A/N: Hello everyone! Thank you for reading and reviewing! Warning: mentions of self harm and violence.

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I'm alright. Sorry for not calling you. I'm home. -Blaine

Blaine put his cell phone down on his bedside table and lied down on the bed. He had a lot of free time now. Too much. He was sick of watching TV and trying to avoid his father (which wasn't that hard, because Paul most of the day was locked in his office). Blaine knew that he really wanted to understand his younger son, but being in the same room was just awkward and uncomfortable for both of them.

Blaine knew that Paul still wanted to talk to him about school and the baby, but he was going to wait for Monica to return and that wouldn't happen for another couple of days.

His cell phone started buzzing as he received a text from Kurt.

Good to finally hear from you. I've been worried. Care to explain what is going on with you? -Kurt

It's complicated, and you're right. We need to talk, but not via the phone. -Blaine

The response didn't come, which worried Blaine a little, but he decided to let it go for now. Kurt probably needed some space.

Blaine stood up from the bed and took his old guitar from the corner, before sitting down on the desk chair. He had always been too busy with school, friends and his boyfriend to play the guitar. Now he finally had the time to get lost in some magical melody. He still didn't know what he was going to do about school, or the little life growing inside of him, but at least he had this. He could focus on playing the right notes, and let the music take him to a different world where his problems didn't have the right to exist.

In that world, he could do whatever he wanted, and...be with the person that was so important to him. Blaine still didn't know if the feelings that were inside of him were just a combination of heartbreak and pregnancy hormones, but thinking about Kurt's beautiful ocean-like eyes that he could so easily drown into, his beautiful smile and that perfect, pink lips that had begged him that day to be kissed was a pleasure to him.

As Blaine started playing some random song, he realized that Kurt wasn't the only person that he missed. All of his friends were at Dalton, in the same city, but not close enough. He missed everyone. Their warm smiles, spontaneous hugs and conversations. Now he felt lonely and guilty. The Warbles without their lead solist had to find someone to take over his place and they had less than two weeks to do so. Blaine wanted to call Wes, apologize to him and explain everything, but he was too afraid that his friend would be angry at him. The rational part of his brain knew that his friend would never be mad at him for something that wasn't his fault, but he was too much of a coward to realize that.

When Blaine finished playing, he put the guitar in its original place and checked his watch. It was afternoon. He should probably eat something. At the prospect of putting something into his mouth, Blaine's stomach growled. The dark-hired boy pressed his hand to it and rubbed his soon-to-be huge abdomen. Even though he was only a teenage boy, still in high school, Blaine wanted this child. He wanted to have this one, little person that would always love him no matter what. Sure, he wanted a loving boyfriend, but they come and go, and children stay no matter what happens to their parents.

Blaine left his bedroom and walked down the stairs. He entered the kitchen to cook something simple for himself for dinner. His dad was back at work, so Blaine had to deal with loneliness. He could call his brother and tell him about everything, but he didn't want to bother him. Cooper had already wasted enough time to take him to that appointment.

Blaine made himself a turkey sandwich (not much for dinner, but he didn't feel like cooking) and sat down at the huge table in the empty dining room. He couldn't hear neither laud conversations nor laugh. Blaine looked around. He was all alone.

He sighed, stood up and took the plate with him to his room. He sat down on his bed and pulled a blanket over his legs. At least now he was warm and the loneliness wasn't as overwhelming, but it was still present. Well, he had to get used to being alone anyway.

The next day when Blaine woke up, his dad was already gone. It wasn't surprising, but it still hurt a little to know that he was all alone in a huge house like this. Blaine put on an old shirt and grey sweatpants. He gave up on gelling his hair. Today, he didn't have to impress anybody. He made himself breakfast and sat down on the couch in the living room preparing himself for spending the rest of the day there.

Blaine turned on the TV and wrapped himself in a warm blanket. He started watching some random movie, and just as he was about to fall asleep (he was tired all the damn time), the doorbell rang. Blaine stood up from the couch groaning and walked over to the front door.

As soon as Blaine opened the door, his mouth fell open, and his eyes widened in true shock. His gaze immediately landed on a pale boy, who had his emotions written all over his beautiful face. Confusion, relief and insecurity. Then he noticed the rest of his friends. Wes, David and to his surprise also Jeff and Nick. He didn't know what to say. Blaine was afraid that Nick and Jeff were mad at him for not telling them sooner.

