Hello my lovely readers! I'm so sorry on the wait period since my last updates!
You see, there have been a lot of changes in my life. Starting from Early July last year, and still Continuing.
I feel I owe my readers an update, as to why they have been left without an update to the stories. OR why the last time I updated these stories, it seemed a bit rushed and what not.
Back in July, of 2018, my then boyfriend, Ryan, asked me to move with him and his family. Until we could find a spot to try and settle down. We had only been talking for 2 months at that time, and I'm a huge risk taker—apparently. I told him I'd love to. We had a strong connection in the beginning of our relationship. We both loved to be outdoors and to hike and see new sceneries. Sadly, when we moved to Rio Rancho, NM we found out I was expecting a baby... that quickly made us stress out, rush our relationship.
We couldn't hike as often as we loved to, we couldn't go to amusement parks or to the new trampoline place—that had just been built. We only had each other's promises... And the need to TRY to be a family. I was having difficulties finding a job, and so was he. The stress levels were high and excruciating.
We moved, again. Shortly after finding that NM wasn't for us.. We landed ourselves in Amarillo, TX. It is beautiful there, but it was missing something. It didn't exactly feel like home. We were still staying with his family. We both finally found jobs. Admittedly, my job was little more than extra cash for bills and whatnot. He was paying the rent for our new home, which we got in December. We were both so stressed, and needing the comfort of a companion, that we failed to realize our relationship was falling apart. We'd found out that we were expecting a Baby girl!
We thought about baby names for the longest of times. When we settled on one, was when things started going downhill. Ryan would stay out all night with his friends, he started to ignore me, and he was changing. I didn't want to break up, I wanted us to try for our daughter. It apparently wasn't meant to work out that way, because February 15th found me on a plane heading home to my family, in TN.
He's not a bad guy... He just wasn't ready for the level of commitment meant for a family. He got scared off, and our relationship was nothing more than us sharing a bed and holding each other on our bad days. We both did not want to admit that we were losing our once, burning connection. We were holding onto something, that wasn't there. IT was just time to let go, and see what path we will find ourselves on. We are still friends, and talk whenever we feel like talking to each other—somedays, we never want to talk to each other. And I'm okay with that, right now.
Our daughter will be born, within the next 14 days! We are both super excited, and can't wait for our precious daughter to be in our arms. Hopefully, one day we can come back together. With a stronger connection and a growth behind us, that makes it easier to discuss these sorts of things with each other.
Anyways, that's the explanation behind such a long wait period. IT's very personal and stuff. But I owed my followers a true reason behind the lack of updates. I am NOT abandoning my stories. I just have not had time to put my thoughts to the keyboard. I plan to resume my writing once I have gotten into the routine of work, baby, sleep, and relax time. I'm sure it'll take a bit, but hopefully I will be back soon.
Once again, I apologize for such a long wait time. I hope y'all aren't too disappointed that this isn't an update. Love, Lyssa135.