Killian took my hand pulling me over to the helm placing my hands on the steer as his good hand held onto mine. I knew this was the place we were before, part of the reason Killian looked so young for his age because time stood still. Emma and Regina watched as we were going but Killian had us slow down even with me steering.

"Why are you slowing down?" Regina asked as she looked at us "In case you didn't know, my sons life is in danger."

Killian let me go down from the helm as he looked at Regina "Oh I know, My hotheaded Queen. My plan is to bring us to the far side of the island, link up with the widest part of the river, then we sail right through and take him by surprise." Killian said shaking his head "the irony"

I checked making sure everything was in place on the ship with the men and I could practically feel Regina watching my every move. She was one to judge no doubt about anything and I didn't care much for her. Then she looked over at KIllian who probably was watching me as well as I was talking with the crew making sure they had everything set.

"What Irony?" Regina asked

"Oh. I spent more time than I care to remember trying to leave this place to kill rumplestiltskin. I wouldn't even let Amira off the ship yet here we are, sailing right back into its heart with the dark one as my guest of honor. It's not quite the happy ending I was hoping for." Killian said

"Greg Mendell said something funny to me." Regina said as she was thinking and looked at Killian "He said I'm a villain, and that Villains don't get happy endings. You believe that? Considering you're seeing a princess who plays pirate on your ship."

As I was looking up to the helm I seen Killian in thought as our eyes met and I wondered what exactly Regina was up to. I knew how she probably thought of me and I knew the saying about Villains not getting a happy ending. Maybe it was true, but to me no one would change my thought that Killian was my happy ending.

"I hope not or we've wasted our lives." Killian said to Regina as he looked at her "As for Amira, she makes her own fate. She doesn't let some book or even her past define her choices."

"She's a hero, not a villain. Luck will shine her direction no matter what and she's in love with you." Regina said

"Aye that she is, but I love her and our child. Which is why I don't want her leaving the ship." Killian said

I had snuck up hearing that part of their conversation as I leaned against the rail of the ship looking at them.

"I may be a pirate princess, but I am making my own choices here. The choice to save my great nephew meaning I'm leaving the ship when we hit land." Amira said

"Stubborn as always luv." Killian said

"If I wasn't, you probably wouldn't love me like you do." Amira said as I went down seeing Snow and David talking to Emma.

"Hey" Snow said to Emma and took a deep breath "What happened to neal and Henry, it's not your fault. You can't blame yourself."

"I don't." Emma said then looked at her parents "I blame you. All this happened because I listened to you. You say good always wins It doesn't. I didn't grow up in some fairytale land. My experience is different. That's all I can go on.""

"And all we have to go on is ours." Snow said and looked at me "Amira what about you?"

"My experience, it doesn't matter whether good or evil it all depends on what you do." Amira said

Letting my sister and her daughter bicker a bit was probably the best thing I could do as I went over by the steps of the helm and sat down.

"We'll find Henry." Snow said to Emma

"No, you won't." Gold said

I and everyone else looked at Gold seeing he had changed into his old dark one attire one that made him look like that crocodile Killian always talked about without the look of it on his skin. Still I wondered what he meant by that and it wasn't entirely like he could be trusted.

"Oh that's a great use of our time A wardrobe change." Killian said

"I'm gonna get Henry." Gold said

"Why not let us all help." Amira said

"We agreed to do this together." Regina sadi to Gold

"Actually we made no such agreement." Gold said to Regina and looked over at me "you all would slow me down."

I could care less what gold said so I went below deck and before I made it fully down he was gone. Still I knew how to prepare for a fight and I was going to do just that. Half way while I was preparing Emma came down and joined me doing her own preparing for a fight she had no idea what she was getting into. Suddenly after serveral minutes later Killian came in watching us.

"Don't stop on my account." Killian said

"Wouldn't think of it." Emms said continuing

"What are you doing?" Killian asked

"Getting ready for a fight." Emma said

"Best way is always be prepared." Amira said

Killian took hold of my hand and pulled me to him, as much as I was trying hard not having any distractions. He was my biggest distraction when it came to my focus since we weren't just Captain and crew mate but lovers.

"Luv, I'll ask again don't go on the island." Killian said

"I'm going and you can't stop me." Amira said

Holding me close to him he looked up at Emma "Well, I've never known you to need to get ready for a fight. I thought it was a natural state, since your Amira's niece." Killian said and he saw her stop as he looked at me before looking back at her "Don't let rumplestiltskin get you down."

Emma jumped down looking at us "What do you want?" She asked Killian

"To give you something." Killian said as he let me go as he showed a key and walked over to where he had something locked. "You know, Baelfire and I once spent a lot of time together. Before your aunt Amira joined my crew."

"He was always Neal to me." Emma said as she looked down

"Yeah, right." Killian said bringing it out and handing it to Emma "this was his"

"I didn't realize you were sentimental." Emma said looking at Killian

"I'm not. I just thought you could use it where we're going you know.. To fight." Killian said as he pulled out two shot glasses handing one to me and Emma as he uncorked his flask. He poured each of us some in the cups as he raised the flask "to Neal" Killian said

"To Neal" Emma said as we lightly clanked the cups and drank it

"Hm, rum. Never forget that taste." Amira said

"Aye, you haven't had a sip of it in over 28 years with our son on the way and now he's back in storybrooke you should be fine luv." Killian said

We sat there as Killian let me have a little more and it was quiet. Unnervingly quiet that I wondered what exactly was going on in both their heads for a moment. Still Emma asked about how long he knew Neal and Killian told briefly about how he felt. We never talked about anything relating with those on the ship before me so this was a first. Suddenly the ship started to creak and rock so we all rushed up on deck to see what was going on. Kiillian went up where Snow and her husband were at the helm to keep the ship steady.

