It wasn't that Roxy couldn't recall life before becoming an avatar. She had all the memories of her old life. It wasn't that she couldn't understand their impact and importance on someone; it was that she didn't care for emotions. They weren't important to her.
Who she was before becoming an avatar wasn't who she was now. The memories felt like they belonged to someone else entirely. They felt like a curse; a burden given to her to stop her from being too good.
Blaze often complained about the memories. They were like dreams of things he didn't want or didn't care for anymore. They were memories of people he planned on crushing, destroying. They were memories of times that no longer evoked any true emotion in him. As an avatar, they couldn't feel emotions the same way their human counterparts once did.
Roxy understood anger, fear, pain, joy, love, excitement. She knew what those feelings were, what they felt like and how they could influence someone's life. She just wasn't controlled by them anymore like humans were.
"Hold on," Roxy said to herself with a bit of a smirk as an idea came to her. Humans were run by their emotions. A good day was determined on whether they felt more positive feelings than negative ones, and things like love and heartbreak could be used to manipulate a person into doing anything. Roxy recalled memories of her old life, and how Ravi breaking up with her almost pushed her to quit becoming a Ranger. If she hadn't resisted – been stronger than her feelings – she never would have become the avatar she was today.
"That's it," she called out as an idea came to mind. Humans were controlled by their emotions. Avatars were freed from that prison. She had the perfect plan to get exactly what she wanted. Best of all, it allowed her to play with the idea of manipulation. Just how far would she be able to push a Ranger to do her bidding for her if she used love as her weapon of choice.
Everything she needed was implanted in her head already. She had all the memories of her time with Ravi, from the moment they met right up until they broke up and she was blessed with the life of an avatar by Evox. She knew Ravi cared for her and that would be exactly how she would get her way, prove to Evox he was right selecting her, and take over the planet alongside him.
The Rangers didn't view what happened to her and Blaze as a blessing like she did. They considered it a curse – an illness that needed to be cured. Roxy felt freed from the burdens of humanity but Ravi would see it as a prison. And humans – the emotional creatures that they were – wouldn't have any positive emotional associations with prisons. Not to mention, breaking up with her right before she entered into the "prison", breaking her heart and causing her that pain right before it happened…
Guilt, love; Roxy could use all of it. She could manipulate Ravi without much effort at all if she played her cards right. If she acted like she needed his help, offered him a chance at redemption – simply just the opportunity to clear his own conscious without any consideration of her own feelings in the matter – then she could get exactly what she wanted, and by the time anyone realized it would be far too late.
"You really think that's going to work?" Blaze asked her when she suggested the idea to him, running it by the only person she trusted completely before she presented it to Evox while Scrozzle was around.
"I could get the dumbass to do anything I wanted when I was human," Roxy reminded Blaze. "Should be a piece of cake to do it now."
"What do you need me to do?"
"Nothing," Roxy shook her head. "Honestly, Blaze, you need to do nothing. They think Evox is controlling us, let them think you're still controlled by him. Ravi needs to believe our love is reaching out to the humanity in me."
"Love? Humanity? Oh god, I'm going to be sick," Blaze said as he pretended to gag. Roxy chuckled as she shoved him.
"This is going to be the easiest con. Scrozzle's going to wish he hadn't been so dismissive of avatars once we show him how superior we are."