The story takes place right after the season 10 finale, after Dean killed Death, the Mark of Cain was removed and Darkness was released into the world. I mentioned before, new characters will be added and thrown in the story and I will bring back several former characters from the show in the upcoming future.
Chapter 29 Dean's Nightmare
That same night that Sam had his nightmare, Dean was now having a nightmare of his own. He too found himself in a room of total blackness and looked around to see if there was anyplace to go but he didn't see anything. Just then, he heard a sound like someone was coming.
"Hello, is there anyone out there?" Dean cried out looking around his surroundings.
Then, he heard a voice that wasn't familiar.
"Hello Dean, nice seeing you again" the voice said.
Dean kept looking around not knowing who was talking to him or where they voice came from.
"Who are you and where are you?" he cried out again.
"I'm everywhere. As to who I am, can't you tell, I mean it hasn't been that long" the voice said.
"I'm afraid you'll have to jug my memory!" cried out Dean.
"Well, you know me quite well Dean you and your brother both. In fact, me and Sam were quite tight at one point" said the voice.
Dean felt a sudden chill and fear started to arise causing his heart to beat faster as he feared he knew who the voice was.
"Lucifer?" he said.
"In the flesh, well you can't see me but I can see you" said Lucifer.
"Why don't you come out and show yourself already!" cried out Dean getting tired of this game.
"Well what fun would be, it's much more entertaining keeping you guessing" Lucifer said.
Dean grew more impatient.
"Enough with the games, come out and face me!" yelled Dean.
Then after a brief pause Lucifer said, "Oh, very well then" and just then he appeared out of nowhere standing right in front of Dean in his new vessel. "Well, aren't you glad to see an old friend" he said with a menacing smirk.
"Why are you in my dream Lucifer?" asked Dean even though he already knew the answer.
"Well, I know you and Sammy want to find me so I just decided to save you the trouble and come to you in your dreams of course, sorry we couldn't meet in person when you're awake. Anyway, I know you two want me to allow my father to put that cursed Mark back on my arm in order to send Darkness packing" Lucifer replied.
"Yeah, so what if we do, why don't you stop hiding away like a coward, and do it already since you are so afraid of this big bad one who upstages you" said Dean still looking about.
"Well, as I told your brother when I invaded his dream, I'm not helping dear old dad, after he threw me away and had me locked up in that cage and only let me out now that it's convenient for him to" said Lucifer.
"So what are you going to do, just hide out like a little girl while Darkness destroys the entire world and don't think you and your henchmen downstairs aren't included from what I heard everybody and everything is at risk because of this thing" said Dean.
"I'm quite aware of what Darkness is capable of as I was there the first time we did battle with it. However, I won't let that deter my decision to just wait this one out and let daddy and his little warriors battle it out with Darkness themselves, meanwhile I'll make my time on this planet quite useful" said Lucifer.
"If that's the case, why did you even bother to invade my dream, it can't be simply just to tell me that?" asked Dean.
"No, that's not the only reason why I'm here. You see Dean, I just wanted to show you something, something you truly won't like" said Lucifer.
"What's that?" asked Dean skeptical.
"I know you think that I'm all evil, twisted without any ounce of good in me but I think the scary thing about it all to you is that we're not so much different as you think" he said.
"I'm nothing like you Lucifer!" yelled Dean.
"You don't think so because you see yourself as the good guy, the hero who saves the world from demons, monsters and all that goes bump in the night, but you see oh Deano, there is dark in you as proving recently with the Mark. That Mark made have played a role in your latest I say very questionable actions of date, but it didn't really changed you. It only brought at elements of yourself that was already there, a side that you had hidden away somewhere deep into your soul. You see you were always capable of darkness, Dean" said Lucifer.
"I don't have to listen to this crap!" said Dean feeling quite defensive, perhaps out of fear that there was some truth to what Lucifer was telling him.
"Come now Deano, no need to get defensive, I'm only pointing out the truth" said Lucifer.
