Ga and 50 Shades don't belong to me
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I wake up with a start, enveloped in a sweet .She sleeps next to me.I lie down and gaze at the I ever slept in that room reserved for submissives?
Never. This idea troubles me. Without knowing why, it makes me uncomfortable.
What's the matter with you Shepherd?
This discomfort reminds me of the incident after the session in the playroom when Meredith tried to touch me and glanced at my scars My darkness had been awakened I felt like I could not breathe. But a small one. unknown voice in my head had told me
If she touches you is it that bad?
But the darkness had won I sit quietly and observe the room I do not understand why I am here with her I know I will not fall asleep The room is too saturated with Ana: her perfume, in his breath. I get up and go back to the playroom to put away the things. Then I shower then start to work in my office: checking emails ... I make up some of my delay.
It was much easier to concentrate on my work knowing her in my apartment.
Weird.
Yes I know she's safe in the room.
I go to her room She still sleeps in a ball where I left her as if she hadn't moved She breathes softly, her lips parted She snores loudly I smile Crazy strands escape of her braid. I sit on the edge of the bed, lean over and kiss her on the temple.
Just to see her, my body reacts. I could wake her up. In the end, sleeping with her doesn't just have its downsides. Her unbridled enthusiasm for erotic lovemaking overwhelms me. Meredith is a natural submissive, a carnal creature. It would be a sheer pleasure to train her. My cock twitches to mean his agreement.
For once, it's not nightmares that disturb my sleep but little Meredith Gray.
-Meredith, wake up
-No ..., she protests, hugging her pillow
Her eyelids flutter and open.
- Come on, lazy, stand up, otherwise it will go wrong.
Suddenly I see a sparkle in his eyes.
-Maybe I want that to bard.
She rolls her eyes and laughs at me.
-You are playing a dangerous game, don't roll your eyes or I'll spank you.
-Really ?
She seems a surprise to my serious but excited.
- You signed last night. I have the right to punish you.
-You want to punish me?
-I want to spank you. I want you to learn the rules, to behave with respect.
You are the submissive.
-As if I were going to forget.
She laughs and rolls her eyes.
-Meredith, what did you just do here?
My harsh tone of voice tells her that she broke the rules. Oh I'm going to have a little fun. A morning spanking.
-Nothing
-What did I promise you if you roll your eyes when I talk to you?
My words remain in suspense. She turns pale, and hesitates.
-Derek
"It's sir. I told you what I would do. I'm a man of my word. I'm going to spank you, and then I'm going to fuck you very fast, very brutally."
So yes or no? It's all playing out. I'll find out if she is capable. If not, that will mean that despite the session last night, she cannot behave as a submissive. And it will be all over. the right choice, Ana.
Taking a deep breath, she crawls over to me, and I hide my relief.
-It's very good, now stand up.
She stands up cautiously and puts the condom in my hand, I pull her towards me and tip her over onto my knees, so that her torso rests on the bed. Then I wedge my left leg on her thighs to Immobilize her. I've been wanting the spanking ever since she asked me if I was gay.
-Place your hands on either side of your head.
She obeyed without hesitation.
-Why am I doing this Meredith?
-Because I rolled my eyes when you spoke.
-It's polite, according to you?
-No
-Are you going to do it again?
-No
-I'll spank you every time you do that figured out?
I'm going to savor the moment again for the first time. She really has a superb ass, her ass is offered to me.
When I place my palm on her butt, she contracts ... and awaits his punishment. Her skin is so soft that I stroke both smooth globes tenderly. I am going to make it turn pink.
Raising my hand, I slap her hard, just above her thighs. She holds back a hiccup and tries to stand up, but I hold her firmly in place with my other hand. Then cover the area again with a soft, slow caress. She doesn't move. Panting. On guard.
Yes. I'll do it again. I slap her, two, three. She doesn't ask me to stop, even though she squirms in pain on my knees.
-Don't move, or I'll spank you longer.
I rub the delicate flesh before lashing again, right buttock, left buttock, in the middle. She screams, but doesn't move her arms, and doesn't ask me to stop.
-I barely warm up
I hit her again, leaving an imprint of my rouge on her skin; her ass has a charming pink tint. It's gorgeous.
Another slap; she screams again.
-There is no one to hear you except me.
I spank her relentlessly, following the same pattern - right, left, middle -, each time making a little cry. At twenty, I stop. I'm out of breath, my palm is on fire and I have a band.
`` Enough, '' I said huskily, Bravo Meredith. Now I am going to fuck you.
I stroke her hot ass, then lower my hand to her penis and insert three fingers into her vagina.
- Feel that. Your body likes it, Meredith. You're soaked, just for me.
I move my fingers inside her, making her moan, as her body wraps around my hand and her breathing quickens. I remove my fingers. I want her.
-Next time, I'll make you count the punches out loud. Okay, or is that condom?
