Don't make me sad, don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don't know why
Keep making me laugh
*Flashback*
"So the night does hold beautiful sights"
Tauriel froze at that voice. It was his voice. She made sure no one had seen her sneak away. The runestone in her palm felt warmer than it did seconds before. The noise in the city to the right of her coming from the commotion of elves and humans subsided.
"The stars at the sky is a beautiful sight" Tauriel agreed as her eyes did not shift away from the twinkling gems.
She heard him laugh and it made her close her eyes as that magical sound filled her.
"I was not referring to the beauty of the stars. I know someone far more beautiful. Could make a grown man crash to the floor. Her red hair is a fiery flame and her eyes are the color of a green fern. She is kind and reckless"
Her heart beat faster and her now opened eyes darted to the left of her. She had walked outside of the walls of Dale, and out a gaping hole in the stone wall. How had he found her? How had he managed to sneak upon her was a mystery to her as well. She sighed, truthfully it was he who clouded her mind.
"Hello" she said trying to restrain the heat of a blush from reaching her cheeks. Her keen eyes saw the beginnings of a smile form at his lips. That irritating, cocky and lovely side grin that she absolutely loved and hated.
"I can see you are at loss of words" he said, hands behind his back, approaching her with slow steps.
"What is a Prince of Erebor doing out here at this late hour?" she asked as she narrowed her eyes to keep her voice from shivering. He really had kept his promise and of course she was speechless and feeling rather sheepish. Having anger in her mind would keep her from blushing. Having no control over her mind, body and voice was so frustrating to her.
Kili saw hints of accusation in her eyes as he stopped in front of her. He was so close that she could see the reflection of the stars in his dark eyes. The eyes that have captivated her so easily and have kept her prisoner since the day they met. She cursed her mind as she gave him a pointed look.
"I came for a walk. And I wanted to step foot in Dale"
His voice was calm and his facade was collected. She scuffed and reached for his hand, ignored the roaring fire that traveled through her veins as they touched, and returned him the stone.
"Just because we have seen each other does not mean you need to return this to me" he announced a serious shade taking up his face.
He watched Tauriel with hints of confusion in his stare as she sighed heavily.
"It was a mistake to take that stone from you. It's a mistake I am talking to you now"
Her voice and words shot arrows into his heart and she bit her lip as she could see his eyes fall sadly to the stone in his palm.
"I made my thoughts clear about how I feel about you" he whispered without looking up at her.
"This can't be" she whispered with a shake of her head. Tauriel turned to walk away but Kili grabbed her wrist with strength that surprised her.
He did not say a word. He just stared at her as he pushed her back gently. His expression was serious and his eyes were filled with a deep pain that she regretted planting.
"Kili" she hissed as he still did not say a word. She felt her feet move as she walked backwards as her hand grabbed the collar of his coat to have better balance. She felt her back hit the stone wall as they both retreated into shadows the stone wall was giving off, away from the casting light of the torches from Dale.
"You cannot hide your feelings from me" he whispered dropping his hands at his sides.
"Feelings?" she hissed… "What feelings?"
He chuckled darkly. "Tauriel. You are not as good of a liar as you think you are"
"You don't know me! You don't know what I feel" she shot back and she once again tried to walk away but a hand at her hip grounded her.
"Explain this then" he demanded as he reached forward and pressed his body to hers and she felt like melting. A sigh escaped her lips and her head spun. His body felt so hard and toned against hers. The warmth radiating from him made head spin.
Up close he wasn't so short compared to her so his body was pressed against hers in almost equal height. That also meant that her breasts pressed against his chest making him feel lightheaded.
"Explain that reaction" he demanded his breath hitting her cheek. She closed her eyes once again.
She stood there quietly with her hands at her sides ordering them to stay there when she knew she was dying to touch him.
"Explain this" he proceeded as his fingertips grazed her cheek and this time he was the one swallowing hard as her skin felt so smooth as if caressing silk. She closed her eyes at feeling his gentle caresses on her cheek, nose, and finally her lips. He touched the eyelashes at her closed eyes.
"Explain to me why your body reacts to my touches Amralime" he whispered running his lips down the course of her cheeks and up to her temple. She was shivering in his hold, yearning to press him harder and closer against her. She wanted to be wrapped in his arms, and to feel his naked skin beneath her fingertips. She wanted his lips on hers.