"You never just point out anything, you twist and manipulate facts for your own agenda" Dean replied.
"I swear to you Dean, nothing I said is a lie and you know it yourself. Sure the only reason you got the Mark was to destroy my first protegé Abaddon, and I admit I was sorry to see one of my favorite pupils defeated by you but I also have to admit I was quite impressed, I didn't think you had in you" he said.
"Well I aim to impress" said Dean sarcastically.
"Anyway, sure your motive was to play hero and save the world but in asking for the Mark you had no regard of the consequences which seems to a habit of you. You like to think you're doing what is good and right but in fact you're just feeding into your own ego, your need to be the one who has to save the day" Lucifer responded.
Dean just stood there little awkward and uncomfortable knowing that Lucifer is playing on his fears but still scared to the fact some of what he said is true.
"No need to be sad, I like you Dean really, I do" he said.
"Well I can't say the feelings mutual" Dean retorted back.
Lucifer just laughed.
"I know, but that's okay, you always had a tendency to be self-righteous. I mean I know what I am, but you judge others with a morally superior attitude over things you are equally guilty of. I mean take your brother for example. You sold your own soul to bring him back from the dead and I know you probably convince yourself you were just a martyr saving your little brother, but we know that's not really true. You see, you did it because you were scared, scared of facing the world without him. You always act like your brother needs you and your protection but the real truth is you need him more than he needs you and because you are so scared to be alone" he finished.
Dean still started to flinch as his heart started beating faster by the moment as he listened to Lucifer's speech realizing there was no where to escape or hide as Lucifer was in his dream.
"Oh Dean, the real truth about you is that you are not a hero, you are far from one because you have caused more destruction on this earth than good" he said.
"No, that is not true!" cried out Dean.
"Isn't it, wasn't your selling your soul that lead the angels to pull you out Hell and broke the first of the 66 seals, of course it did free me from that cage so thank you there".
Dean turned away and tried to walk off but Lucifer suddenly appeared right in front of him with a sinister look on his face as he continued on with his speech like nothing.
"Then there is your brother freeing Darkness onto the world, I say there that tops off anything I ever did, even I wouldn't have let that thing out" he told Dean.
"We didn't know!" cried out Dean. "
That's your problem, as I said before you never think about the consequences of your actions and if anybody knows that best are all my witnesses" he said.
Just then appeared a large crowd of people that came in hundreds.
"Who the hell are they?" asked Dean.
"Just the many people whose lives you destroyed over the years and you are going to face them all" said Lucifer.
Within seconds, Lucifer vanished and Dean was left alone to face the large crowd. Just then Ellen and Jo appeared right in front of them and Dean looked surprised and scared remember their fates.
"Ellen, Jo?" he cried out to them.
"You bastard, if you hadn't entered our lives me and my daughter would still be alive! "Ellen cried out.
"Ellen, I never meant..." said Dean but Jo cut him off.
"I had to lose my life because I saved yours and now both me and my mother are gone. I wished I never laid eyes on you!" she yelled with hatred.
"No, this isn't real!" cried out Dean his heart now racing with fear and remorse.
"Well, what about me, am I real!" yelled a voice.
Dean saw Pamela Barnes the psychic who was killed helping them enter the veil and her eyes were burnt out like they were when she had that séance to summon Castiel.
"Pamela" cried out Dean with remorse in his voice.
"I regret Bobby ever introducing me to you and your brother. Ever since I only had my eyes burned out becoming blind then got slaughtered by that demon. You two got me freaking killed!" she yelled with so much anger and hatred in your voice.
Dean closed his eyes knowing full well that wasn't really Pamela.
"Dean, you son of a bitch!" yelled a woman's voice that Dean knew all to well as he opened his eyes again he saw Lisa and standing next to her was Ben who looked exactly like he did the last time he saw him at the age of twelve.
"You are not real!" yelled Dean as he couldn't bear the sight of Lisa and all the regret he had regarding her and Ben.
