Heres the Skyclan view next chapter will be the Windclan one, the story should line up :D
Feathersong watched Silvermist leave, taking the kits with her.
"Wait.." She called out, though even if Silvermist heard, she didn't turn her head.
"Why did you say that!" Anger mixed with her sorrow as she turned to face Pufffrost, her eyes burning.
"Say what?" He seemed genuinely confused.
"Say that you're my best friend. Silvermist was and you never will be!" She didn't mean it and in some time, she would forgive him, but with the lack of sleep mixing with what just happened, she just wanted to lash out. She wanted to hurt like she had been hurt before.
Pufffrost seemed hurt and surprised. "I'm sorry, I-"
"Just leave me alone." She stalked off, tears of anger and sorrow brimming her eyes. She wanted to head to her cliff but with Silvermist nearby, she couldn't risk it. Pufffrost would find her there anyway. And she couldn't face Pufffrost right now.
Instead, she just found a small den in a hill that had been dug out by a fox or something. Thankfully, it smelt abandoned. She wouldn't be found here.
Feathersong couldn't help it any longer and she broke down, sobbing helplessly and uncontrollably. Silvermist, her last thing in WindClan, her best friend, was gone. She would never see Silvermist again. Their friendship was ruined. All because of Pufffrost.
Eventually, her sobs quietened and she curled up in a ball, gazing miserably out of the den and into the twilight sky. She closed her eyes, thinking of that moment she had spent with Silvermist, that wonderful time on the cliff.
Even if they weren't friends anymore, that would forever be Feathersong's favourite memory.
"Urggg should I fallow or stay? Why can Life be so perfect one day and a disaster the next? Why is it all so hard... why is life so hard?" Pufffrost screamed, cursing Starclan. Moments memories everything that led to this moment. What continued to pull him on?
"Well love I guess" Pufffrost whispered fighting his thoughts
And then he ran, he ran so fast to far. Then he was their a broken down Feathersong curled up, but she soon noticed the toms presence.
"Please? Feathersong..."
"NO, GO AWAY!" The she-cat yowled.
"no"
"What did you say" Feathersong nearly growled
"No!" Pufffrost exclaimed
"I'm not going to run away from this as I do... you say you're fine your not, I know your not. I've learned you, I've known you... I can't keep running off if you're unhappy. I can't just give up. What pulls me on though its love. It's love. I swear to starclan it has to be, why else would I have followed after you every moment you were hurt. Why would I be so torn from staying or fallowing? Why would I follow when I knew I should stay. It's love, I can't explain it any other way... and it's fine, I can be turned down." Pufffrost wholeheartedly, mewed, but he somewhat knew what to expect in the next moments. Rejection, a broken heart, the tension was at a climax when Feathersong replied with...
Feathersong stared at him for a few moments. She now knew that feeling that she had when she was with him. She..loved Pufffrost.
Though she didn't want to confess her love right after he had ruined her friendship with Silvermist.
Pufffrost looked at her expectantly. There was something in his eyes. He expected a rejection, preparing himself for the worst.
"So, you ruin my friendship with my last friend and now you want me to love you?" Though Feathersong had feelings for him, she wasn't ready. She needed some time.
"I..I understand. I'm sorry." Feathersong swore that she could see the fainted glimmer of tears in his eyes. Was Pufffrost..crying?
Some of her coolness melted away. "I think that I do love you but it's too soon."
"So..you do love me but you don't want to love me?" Pufffrost asked, in a rather hurt voice.
Feathersong had to force back her tears. "Yes."
"Well..thanks for telling me." Pufffrost turned away and left, his head drooping.
Feathersong considered calling him back, saying that she did want to love him and be his mate. But she didn't. Yes, she loved him, but it was too soon.
"I'm sorry." She whispered. If Pufffrost heard, he didn't react.
The truth was he did react and he had said... "It's not only your fault, but I also share the blame. You're always forgiven" Pufffrost mewed, but Feathersong hadn't heard him.
Feathersong watched him until he was out of sight. Now she was well and truly alone.
Her best trait always seemed to be screwing everything up.
Pufffrost sighed, but his hope never lessened. Feathersong was an honest cat, and Pufffrost was a mental mess. Those words bugged Feathersong best friend, even those words bugged him. That word was too gooey, and sappy for him, maybe if he hadn't. He swore he hadn't, who was that, who said it, it was him but why had he blurted. Maybe she wouldn't hate him if. Did he try to fix something? yes, he would.
