This is gonna be a long chapter...

Feathersong watched them go, hanging her head with regret. Now that it was over, she longed to call for them. Maybe they could live with her? But she didn't. They couldn't. She was happier alone, without being reminded of, well, that day. Though she couldn't get away from it, the memories clinging to her pelt like burrs.

Pufffrost was still in the medicine cat den beside his father so he didn't come to comfort her. Not that Feathersong needed comforting, she told herself. Though his sweet personality had grown on her a little and he was..alright.

Azure had joined briefly but she couldn't have stayed long, with a cat to care for. She decided to go and see how Frozensplotch was getting on, hoping to distract herself.

The blood had dried on his cheek, a couple of cobwebs stuck to the wound.

"It will scar," Azure was telling Pufffrost and his father, "but he'll survive."

Something about seeing Frozensplotch had made her a little fearful as her siblings came. She knew about how ShadowClan had easily murdered their warrior and his apprentices. WindClan had now hurt a cat from here. Was Feathersong next? She couldn't help being a little afraid, wondering if Dappledleaf and Emberblaze would hurt her. It was crazy, but she was relieved when they didn't.

She wasn't sure if she was allowed to come in, noticing Pufffrost talking to his 'dad', as he called him. Feathersong had never heard a cat call their father 'dad' before. Often, Feathersong wanted to be alone so maybe Pufffrost wanted a quiet moment. She lingered doubtfully until Azure noticed her and nodded to say that she could some in.

"Puffy" Frozensplotch rasped to his son, Pufffrosts ears grew hot with embarrassment.

"Yes," Pufffrost responded before continuing.

"What happened to you"

"Well you see, before I came to skyclan I was apart of windclan. They left me behind in the rockslide, but they didn't know I was alive. Since I was dead they left me. Rainpaw was my perfect mate, we were set right from the get-go, but I was inquired while saving her before a boulder crushed her, and seen as dead. She thought I was dead and looked for me in the sky but never found me. Now I'm here with you as my son, and many more kits and a new mate. She's just jealous she missed out on our life." Frozen explained before resting again.

Everything was explained, and Feathersong was out of camp again along with Azure. Night had fallen onto the camp once again but something about it was better than any other night. Maybe it was the clouds wispy like Feathersongs fur, or the moon as full and bright as Feathersongs eyes. The stars, oh yes the stars, stars as quick and lively as Feathersongs legs she used to run from reality. All the thing Pufffrost saw made him think of the mysterious she-cat.

Feathersong hesitated, noticing Pufffrost pause to look at her. He was silently pleading her to join. Finally, she summoned up the courage to respond. "I'll be a warrior."

"Good." With that, he walked off.

"Want to train?" Pufffrost asked, noticing her uncertainty. She didn't really enjoy fighting and WindClan also did it differently to any other clans. So she had no clue what tactics were used and how they fought.

"Not right now." She replied, trying to ignore a speck of hurt in Pufffrost's eyes. "I just need to rest."

"Fair enough." He got back to training and she curled up in the edge of camp. She disliked using the dens, preferring the outdoors.

Dappledleaf glared at Rainshine as she fell asleep almost instantly. Sometimes, it seemed that she was the only one who wanted to see her sister.

Emberblaze lay beside the other calico, shooting a pleading look at his sister.

Dappledleaf barely slept, too full of anticipation to reunite finally.

Emberblaze had began to get a little curious of Rainshine's blood coated pelt though he didn't dare ask. Some things had to be kept secret, though he was usually rather open and honest. Secrets always had been his weakness and he was known for being a tattle-tale through kit-hood and part of their apprenticeship. It drove his sisters crazy sometimes but he couldn't help it. It was a trait that often came with the youngest sibling.

They soon began walking again, Dappledleaf still lagging rather far behind. It wasn't really due to misery, this time; she was just wrapped up in thoughts about seeing her sister again. Feathersong had been a part of her. Without her, Dappledleaf was just a half. Finally, they could be a whole again. It sounded corny but it was true.