But it could not be. It just couldn't. War was upon them. They were on different sides. They could not be together.
"Explain it Tauriel" he whispered once again as his lips caressed her ear and that's when her knees felt weak and her chest rose and fell faster. She was stubborn so her hands were still formed into fists at her sides.
"I don't know" she murmured, stubbornly keeping her head turned away from his. "But I do not want this. Let me go"
They both knew she was lying. But he did as ordered and stepped away.
"Did that elf prince order you to stay away from me?" he asked, venom dripping from his tone. His jealousy flared and it was so clear in his eyes.
She shook her head, surprised to hear jealousy in his voice. "I'm ordering myself"
The clashing pain from her words once again struck his heart with heavy blows. He nodded, taking his gaze away from her. She looked even more beautiful since the last time he saw her. Perhaps she was forbidden to him. Such an exquisite being could not be bound to him, a dwarf who couldn't even attract woman from his own kin.
"I came to tell you to be careful tomorrow if there is a battle to take place. And I wanted to thank you for saving my life" he said and she turned to him and gave him a nod.
"You are capable of stopping that battle"
His eyes jerked towards her. "I cannot"
"Then you can at least not take part in it" she hissed. He was putting himself in danger and that frightened her more than she wanted to admit. But she was supposed to not care..
"I would follow my king, my uncle, to any battle. They are my family, my honor belongs with them"
Tauriel's eyes flared as her need to protect him was set afire. She admired his courage but he was in danger something that worried her beyond words.
"Your honor will lead you to your death! You are outnumbered Kili!"
He scoffed and shook his head. "Seconds ago you have told me that you do not want to see me and now you show worry?"
She opened her mouth and closed it as she thought of her answer. She closed her eyes shut and sighed.
"I don't want you to be harmed" she whispered her eyes looking at everything else but him. "I didnt heal you at Laketown just to see you run into a war that you will lose"
"I hope we aren't forced to fight each other" he said steeling his eyes. He had to find the courage to walk away from her. Her mouth went dry at the thought of raising her daggers against him.
She saw him turn around when panic settled in her.
"Don't you dare walk away from me!" she hissed her temper rising as he made his way into Dale through the hole of the wall.
"I'm not the one running away from my feelings" he accused loudly and she felt like she was just showered with icy cold water.
She quickly grabbed his arm and spun him around. "If Thranduil or a guard sees you, you are not going to be welcomed with smiles"
He smiled and took out his sword from its sheath. "Let them come"
Tauriel hissed in frustration and then she suddenly heard elven steps and voices. She quickly grabbed his arm and with all of her strength pulled him up some stairs that led into a tower.
"Hurry up" she demanded and she grew wide eyed as he grinned.
"Oh look, she can't keep her hands off of me"
She looked at him with dangerous eyes and he had to force himself to not find her attractive even though she looked so gorgeous when she was mad.
"Hurry" she said her voice leaving no room for discussion or mockery.
They reached the top of the stairs and she opened the wooden door stepping inside with Kili in tow.
"You are unbelievable" she accused shaking her head. He gave her an unimpressed look as he surveyed the small room they had escaped into. It was circular of course. A small window with a ripped curtain in the side of it. Rolls of paper were stacked on top of a table off to the side. A thin tapestry covered the floor and others were stashed in one corner. And of course, a layer of dust covered everything.
"I've been told I'm unbelievable before" he remarked with a wink and an innocent smile appeared at his lips.
"Kili you can say the most beautiful words one second and be a complete…"
She stopped as she didn't know what to call him.
He rolled his eyes. "Idiot? Fool?"
"Yes" she answered with a wink of her own.
"If I'm an idiot and a fool for falling in love with an elf so be it. A fiery and intense elf of all means"
Her breath left her in a gasp as her eyes widened. He had said it. He had said the word love so easily with no hesitation whatsoever.
"What?" she whispered trying to keep her eyes from filling with tears. Kili looked at her with furrowed brows.
"I'm not going to hide what I feel for you Tauriel. You can tell me to stay away but I will never stop trying"
She blinked as she felt tears fall down her cheeks.