''Shouldn't you be at school?" He asked lamely.

Jeff crossed his arms over his chest. ''Seriously, Blaine?" The dark-hired boy swallowed hard. ''The first thing you ask when you see your best friends in the whole world is 'shouldn't you be at school'? We haven't seen each other for days. Where's my hello hug?" A shadow of a smile formed on his lips, and the blond boy smiled back before wrapping his friend in a hug. ''God, Blaine. You can't just disappear like that without telling anyone. Do you want me to have a heart attack?'' Jeff whispered into his ear.

When the blond boy pulled away, Blaine was pulled in another hug, this time from Nick. Then it was David's turn. When it came to Wes, the Asian boy embraced Blaine whispering to his ear. ''You should have told me, Blaine. I am your best friend. You should know by now that keeping secrets from me is not a good idea.''

''I would like to remind you, that you were home with your parents.'' Blaine said pulling away. ''Or with your girlfriend.''

''But you know how to use a cell phone, right?'' Blaine rolled his eyes at that.

Then it was Kurt's turn to hug him. As soon as Kurt wrapped his arms around Blaine's shoulders, the shorter boy closed his eyes trying to breath in as much Kurt's amazing smell as he could. Even though the hug was short and a little awkward, Blaine was happy to be in Kurt's arms once again.

They walked into the house and the boys started putting their coats off. ''This house is even bigger than I remember it.'' Jeff said looking around. ''I would get lost in here.''

''Yeah,'' Blaine said leaning against the wall. ''It's a little too big for my liking. I hate being here alone. It's like a museum. The house if full of expensive things that I am afraid to touch.'' He catched a glimpse of himself in the full-length mirror hanging on the wall and immediately froze. His head was a mop of dark curls and his clothes were nowhere near presentable. He looked at his friends. They were all wearing Dalton uniforms. ''Oh my God! I have to change...and probably take a shower, and fix my hair.''

''Don't be ridiculous.'' Nick said smirking at him. ''We've seen you worse. Remember that party when you...''

''Do not finish that sentence, Nicolas!" Blaine said firmly blushing. He knew exactly what his friend was talking about and he didn't want Kurt to know that almost all of his friends knew how his body looked like...without any clothes on.

Nick only laughed. ''I will be right back. I just have to do something with my hair.'' Blaine turned to leave, but Wes grabbed his elbow stopping him.

''You look fine, Blaine. We're your friends.'' He said loosening his hold on Blaine's elbow.

They moved to Blaine's bedroom. Wes sat on the desk chair, Nick, Jeff and David sat down on the bed beside Blaine, while Kurt with nowhere else to sit, sat on the leather armchair in the corner of the room. Blaine could see how uncomfortable he was.

''How far along are you, Blaine?" Jeff said breaking the silence.

''Seven weeks.'' Blaine responded. ''I'm not even showing yet.''

''Can I be a godfather?" Nick asked with a big grin attached to his face.

Before Blaine had a chance to say that he wasn't even sure what to do with the baby yet, Jeff spoke up. ''There is no way in hell that I'm letting you do that, Nick! The baby has to have a good role model and there's no one more perfect to this job than me.''

''Sure...'' Nick said rolling his eyes.

''I'm so sorry guys, for not telling you sooner, but I just needed to figure it all out by myself. I mean, mostly by myself.'' Blaine glanced at Kurt, but the brunette had his eyes locked on his hands.

''We understand.'' Jeff said grabbing his hand. He smiled softly at the blond boy. His friends were really amazing.

''Coming to terms with all of that has to be really difficult.'' Nick added.

''Yeah, it is. I still have to figure some things out.''

''Tell us exactly what happened on Saturday.'' Wes said after a couple of seconds of silence.

Blaine took a deep breath and began his story. ''A couple of days ago, when I finally realized that Sebastian doesn't really care about me, I gave him an ultrasound picture of our unborn baby. Someone must have found and brought it to the headmaster.''

''Do you think that it was Sebastian?" David asked.

Blaine shrugged his shoulders. ''I don't think so. What would be his point if all he wants is to...get rid of it?''

''Who would do that then?" Wes asked. ''And who would assume that it's yours?''