The sun was halfway up in the sky when they arrived to the clan. Not wanting to attract attention, yet, Emberblaze and Dappledleaf scanned the camp, searching for a silver tabby with amber eyes.

It didn't take long.

"I see her!" Dappledleaf whispered, delight filling her meow.

Rainshine didn't want to interrupt so she stayed there as the two made their way down, naturally cautious.

Feathersong was at the very edge, alone. It wasn't much of a surprise since she wasn't one for making friends.

Dappledleaf struggled not to bounce up and down with kit-like happiness. Emberblaze was more composed, though he seemed pretty pleased that they were together.

Feathersong noticed them, shocked and almost..afraid.

"Hey." Emberblaze meowed, rather calmly.

Feathersong didn't respond. She was still staring at them. "W..Why are you here?" It didn't sound rude, just wary and unsure.

"We came to find you. Rainshine showed us." Dappledleaf wasn't pleased about bringing her into it but she couldn't say that they magically found their way.

A brief emotion crossed Feathersong's eyes. Emberblaze couldn't make it out but it sure wasn't something positive. Though, come to think of it, Feathersong was never positive.

"Rainshine?" She repeated slowly, glancing around as if she could be here anywhere. "She hurt Pufffrost's father."

Dappledleaf didn't bother asking who Pufffrost was,"Are you sure? That cat couldn't hurt a flea." She snorted at the idea.

Emberblaze glanced at his sister, mildly irritated. "There's a lot you don't know about Rainshine." He told her quietly.

Dappledleaf flattened her ears and rolled her eyes. Then she focused on her sister who as shifting uncomfortably, as if she didn't want to be with them. Dappledleaf felt a flash of hurt but refused to let it show.

"So, how is it here?" She asked, carefully.

"Alright." She answered quickly. It was a little true. Though she still couldn't let go. She still couldn't forget, despite how hard she tried.

Dappledleaf had a million questions but she held them back as she knew how easily she could upset her sister.

Emberblaze had something he wanted to ask, not being as careful as Dappledleaf. "Why do you seem like you don't want to see us?"

Because I don't. Feathersong responded silently. "I do, it's just.." She trailed off, noticing Azure coming over. She felt a little relieved, knowing that she wouldn't be able to keep up this act for long without anyone she trusted, well, more than she trusted anyone else.

"Who are you?" Azure eyed Dappledleaf and Emberblaze. "You aren't causing Feathersong any trouble?"

"No, we're her siblings." AEmberblaze answered. Azure looked at the silver tabby.

"Is that true?" Azure was wary, not wanting Feathersong to, well, act dramatically, to put it bluntly. She didn't enjoy seeing Feathersong like that and these 'siblings' didn't seem to know that.

"Yes."

"Oh, alright." She looked at them suspiciously before retreating.

"Who was that nosy she-cat?" Dappledleaf retorted after she had left.

"Azure." Feathersong wanted to stick up for her, sort of, friend but she didn't dare. It would only go downhill from there. Right now, it was fine. She had to just hope that they left before her exterior cracked and fell away. Plus, she didn't want an argument.

Dappledleaf decided to ask the question that was eating her up inside, "Are you coming home with us?"

Feathersong blinked, quickly looking away. No answer came from her jaws as she wished that she could just evaporate into thin air. "How's Silvermist?" She clumsily avoided answering, putting it off until they asked again.

"Fine. Now tell us. We have to go before we attract attention or anything." Dappledleaf replied, a little impatient. "I won't be offended." That was a lie. Dappledleaf would be offended if her sister would rather stay in this clan than live with her kin. The answer broke her more than anything else could've ever done.

"No." Feathersong struggled to show no emotion. She didn't want to show how sorrowful she was at leaving them. Yet, she wasn't full of sorrow. She didn't want to see them again, yet she didn't say it aloud.

