It funny how fast I can feel on top of the world just to be brought down by things I had no control over. There I sat on friday morning near my grandmothers bed side. I was curled up on a couch watching her, this was my third day here. My hopes had been high at first, they had to be, but it was quickly fading.

I read my book not paying attention to the words. Then the worst thing that could happen happened. Kyle led Danny into the room.

'Oh-uh sorry I can go," he turned. I felt conflicted.

"You can stay, she would have wanted you to," I moved so my legs were under me now. Kyle watched us couriously, Danny sat nociably to the other side. And i pulled a book out of my bag and began reading it.

I could feel his eyes on me so I began drooping over time till it was believable that i was asleep. I heard him get up and the groan of a chair. "Hey Ida, I came back to visit I miss talking to you. Kyle says its not looking good and i know you fought for her, but she hates it more that your hurting staying alive. Don't do that i already did. Thank you for everything Ida, and for taking care of her when her parents or i wouldn't."

I could feel the tears streaming slightly knowing this was true. All was interrupted when my phone rang loudly. I jumped and got it the caller I.D saying mom.

"Sammykins why did you call me so many times your father and i are extremely busy." I could hear the frustration in her voice.

"Well mother if you would have answered you would have known that grandma may not have more than a few days left, not that you seem to care," i pressed end call and shut off my phone.

"You okay sam?" Danny deep voice pulled me out of my frustration.

"I said you can stay but don't act like you care about me." i huffed curling back up on the couch.

"Sam i-"

"I said dont!"

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It was almost midnight when i heard her struggle to breath. "Grandma i'm right here,its okay." she started choking again i grabbed her hand holding back tears. "You can let go, i love you but don't stay for me, please."

Soon the choking stopped as did the slight rise and fall of her chest. "No, no, no,no,no"

Kyle came in "samantha, all the paperwork was already handled as well as the arrangements your parents had discussed with us."

I felt myself being pulled into someone, i wasn't going to fight the comfort that was needed. "Shh, i'll get you home okay. You can't stay here." it was danny whispering into my ear. I saw him pull his hoodie with the DP emblem over his head and hand it to me. "I didn't bring my bike were flying."

I pulled it over my head noticing it barely reaches to my sleep shorts. And he grabbed my waist and pulled me through the roof back home. Iy bag down and took off one of my vans. "Okay sam just go to bed, i can bring your car back soon." he turned to leave out my window.

"Danny, stay i-i can't be alone just tonight." i was crying now knowing nothing would be okay right now. "I'll ignore you in the morning but please tonight."

I got under my covers and patted my comforter for him to sit. When he did i grabbed his arm and pulled him so he was holding me.

"Sam-"

"Don't ruin this by talking just enjoy my company fenton." i mumbled.

"I miss you, samantha." there was a light kiss on my head before I blacked out crying.

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It had been a week, a week since i watched my grandma die, a week since i woke up to the familiar sensation of danny's arms and a week since i had talked to him. But there I stood in the garden my grandmother and i made at a podium. It was a sunny warm day, it didn't fit the mood at all.

My family from all over came, probably just for the will. Her personal doctors, as well as people she knew from the retirement community she had been at for a few months, Tucker danny and mikey sat there a seat next to mikey for me and right beside my seat stood my parents.

"Hello everyone, my name is samantha manson, i was-well am ida's granddaughter. She was an amazing woman who loved with her soul. Through my entire life i never thought id see the day she would leave us. She was always so strong and amazingly full of life."

I took a deep breath and looked at her urn "this was her favorite place in the house, we planted it and took care of it along with the staff, she read to me here and when her sight began to fail i read to her here, some of her brightest smiles and saddest tears were seen by our garden, so today my parents palma and jeremy manson will spread her ashes here."

I looked at the urn knowing we had a third of her shes in a china cabinet in the house but it still hurt. It felt impossible.

They had grabbed the ashes and spread them through our white roses, they were her favorite, i almost threw a fit when they wanted to spread them through the red ones.

"Hi everyone, im Palma manson Idas only daughter, this past week has been incredibly hard, i would like to thank you all for coming out here, she would have appreciated it." she smiled. "Now a light lunch will be served in the dining room, and once again thank you all."