"I thought I love was real, our relationship. I trusted you with me and my son, to always look after us. Instead you brought danger into our home, then you go up and abandon us to go traveling around the world with Sam" she yelled.
"I was protecting you, trying to keep you two safe!" cried out Dean even aware that they were not real but he couldn't help himself.
"But we weren't safe we got kidnapped because of you, I was possessed by a demon and nearly died and my son had to watch, then you leave us again!" Lisa cried out.
"Lisa, I'm sorry" was all Dean could say little very scared and remorseful.
"I looked up to you as a dad, wanted to be like you and you made me kill someone and I nearly lost my mother because of you then you leave us like you didn't care" cried out Ben the look on his face was pure rage.
"Ben, I do care about the two of you, that's why I left, I knew you two would be better off without me" answered Dean looking like he was about to cry.
"Bull, you just didn't want us, you never wanted a family just to go around the world and hunt monsters, you left us behind, we were just holding you back!" yelled Ben.
"No Ben, that is not true, both you two meant lot to me, you are like my son Ben, I would have done anything to keep you two safe even if it meant leaving you both!" cried out Dean.
He felt so much pain now looking at the two people he really cared about the most and still does. This was heartbreaking for him. Lisa and Ben then disappeared and then the image of Kevin reappeared to him.
"Kevin no!" said Dean as he couldn't deal with what Lucifer was doing to him anymore.
Looking at Kevin just was too much for bear.
"Yeah Dean it's me you old pal Kevin, the one who was going to go to Princeton and have a normal life then you and your brother showed up promised to protect me and my mother but you didn't did you!" he shouted at Dean.
"Kevin, I tried to keep you safe, I will always regret not being able to, that was on me what happened to you" said Dean.
"Crowley was right, I was just a long string of death counts you and your brother had, you only kept me around because I was useful to you" Kevin raved.
"Kev, you know that is not true, you were like family to me, me and Sam regarded you as another brother" Dean replied.
"My mother was my family, Oh you remember my mother, the one you tried to kill when Crowley entered her body right in front me" he cried.
"I'm sorry about that but she wasn't your mother anymore, I had to kill Crowley" Dean answered.
"That is total bull! You know you could have exorcised Crowley right out of her if you really wanted to but the fact is you cared more about killing Crowley than saving my mother. Of course, if it was Sam your real brother, you know you would have tried to save him, no way in hell you would put a knife in his heart without so much of a blink, but that's how it always is. Sam is your only true family who you would save no matter what and anybody else is expendable. Why do you think I ran away from you after what you tried to do, because I didn't want me or my mother to end up one of your collateral damage, I didn't feel safe with the two of you and I was right not to. You practically worked me like a slave to help your brother and it got me killed just like Crowley said" he finished.
Dean just couldn't take the guilt anymore hearing Kevin or fake Kevin's cold and hurtful words. He just bowed his head down in shame and regret.
"Kevin, I'm sorry man!" he cried out.
"Sorry isn't good enough, I'm dead but you and Sam are still alive that is all the matters to the two of you and anybody who gets too close to the both of you ends up dead always!" he lashed.
"No!" Dean yelled out again then closed his eyes and turned away from Kevin as he didn't want to listen anymore.
"Yes and if anybody knows that it's me!" yelled a familiar voice.
Dean opened his eyes and turned around and this time it was Bobby standing in front of him. Dean was pleading for this nightmare to end already but all he did was stare at Bobby was so much pain in his eyes.
"Bobby, no!" cried Dean.
"Yes, it's me you idgit. To think I loved you and Sam like my own sons, wasted my life helping and bailing the two of you out of any trouble, you needed me and I came running and it just cost me my life in the end. You know I think my life would have been better if I never met you two and your father!" he cried out full of rage.
The look in Bobby's eyes seemed like pure hatred.
"Bobby please" Dean begged.
"Don't you please me, you know what, all three of you guys were nothing but a thorn in my side, a curse and anybody around you all are damned!" Bobby yelled with so much venom.