Dappledleaf glared at Feathersong and the silver she-cat flinched away, not meeting her gaze. Dappledleaf would be hugely offended and she braced herself for an argument.

"Dappledleaf, we'd best be going." Emberblaze told the calico, quietly but firmly.

Dappledleaf shot one last look at Feathersong before trailing after her brother who was swiftly exiting the camp.

It was a mistake, She thought miserably, Feathersong hates us. She felt hurt, angry and crushed, all at the same time. Her other half would rather stay with strangers.

Rainshine could tell by the look on her face that it didn't go as well as they had hoped.

"I'll tell you tonight." He muttered to the she-cat. But he couldn't resist adding, "But only if you say why you are still covered in crusted blood."

The day slowly darkened into a clear night, stars brighter than Emberblaze could remember ever seeing. The moon was large and luminous, emitting a silver glow on the surroundings. Dappledleaf was beginning to look tired so Emberblaze and Rainshine stopped. It would be the perfect time to talk, he decided, watching his sister fall asleep almost immediately.

Emberblaze wasn't tired in the least and he expected that Rainshine was the same.

"Want to say why you are covered in blood first?" Emberblaze, though he already partially knew, wanted to try and put off telling Rainshine what happened. He didn't think that she would be too bothered and it felt like he was betraying his sisters. Telling Rainshine, a cat they both had disliked, everything that happens.

"You can go first." Rainshine looked equally uncomfortable, maybe not sure how to word it. If Feathersong was correct, Emberblaze didn't blame her for being unsure of how to tell him.

He had been longing to say it for the rest of the day, yet now all of the words he had planned had just vanished from his mind. He decided to just be honest and get straight to the point.

"For starters, Feathersong doesn't want to see us anymore." It hurt him, saying the words, like it was finally getting to him.

"You don't have to tell-" Rainshine started, but Emberblaze cut her off.

"No, I do. I just don't know how to say it." He admitted. After a moment, he was ready to continue, "And she's talking about this new tom. Pufffrost," Emberblaze felt..almost hatred for this 'Pufffrost. He was stealing Feathersong away. Maybe they were mates or best friends. Or maybe Emberblaze was just overthinking. "She also seemed afraid of us when we first came. Like she didn't even know us. I'm honestly not sure if she even thinks of us as siblings to her anymore." His voice broke and he averted his gaze. Forcing himself not to cry.

Rainshine lay her tail over his and looked at the tom sympathetically. But Emberblaze didn't want sympathy. He wasn't the type to want comfort and to feel sorry for himself. It made him feel weak though he didn't say it, not wanting to hurt Rainshine's feelings.

"Anyway, it's your turn now." He said after a while of silence. He, despite everything, still was curious to know what actually happened.

"Growing up in Windclan I barely knew you existed, my first love was Frozensplotch. He so-called died in the rockslide but it seems he survived. He knew I was alive but he never came back for me, instead, he started his own life and had kits with some other she-cat. Pufffrost is one of those kits, that may be why he was not so welcoming to us."She paused before wanting to reveal why the she-cat was covered in blood, but she guessed Emberblaze already could tell the next words that followed.

"I went to find him the day I saw him in camp, I waited till night and corned him. That's when I attacked, I never would kill him. I did injure him to the point he could have bled out on his own, but I dragged him on to the main trail by dawn. I left leaving him plastered with cobwebs soon to be found by his clan." Rainshine finished but saw fear in his eyes. She had to add her belief in her actions.

"I don't know if it was the right thing to do but, I asked if... I was dead to him, and he said yes."Rainshine began to cry and dug her face into Emberblazes flank.

I missed you...

I missed you...

I missed you!

Emberblaze froze, unsure of what to do. He'd never had a she-cat cry with him before. Well, aside from Feathersong. But she didn't really count since he was used to it.

Hesitantly, he gave her a small lick, trying to be at least slightly helpful.