And like a storm, Pufffrost thundered off towards Feathersongs home clan.
"AZURE?" Pufffrost shouted.
"Yes?" Azure peeked around the corner.
"I made an oopsie," Pufffrost said shuffling his paws
"Obviously" Azure rolled her eyes and purred
"I went onto Sunclans territory, and a patrol spotted me" Pufffrost shouted.
"YOU what?" Nightstar yowled.
"I finally had a reason for war but not... we're even." Nightstar went on
"May you drown in your guilt and shame" Nightstar hissed as he stalked away to call off the attack.
Pufffrost sighed, and Azure smiled at him.
"Shouldn't you be somewhere" Azure pointed out
"Oh right!" Pufffrost exclaimed. He took off toward where she stood.
"Feathersong?"Pufffrost asked,
"yes, where have you been?" Feathersong grumbled in a monstrous tone.
"Let's see... Ran off talked to Silvermist, who finds me annoying, she also forgives you for creating a new life in this clan. I also stopped a war, Nightstar blamed Silvermist for coming onto our territory. I made the trespassing even though when I ran off to talk to Silvermist. Rainshine had kits as well If you were wondering... And dear starclan I'm exhausted." Pufffrost collapsed into a slumber out of exhaustion.
Soon though time passed and it was morning, Pufffrost awoke to Feathersongs paw abruptly prodding him awake. Then she talked, but Pufffrosts ears also were asleep. Feathersong must have noticed because she repeated what she said again so he could hear.
Feathersong looked rather uncomfortable as she repeated what she had said. "I just wanted to say thank you for what you did. I rejected you and you still tried to make everything right."
"I don't even know why I said that you were my best friend," Pufffrost admitted. "I don't think that sums up our relationship."
"What do you think sums up our relationship?" Pufffrost couldn't still love Feathersong. She seemed to have single-handedly nearly caused the war. Well, Pufffrost caused it, but he was doing it for her. Why did he even care? That was a thought that gnawed away at Feathersong, keeping her awake. Of all the she-cats in the clan, why was it always her? After she broke down, Pufffrost was always there to pick up the pieces.
Feathersong still had feelings for him but was she ready? And would she be rejected?
"What do you think sums up our relationship? Am I just a friend or..something else?" Pufffrost questioned her, searching her gaze for an answer.
"Fine. I..might have a very, very small crush on you." Feathersong couldn't meet his gaze. Would she find rejection? Would he..pity her? All she could do was hope for forgiveness after she broke his heart.
"It's fine, I'm not very good at making sense of love, or even friendship for the matter. I hope you can forgive me, I was the one in the wrong." Pufffrost meowed
"No, I-" Feathersong was interrupted
"No, you weren't, and even if you were I'd always forgive you. Even if you won't forgive me." Pufffrost looked up and Feathersong, and she smiled. Pufffrost grinned.
Maybe I'm not so bad at making things right after all. Pufffrost thought.
Though she didn't say 'I forgive you', it was obvious that she did.
They talked until the sun began to set.
"I'm going to sleep now. You joining?" Puffrost asked.
"Why not." Feathersong followed him, trying not to look like she would rather sleep under the stars than in a stuffy den.
Cats lay, curled up, all around her, some snoring, some wriggling around. She much preferred the outdoors, but she tried to forget about all of her longings and curled up beside Pufffrost.
Only three cats stayed all night, heads bowed in a silent vigil.
Dappledpaw and Emberpaw looked up to the sky, searching for Mother's star, but Featherpaw kept her gaze on the ground. Her head was whirling with what had happened.
"I know it's meant to be silent, but can we speak?" Dappledpaw asked.
"Why not. Everyone else is asleep." Emberpaw decided.
"Alright! Featherpaw, how did Mother end up dying?" Dappledpaw forgot tact, looking at the silver tabby.
"Dappledpaw! Ask tomorrow!" Emberpaw poked her with a paw.
"Sorry, but we also need to know! Remember our 'no secret' rule?"
"Oh, yeah! Tell us!"
Featherpaw shook her head. "I'm off to sleep." She muttered.
"You can't! This is Mother's vigil!" Dappledpaw protested.
"I'm tired, alright!" Featherpaw snapped, hurrying towards the apprentices' den and curling up.