Dean started crying again and wanted to run but he just stood there frozen. Then the image faded again and this time it was Charlie standing in front looking just like she did the last time he saw her. She was now facing him but her face too had a look of coldness and anger.
"He's right you know, I mean look at me, the moment you entered my life it has been nothing but danger. You dragged me into your latest mission and I got my arm broken, I said I never wanted to see you guys again afterwards and now I wish I hadn't" she said.
"Charlie!" Dean cried out.
"Don't you Charlie me, I loved you Dean you and Sam both, you were like the brothers I never had and what did you do, you hurt me real bad, you beat the crap out of me, broke my arm again and nearly killed me!" she yelled.
"That wasn't me Charlie, that was the Mark, you know you were the last person I would ever hurt kiddo!" Dean cried out.
"You could have controlled it if you really wanted to, you knew my evil side wasn't a match to you and I warned you if you hurt her, you hurt me too but you beat me anyway and wouldn't stop!" she yelled.
"Oh Charlie" Dean cried out Dean was tears kept streaming down his face.
"Even then I forgave you and was trying to help save from the Mark and I look what it got me, stabbed to death by one of those filthy Stynes. I had a life and didn't want to lose it!" she cried.
"Dammitt, I didn't want you involved. Sam didn't tell me he dragged you into it" Dean explained.
"He wouldn't have to if you didn't ask to have the Mark in the begin with, you didn't care about the consequences, you just had to play hero!" cried Charlie.
"Charlie, I'm so sorry to everything that happened, I never wanted you to get hurt!" Dean pleaded.
Charlie vanished too and in her place was Rudy, his hunter friend who died long too long ago when they were on the case to kill a vampire who kidnapped a young girl. Dean always regretted getting his friend killed that day.
"What about me old buddy, I hunted with you and you got me killed" said Rudy.
"Rudy, I am so sorry man, I never meant for that to happened, that wasn't me it was the Mark" Dean explained.
"I knew you were out of control and so did you, you shouldn't have been hunting in the first place, you were a ticking time bomb but that didn't stop you, you had to be the hero and well you heroic deeds just led to me getting butchered by that vampire, thanks a lot there old friend!" Rudy fired back and the words stung Dean he just wanted to scream.
Before Dean had a chance to answer back, Rudy was gone and now stood Amy Pond, Sam's childhood kitsune friend standing right in front of him.
"You?" cried out Dean.
"Yeah me, and why not after what you did to me!" yelled Amy back at him.
"For God's sake you were a monster killing people my job is to stop monsters like you!" yelled Dean defensively.
"No, I was a mother trying to save my son and you knew that. I only started killing low-lives who nobody would miss anyway to cure my dying son, and I had sworn off killing for good. I only fed on dead corpses to survive so I wouldn't have to kill people but you couldn't except that, you had to play my judge, jury and executioner and murder me in my own home I shared with my son. Now because of you, my son doesn't have a mother to protect him and will never learn how to feed without killing in order to survive, you should've have just left it alone!" she yelled.
"Dammitt you were still killing people, how was I suppose to know for sure you could stop, that you wouldn't kill again to save your son or whatever, I wasn't willing to take that chance!" he fired back.
Amy just stared at him coldly like she wanted to really hurt him.
"You are such a hypocrite then, because you have no problem sparing monsters before, like that vampire girl Lenore, you spared her and she ended up killing a teenage girl. And what about that other vampire buddy of yours, Benny his name was? You brought him back from purgatory with you. He was allowed another chance despite that the fact he probably killed more humans than I did but I wasn't?" she fired back.
Dean just stood there conflicted look on his face maybe guilt or defensiveness or both. Then Amy continued on with her rant.
"You gave me a speech just before you stuck a knife into me that I was who I was and that was monster that kills who couldn't never stop but your pal Benny was a monster just like me but I guess the rule only applies to monsters that you buddy with even though I was Sam's friend and killed my own mother to save his life back when we were kids. I wish I did kill you before you killed me so my son would still have a mother around to care for him, and if he's probably out there killing humans to survive, that is your fault too!" she finished.