"You'll never be dead to be." He promised, swearing on his own life to be there for Rainshine until he died.

"Thank you." Rainshine whispered, her voice barely audible through her sobs.

Finally, she had gained control of her emotions again and they both sat together, tail entwined as the dawn sun slowly made it's ascent.

Emberblaze comforted Rainshine as they sat silently watching the morning light fade upon the sky. Emberblaze was there for her since to moon he helped her see a new light. Rainshine owed her life to Emberblaze, and now he swore on his own life for her. Under the dimming stars, she made a promise to him...

I'm never alone in the thought of you, through my dim thought you brought light, may this forever last.

The brilliant ambers of the early sunrise had softened to a pale orange, melting into the pale blue skies, by the time Dappledleaf awoke.

She trailed behind them, often glancing behind at where Feathersong was. In a way, it was worse, knowing that she was somewhere safe that she had gone to, to deliberately leave forever.

At least, before, Dappledleaf had a small shred of hope that maybe she was simply a little lost. Now she felt nothing like that. Emberblaze had Rainshine, Fethersong had whoever Pufffrost was. Dappledleaf had nothing. She was nothing. Without Feathersong, Dappledleaf felt incomplete. Like a half-finished puzzle laying discarded on the ground.

They reached the camp at sun-high and the day was spent alone. Gazing longingly at where her sister was.

She tried not to care; she tried not to think of it. But she did and the loss and hurt ate her up inside. She managed to keep a calm exterior, but inside she was the exact opposite.

As the sun set and another night cast its gloomy, cloud-covered skies over the camp, Dappledleaf just wanted to die. Irrational yet truthful, all she wanted was to just leave her pitiful existence. Her mother and father would be there and she wouldn't be alone in StarClan. Here, she was just another of many. No cat would miss her. So, making sure that Emberblaze and Rainshine were sleeping, she crept out.

Heading towards Feathersong's cliff by pure instinct, she looked below her. It was a decent fall that would most likely kill her. Quickly and painlessly. Perfect.

"No!" A yowl made her jump and she twisted her head back, looking straight into the eyes of Emberblaze. They were full of tears and he was openly pleading. "Please, don't. Think about this!"

Dappledleaf didn't bother responding. It had to be done now, before she ended up regretting it.

So she jumped.

Emberblaze was in fact awake, pretending to sleep as he watched Dappledleaf through almost closed eyes. He was worried about her. All day, she'd had a troubled expression that she had struggled to hide. It reminded him painfully of Feathersong.

So he followed her, glancing quickly at the sleeping frame of Rainshine. She was fast asleep, unless, like him, she was a good pretender.

She headed up to where Feathersong always was. A cliff with a pretty high drop below and a pretty good view of the sunset.

It was only when her legs tensed in a crouched position, Emberblaze realised what she was going to do.

"No!" He cried out. Dappledleaf jumped, turning sharply to meet his gaze. It came with no expression. None of the grief or anger than he'd been expecting. "Please, don't. Think about this!" He begged, tears quickly filling his eyes, blurring his vision.

A silent apology flashed across her eyes, gone in an instant. Then she jumped.

Emberblaze yet out a grief-stricken cry and sank to the ground, sobbing.

Few things made him cry but this..

She's really gone.

A yowl of grief rang throughout the forest, and Rainshine was shaken from her slumber. She looked to were Emberblaze should have been, but he was gone. Worry spread over Rainshine, and before she could even be rational she ran. She ran and followed his scent, and when she saw him curled up and crying. Over the edge was a limp and mangled Dappledleaf. Why her?

"I told you starclan if any hurt was to come to him take me instead, this hurts him."Rainshine kicked a stone silently, her anger was muffled by great grief and despair.

Rainshine ran towards Emerblaze on the ridge where so many had died, Mosswhisper, Brunetpaw, and now Dappledleaf. Amongst all the cries Rainshine had to ask...