Blaine shrugged once again. ''It doesn't matter now. What's done is done. What about Sectionals? You don't have a lead solist now. What are you going to do?"

''Well, yesterday Zack and Ryan performed Firework. They've been working on that for a couple of weeks and it's not that bad, but we still have to work hard to have a slightest chance to win.'' Wes paused for a moment. ''But it's not important now. You are important. We have to do something to get you back into Dalton.''

''There's nothing you can do, guys.'' Blaine said smiling sadly. ''Thanks for good intentions, but I'm not longer Dalton Academy's student.''

''But we have to do something!'' Jeff said. ''You can't be forced to leave the school because of pregnancy! That asshole can't blame you for not knowing that you could get pregnant.''

''Yeah, but he thinks that I'm a bad influence on you.''

''This is ridiculous!'' David said.

''I know.''

They chatted for nearly an hour, trying to make up for the lost time. Blaine was happy to be surrounded by his friends, but also was sad, because he knew that in a couple of hours he would be alone in his house once again. Which worried Blaine was that every time he looked at Kurt, the other boy had his gaze downcast and was really silent.

''We have to go.'' Wes announced. ''We must practise every single day. We still have to come up with an idea for a second song.'' They all hugged Blaine and said their (a little tearful) goodbyes, and turned to leave.

But Blaine couldn't just let Kurt go like that. They still have to talk about some stuff. ''Kurt?" The blue-eyed boy stopped walking towards the door and looked at Blaine. ''Please, stay.''

Kurt opened his mouth, but no words came out. They stared at each other for a couple of minutes in silence, not noticing that their friends were watching them. ''I can't.'' Kurt finally said. ''I don't have a car, and we have to practice.''

They didn't notice a silent conversation between the Warblers either. They were too lost in their eyes to notice anything beside each other. ''I can drive you to Dalton later. It's not a problem.'' Blaine said hoping that the boy in front of him would stay and talk to him about his feelings.

Kurt opened his mouth, as to say something, but Wes beat him to it. ''You can stay, Kurt. We don't mind. You can practice some more tomorrow.''

The brunette looked at his friends, and they all nodded their heads. ''Okay.'' Kurt finally said making Blaine smile.

The Warblers left the room leaving their two friends alone. Kurt stood in the middle of the room staring at his shoes for a moment, before Blaine patted empty space next to him. Kurt looked up at him and sat down cross-legged on the bed.

''Do you regret it?" Kurt asked immediately. ''The kiss?"

Blaine shrugged. ''I don't know. Do you?" Kurt shook his head after a moment. ''I just don't know what it meant to me.'' He said honestly. ''I like our friendship and I don't want to screw this up. You're important to me.''

''Do you have feelings for me?" Kurt asked.

Blaine was silent for a couple of minutes, not knowing what to say. ''I don't know anymore. I really like you, Kurt and under different circumstances, I would want to try to...be more than friends, but you know that I can't.''

''What's stopping you from trying?'' Kurt asked looking at him with his big, blue eyes.

''Are you kidding me?" Blaine asked running his head though his dark curls nervously. ''I'm pregnant for God's sake! I can't be in a relationship!'' He snapped.

Kurt stayed calm, and put his hand gently on Blaine's arm. ''Calm down, Blaine.''

Blaine shook off Kurt's hand and stood up from the bed starting his friend a little judging from the expression on his face. ''Do you seriously want to be with someone like me? We're not even in the same school anymore. I don't know what's happening in my life! Everything is chaotic and I'm confused, my future is ruined and I don't need to ruin yours too!'' Angry tears were streaming down his cheeks, and his whole body was shaking.

Blaine closed his eyes trying to calm himself, but the fresh tears wouldn't stop forming in his eyes. Suddenly, he felt a strong arms wrap around his shoulders, and Blaine not really caring about anything in that moment, buried his face into Kurt's chest. He wrapped his arms around the taller's boy waist not wanting to let go.

''You're okay.'' Kurt whispered into his ear. They stayed in each other arms for what seemed like ages until Blaine finally stopped sobbing. Kurt pulled slightly away and wiped the last tears from Blaine's cheeks with his thumb. ''You're so beautiful, Blaine.''

Blaine looked down. ''Please, stop.''