Dean then turned away again and tried to leave not knowing where to go as this was all too much for him to bear.
"I had enough of this Lucifer, show your ugly face right now, this isn't going to work!" he cried out looking upwards.
But Lucifer didn't respond instead another image appeared and this time it was Cyrus Styne the teenage boy of the Styne family he killed.
"Oh no, not you too for crying out loud!" roared Dean as he couldn't believe his luck.
"Hey, I wasn't a monster, I was human being, yet you killed me after I begged and pleaded for my life!" yelled Cyrus with a look on hatred in his face.
However, Dean finally fed up with this whole nightmare just stared at him boldly and fired back.
"Your family was evil, they killed my friend, you were with them trying to burn down my bunker, how was I to know you were any different kid!" he told the kid.
"I told you I hated my family, that I wasn't like them, I wasn't armed or anything, I posed no threat and begged for you not to swearing to do anything you wanted just to spare me, but you told me I was evil just like them no matter how much I try to hide as if you could predict that, I was just kid, I could have gotten away and started my life over but you took that away from me when you executed me in cold blood!' Cyrus yelled.
"Kid, like I said I before I didn't know, all I know is your family was evil no better than monsters that needed to be stopped, and you just happen to part of that family, for all I know you could have been just a dangerous as they were and you probably were, was I really just to accept anything you had to say when you were standing with them in my bunker trying to destroy it!" Dean said.
"That is bull and you know it! You didn't kill me because you thought I was dangerous, you did it out of pure revenge because my brother killed your friend and you decided to just wipe us all out, you didn't care if I was like them or not you, that I didn't have anything to do with your friend's death, you killed me simply because I had the misfortune of being a part of that family! For all you knew I was telling you truth and just wanted to get away and live my own life, now I will never had a chance all thanks to you! You think my family were such monsters, well maybe you're the real monster no better than anyone them, you gunned down a kid who was pleading for his life when you could just let me go!" Cyrus yelled.
However, Dean was done with all of us and just turned away looking around for Lucifer.
"I don't have to listen to this, none of this is real!" Dean shouted.
"Oh but it is, Dean it's very much real" cried out Lucifer although he was unseen again.
When Dean turned around, the image of the kid Cyrus Styne was gone and now in front of him were a crowd of people again.
"You see all these people Dean? They are all your victims, just a long list of nameless people you killed when they were possessed by demons with no regard to their lives!" Lucifer continued.
"Don't I know it!" yelled a familiar voice and Dean saw Meg Masters standing in the crowd. "You could have helped, saved me from that demon but instead you caused me to be thrown out of a window before you exorcised me, you should have known how to save me, damn you!' she yelled.
This was followed by more people who began to yell at Dean blaming him for their demise. Dean couldn't take this anymore as the crowd felt bigger and sounded louder and louder this was all too much for Dean who just closed his eyes, covered his ears with both hands and let out a scream. Then there was silence and Dean opened his eyes again and removed his hands from his ears. When he looked around again he saw that the room had changed. Dean was now in a place that looked so familiar, a place he never wanted to see again. He was now back in hell and right in front him were grotesque figures of people screaming in pain and agony and Dean recognized some of them and felt scared really scared. He now felt shivers coming down him as he looked at this familiar place.
"Don't you remember them Dean, well you should, these are the souls that you tortured while down here, the souls you took pleasure in inflicting a lot of pain" said Lucifer.
The souls just got closer to Dean as he continued to feel so much terror that he was trembling and wanted to just get away from them all.
"No, stay away from me!" he cried in fear backing away from them, never feeling so helpless as he did now.
"You tortured me everyday, you enjoyed the pain you caused me while I screamed and begged for you to stop!" cried a soul of a woman who's face was now hideous looking.
Dean just closed his eyes.
"Please, I'm begging you!" cried out Dean in so much fear.
