Hey people! Here's chapter 8! Hope you guys like it! Sorry I haven't updated in nearly a month! I'll talk to you more at the bottom. Read on! Forgive me for my mistakes as always!
Two days later
Stacie sat nervously in the passenger seat of Aubrey's car as the two drove to the doctor. The normally long car ride seemed short today which usually happened with things she didn't want to go to. As much as she didn't want to go she had to for her health's sake. All she could was hope for the best, though she knew whatever the outcome Aubrey would be by her side no matter what. Knowing made her feel slightly better but not enough to make the nervousness go away. And as much as she wanted to put off this appointment it was far too late for that now because they were there. She unbuckled her seat belt after they parked and slowly got out of the car and met Aubrey on one side. She stood there silently staring at the big building as her heart started beating at a rapid pace. "Hey, everything's going to be okay."Aubrey mentioned softly to the other girl as she reached for her hand. Stacie simply smiled at her and interlaced their hands as she started to walk inside. Once they were inside, Aubrey took a seat in the waiting room while Stacie went to check in. They told her they'd call her when it was her turn so she took a seat next to Aubrey.
"Thanks for coming with me, I don't think I could have done this by myself let alone ask anyone else to come."the brunette admitted as she laid her head on Aubrey's shoulder.
She smiled taking her hand again giving it a comforting squeeze."Of course, I want to be here for you with anything and everything" she replied as she kissed the top of Stacie's head.
"I'm so glad to hear that, but can you promise me one thing?"
"Sure what is it?"
"Stacie..Conrad?" a nurse suddenly called out.
Stacie slowly stood up and looked the blonde in the eyes. "Promise me that won't change, no matter what."
Aubrey stood up as well a slowly leaned in a planted a soft kiss on Stacie's lips. "I promise. Now go, I'll be out here waiting."
Stacie smiled and turned away to go meet the nurse. They walked down a few halls until they finally came to a room. "The doctor will be with you in a moment. In the mean time you can change into these. " the nurse said handing her a gown. She took the gown and changed into it and then waited patiently for the doctor. As she looked it around the room she saw flu shot posters, brochures about drug abuse, sex, parenthood, and a wide range of other things. But what caught her eye was a brochure about STDs. She grabbed one and started to flip through it but all it did was rile her up inside and make her even more sad and nervous so she put it back and tried to think about other things which was basically impossible. But before she knew it she heard a knock on the door and in came the doctor.
"Hi, I'm Dr. Johansen. And you are, "she paused looking down at her paperwork."Stacie Conrad. Nice to meet you."she said reaching for a hand shake. "So, what brings you here today?"
Stacie shook her hand and offered a smile though she really had nothing to smile about. "I'm um here for..erm I mean to be tested for a possible genital wart. I don't currently have one but...its a long story."she said looking down at her hands feeling embarrassed for even being here.
"I see, it says here that you want a HPV test. As much as well all hate long stories you might have tell me about it as I have a few questions before we get started."
"Ok, um I guess I'll answer the questions first and then I'll fill in any blanks if necessary."she decided.
"Alright."The doctor flipped one of pages on her clipboard and then clicked her pen to get ready. "So, have you had an STD in the past, if so how was it treated?"
"No I haven't."
"Ok, what gave you the idea that you might have HPV? Does your partner have it or did you start having symptoms?"
"My current partner does not have it but the guy that I was with before has it and they didn't inform me until long after we had sex. I don't know that we used a condom when we did because I was drug-...I mean drunk. Super drunk."Why she didn't just tell the doctor that she was drugged, not even Stacie had an answer for that. It was just too much for one moment.
"Have you and your current partner had sex? If so, have you used protection?"
"Um...yes and no."she hesitated. "I'm currently with a woman."
"And how long ago did you have sex with the man?"
"I think it was like 2 maybe 3 weeks ago."
"Ok and one last question, when did last get your period?"
"A month or so ago. I'm abnormally late. I was experiencing cramps some days ago but I never got my period."
"Really? Hmm, ok. Well, that's all my questions for now. Let's began the examination and followed by a few tests."