It was almost funny to me grandma would have hated this, the family she knew didn't care about her, my mom acting like she doesn't plan on leaving in another two days once the family leaves our house.

"Hey sammy, are you okay?" mikey wrapped an arm around my shoulder, i leaned into him, trying not to cry. He kissed my forehead. "You are so strong sammy, but you can be strong and cry."

"Not now, not in front of everyone." i sighed. I sighed as my cousin Tiffany waltzed to us. Her black dress had a baby pink color that matched the bow in her perfectly blond hair, she was who my parents wanted me to be.

"Sammykins, i was walking around and do my eyes deceive me or is the ghost boy here, Phantom, right.": she batted her thick eyelashes framing her blue eyes. "Cause hes awfully cute and i mean papa only came to support uncle jeremy-"
"Yes if that's him, do what you want, just a fair warning this girlfriend is batshit." i rolled my eyes at her.

"Yeah that's true so i'd stay away." Mikey had an obvious disgust in his voice.

"Oh, hi," she flipped her hair wand eyed him. "It's whatever, sammykins you know i only play with things while they are interesting." she sashayed away towards where i could see danny and tucker.

"Wow she is something." mikey scoffed.

"You don't have to share a room with her for three days,"i grumbled crossing my arms. "I just hate how my family only thinks for themselves, my parents own a company and will go to hell if it meant making more money, but grandmas in the hospital and i'm the one left to watch her die."

"Oh sam, wanna get away from everyone before paulina lite comes back?" mikey pulled me for a hug and i nodded into his chest.

When we thought nobody was watching we ran up to my there was a sweet relief in being in my own space.

We sat on my be sa he kissed me gently his hand on my waist almost as hesitant as the first time. I placed my arms around his neck pulling him closer. He brought another hand to my waist.

My mind ran, i knew this was a wrong place wrong time kind of situation. But i had such a lack of control in every single aspect of my life that this raw feeling of control was all that i craved.

I moved my legs to either side of him placing my hand in his orange hair. I let go for air, his face was close to the reddish shade of his hair. When he licke his lips i pushed him down continuing where it was. I felt hi sand shakingly and hesitantly do to the curve of my butt. I took one guiding it.

It was sudden that i heard a bubbly giggle then a gasp in horror. And a male voice saying "shit."

"Fuck Tiff this is my room." i turned to see her with danny's wrist in her hand. I blushed sitting next to my obviously frazzled boyfriend.

"Wow sammykins, who would have known you had that in you, today of all days too." her voice was rough, with an edge shining through her blue eyes.

"Um im gonna go home my mom, wants me home in time for...family cooking class" mikey scratched his neck. Straightened his button down and ran down the stairs.

"Tina-" danny started, to be cut off.

"Tiffany," she whined.

"Can i have a word with sam." his eyes were glowing and the bite in his voice was forcefully.

She looked at me huffed, and walked away. I fixed my dress and smoothed it down cleaning my lips too.

"Really Sam, that i come up here and that is what i see." he sneered.

"Well daniel doesn't that seem familiar, walking in on a girl on top of a guy." i glared like hell at him. "The only difference is you didn't walk in alone, you had my cousin tripping over planning on doing the same thing."

He shut the door walking towards me, a tight grip on my waist, whispering in my ear. "Well then tell me sam, does he control like i do? Does he know about that spot on your neck that barely needs to be touched to get cute little mones out of you?"

I looked up his eyes blue, i knew my eyes held the answer to his questions so he continued.

"Has he snuck out at three am after 'studying'? Does he feel as good as i-" we were nose to nose now one small move and our lips would be touching. But i pushed him away.

"You don't need to know anything," i glared up at him he was shocked by the sudden movement. "I'm not like her, don't make me like her. You messed up, i will not be a toy that helps you make the same mistake." i opened to door and went back downstairs.

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Authors note: SO i believe that it's time to properly introduce myself, my name is ally and all through my life i had related to sam, she made me goth i swear on my life. When i was younger i thought life would be like hers where everything fell into place, it didn't, so i wanted to over exaggerate stuff and put her through something i've gone through within the last year. Being barely 18 i found stuff just seems to fall apart. Anyway the whole idea i had was sam twistin her crappy life into a whole fuck you thing. Thank you for reading. Next chapter i'll start with what happened between danny and sam a year ago.

Thank you loves.