When Dean opened his eyes again, the image changed again and now Dean was seeing the corpses of those men he slaughtered while under the influence of the Mark when they were trying to rescue Claire Novak. Then the images changed again and now there were corpses of the Styne family including image of teenager Cyrus who is still alive and begging for his life. Dean closed is eyes again.
"Lucifer stop this!" he cried out.
"What's the matter Dean can't handle the truth, that your nothing but a stone cold killer, Mark or not, and you been nothing but poison to anyone around you, just ask the one person who knows this the most" said Lucifer and then when Dean opened his eyes once more, he was back in the dark room with Sam now standing you in front of him.
"Sam no!" cried Dean as the was forced to face the image of his brother.
Sam just looked at him coldly.
"Dean, you ruined my life, I was happy at college with my girlfriend Jessica, you remember Jessica by the way? You had to come back into my life and lure me away back into hunting which I no longer wanted and because of that, Jessica was murdered. I wasn't there to save her" Sam told him.
"Sam, I'm sorry, we have gotten past that" said Dean.
"If you had left me alone, I would have gone on to law school married Jessica and had the normal happy life I always wanted. I wanted a life outside of hunting but you didn't care and just couldn't do it alone which has always been your problem" Sam finished.
Dean didn't know what to say and just stared back at Sam his lips trembling as he struggled to utter a single word but nothing came out. Sam just kept looking at him coldly and continued his speech.
"You can't be alone, that's why you brought me back from the dead when you sold your soul to a demon. It is okay for me to live in the world without you but not okay for you to live in a world without me. You treat me like little kid who needs you to protect me but it is you that needs me and you need me to need you. When you were trapped in purgatory, I got to have a normal life with Amelia, but you ruined that too, I gave her up to be with you, I always have to give up my life to go traveling around the country with you hunting monsters and that's the way you want it but fact remains is you hold me back, you smother me Dean with your need to have me around always because you're so scared to be on your own!" Sam ranted.
Tears startled to flow down Dean's face again on hearing his little brother's words even though he knew it wasn't really Sam. Before Dean could answer back to Sam he disappeared and bright light started to lightened up the entire room until everything was just bright and soon Dean heard another voice.
"Dean, please listen to me, Lucifer can no longer get to you" it said.
"Who are you?" asked Dean looking around confused as to what was happening.
"I'm someone who can help you, Dean" the voice said.
"Help me how?" asked Dean.
"Dean, both you your brother have lost your way. You have traveled off course on the wrong path and had done questionable things. The Mark corrupted you, drove you to do things you normally wouldn't do but it has not made you irredeemable. I'm here to tell you not to listen to Lucifer. You are not evil or a lost cause, there is good in you Dean and you just need reminding" the voice said.
"But who the hell are you?" Dean cried out as he knew this is not Lucifer.
"Dean, your misdeeds are forgiven, and you can find your way back on the right path remembering your mission to help and save lives, protect them from evil in this world, all you have to do is have faith" said the voice.
"Faith, faith in what?" cried out Dean.
"You know Dean, you have to remember that all lives are valuable even those possessed by evil, they all deserved to be saved which should be the most important thing. Remember, your true purpose Dean, it is to protect not to seek vengeance, to play judge, jury and executioner, act out of blind hatred but to stop evil that's harming the world. Dean, whatever you do, never think you are worthless and never give into evil, corruption, hatred and vengeance as they will only consume you and destroy the good and decent man you are" the voice said.
Dean still was confused about are of this he couldn't figure out what happened to Lucifer but he had a gut feeling who this voice was and it scared the heck out of him.
"Hey are you God" Dean yelled out. However the voice didn't answer. "Are you God?" Dean yelled out again his voice even louder.
But the voice still didn't answer and then the bright lights left and within seconds Dean woke up and found himself laying in his bed. He was quite freaked out about his nightmare that he had to sit up and look around the room to make sure he was there. He didn't know what to make of that dream, Lucifer haunted his dream for sure but who in the hell was that voice in those bright lights? Was that really God, did God actually invade his dream too to give him a message? This was all too much indeed and Dean just laid there for a long time until he fell back to sleep again.