~ After the exam ~
After what seemed like an eternity of weird examinations, and tests it was finally over. The doctor had sent her back to the original room they were in so she could get dress while she accumulated all data and results. During the examinations they didn't really talk much besides asking if she was ok every five minutes which was fine because she could hardly formulate sentences during the time anyway.
Nevertheless the time had come, the doctor had come back into the room. The moment of truth was here. Her heart started beating rapidly yet again and her palms got clammy. Whatever the doctor had to say she just had to remember that Aubrey was going to be there for her no matter what, she just hoped she would keep the promise. "Alright, Ms. Conrad after doing the examinations and looking over the results you do not have any sign of the HPV virus, you're clear of that."
"Really? Oh my goodness, thank god."she breathed a sigh a relief feeling a weight off her shoulders, her stomach, basically her whole body felt lighter which was ironic due the to news she was about to recieve next.
"However, with unprotected sex there's more to it than just STDs, and I was concerned about your missed period which is why you gave a urine sample. And from that it did reveal that you are almost three weeks pregnant."
She couldn't believe what she was when Stacie thought everything was going to be okay, yet another thing happened to bring he world crashing down. But this was different than anything else because it wasn't going to just go away, this would effect the rest of her life way more than anything. The thought of being pregnant never crossed her mind but now it was going to be the only thing on her mind."I...I.."
"I know this is shocking, but its not the end of the world. I know you're young and in college but you have options." the doctor said handing her a pamphlet. "We'll need to see you back here for prenatal care, so I'll have the nurse call you to schedule something."
Stacie had no words, she simply nodded her head and got ready to leave. After hearing that she was pregnant she didn't hear anything but those words replaying in her head over and over again. Soon she'd have to repeat them to her family, and to Aubrey. She wasn't sure how but it was going to thought of their reactions brought tears to her eyes but she quickly wiped them away because she didn't want Aubrey to see any signs of sadness in her demeanor. Once the doctor left the room, she took out her phone to check her makeup to make sure it hadn't run too much and that she still looked relatively normal. If anything she could say something along the lines of she was crying tears of joy from the first news she found out. As she made her way outside to the waiting room where Aubrey was, she was more nervous now than before she came. She still had no idea how to tell her but she had no time to think of anything because now she was looking Aubrey in the eye.
When the two girls saw each other, Aubrey immediately stood up and rushed to meet her half way, their hands flung to one another's like magnets. Stacie managed to smile a little bit as being her the presence of her girlfriend did give her some reason to be happy. Neither of them spoke at first almost waiting for the other to say something first but Aubrey was incredibly eager and broke the silence.
"So, how'd it go?"she asked her heart beating equally as fast as Stacie's.
"It..um. Well, remember our promise?" the brunette said and the blonde quickly nodded. "I hope you still keep it even though I'm completely STD free!"she hugged the other girl and momentarily experienced the joy and happiness of the first news pushing the other news to the back of her mind so she could enjoy this moment.
Aubrey voluntarily clung to other girl after hearing the news. "That's so good to hear!" she pulled out from the hug and planted a sweet kiss on Stacie's lips. "And don't you worry about that promise, I plan to keep it and you. Its just makes it ten times easier now that there's nothing dragging us down now you know?"
"Yeah, nothing to drag us down." Stacie smiled and snapped back into the reality that there could be something dragging them down, a little person would be dragging them down. She truly did believe that Aubrey would keep her promise but that was under different circumstances. Pregnancy somehow changes things, and people and that was Stacie's worst fear.
"Exactly. Now, how about we go grab a bite to eat? My treat!" Aubrey suggested enthusiastically linking their arms.
"Sounds good, let's do it."
At the restaurant
Ever since they left the hospital, Aubrey had been nothing but talkative. More so than usual, but Stacie didn't mind. It was better for her to just sit and listen as she didn't have much thought on anything other than the big thing that was on her mind. So she gave regular head nods and short responses here and there and Aubrey didn't seem to notice anything different. Stacie's eyes were glued to the table as one of her fingers traced circles on it. So many thoughts running through her mind at this time and she had no way of making anything of out them. Every few minutes or so she would try think of something else as the consequences of her revealing her news to Aubrey brought tears to her eyes. In doing this she was hardly paying attention to a word Aubrey was saying. But she quickly snapped out of her own thoughts when she heard Aubrey repeatedly call her name.