"Men, Selena prepare for attack! Anyone who has a weapon then Grab it!" Killan said

I prepared for the attack having my sword by my side but still there was a lot going on that I didn't want to see. I went by the edge of the ship seeing that we were under the attack of mermaids. Still We all prepared for the worst and yet David, Emma and Snow all went for a different approach then we all would as Emma and Snow threw over a net catching one of the mermaids. I knew Killian wouldn't like a mermaid on his ship and Regina used fire to make the other mermaids go away leaving the one. Regina used magic to make the mermaid fully on the ship laying on her back and I stayed away from it knowing mermaids were bad. They were the reason many ships had sunk so staying away seemed key. See where Emma and my sister excelled on land, the sea the ship was my area of expertise.

"Get that thing off my ship!" Killian said

"No, now we have a hostage." Regina said

"Regina, this isn't your call." Amira said

The mermaid looked at all of us, needless to say I stayed back by the hull steps which was as close to staying by Killian as I could get right now with everything going on. Suddenly the mermaid grabbed the shell and blew into it. We all had to cover our ears.

"What was that?" Emma asked

"A warning, let me go or die." The mermaid said

I knew not all mermaids were bad but not all mermaids, Snow told me about one called Ariel who helped her out. Surprisingly we'd had our fair share of encounters with mermaids. David grabbed the shell from the mermaid

"What is this?" David asked

"Let me go" The mermaid said

"Absolutely not." Regina said

"Threatening her isn't the way to motivate her." Snow said

"Doesn't matter if you get her to talk you can't trust her. Mermaids are liars." Killian said from the helm

"Of course they are." Emma said

I mainly was just sitting there thinking knowing when it came down to everything. Snow and Regina had their own quarrels, David didn't like Killian and Emma well I hate to say it but Gold was right she didn't believe in anything but what she saw. The men seemed to watch me waiting to see if I'd say anything but I kept out of it for now. Snow and Regina were already bickering but something the mermaid said caught my attention.

"I don't need my friends to kill you. You'll kill yourselves. Now, let me go." The mermaid said

Suddenly thunder cracked and a storm was coming in and we all knew it had to of been the mermaid to bring it in.

"The storm, don't let her go. She'll swi off and leave us all to die. At least with her, we've got leverage." Killian said

David took a sword to the mermaids neck "Stop the storm then we let you go." David said but she shook her head so David adjusted with the sword.

"That's more like it charming, filet the mermaid." Regina said

We all merely watched but David backed off the mermaid knowing that they weren't barbarians. Still the matter of the storm was something we knew had to be stopped and yet everyone kept going back and forth about what to do with her. Except me, Emma and the crew. Regina took it upon herself to turn the mermaid into stone which made the storm be worse.

"What have you done?!" Emma asked

"Smee, watch Selena. We're gonna try to outrun this storm." Killian said

Needless to say the outrunning didn't happen and we had quite the time. Everyone grabbed something to stay on the ship as we ended up going up on a wave. I knew this wasn't going to be easy but then it wasn't something I wasn't used to. As for my sister, David and Emma I couldn't say the same thing but this was the life I was someday going to let little Liam know what it was like.

"Amira, get up here." Killian said

I didn't even give it a second thought as I ran up to the Hull and helped him with the wheel to keep the ship steady. Needless to say I got a good look at my sister and Regina going back and then when David went to stop them Killian said the wrong thing. Leaving me alone to have the wheel as Killian and David started fighting.

"Smee, get up here!" Amira said

Smee ran up taking over the wheel of the ship as I saw Emma jump off the ship. I knew this was dangerous as a piece o the ship snapped off and I threw off my pirate jacket and jumped in after her. I think both of us jumping got everyones attention.

"Emma!" Snow yelled

"Amira" Killian said

I swam down and grabbed Emma as she was unconcious, but with the way things were and the water not so easy. I was struggling hard to get her up. Also a leather dress, leather is the hardest thing to swim in and I'd already known that from the time Regina had pushed me overboard and Killian had saved me yet still this was my family, my niece so I'd do anything for family. I heard that someone else had jumped in the water and when I looked I saw David who helped us get to the surface. I gasped for air knowing I'd held it for some time. A rope was thrown down as David took Emma with him back on the ship and i wrapped the extra rope around me as I was pulled up on the ship. Killian hugged me and he put his jacket around me knowing it was a bit more dry then I was. The sky started to clear and Killian held me close.

"You're a tad crazy luv, jumping in with no way to get back on the ship." Killian said to me

"She's my niece, my family by blood. I'll do anything for those who are family." Amira said

It wasn't long before we were on the island and we all grouped as Emma gave a speech about being a group. Being who we are and succeeding as we all went ahead. Killian insisted two of the men tag along and more importantly being by my side at all times for protection in this whole thing. Did I want to be protected every step of the way with two of the crew watching me? No but then that was the only way Killian would even budge for me to be here.

"So why was I not allowed here besides pan not liking women?" Amira asked

"Selena, you're with the Captain. Pan would use you to make the Captain work for him again. You'd never get to go home to your-" Smee didn't finish

"Smee, there are ears all over this island. Shut it." Killian said

I realized then Killian didn't want Pan knowing about Liam, and as Smee explained there were lost boys on the island. Boys who'd been taken from their families and allowed to never grow up because of Pan. Which made sense now why Killian didn't want Pan to know about Liam, even though Liam was just a baby but Pan could plot to take him from us someday if he knew. Still we kept walking knowing that Henry was somewhere on this island.