A/N: I've been shifting focus on fic-writing these days, so NOLY has sadly taken a hit. To make up for that, I took a break from writing AU drabbles to add this little dose of our favorite angsty wonder!
Taken from a tumblr prompt - "Abandoned." If you want to read more of what I'm doing, check out my profile on archiveofourown (sn: opti)! There are plenty of longer fics, smut that doesn't get posted here on ffnet, and drabble compilations much like this one :)
In the days following her return, despite seeing friendly faces and one too friendly that she wished would just leave her alone, April had never felt more alone.
Eduardo was there, sure, but he was in all actuality insanely dull. It became even worse when he started hanging around Andy, clearly starting an honest friendship there. Another mark from her list, there!
Maybe it's the way I'm treating him, she argued in her head one day. Work was proving too boring to pay attention to, as always. Sadly, that meant more time pondering. No, that's dumb. He's lame and stupid.
But there's a strange irony all the while, wondering these absurd thoughts and thinking they're right. Despite refusing to herself that they could be very wrong, and that she's being stubborn – she is not – it's quiet. Ron's quiet isn't sturdy and supportive, and she confides in the surrogate oak more than him these days, especially when Eduardo wants to see her. It's easier to sulk in a field by herself, anyways.
Is that how it's going to be again? she thought, flipping another page in her magazine and only half-reading the pages. Alone. By myself.
Work became work again, and yet April never wondered if it was her fault. It was always his, for making her feel this way so strongly; and it was his fault for making her act this way; and it was definitely his fault for making her think this way.
Alone?
April glanced to Leslie's office, found it empty. She avoided looking at the mesh pencil pot on her desk, or the little plucked flowers within and especially not the folded post-it note inside.
Alone.