It felt good, and real like this was going to be it for me and I felt him pull me close to him. In fact a bit too close if you get what I mean but even though every part of me wanted to go farther I had to pull away. The truth is I, Amira white was in love with a Pirate but not just any Pirate the one that everybody calls Hook. Killian was handsome and he wasn't kidding when he said the term devilously handsome cause it was the truth.

"See love, that didn't seem so hard." Killian said

I looked down "You have your answer Captain but this can't happen." Amira said as I started to cry "I won't risk your life so I have to say this can't happen."

I expected him to be angry or worse but instead he wiped my tears away and had me look at him even when I didn't want to.

"You don't need to worry about me love, if there's one thing I'm good at it's surviving." Killian said

I wanted to believe it, to say that yes everything was going to be fine but I couldn't risk it. So I found a way out of his quarters and went to my cabin where I cried myself to sleep. You're probably wondering if I sent that letter to my sister and well once we were back in our world away from Neverland I used a bird to send the message. I'll show you what it says below.

Snow,

I don't know what to do, my head is so confused but my heart is telling me something. I think I've fallen in love and I'm scared that Regina will take it from me. I need my sisters guidance please.

Amira

Needless to say the wait was agonizing and day by day I was again avoiding his advances after our kiss. His last Advance toward me caught me off guard when he had smee take the helm and I was on the deck looking out at the ocean waiting. He'd snuck up behind me moving us to where we were out of Smee's view and he planted kisses on my neck.

"Ah. Killian." Amira said almost a whisper

This was the hardest one to ignore, there wasn't anywhere for me to go but I knew if we went farther then the kiss then I'd just be deeper in love with him. Breaking my own heart to say I couldn't have what I wanted was one thing but he was still being persistent. Though as I figured he'd not given up on having me like he said. Still I managed to get my hands on his shoulders and get distance between us as I breathed a bit heavily which only made him smirk.

"What's wrong Luv? You seemed to like that." Killian said

I had to talk through my phants "I told you..I won't risk your life." Amira said

That's when I saw it and suddenly I ran away from him and ran over getting the letter from the bird. It found me even out here but it was late so I knew the poor thing had to be working hard to make it all the way. I didn't notice that Smee and Killian looked at me curiously as I opened the message that was folded up. I expected more then what I actually recieved from my sister which was a simple and clear message.

Forget Regina, Follow your heart.

Snow knew how to make a message stand out and she knew how to tell me without giving her reasons why. Still part of me couldn't imagine what was going to come with following that advice. Yet I held the note to my chest knowing it was my sisters words and figured somewhere she must of found love.

'Follow my heart, those are mothers words Snow. How can I just follow my heart without the fear?' Amira thought

A few more days passed since then and we didn't talk, I needed time for myself to get my head together. Maybe he knew that but we went to a tavern in the next town and instead of drinking my sorrows I sat with the crew laughing and talking to them. Till something I saw caught my eye, a woman flirting with Killian and he was just taking that in like it was nothing. I felt a pain in my chest like everything I'd been saying clicked in with him. So I slipped myself out of the tavern without anyone seeing saying I was going to the bathroom.

I walked up on the ship thinking no one was on there, after all no one ever came aboard without the captains permission unless you're one of the crew. I hanged on the rail a bit relaxing but then I felt it the presence of dark magic and I turned around as someone grabbed me by my neck.

"Hello Amira, how long did you think you could hide from me?" Regina asked

"Just a little longer then this." Amira said as I used my light magic to knock her back.

I wasn't going to let her destroy anything and I wasn't going to back down thinking of all the things Killian taught me. I fought against her but she ended up using her magic to knock me into the water. I was falling farther down and I did try to swim up but it wasn't easy. Things started to go black and for a moment I considered I'd die this way but the last thing I saw was someone swimming down to me.

You could probably guess who it was without me even telling you, I was out cold but I felt that I wasn't dead and being carried somewhere. I wanted to wake up to see my savior but I didn't have the energy. Even though I was out cold no one seen Regina, supposidly she disappeared like she was never there but I knew she was there. Hours passed before I awoke and my eyes looked around my vision blurry so it took sometime till I realized right where I was.

'I'm in the Captain's quarters.' Amira thought

I carefully touched my clothes feeling if they were wet but the ones on me were dry and they were not my clothes! I sat up quickly as I looked seeing that none of it was my dress and blushed knowing someone changed my clothes and there were only men on the ship besides me. I heard the door open and I looked seeing Killian enter the room.

"Ah i see you're awake." Killian said going over and sitting by the bed

"I am but who changed my clothes." Amira asked him

"I did love, you couldn't stay in wet clothes. You'd of caught a cold." Killian said

He tried leaning in to kiss me but I couldn't let him so i asked the one question the men told me never to ask. "Whose Milah?" Amira asked

I watched him as if everything that had happened changed and he wouldn't look at me, so I put a hand on his cheek but he smacked my hand away. I figured this would be our end that he'd finally give up on me but instead I saw a tear.

"She was the first woman I loved, truly loved and for the longest time I didn't think i could let go." Killian said

I wanted to say something but I couldn't even understand that pain except maybe I did in some way. I loved him, I was torturing myself over wanting to be with him but I didn't want to be one of those wenches he'd thrown away. I was looking down at my hands thinking it was over that this Milah would always have him but he ended up making me look at him.
"Till I met you Amira White, I love you." Killian said and I started to cry as I kissed him. We ended up making out and between our kisses I admitted the truth. "I love you. I'm in love with you."

If you had to ask, I think we all know where this is heading and no I'm not giving details like that out. They're for me and me alone to know but I know sometime I must of fallen asleep, in his arms which I didn't care anymore. I wasn't going to fight about this anymore since things were the way they were clearly supposed to be.