I put my hand under her head and gently lift her to stretch her out on the bed, still on her stomach. I release my penis without even removing my jeans, and tear the wrapping of the condom, which I unroll with a gesture on my erection. I lift her hips until she is on her knees. Her glorious ass is offered to me.
-Now I'll take you. You have the right to cum.
I stroke her buttocks. With a sudden movement, I plunge into her. She gasps. I give her powerful thrusts while watching my cock penetrate her. She screams at the moment of the orgasm which tears her body.
-Ah, Meredith.
My enjoyment bursts in turn, and I pour myself into her, losing all notion of time and space. I let myself fall next to her and hug her, whispering in her hair:
-Welcome to my home.
Her abandoned body reassures me, she does not try to touch me. Her eyes are closed, her breathing slowly returns to normal. I stroke her hair, they smell of Meredith, flowers, sex. turned.
-Meredith what's that smell of flowers in your hair?
She opens her eyes, an unknown feeling crosses me they are scary but it is not the darkness it is something much more dangerous.
-I'm using a Lavender shampoo.
- I like that smell. How do you feel?
-I don't know. I didn't like the spanking but I think it turned me on. I feel confused.
-You are not supposed to love.
-Why do you like it?
-I'm made like that.I need to control you.I need you to behave a certain way, and if you don't ... I love to see your pretty pearly skin turn pink and 'warm up under my hands. It excites me.
-So it's not to hurt me?
- A little to see if you support, but not only. It is because you are mine, that I can control you totally. That turns me on a lot, Meredith. I should lend a book or two on submissive art.
-Perhaps. I want to be your submissive it's just new to me.
-I understand, when I started ...
-You have been submitted?
-A friend of my mother initiated me when I was 15 for 11 years. She saved my life.
Her name is Addison Mongomery.
-You were the victim of a Mrs. Robinson who abused you.
His face clearly shows me his disgust.
-Meredith, she saved me. I lived through the beginning of a difficult adolescence I was a brawler, I was angry with the whole world. She calmed me down.
-Don't tell me a story this woman is a pedophile who took advantage of a helpless youngster.
-Stopped. That's enough, this story has been over for years we've been friends.
Meredith looks at me shocked and deeply angry, I move closer to her.
-Don't put Addison between us. Please this is ancient history.
She holds out her hand to me. Darkness rises in me to encircle my throat with their claws.I instinctively recoil, my heart pounding, as fear invades 't touch 't touch .
-No no.
-It's because of her that I can't touch you?
-No it has nothing to do with her.
Rather have with some cameo whore called Amelia and her dealer, her dealer who uses me as an ashtray. Stop thinking about it. She walks towards me. I don't know what her intentions are. The darkness stabs me in the guts. I back up again, raising my arm to protect myself.
I implore him
-Meredith
-Perhaps we should mark the prohibited areas with a marker.
-It's not a bad idea.
I think one of my former submissives forgot her makeup bag. There's a little scarlet lipstick in there, but I doubt Meredith would like my lipstick idea.
-You want our relationship to continue over time, don't you? I don't believe that I can submit, do what you ask of me and not be able to touch you.
I feel immense fear. I have known this girl for only a few days and am what do you say addicted?
"You and I have no rules. I never know where you're going to touch me. It makes me nervous. Your touch… It means more… so much more."
-Is it because of the scars?
- It's not Addison. Don't make a movie, I'm not ready to tell you this story.
She steps forward again; the darkness compresses my chest; I step back into the bed again.
-No.
She tries to hide her disappointment.
-What would you feel if you couldn't touch me
-I would be devastated, I would feel wronged.
Her shoulders slump and she shakes her head with a resigned smile.
-You will have to explain to me one day the reason for this limit not to be crossed.
-One day.
I have to get out of this room. Too much is happening beyond my control, I need to get my strength back on my own. I get up, Meredith stays in the room to get dressed.
As soon as I leave the room I take a deep breath, how did we get there? Everything went well after the spanking Everything went wrong I go to my desk I open a drawer and find the famous lipstick I need Meredith I don't want to waste her I want more time I want really enjoy her in signing this contract made a huge compromise.A business relationship as in intimate life requires 's huge, I could take a step forward towards will never make me and if I say stop she will obey. I think for a few seconds, then come back to the bedroom with lipstick in my hand.
"I think I need you. Hold, take this," I said, handing him the lipstick.
Scarlet red is Addison's color I didn't tell Meredith she would explode and not in a good way I sit cross-legged on the bed and take my shirt off It's either a brilliant idea, or a stupid idea, we'll see.
-I like your idea for a card.
She stares at me puzzled
-Ah? I was joking.
-Not me.
-You want me to draw on you with lipstick? she chokes.
- It'll be gone, after a while.
She considered my proposal, a smile on her lips.
- With lipstick then.
Come on, get on top of me, lean on my thighs.
She joins me on the bed she sits astride me, delighted with this new adventure. I gently laugh at her.
-It has to please you
-I'm always on the lookout for new information, Mr. Shepherd, and that means you are going to be able to relax because I would know where the limits are.