That was the first time Featherpaw had cried herself to sleep.
But it wasn't the last.
Feathersong awoke, noticing that Pufffrost was already gone. Despite all of the running, he still had time to do dawn-patrol/
Without Pufffrost, Feathersong didn't know what to do. Everyone was either asleep, patrolling or sharing tongues. She decided to check up and greet Azure as she hadn't seen her friend for some time.
"Oh, hello, Feathersong." Azure was wrapping some cobwebs around a cat's leg. The leg had a long, jagged gash and the cat's eyes were clouded with pain.
"If you're busy, I can just leave." Feathersong turned to go. She'd come back later.
"That's a good idea. I won't belong." Azure went back to treating the injured cat.
She had one last place she wanted to go to. Sitting on her cliff, which she had missed so much, she gazed over the hills and woodland. Was Silvermist still missing her? Not, as she was willing to let Pufffrost become her best friend. But Feathersong still missed her old friend.
Emberblaze had his kits now, as Pufffrost had said. Maybe she could go visit them someday? She missed Emberblaze, but expected that he wasn't. He got over things easily. Feathersong would be nothing more than a memory.
She didn't want to leave, watching the sun slowly ascend into the blue sky. It was a beautiful day, not a cloud in sight.
Eventually, she turned back, knowing that Pufffrost would've returned from the patrol by now.
Feathersong walked into came, and Pufffrost face lit up.
"Hi Feathersong, how are you?" Pufffrost asked trying not to sound tired
"Alright," Feathersong replied. "I didn't sleep too great." She missed out on the part about her memories haunting her and keeping her up. She wasn't too tired though as sleeping badly was something she did most of the time.
Pufffrost still looked tired though. "Nightmares?"
"Kind of."
"I don't even know... I just can't seem to fall asleep." Pufffrost mewed.
"You need to relax" Feathersong mewed.
"I know, and I'm trying, but The snores are so much louder now... It's all I can hear." Pufffrost Explained.
"I've been hunting on most of the nights I can't sleep" Pufffrost added.
"Why don't you sleep outside? Away from the cats." Feathersong advised. It felt weird to help; usually, it was the other way round. Though she didn't want Pufffrost to be permanently sleep-deprived.
"Yeah, that might help" Pufffrost admitted. He was so tired, but I was day, and he couldn't just sleep all day.
"Why don't you go and take a nap." Feathersong suggested, "You look exhausted."
"Alright." Pufffrost made his way towards the empty warriors' den, leaving Feathersong alone for the second time. She didn't mind right now though. Azure would've hopefully finished so she could go talk to her.
"I'm back." Feathersong came in to see that the cat was still there, but it was asleep and Azure was sorting herbs.
"I wondered if I'd be seeing you at all," Azure admitted, coming over. "Why are you here?"
"I just wanted to talk." Feathersong had so much on her mind that she wanted to ask her.
"Go ahead. They won't be awake for some time." She gestured towards the sleeping cat.
"Well, do you have anything to... help me sleep at night?" Feathersong was hesitant to ask but she wondered if herbs would stop the memories, "I've been having these flashbacks when I've been sleeping."
"I have poppy seeds that help cats to sleep but I don't like giving them out unless the cat is injured."
"Oh, okay. Thanks." Feathersong sounded disappointed but she couldn't help it. The memories were always tormenting her at night and she had hoped that something would help.
"I'm sorry, I wish I had something to help." Azure seemed genuinely apologetic.
"It's fine." Feathersong swallowed her disappointment and left, wondering what she would do whilst Pufffrost was regaining much-needed sleep.
Pufffrost was sleeping, sleeping a dreamless sleep. Maybe no dreams were better than bad ones...
Pufffrost was still fast asleep. Unsure of what to do, Feathersong decided to head out of camp for a bit. Maybe do hunting or whatever.
Though Feathersong wasn't a talented hunter and caught nothing but a single, scrawny mouse that wouldn't fill a newborn kit up.
Why do I have to be so useless at everything? Feathersong glared down at the carcass, deciding to leave it for foxes or something. The mouse wasn't enough for the clan and she had to find something else to contribute.
She eventually found herself at the cliff and decided to stay there. Though it ended up just reminding her of Silvermist and their time together. She couldn't scent Silvermist so she was either too busy with the kits..or simply forgotten about her old best friend.