"I…Kili… "
"It's alright" he said in a shake of his head. "You do not have to tell me anything in return. But I can't fight a battle where I might die without telling you that I love you"
And that was it. She fell deeper into his enchantment then she had already done so. She couldn't breathe as his eyes looked at her with something she couldn't look away from.
"Valar" she whispered closing her eyes. A sob left her as her walls began to crumble. Her resilient goal to walk away from him was now forgotten.
"I looked at you and I couldn't remember how I possibly lived before without getting lost in those dark eyes of yours" she whispered, her eyes closed, and a hand at her chest. "I couldn't let myself divulge in this. I just couldn't. We are forbidden to each other"
Her eyes opened as he stood there looking at her with need and want. She felt exhilarated as she wanted to both run into his arms and run out of that tower.
"We can't let this happen" she whispered. Her voice almost pled. She was scared and he knew she was.
"Yet you are grasping at the knob at the door… is it to run out of here or to keep yourself from coming to me?"
She looked down at her hand that was turning white.
"We can't let this heat build up Kili" she said her resolve melting away as the heat in the room escalated.
Her body begged for him and she was getting tired of saying no.
Kili walked towards her as her heart beat increased in speed. His eyes were darkened with passion that made heat rise within her and settle somewhere unfamiliar which left her dazed.
"Are you sure you don't want to feel heat?" he asked his own breath collapsing as she looked at his lips and down at his body. They were inches away which begged to be closed off.
She shook her head unable to speak.
"Do you want this?" he asked as he wanted to hear her consent. The word heat did not leave her mind as that word made her hands finally reach towards him. She touched his jaw and tensed at the strange sensation of his beard.
She nodded one single movement of her head and she was lifted off her feet.
"Say it" he whispered as her hands buried in his hair. She bit her lip as she wrapped her legs around him.
"Yes"
She felt freedom as she finally said that word and the heat of the room and their bodies rose. She suddenly moaned as he began to press his lips to her neck.
They came to the table, crashed into the piles of rolls as her hands tried to throw them to the floor. His hands grabbed her bottom as he sat her on the wooden surface. .
"Mmmhhh" she whispered as she felt his tongue at the base of her neck. His teeth grazed her collarbones making her say his name in the sweetest tone he had ever heard. He pressed kisses to her skin and smiled as she pulled on his hair. Her boots skimmed up and down his own legs as she was in complete oblivion. She slid off her boots and threw them off her feet.
He proceeded to bite her neck and that's when everything started to make sense. She said it to herself then. She loved him.
All of those little actions and he already had her moaning his name and they haven't even kissed yet. He smiled, his own heart threatening to bounce out of his chest as he saw her throw her head back.
"Your skin is so soft" he whispered grabbing the sides of her face and touching his forehead to hers.
She swallowed her fear and looked at him with determination, desire and recklessness. "Kili. Kiss me. Now"
Oh.. she did not have to tell him twice.
He grabbed her hips, pressed her to him even closer and stared straight into her green eyes. Their lips crashed with passion as the own stars must of exploded with the sincere desire of the lovers. Their tongues touched one another, skimming over lips and teeth. It was a messy, uncoordinated and lip biting kiss that could set fire to the rain and snow.
"You are delicious" he whispered heavily as they separated and breathed in much needed air. Her eyes were bright as she pressed their mouths to each other once again. Her hands skimmed over his hips many times as they finally reached under his tunic.
He moaned against her lips as her fingernails caressed his hip bones at each side. Her fingers skimmed over his abs, impressed with his body and nevertheless aroused from it. Kili was completely at her mercy as she started to untie the laces of his pants. Their kisses grew in intensity as her fingertips slid down the v shape of his toned hips down to a breathtaking area. His pants slacked from the untied laces and they threatened to fall down until she pulled them down. His trousers remained and he shot her a smile that left her wanting more.
Her mind began to wander off to Kili land as he began to kiss down her chin to her neck. Her hands pressed him to her and she could feel his need which made her skin blush even more, something he immediately noticed.
He gave her a side grin which drove her even wilder and she completely surprised him by grinding her hips slightly against his.
Both of them closed their eyes as the friction could definitely be felt and it was beyond exhilarating.
