Blaine couldn't sleep. Sebastian had told him so many hurtful things. He wasn't cold, he was just lost. He had tried to tell him, but once again he had been too afraid to do it. He was going to wait for the right moment. Perfect circumstances. He knew that thinking this way was ridiculous, but it was better than thinking that he would never be brave enough to tell Sebastian.

And now, when he knew that Sebastian wasn't sure if he wanted to be with Blaine anymore, he was even more afraid. It hurt to think that there was a possibility that he might end up alone with a small baby. He didn't even try to stop his tears from falling. He was alone with his secret. His hand rested on his stomach and he rubbed it gently. Actually, the truth was that he would never be alone again.

Blaine wiped his eyes with his sleeve and smiled slighty. He was not alone.

When his alarm woke him up, Wes was already awake. He was sitting on his bed. His eyes were locked on Blaine. He slowly sat up on bed and looked at his roommate.

''Why are you staring at me like that?''

''I'm sick of all of this. Tell me right now what's going on!" Wes snapped.

''Now? I am barely awake. Can't our usual conversation wait a little bit?''

''Where were you yesterday?"

''I was with my brother.''

Blaine wanted to tell about the pregnancy so badly, but it wouldn't be fair to Sebastian. Wes buried his head into his hands. ''Just tell me what's going on. I'm your best friend. You can trust me. That's all I'm asking for. Or maybe you don't trust me, huh?"

''I really do," Blaine said. "But I'm fine. There's nothing wrong with me.'' Wes' eyes were just slighty too bright and Blaine couldn't take this anymore. His best friend was miserable because of him. ''Okay. There is something, but I can't tell you right now."

"Are you sick?" Wes quickly asked.

''No, I'm not.''

''Why can't you just tell me?'' He could see the hurt in his best friend's eyes.

''Because you're not the person that is supposed to know first."

Wes slowly nodded his head and stood up. Then Blaine noticed that he was already completely dressed. He just left, not even looking at Blaine.

Blaine couldn't believe that it was his life now. He had hurt everyone that he cared for, he had snapped at Kurt and his own boyfriend had told him that he was sick of him. Everything was slowly, but consequently falling apart around Blaine. He would end up completely alone in no time. Miraculously Blaine didn't start crying. There was no tears left.

Blaine stood up and walked over to the window. He loved winter. Everything was covered with snow and people seemed to be warmer despite the cold outside. The atmosphere of upcoming Christmas was making people happier. They could come back to their families and show them how much they cared through long-considered presents.

He had already presents for everyone. It was still time for that, but Blaine liked when he could buy for his family and friends something special, so he always took a extra time to do so. Part of his presents was hidden in his room at home and part of it was here, at Dalton in his closet.

He should take a shower and get dressed if he wanted to be in class in time, but instead of it he opened the closet to look at his presents once again. Warblers had a tradition about it. Each of them had to make yourself something small, but special for everyone. He had to still make some of them, but he had three special gifts. For Wes, Sebastian and Kurt. They were all special to him.

He had beautiful, brown scarf for Kurt that matched perfectly his ocean-like eyes. For Sebastian he had very soft, cashmere, green sweater. And for Wes he had a book that he had been talking about for months. It was about World War II. Blaine didn't like reading about such a horrible things, but Wes had a obsession about it.

Blaine smiled. He loved Christmas and presents so much. His smile quickly faded when he thought about the trio. Wes was mad at him, Sebastian didn't know if he wanted to be with Blaine anymore and Kurt...well, he didn't know about him, but he had snapped at him and it wouldn't be a surprise if he didn't want to talk to him after that.

He had thought that keeping this secret would be easier, but only after couple of days everyone that meant something to him were hurt because of him.

Blaine sat on the floor wishing that he had someone to hug.

Blaine blinked his eyes open when someone shook gently his shoulder. His vision was a little blurry at first and he didn't know what was going on, but then he remembered. He was still sitting on the floor and in front of him was Kurt.

''What are you doing here?'' Blaine managed to ask.