That was all Feathersong was now. Their friendship was gone and she only had herself to blame. Had she stayed with WindClan for a little longer then she might've convinced Silvermist to come with her.
But she didn't and now there was nothing. She stared out over the horizon, wondering what Silvermist was up to. Did she ever miss Feathersong anymore?
She blinked back the tears that she hadn't even noticed coming, before turning back and going into the camp.
Pufffrost was still sleeping when she came back in. The stars were out and instinctively, Feathersong scanned the sky for a certain star- a certain two stars- but none of them shone brighter.
Feathersong knew that they still didn't forgive her. And for good reason. She had killed them, for StarClan's sake.
All she seemed to be good at was rip away friendships and hurt or kill the ones who she loved most.
That brought her back to thinking about Silvermist. Did she still want to be friends? She desperately wanted to visit and try to make amends, maybe start up their friendship once more. But fear stopped her. She imagined Silvermist with a new best friend, sharing all of her secrets with the new cat. Sitting at the cliff with the new cat.
Was Feathersong being hypocritical? She was the one that ruined it with Pufffrost as her new friend. But he would never, ever be Silvermist.
She missed her so much and looking up at the dark sky, she just wanted her back.
Finally, the tears came. Slow and silent as she turned and left the camp. She wanted to see Silvermist, even if Silvermist didn't notice her.
Feathersong had a plan. She'd head into Wind...SunClan and just look for Silvermist. When she'd find her, then she'd leave. Simple.
She made her way, hoping that Pufffrost would still be asleep. Or would it be a cruel irony that he'd awake when she had left?
Nightstar overlooked his clan, the clan of traitors and cats taking refuge. Time and time again his thought would wander back to the begining of the clan. Nightstar, or rather Nightstream had built the clan from the bottom up, most of the cats were his children, but some were brought from twoleg place. He had one cat he thought would have for sure brought war had been taken away, Slivermist. Although he desperately wanted to catnap her again as a hostage it wouldn't have been as easy as the time before. Maybe another cat or kit may be good leverage for a war...
Nightstar was waiting, Waiting for the best time to strike, preferably once there weren't any kits or queens in the nursery.
Darkmist put her squirrel on the fresh-kill pile when her leader approached her.
"Darkmist!"
She raised her head, terrified of Nightstar.
"Yes?"
"I want to know where Feathersong is, I've nice so far buts it time that she starts making a commitment towards our clan. She doesn't go on patrols and she rarely hunts."
"I don't know anything about Feathersong," she paused. "Why would ask me?"
"Because we all know that Feathersong and Silvermist were best friends."
Darkmist looked at Nightstar in the eyes, "Check with Pufffrost, he and Feathersong are close."
Nightstar thanked her then left.
Azure was watching Nightstar question the she-cat.
She was worried about Feathersong now. She hadn't been the most valuable asset to the clan at all and now this seemed to be the last straw. What would happen if she returned? Exile? Punishment? Azure feared for the silver tabby, wondering where she was and what would happen if she returned.
If she returned.
Pufffrost has been in a large slumber for a good few days. He finally woke up and ran off looking for feathersong, he looked everywhere. When he couldn't find her he went over to Azure. The medicine cat was dazing, he passed some other cat on the way, Darkmist. The she-cat opened her mouth to talk, but Pufffrost didn't stick around to listen when he burst with questions.
"Weres Feathersong, did she leave? Does she think I'm dead, I was only out for a little while. Is there any scent traces?" Pufffrost was stopped, although he still had so many questions and concerns.
"The truth is I don't know. She doesn't think your dead you fur-ball, You were out for a quarter moon. Scent traces I didn't look, you can though" Azure commented, she poked fun at Pufffrosts existence of worries.
"Hey can I-" Darkmist tried to talk, but yet again Pufffrost ignored her. Pufffrost was on a mission.
Pufffrost ran down to the border, Darkmist hot on his tail, but she couldn't catch him. He ran until his pads bled, even then, he ran. Over the border, he stormed, and into camp he went, then he saw Feathersong. Lucky guess...
Azure watched the tom run out of camp, trying to find Feathersong. It was sweet really, how much that tom cared for the she-cat.
She wondered what it was like for both of them. Pufffrost openly loved Feathersong but did she feel the same. Some parts of the she-cat were unpredictable whereas others could be read easily.
Whatever happened, Azure hoped for a happy ending.
I should make sense in the next chapter. :)