"We have too much clothes on" he remarked with a hungry look on his eyes. She nodded rigorously as he reached for her tunic and began to undo the knots. His eyes were so dark and filled with passion. She saw him freeze as her breasts came into view.
Tauriel closed her eyes as she felt the cold breeze on her naked shoulders. Her eyes were closed but she could feel his wide eyed gaze.
"You are so perfect" he hissed in a lovely whisper. His mouth didn't take long to caress her breasts as her hands dove into his hair again, chuckling and biting her lip with desire.
Her tunic fell to the floor from where it rested at the table. His hand splayed at her ribcage as she sucked in a gulp of air. Her toes curled at feeling his large and rough hands on her that at the same time were so gentle. To be so intimate with someone brought forth a sense of recklessness she had never knew before.
"Your turn" she whispered tightening her thighs around his hips. He gave her a small smile as her hands were quick to untie laces and untie clasps. His chest was beginning to sneak into view and soon after his upper body was gloriously naked.
She bit her lip and chewed on it lightly as her fingers touched his chest. The hair there was so foreign to her touch. His muscular arms were mouthwatering and his skin was calling her name.
"I thought you wanted to keep your distance?" he asked as her hand slid down his toned stomach.
He was so strangely attractive it made heat surge through her veins.
"Be quiet" she demanded in a whisper. Her eyes were concentrated and her hands did not stop their descent down his body until she arrived at the hem of his grey trousers.
"You are so beautifully crafted" she said in awe as she shook her head in disbelief.
"Are you sure about this?" he asked in his deep voice which sent shivers down her spine. He touched her red hair. A flaming fire that was so soft.
He saw her eyes sparkle in the darkness with a deadly fire that rivaled her hair as her hand sneaked into his trousers.
Kili pressed his lips to hers in a rush as she sent lightning bolts of desire down his body due to her strokes.
He gasped in her opened mouth at the friction she evoked. Tauriel was exquisite in every way and he couldn't believe that he had her in his arms gasping his name and her hand down his trousers.
"I was mistaken dwarf" she said with a chuckle that came as a sigh. He stepped away from his pants that were at his ankles and slid them away from them. He grabbed her bottom and with no trouble at all lifted her off the table, her legs around him.
"What mistake is that?" he asked as he settled her on the ground, on top of a dusty tapestry. He could not hide the breath he was holding in as he thought she would regret their actions.
But he breathed a sigh of relief as she cuddled next to him and pushed him down to lie flat on his back. He heard her little laugh which he had grown to love. She straddled his hips as he stood up to meet her lips.
"The mistake I made was to assume you had nothing down your trousers" she teased, biting his lip and staring into his eyes.
"I did tell you to search me" he said with a wink and he was surprised to see that she rolled her eyes.
She was so beautiful and he couldn't quite believe that he was not dreaming. He looked at her and sighed as he realized he never wanted to let her go. He was so frightened that it would all be a dream and he would wake up.
"Less thinking and more doing" she proposed as his reckless smile returned allowing any dark thoughts to leave for the time being.
"I want you" he whispered in a desperate hiss which made her heart beat faster. She wanted him as well. The dampness between her legs was perhaps proof that she yearned for him.
His hands caressed her back, drawing circles as he waited for her nod. Quick fingers undid the seemingly complicated laces of her tights and turned them around so she would lie down on the ground. She gasped as her back hit the floor. He was surprisingly fast for a dwarf.
She closed her eyes and her fingers grabbed the tapestry with desire as Kili slid off her tights.
Tauriel saw him lick his lips as he saw her and suddenly a strange feeling of self consciousness swept her up. He saw the change in her eyes and immediately comforted her.
"You are gorgeous" he said pouring as much love as he could in every word. Tauriel grabbed his hand and placed it at her thigh once she saw his hesitation. Kili pressed little kisses at her cheeks as his hands seduced her skin.
And then he touched her where all of the heat had accumulated, his action making her suck in desperately needed air.
"Valar" she hissed as he stroked her ever so slowly.
"Mhh" she whispered and then jumped as he slid in one of his fingers in her. There were small noises surrounding them originating from the action of sliding his finger in and out of her.
