago
They came inside and said the words
They said there was no body
But they knew you were gone
I didn't understand, you promised me
That'd you come home, because you see
You left behind a part of you, that's growing inside of me
you'd always be a part of us
Always a part of me
I just lost the
Someone who loved me, just as I am
Someone who held me, just as I am
Someone who trusted me, just as I am
Someone who though I deserve love
I have just lost
Someone who loved me, just as I am
Now, here we are, two years gone by
He looks just like you, his name is the same
His eyes are mine; the rest is you
I don't know what we'll do without you
We kiss your picture each day and night
He will learn the truth of your life
After a year, we had to go
It was too hard to stay
Too many memories always flood the way
We moved again, hoping to not be found
I left letters to our family and friends
Hoping they would see my need
To find a new life
New city, new job, new friends
yet my life is not complete, you have too big a hold
I can't move on, you're always there, no matter where I go
I miss you, the
Someone who loved me, just as I am
Someone who held me, just as I am
Someone who trusted me, just as I am
Someone who though I deserve love
I miss you, the
Someone who loved me, just as I am
Your friends are good, you trained them well
They found us soon after we left
They made me see the truth
Without a body, there was no death
I don't know why I pushed them away
They seem to know you best
They share their stories and I feel like
I'm learning another version of you
They can't replace you, but they are the uncles
That our son needs to have
They push me to return to the place that we loved
They begged and begged, until I finally said we'd go
A party, a celebration of a good job done for them
The food and liquor flowing
An hour went by, I wanted to go,
I couldn't stay here without you
One excuse after the other, said they knew what was best
I wondered their reasons as they moved me into the room
And then it happened, the tingle on my neck
I let out a gasp and there you stood
A warrior, brave and true
Time stood still for us, both of us without a clue
I knew my love for you was true
But I felt frozen, I didn't know what to do
Our son in my arms, calling for you
I felt a hand on my back, a gentle push to make me go
The words I heard were go to him, you both need him so
You opened your arms and I lost all control
We ran to you and the tears started to flow
You came back to me, the
Someone who loves me, just as I am
Someone who holds me, just as I am
Someone who trusts me, just as I am
Someone who thought I deserve love
I love you, the
Someone who loves me, just as I am