I shake my head, I hope this is a good idea.
-Open the lipstick, give me your hand. The one with the lipstick!
-Are you rolling your eyes, that's very rude Mr. Shepherd. I know people who get downright violent when you roll your eyes in their presence.
-Really ?
We are face to face, I try to control my anxiety, but panic begins to invade me.
As I'm about to cross my limits the darkness surrounds me like
vultures, ready to devour me. I take his hand and pose on top of my shoulder. Fear compresses my chest, expelling all the air from my lungs.
-Supports
I find it hard to articulate that word. She does. I guide her hand around the knuckle of my arm and down my chest. Darkness takes me by the throat, threatening to suffocate me. Meredith does not laughs more, solemn and determined, she concentrates. I look her straight in the eyes to read every nuance of her thought and emotions deep inside her irises. These are two lifelines that
keep me from drowning and keep the darkness at is like a big breath of air it's like I'm drowning but she saves me from my 50 shades of darkness madness.
They are my salvation.
I stop under my rib cage and run his hand across my stomach. The lipstick leaves a scarlet mark on my body I pant, trying to hide my fear We continue together My voice is so hoarse I can't recognize it Completely out of my body, I watch a beautiful young woman tame my monster, I'm at the mercy of Meredith.
-I'm finished, she said.
I would like to go up to the roof of l 'Escala to scream my relief. If I see the slightest pity on his face, I know that I will shatter like a piece of glass. I can't see any.
It is a liberation.
-These are my limits.
-I can live with it.
All of a sudden I feel the need to say it all, because I have the conviction that she will accept me as I am. I unpack my whole story. It lasts a long time because by speaking I win in the face of my demons and darkness. She listens. Then a silence falls. Meredith is in tears full of compassion and kindness.
-You are dark and tortured.
-Yes, you still want me and the contract?
She frames my face with her hands.
-Yes I want to submit, I want to learn with you. We can do it together. Because it's not just sex, it's love, is it? You are not the only one who is twisted and tortured. I am too. And I believe that you and I can be extraordinary together instead of ordinary separately.
I am deeply moved, I want to celebrate our happiness, in my own way.
-I want you to wait for me in the playroom.
Her mouth widened in surprise. I gave her a stern look daring her to argue. She obeyed very wisely. This girl has stamina. Let's see how far. Excited, I pick up my iPod and join her in the games room.
When I find Meredith kneeling behind the door in the agreed spot, eyes downcast, legs spread, with just her panties on, I'm relieved. That's what I feel first, relief. She is ready to play. I feel proud afterwards. She followed my instructions to the letter. I find it hard to hide my smile of satisfaction. Miss Gray takes up any challenge.
Barefoot, I walk past her and put my ipod on the control. I have decided to deprive her of all her senses, except that of touch, and to see the effect it has on her. satin. Leather bracelets are in place. In the chest of drawers the things you will need.
She is humble and beautiful in her submission, the quintessential submissive. I move closer to her.
I remind him of the warning words.
-You look lovely.
I take her chin and lift her head.
- Get up, look at me.
She obeyed; I have her undivided attention.
-I want to repeat that we have the warning words, okay?
She blinks twice, but is silent.
-What are they ?
-Red, Orange, Yellow.
-Keep them.
She raises an eyebrow, with obvious disdain. She's going to say something. No! Not here, not in my playroom!
-No insolence here mademoiselle. On your knees, now !
She complies. Immediately I grab her hair violently and pull. I have to sanction this behavior. I am going to kiss her mouth, which I have dreamed of for days.
-Open your 's a insolence will have to swallow my cum to the last owe me respect and the end you will ask for forgiveness and you will promise me never again start over. Is that clear? And maybe you'll avoid another spanking if I decide.
The tone of my voice is full of anger. I have to train this insolent. It will be a pleasure.
-Yes sir.
I look at her face, her submission is so beautiful. I shove my cock roughly in her mouth to the back of her throat. I come and go without slackening. I sort her hair.
-You like this? Me filling your mouth like that, to punish you. Do you like it?
My voice is that of a dominant who punishes his submissive and taunts her knowing that she can not respond with my cock growing in her mouth. She accepts his punishment I cum in her mouth she swallows everything I leave her mouth
-I beg your pardon sir.
-Well Miss Gray lie down.
I fix her ankles and arms to the posts, blind her with a blindfold, put her headphones on.
And the session begins. It's the best of my life, Meredith takes immense pleasure.
Once the session is over, Meredith is a little stunned I release her. I lie down next to her, hug her to me.
I close my eyes, struggling again against this wave swelling in my chest, it's a mixture of regret and joy, the feeling of having found a home after having lost it for a long time ... it's terrifying. .
-I love you, man.
These words strike me, I remain silent.
-I love you too miss. You know if I tie you up it's not only because of my trauma but also it's my way of confessing that I want to always have you near me.
"Tie me up as much as you want, then. I won't leave you, I promise."
The end