"Promise you'll never leave me, I need to hear that."Rainshine voice cracks while awful thoughts engulfed her.

Silvermist stretched and padded from her makeshift nest. She hadn't gone back to camp, she needed some alone time. Silvermist had followed Emberblaze and Dappledleaf without them knowing and found our that Feathersong had abandoned her clan. Silvermist shook out her pelt, determined to talk to Feathersong. She slipped out, her paws leaving prints in the early morning dew. She stalked to where she saw Feathersong last. Silvermist stopped, there she was.

"Feathersong!" Silvermist softly hissed.

Feathersong lifted her head and glanced around with bleary eyes, "Silvermist?"

"No it's a random Logclan cat. Yes it's me!"

Feathersong walked out of den, padding softly towards her.

Silvermist didn't waste any time, "You wanna tell me why you left? And don't you dare tell me its because you killed your mother!"

Feathersong flinched, "I...I can't tell you why."

Now on the flip Heres Skyclan.

Pufffrost loved Skyclan they took his tactics his mom knew from the big city and bumped up the skill to an improved level. Every other cat was being trained in the same way just more effective. Pufffrost desperately hoped feathersong would join the clan, the thought of her betrayal pained him. Feathersong was a clan cat, and this is a clan. The other clans deserve this war, especially after they track down their clanmates and murder them during the night. This is war no mercy to show, they messed with Frozensplotch and now Windclan will learn from the mistakes of the warrior. A clan is one, and so is an ambush.

Feathersong hardly saw Pufffrost for the rest of the day. All the time, he trained. Feathersong simply watched, no clue on how to battle like they did. She was used to using the classic WindClan speed. This place used more strength than Feathersong had. She had given up training, frustration and failure driving her to the brink of tears multiple times. She was useless here and part of her just wanted to be back in the open moors. Running with Dappledleaf and sometimes Emberblaze. She wondered how Dappledleaf was. Emberblaze got over things pretty easily but Dappledleaf took things to heart. She missed them both so much.

Here, she felt like a waste of space. Almost all of the cats were training in some form and then there was her. Sitting away and feeling miserable. She was pointless here whereas in WindClan, she had friends. But no! She wouldn't return. This was her home, though still, she had that feeling. That longingness to leave.

She had escaped to flee the memories and nightmares from WindClan but here they were the same and steadily worsening. She scarcely slept due to always seeing the same thing.

Here she still felt trapped and now, there was nobody to confide in. At least there was Dappledleaf and Silvermist back in WindClan. Pufffrost was alright but all he did was train. Azure was busy with other things so she couldn't talk.

She was surrounded by a busy clan, hustle and bustle everywhere, and yet she felt so lonely.

Pufffrost felt guilt deep inside him, but he had to train. Tain to win and then settle down, his apprentice Beachpaw had just become the warrior Beachlight, and now Pufffrost was to train on his own. Now, Puffrosts tactics were almost perfect. Once all his attacks were foolproof then he could wait until the battle with Feathersong. He noticed the she-cat had been down the past few days, was it the death of her sister? Did she even know? Word had gotten around the forest about The traitor's sister's sudden exit from reality. Pufffrost still couldn't believe they still thought of her as a traitor, and then Taloncall still hadn't been replaced, no one even noticed he was gone.

"hey, Feathersong you seem kinda down. I'm really sorry about your loss."Pufffrost gestured kindly, resting his tail on her back. Feathersong seemed kinda surprised

"What?" Feathersong exclaimed Pufffrost noticed she was going to run off soon as the news struck her ear. So he called over Azure to help hold Feathersong down. Then he told her.

"Your sister, Dappledleaf, she lept off a cliff and is now in starclan..."Pufffrost mewed gently, but rather than feathersong running she froze.

Feathersong couldn't believe it. She must've misheard but the look on Azure and Pufffrosts' face showed that it was true. Still, she didn't quite get it. "She..what?"

"Your sister is dead. I'm sorry for your loss." Azure told her, her pity clear for the silver tabby.