''I could ask you the same. You are supposed to be now in your history class. We both are." Kurt said sitting on the floor next to him.

"Then why are you here?" Blaine asked coldly.

''Don't be like that, Blaine. I'm here, because I care about you. I am so worried. I don't know how to help you." Kurt said so sadly, that Blaine wanted to tell him, to finally have someone that would comfort him. But he couldn't.

''Please, just leave me alone." Blaine wrapped his arms around himself and lowered his gaze. Kurt tried to take his hand, but Blaine immediately pulled away.

''Don't make me leave you." Kurt said desperately and to Blaine's surprise he sobbed. ''You are important to me. Seeing you like this- it breaks my heart."

Blaine looked up at Kurt's face. Tears were running down his face and his bottom lip was trembling. It was painful to see him like this.

And then Blaine could finally understand why Wes and Kurt so desperately wanted to know the truth. He couldn't stay seeing him so heartbroken and miserable. He just wanted to make it okay. Only if he could. Without hesitation Blaine pulled Kurt into his arms and let him cry. Tears started running down his cheeks as well. Blaine couldn't believe that it was his life now. People were sad because of him.

It was too much for him.

''K-kurt" he whispered. It was hard to find good words to tell Kurt what he wanted to tell, so he just closed his eyes and let his soul speak for him. ''I don't want to be apart from you. You are very important for me. I don't know what I would do without you, Kurt. Can I tell you a secret?" Kurt immediately pulled away and nodded his head. "Don't tell anybody. I have to do it myself." He nodded once again and Blaine leaned forward to whisper softly to his ear a secret that he had been afraid to share for so long. ''I-I'm pregnant."

Kurt frowned. His mouth hung open as he glanced down at Blaine's stomach. He didn't want Kurt to look at him and see how fucked-up everything was. How fucked-up he was.

They were both silent. Blaine wanted Kurt to say something, anything. He didn't care as long as Kurt wanted to talk to him at all.

Finally Kurt smiled. Blaine was surprised to see this kind of reaction, but he was happy to receive anything. Kurt took his hand and squeezed. ''Thank you for telling me. It means a lot." He took a deep breath. ''It's shock to hear something like that coming from you, but I am here to support you no matter what.''

Blaine smiled back. And for once it was a honest smile. ''Are you okay with this?''

''With you being pregnant? Why wouldn't I?" Kurt asked, clearly confused.

''Because this is against the nature according to some people." Blaine said sadly.

''You are perfectly normal, Blaine" Kurt said softly. "There's nothing wrong with you.'' Blaine was glad to hear that. Kurt didn't see him differently because of it. They were still friends.

He wasn't alone.

''Who knows about it?" Kurt asked after a moment of silence.

''My brother and you."

Kurt slowly nodded his head. ''Are you going to tell Sebastian?"

''Of course." Blaine responded without hesitation.

''When?"

''I don't know. I'm scared. I don't want this to tear us apart. He already wants to break up with me." Blaine said remembering exactly Sebastian's words.

''Maybe you telling him would make him see things differently? He clearly sees that something is wrong with you, but he can't figure out what it is and you might seem a little distant and...cold." Kurt said choosing his words carefully.

''I think you're right" Blaine said. "But how am I supposed to tell him something like that?"

''Simply. Make everything clear and don't let him use his imagination too much. And stay calm."

Blaine titled his head. How could this once scared boy be so smart? ''Have you ever said something like that? It seems like something you do regularly."

Kurt laughed. ''You would know all of that if you read as much gossip magazines as me.''

Blaine moved closer to Kurt and leaned his head on the taller's boy shoulder. ''Thank you for being here and not judging me. Now I know whatever happens I won't be alone."

Blaine's life still was far from perfect, but at least now he had Kurt. He didn't have to pretend that everything was alright. If only everyone were like Kurt.

Blaine closed his eyes and focused on Kurt's breathing.

A/N: I don't remember exactly when Kurt transferred to Dalton, so in this story it was a couple of weeks before Christmas. Please, review!