''It's true.'' Kurt said smiling softly. ''I don't care that you are pregnant.'' His hands wandered to Blaine's stomach and he pressed his hand to it. ''It's a part of you.'' Blaine looked down at Kurt's hand. It felt so amazing. Kurt lifted up Blaine's chin with his free hand making him look into his eyes. ''And every part of you is perfect. These parts make you...you.''

Blaine wanted to cry. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to be more than Kurt's friend, but he didn't want to hurt him. Kurt deserved a normal boyfriend and a normal relationship with someone without as many problems. ''Kurt...'' He began, but didn't know what to say to his amazing friend.

''Don't get me wrong,'' Kurt said. ''I don't want you to jump into a relationship that you're not ready for, but if you want...'' He paused for a moment. ''Be honest with me, Blaine. Would you like to date me?'' Kurt put his hands on Blaine's shoulders looking at him hopefully. ''If you weren't pregnant, would you date me?''

Kurt's gaze was intense, but Blaine didn't want to look away.

''Yes.''

A small smile appeared on Kurt's face. ''Then just let yourself be happy. We can go slowly and see where it takes us. We don't even have to kiss. Hand holding is enough for me for now. I just want you to be comfortable with me.'' Blaine was silent. He was trying to process every single word. Kurt bit his lip. ''And if it doesn't work we can just return to being friends. Please, don't tell me that I've just made a fool out of myself.'' Blaine wasn't stupid. He knew that it wasn't likely that after a break up their friendship would survive.

He looked straight into his blue eyes. Kurt was so cute when he was nervous. Blaine closed his eyes and slowly nodded his head. He couldn't lie to himself. He had liked Kurt probably since they met, but it seemed like his mind only now catched up with his heart. ''Okay. We can try.'' Blaine said softly. ''But I don't want to put a label on us yet.''

As soon as these four meaningful words left his mouth, Kurt pulled him into a tight embrace.

Couple of minutes later they went downstairs to find something to eat for themselves. Blaine could see that Kurt was afraid to touch him or say something inappropriate. It was cute, but he didn't want Kurt to be nervous. They weren't only friends anymore, but they weren't boyfriends either, and everything was different and a little awkward.

''Do you want to watch some Disney movie? I own a whole collection of them.'' Blaine asked entering the kitchen.

''Sure.'' Kurt said looking around. ''Wow, your house is really huge. And this kitchen is just...beautiful.''

"Thanks.'' Blaine smiled softly as he opened the fridge. ''Do you want something to drink? I have an apple juice, cola, water.''

''Water would be fine.'' Kurt said.

They took some snacks and water, and moved to the living room. They set the food down on the coffee table and Blaine walked over to the shelf where all of the movies were. ''What about A little mermaid? It's classic and beautiful.'' Kurt nodded his head sitting down on the sofa. Blaine put the DVD into the player and sat next to Kurt keeping some space between their bodies. The movie started and they watched it in silence. Blaine could tell that it was a little awkward.

He looked at Kurt trying to find out why his friend was nervous. ''Are you sure about this?''

Kurt turned his head towards him raising his eyebrow. ''About what?"

''About being with me. I really want you to have a normal and healthy relationship with someone that is not as messed us as me.''

Kurt sighed. ''Blaine, I'm a big boy and I can make my own decisions. I'm not a porcelain doll, and besides normalcy is boring.'' A small smile formed on Kurt's lips and he moved a little closer to Blaine.

''Than why are you nervous?" Blaine asked resting his head on Kurt's shoulder.

''Because you're important to me and I don't want to do something wrong.'' He said softly wrapping his arm around Blaine's shoulders. ''Is this okay?''

''Of course it is.'' Blaine said, slightly amused. ''You don't have to ask for a permission every time you want to touch me. Maybe I'm not ready for taking this further than kissing, but it doesn't change the fact that I like cuddling...especially with you.''

Blaine missed that Kurt's cheeks flushed red. "Can I tell you a secret?''

''Sure.''

''Well, it's not really a secret since half of the students at Dalton already knows about it.'' Kurt said laughing nervously. ''I've been in love with you for a long time, Blaine. Probably since I first saw you.''

Blaine smiled. ''Really?'' His heart skipped a beat, but there was one thought in the back of his head that he couldn't get rid of. ''What about Luke then?"

