The next morning I felt groggy. I pulled on some leggings and an oversized jumper, dress. I brushed out my hair, but as I looked in the mirror I saw the sadness on my face.

I saw the pain in my eyes and I knew today was going to be a hard day.

I was still determined to go to school. This was the only thing in my life that gave me an escape and hell if I wasn't going to take it. I walked downstairs and vaguely ate whatever was easily accessible.

Walking to my car in silence I saw Jacob standing by it.

"Ness." He saw my face and honestly we both looked as pained as each other.

But I was still angry at him. No matter how badly I wanted him to hold me and fix it. I walked past him to the door.

"Nessie please. I was angry and I made a mistake."

I rolled my eyes. "I'm not interested, Jacob."

He grabbed my arm and pulled me to face him. I tried to fight him but he was too strong.

"Please Nessie. I'm so sorry for what I said."

I finally yanked myself out of his grip.

"I'm gonna be late for school." Was all I said.

I knew he was hurting like me, but I was so done with him right now. I needed space to think. I got in the car and drove away, watching his figure shrink into the distance.

The day was slow, but everyone tried really hard to cheer me up. They could see something was wrong and they really were great friends to me all day. But what Jake said to me was spinning round in my head.

He didn't believe in me.

He didn't see me as more than a charge he was forced to watch over because she was too young to take care of herself.

And it hurt me.

It hurt me more than I ever thought it would.

Dylan and Simon were telling me about some kid in their gym class that morning, but I just couldn't focus. It was as if Jacob had a hold of my heart and was squeezing it tighter and tighter, until I could no longer breathe.

"Ness?" Simon's gentle voice pulled me from my haze.

I looked up at them both and they seemed genuinely worried for me.

"Is everything okay?"

I loved that Simon cared, but I was just so let down. In my 6 years I had never felt disappointed in Jacob before. It really weighed on me and I couldn't figure out why.

"Yeah, just had some family drama." I hoped that would be enough to keep them both quiet.

It seemed to work. They walked with me to the bleachers where all of my friends were gathered. Both groups were intermingling and it made me happy. Kat waved me over and I sat beside her.

"Hey you. Why the long face?" She asked.

I didn't want to talk about it.

"How was your Biology lesson?" I quickly changed the subject, pulling at my long red locks anxiously.

She could see I was dodging the issue, but let it go.

"It was awful. I got paired up with Brad Stone, the dumbest jock." Her faced was that of disgust.

The group all nodded in agreement. But I hadn't met Brad. I couldn't pass judgement on him. They discussed his negative attributes, but I tried to stay out of it.

"Vanessa?"

I didn't even respond or react.

"Nessie!"

That caught my attention. My head shot up and I saw them all looking at me. Lucas got up, moved towards me and sat beside me.

"Girl you gotta cheer up." He informed me. "No one wants to see you sad."

While that may have been true, my sadness was allowed. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and shook me.

"Someone get this girl chocolate and a bear!" He shouted to the group.

I had no idea what he meant by that, but they apparently did.

"Ness, please. Let us help you." Shauna pleaded.

Seeing them all supporting me and trying to help me meant so much to me. It was the only thing that had managed to make me smile all day. Humans could be so caring and loving. It was so beautiful.

After lunch, I lagged through the day. I hoped that I could stay under the radar that day, but I was wrong.

As I walked to my car, the parking lot had become damp and muddy from the rain during school hours. I carefully made it to the back of my car, when a pink Fiat splashed mud down my body.

I stared at my clothes in horror.

The window was rolled down to reveal Kaila, a big grin on her face.

"Oh honey, you should really be more careful." Her laughter made me want to burst into tears.

This was the worst day I had had in my whole life so far.

I climbed in, squelching into my seat, and drove home.

I went home and rushed up the stairs to change before my parents saw me. I took a quick hot shower and changed into come comfortable clothes before laying on my bed.

I was so hopeless.

I spent the rest of the weekend feeling the same.

I heard my parents tell Jacob to give me space when he came looking for me again. He didn't want to but he did it.

I worked on homework assignments, fed on animal blood like I did every week in order to control my thirst, and continued to function in a monotone format.

That Sunday night, my father came to my room.

He walked in cautiously. "Hey Renesmee." He greeted.

I was sitting on my bed typing on my laptop. I was trying to complete an assignment but my mind was elsewhere.

He quietly came and sat on the end of my bed. "I know you are mad at all of us. But we only want you to be safe."

I didn't say anything to him because I knew it wouldn't help my case.

"I talked to your mother, and we both agree you should go to that party."

I stared at him in shock.

What?

"We both discussed how responsible you are and how we should give you more credit."

I couldn't believe my ears. This was the best day of my life. They actually heard me. For real.

"But, you will text us every hour and you will let us know when and where it is."

I could deal with that. It was worth it. A chance at a real teenage experience.

"Thank you." I sincerely did appreciate it, but I was trying to be mature.

He smiled. "You're welcome."

He got up and left the room without another word. I felt relief, but deep down the aching and pain was still there.

I had everything I wanted, but somehow it wasn't enough.