Her closed eyes jerked open as she found his eyes already looking at her expressions. She opened her mouth to scream, to talk, or to breathe but she could not do anything as he was currently making her forget her own name.
Kili smiled as she wrapped her arms around his neck and began to move her hips in rhythm of his finger. The sweet sensation drove her insane as she had never felt such an intense feeling before.
A dwarf had his finger inside of her, she thought to herself.
"Oh gods" she chuckled as the sensation grew stronger and stronger. She closed her eyes and covered her mouth with her hand. She would scream, she knew she would.
And then suddenly she was there. Her vision blurred, her insides melted and her head spun. His name was the only word on her mind and that was the word she moaned aloud as both of her hands scratched his toned back.
"Ride it like a wave" he advised as she shook beneath him. Her eyes opened as she looked at him.
"That was.." she whispered not finding the right words to describe the sensation. Her voice was raspy and quiet.
"The heat is delicious isn't?" he asked. Tauriel nodded and agreed wholeheartedly.
"I want to taste you" he then said. His tone had her swallowing hard as she wasn't sure what he meant. But she felt his mouth at her neck and as it started to descend south she had an idea of what he meant.
"Uhh Kili…" she whispered as she was already losing control of any coherent thought. His mouth at her breasts had her sighing contently and then he moved lower. Both his hands grasped her small waist. She felt his tongue slip past by her bellybutton and she gasped.
"Kili" she repeated. He gave her a final smile and then he went in between her legs.
Her mouth ran dry as she held onto his hair for dear life. She felt his tongue on her most intimate part and she opened her mouth in astonishment.
She cursed in her mother tongue as she pulled on his hair.
"Ohhh… don't stop" she moaned, closing her eyes and smiling as she threw her head back.
Kili's hands dug into the skin on her hips as she made the most encouraging noises. She finally tighten her thighs around him and gasped repeatedly. She tried to push him away but he stayed there driving her to the very edge of the heated sensation.
She shook in his hold as he finally looked up at her. Saying that she looked so pretty was an understatement. Her eyes were closed in bliss, a smile was at her lips, her skin was flushed a deep red and a thin sheet of sweat covered her lovely and small body. And above all, her fiery hair surrounded her making her look like a goddess.
"Gorgeous being" he whispered as she rose up to greet his lips tasting her own essence on his tongue. They collapsed to the floor in messy kisses.
"That was wild" she murmured as she pulled down his trousers with her hands and then her toes pulled them all the way down. Her eyes widen at the sight. Now it was his turn to blush and become hesitant but his cockyness overpowered and he shot her a side grin.
"Come and walk with me on the wild side" he whispered, his voice sending shivers down to strange places. "You like what you see my lady?"
Her desperate hands reached for him once again.
"Will it hurt?" she asked a hint of fright in her green eyes. He wasn't exactly small… nothing about his body was in proportion to hers. Kili froze his aching desire as he tended to her doubts.
"If it does we will stop immediately" he whispered rubbing his nose to hers. She swallowed as she saw love and sweetness in his eyes that were aimed at her.
"I want to try" she murmured, feeling tears gather at her eyes at the way he looked at her.
He turned on his back and she instinctively straddled his hips. Their naked bodies felt so good as they touched each other.
"You take control and we will go at your pace" he said, his voice coming in short breaths at having her on top of him completely naked.
Tauriel's eyes did not leave his as she swallowed all of her fears away and mandated herself to ride on this breathtaking adventure… quite literally.
A gasp and moan left him as she slid onto him ever so slowly. Her eyes half closed in passion as she felt the unavoidable stretch. And that's when she felt the stinging of the pain and her instinct took over and stopped her descent and slipped back up again.
"I'm sorry" she whispered her cheeks flaming hot as he rose and gave her a smile. He shook his head and grasped the sides of her face with gentle hands.
"Don't apologize Amralime"
"I want to try again" she said with determination in her voice as he looked at her with a serious gaze. The desire in her only flared up with more intense sparks as she felt him inside of her and she wanted to feel that again. The pain stung but she could now endure it because she knew the extent of it.
"Tauriel" he whispered. He did not want to hurt her. Causing her pain brought great worry to him.