Kurt sighed. ''I like him, but only as a friend. When we were on a date, I couldn't stop comparing him to you.'' He paused for a moment. ''Couple of days ago I bumped into him and...well, he asked me out again, and instead of saying no, I said yes. We are supposed to meet today.''

Blaine raised his head to look at Kurt. ''I don't think I understand.'' He didn't want to admit it to himself, but he was jealous.

''I'm not surprised.'' Kurt said. ''I don't either. I should have said no, but I guess I don't like seeing people hurt because of me.''

''It's unavoidable, you know that, right?"

''I do.'' Kurt said clearly frustrated. ''I just have to call him and say that there's nothing between us.''

''Don't do that.'' Blaine said making Kurt raise his eyebrow. ''Do it in person.''

''Yeah, you're right.'' Kurt said.''He deserves being treated well.'' They returned to watching the movie. This time the silence wasn't awkward. They had been friends for some time and they were able to just sit together in silence without it being awkward. ''Can I ask you a question, Blaine?" Kurt asked, when Blaine was ready to drift off to sleep.

''Shoot.'' Blaine said sitting upright. He could hear the seriousness in Kurt's voice and he wanted to show him that he cared.

''Why did you transfer to Dalton? I know you were bullied at your old school, but I also know that there's a story behind it. You don't have to tell me if you're uncomfortable, but if you want to, I'm here to listen.''

Blaine took a deep breath. He knew that he could trust Kurt, but it was still difficult for him to tell somebody about the worst experience in his life. ''At first I really liked high school. I had a lot of friends and I was quite popular. My life was awesome, but then I realized that I if my friends really cared about me, they would like me even if I told her about me being gay. So I came out to my best friend, Jessie. He immediately assumed that I was in love with him, which wasn't exactly a lie, and he was disgusted. He didn't want to have anything to do with me anymore.'' Blaine paused for a moment. ''By the end of the week the whole school knew, and that's when all hell broke loose. It was just calling names and shoving into the lockers, but I was devastated, because my old friends were my biggest tormentors.'' The tears were starting to form in his eyes. ''The worst thing about it was that I was alone. No one talked to me. My parents weren't home often, so I was mostly by myself and my brother was in Los Angels doing God knows what. I thought that telling my parents would help me, but it actually made everything worse. My mom said that I was her child and nothing would ever change that, but my dad...''

Blaine closed his eyes begging the tears to stay in his eyes. He didn't want to start crying again. Kurt started rubbing his arm up and down gently, which Blaine was grateful for. ''He couldn't understand nor accept me. He started working long hours in the office, obviously trying to avoid me. I could see in his eyes how much he was disgusted. Well, after that I met a guy, Louis. One day he just walked over to me at school and came out to me. I was surprised, but at least I had finally someone that I could call a friend. Louis was the only one that understood me. We started spending more time together, and we quickly became good friends. In that moment I was happy. The whole world hated me, but at least I had this one person that would always be there for me. I though that everything would be okay in the end. I got more confident.'' Blaine let out a shaky breath. The worst part of his story was coming. "There was a Sadie Hawkins dance at our school. We both knew that no girl would invite us, so we decided to go together. We danced a little and had a lot of fun. No one cared that we were two boys. I through that people were finally staring to see that there is nothing wrong about being different. It turned out that I was wrong. When we were waiting for Louis' dad to pick us up, some guys approached us and...beat us up.''

Kurt gasped loudly. A first tear fell down Blaine's cheek, but he quickly wiped it away. ''I was in hospital for almost a month. A few broken bones and concussion. Louis wasn't fine though. He was in coma for two months. During this time I was blaming myself for that. I even started...cutting myself. At some point I even thought about ending all of this, but then Louis woke up, and my parents realized what had been going on with me since the accident. They transferred my to Dalton and the rest is history."

They were silent. Neither knew what to say. Finally, Kurt spoke up. "Can you show me?" Blaine didn't need to be told what Kurt was asking for. He rolled up his sleeves immediately looking away. He didn't want to look at these pale, ugly scars. They would always be a remainder of his past. To his surprise, Kurt lifted up his hand and kissed every single one of his scars. "They're a part of you."

"Thank you for listening to me.'' Blaine said.

"Thank you for sharing it all with me." He only smiled softly and melted into Kurt's embrace.