Feathersong got the immediate instinct to flee. To escape. Though it felt as if her paws were glued to the ground. It refused to sink in. She didn't understand.

"I'll leave you to grieve." Azure told her, returning to the medicine-cat den.

Pufffrost stayed by her for a little longer before returning to train. Now that she was alone, she gave in to the instinct. Racing off to her cliff. Dappledleaf was dead. All that was left were memories. How was Emberblaze taking it? Why hadn't he told her? So many unanswered questions flew around her mind like caged birds desperate for freedom. At her cliff, it got to her. Dappledleaf, her favourite sibling, her best friend, her lifeline. Now she had gone. She was Feathersong's anchor in SunClan, the main reason why she didn't want to leave.

Then it hit her. She'd killed Dappledleaf.

Tears streaked down her face as she cried. She was gone because of her. If Feathersong hadn't have been so..selfish then she'd still be alive.

Did she feel any pain when she leaped off? Where did she leap off? There weren't many cliffs and Pufffrost hadn't been specific. She tried not to care where she died but she did. She wanted to see her one last time. Say that she was sorry. But it was too late. Feathersong had killed another cat.

Dappledleaf wasn't coming back. There would be no chance to apologize. There would be no chance for amends. No chance to play one last game of mossball.

She was never able to come back because of Feathersong. Because of her stupidity. Like with her mother.

Why did she always ended hurting the ones that she loved most. Was she cursed? Should she just run away and live life as a rogue? It was tempting but she had already promised to be loyal to SkyClan.

It was her own fault and Feathersong had to deal with the consequences. She couldn't run from reality, no matter how fast she ran.

Feathersong had discovered that the hard way.

Pufffrost felt something wasn't right, so after training which would be his last lesson. He ran after Feathersong looking for her, had she gone back to her second nature? Was she going to that same cliff? Pufffrost was out of focus for the whole lesson, he felt in a way it was his fault. He should have told her after his last lesson, which was today, but he didn't. If he did he would've already been by the side of the grieving she-cat. soon he caught up to Feathersong.

"Hey, Feathersong..."Pufffrost trailed off. Feathersong didn't seem to notice he was speaking.

Feathersong didn't even notice Pufffrost, lost in her own thoughts. She felt large amounts of self-hate; Feathersong had killed her own mother and sister and though she didn't mean to, that didn't cover up the pain and grief. She might've wrecked Emberblaze's life without even knowing it.

When Pufffrost spoke, it took a few moments for her to even realise that he was there.

"Why are you here?" Feathersong asked. Not irritated at him for coming but not entirely overjoyed about his presence. "Don't you have training?"

"It finished. I wanted to come see how you were."

Instinctively, she opened her jaws to say 'I'm fine' but closed them. She obviously wasn't fine. Her sister was dead for StarClan's sake! "I've felt better." She replied after a second or two of silence.

"Sorry about having to leave you. I should've told you after it finished."

"It's fine." She gave simple answered, hoping that she didn't sound curt or anything. Which, chances are, she did. Though Pufffrost didn't seem to care about her basic answers. If he noticed them, he didn't seem to care.

If Pufffrost spoke again, Feathersong didn't hear it. She just stared motionlessly at nothing in particular. Her eyes fixed on some non-existent object over the landscape below in front of them.

Feathersong was the type of cat that preferred silence, no matter how awkward it was. This was slightly uncomfortable but she ignored it. As the sun faced them, making it's descent, Feathersong reluctantly broke the silence.

"We'd better head back now."

Pufffrost sighed but returned to camp with Feathersong. Was feathersong ready for the battle? Would she even fight? These questions answer he did not know, where they mattered or not was up to Feathersong. The long moon was passing and soon they would attack. It would finally be time that they repay the clans for the losses they had caused in the clans. Every clan had a very low population, Disease struck Trailclan, two logclan warriors were caught by the foxes Skyclan lead to their borders. Sunclan was doing just dandy other then the many heartbreaks their warriors had suffered, Stoneclan was demolished hungry and broken all they had where some apprentices. Skyclan was strong healthy and thriving.