"Again" she whispered her chest quickly rising and falling. He gave her a silent nod, not wanting to argue with her determination. He looked down at her to check that no blood was dripping out of her. As he saw nothing he raised his gaze to her.
He did not lie down to the floor but instead he cradled her in his arms as she descended once again onto him. This time she prepared for the pain and she bit her lip so she wouldn't complain aloud.
"Slowly" he whispered his arms around her back holding her in place to aid her retreat just in case she would want to stop.
She gasped under her breath and a small painful moan left her which suddenly made him want to stop everything. But she gently pushed him down and started to kiss him with heated passion and that's when the temperature of the room reached dangerous heights.
"I'm alright" she whispered in a gasp as she started to move. He gave her a careful look as he moved his hips in sync with hers. His hands reached for her breats and cradled them in his palms once he saw the pain disappear from her eyes.
She moaned his name in gentle gasps. Music to his ears. He could die happy as long as his last thought was her voice saying his name in the manner she was moaning it now.
"Mahal Tauriel" he hissed as she moved faster and he could not help himself but flip them around so he could have some small control as well. She smiled with her eyes closed in bliss as her legs tighten around him. Kili looked down at her and could not believe the sight. Never in a million years would he had imagined to have an elf lass underneath him moaning his name. But now there she was and he was going to make her see stars.
"Ohh" she hissed turning her head as the familiar waves were getting closer. Kili could feel it coming as well. He was gasping for air as he picked up speed. She bit her lip again and again as everything started to cave in. Black dots danced in her sight. His body became a lifeline as she held tight onto him with fears that if she let go he would disappear.
He felt her walls tighten around him as she cried his name to the darkness around him. Kili followed after her as his own head spun with full bliss.
He kissed her lips slowly and she gasped next to his mouth as she felt hot liquid inside of her which now dripped down her thighs.
"How was that?" he asked breathing in harshly. She smiled at him unable to speak yet.
Their bodies were still connected as she began to move her hips once again.
"I'll take that as a sign that you enjoyed it" Kili teased pressing a soft kiss to her lips.
"I never thought I would have a dwarf on top of me" she whispered feeling so unlike herself. His hands slid up from her stomach to her breasts.
"On top of you… or inside of you. Yet here I am" he said with a wink.
She chuckled. The soft noise making him smile like an idiot.
"I can't believe a dwarf is touching me all over" she whispered letting her tongue caress his lips.
"I can't believe an elf maid is grasping my wonderful arse…" he then said and she did not have time to laugh as his lips claimed hers once again.
They made love throughout the night ignoring what tomorrow would bring. If tomorrow he would die, at least he would die content as the love of his life was there with him, in body and soul.
And that pretty elf lass was currently moaning his name and branding hers on his skin. So war, fear and uncertainty could go fuck themselves.
Tauriel walked through the streets of Dale and did not answer to anyone calling to her. Her body was exhausted and the pain that surrounded her left everything feeling dark and desolate.
The streets were filled with bodies. The pain around her collided with hers making her heart turn icy cold.
Her eyes did not cry anymore. Her heart ached beyond comprehension but she kept her stride consistent. She had not reach that tower at the edge of the city.
Minutes later she arrived.
Her eyes scanned it and it was as if the last arrow pierced her heart because she sunk to her knees and screamed his name in agony.
And that's when she promised herself she would never repeat his name ever again. The image of his eyes came to her as she rose to her feet. Tauriel wiped her eyes and cheeks and took a deep breath.
She made her way to the tower and stared at the snow covered stairway snaking around it. She stepped into the first step.
His lips came to her mind.
Second step.
His touch. The gentleness of his hands against her skin.
Third step.
The way his body moved beneath her hands.
Fourth step.
His laugh.
Fifth step.
His voice.
Sixth step.
His way of driving her insane with desire.
Seventh step.
The way he said her name. As if no one else had ever said it. Each syllable filled with sweetness.
She closed her eyes and began to climb faster as she remembered everything there was to remember about Kili. She had fallen in love. And now as she opened the door she couldn't help but hate herself for it.
"Reckless dwarf. How on earth did I fall in love with you?" she whispered with a weak smile slamming the door and laying down on the floor succumbing to her exhausted state.
Notes- Thanks for reading! 3