The battle was coming. Feathersong could sense the other cats' excitement as they all made final preparations. Feathersong seemed to be the only cat who was dreading it. She'd have to see Emberblaze and face the music with SunClan. It would be so hard attacking cats like Silvermist and others who she'd talk to a few times.

She couldn't even imagine fighting Emberblaze. If it came to that then..then she'd have no choice but to betray SkyClan.

If she had to choose between her brother and a clan that she didn't really like, well aside from Pufffrost, then she'd obviously choose her brother. Though Pufffrost was really outspoken about traitors and betrayals. If she didn't attack or if she maybe even helped Emberblaze, then their small friendship would be over. Feathersong felt so torn. Was this how Taloncall was feeling? She'd hardly seen him the past few days and had no idea if he was participating. She'd assumed so because he was a talented fighter. But it would be even harder for him since he had been a respected deputy, loyal and always putting the clan first. In a way, they were similar, the more she thought about it.

As the moon rose, Feathersong curled up in the edge of camp where she normally was. She couldn't sleep, worries, fears, questions filling her mind. She had that feeling to just go to her cliff. She always felt more like herself there, not this miserable shell. When she was there alone, it was like her worries were drifting away on the breeze that gently ruffled her fur.

Here, she felt the opposite. She had forced herself to stay and she would stay. At least until the battle. Maybe she'd be able to slip away without even being noticed? Or maybe she should just try harder to forget and get over everything instead of living in the memories more than she did reality.

She couldn't stay here at all tonight. She was exhausted but she just couldn't sleep in this camp filled with others that she didn't even know. Quietly, she padded out, curling up on her cliff. She heavily preferred to be here alone than with Pufffrost because though he was nice and she did like him, he wouldn't understand.

The cliffs and the lands below would understand. She could cry here, scream her fury, or just be silent. It would just be there. Understand. And that was what Feathersong needed at the moment.

Maybe she was going crazy; cliffs and hills never talk.

But even if she was. Feathersong was fine with it.

Feathersong tried to hide her emotions as she entered the camp, though due to Pufffrost staring at her, she was failing.

Not wanting to arouse questions about where she had been or whatever, she just turned and exited. She wasn't ready to return. She wasn't running away; she just needed more time alone. To think.

She came across the hills below her cliff that were just outside of SunClan. Not on the border like her cliff was. There, she just glared out into the horizon. Wondering why her life was such a mess.

All those moons, trying to keep her secrets from her family and now what? Her life had been plagued by grief, drama and secrets.

The worst thing about it was that she had no cat to blame but herself. She had no choice but to go through the damage that she had caused.

She had killed two cats, she had destroyed the relationship with Emberblaze and Silvermist. And she'd probably end up losing the friendship with Pufffrost during the battle. Whenever she loved or befriended seemed to die or she'd just ruin everything.

Feathersong was slightly afraid with this beast that she'd brought out. She could be dramatic, irritated, upset and many other emotions. But she had never been angry. Not like this.

Soon though, it wore off. Leaving Feathersong feeling smaller and confused. Why had she lost her control like that? It was like a new cat had taken over from her quiet, reserved self.

Though she hadn't been herself lately. And it was only going downward. She needed someone to stabilize her emotions. Keep her anchored, keep her on the ground with reality.

Feathersong decided to re-enter the camp, the emotions before completely gone.

She headed to a corner and sat alone, not even bothering to make eye contact with the other cats milling about. She just sat down, wondering how Emberblaze was feeling. He'd probably shrugged off her outburst as he often did with most things. She hoped so. The battle would be even more awkward now, thanks to her.

Try as she might, Feathersong seemed incapable of not making things go worse than they already were.

It might not be in order, but I tried.