"Stacie. Stacie? Stac! Hello? Anyone there?" Aubrey asked repetitively shaking the other girls hand. "Did you hear what I said?"
"Uh..yeah. I'm listening." she nodded.
"Then what'd I say?"
"Something about Bellas...rehearsal? Or along those lines?"
Aubrey laughed, any other time that might have been right but when Aubrey was with Stacie, the last thing she thought about was the Bellas. "Not exactly." she reached across the table and placed her hand on top of Stacie's. "Are you all right? You seem out of it."
When Stacie felt Aubrey's hand touch hers, it triggered something in her. Within seconds a tear fell from one eye, and then the other and before she knew it she was wiping away more than just one. She shook her head slowly at Aubrey still not knowing how to explain herself. "No, I-I'm not. C-can we j-just leave, please?"she asked.
Aubrey wasted no time, she nodded her head and gathered her things quickly. She had no idea what was going on but it must have been serious. Luckily they had only ordered drinks, so she left enough money to cover it and the two were out the restaurant in a New York minute.
At the Posen-Beale residence
Aubrey was nervous yet again for a second time today and she didn't even know why this time. She thought that the hard part was over and that they wouldn't have to go through any more tough times at least not for awhile. She knew their relationship wasn't going to be perfect but this was abnormal. Once they were inside the apartment, silence fell upon them. They walked to the living room and sat on the couch, still only silence. And again Aubrey opened her mouth to break it but she really didn't know what to say. But she also wanted Stacie to speak when she ready and not feel forced to.
"I'm sorry I kind of broke down at the restaurant. I was overwhelmed in my own thoughts I guess."she admitted.
"It's ok. You've had a lot to deal with, I get that."Aubrey responded.
"But I have even more to deal with now."she said as she buried her face in her hands knowing the tears would be coming soon.
"What do you mean by that? "she asked curiously.
"I...I...I-m,"she paused taking a deep breath."I'm...just over thinking again. I'm still shaken up about the whole STD scare and James. That's all."she lied.
Aubrey scooted closer to the brunette and wrapped her arms around her pulling her in close. "Its okay babe, you don't have to deal with him ever again"she kissed the her temple. "and if you want to really make sure of that, its not too late to tell the police."
Hearing that triggered even more tears to fall because now she would have no choice but to deal with him. She was pregnant with his child. "No, I can't. I can't tell the police. He's going to be a father soon, I can't do that to him."
"So what if he's going to be a father, he should pay for what he did." she added. "And, how do you know he's going to be a father?"
"Because...I'm th-the...he's go-going..."she stuttered over her words as she cried."I'm...p-pr-pregnant."
Aubrey was silent for a moment and suddenly became very still and stiff. She slowly arose from her spot and started pacing back in forth in disbelief. She could deal with a lot of things but this was big, this was more than what she bargained for. Sure she loved babies and children but the thought of someone so close to her having one was unbelievable. Stacie didn't like the way Aubrey was reacting at all and this made her regret telling her even more but she might have felt worse not telling her. "Aubrey...say something."
The blonde stopped pacing for a moment and stared at the brunette. "I..need some fresh air. I'm going to take a walk."
"I'll come with you an-."Stacie stood up with hope.
"Alone."Aubrey cut her off as she grabbed a coat and headed for the door.
Stacie didn't respond, instead she just let her walk out. There wasn't much more she could say, well there was but it wouldn't make the situation any better. She collapsed back on the couch and as her eyes became teary erupting volcanoes. She didn't have the right be upset with the way Aubrey reacted yet she still was. All she wanted was for her to hold her and reassure her that everything was going to be okay. But she got the complete opposite. After five minutes or so had passed, and Stacie had felt that Aubrey wasn't returning anytime soon she gathered her things and left the residence.
At Stacie's dorm
Stacie sighed as she fell onto her bed. Why her she thought, whenever she had something good, something bad just had to happen to come kill the good. She was beginning to think that she wasn't supposed to have anything good. Just as she was about to get lost in her thoughts for the millionth time today her attention went to her phone that lit up with a notification. She was hoping it was something from Aubrey but no, it was just an instagram notification. She sighed again wondering when the blonde would talk to her again and if she was going to keep the promise they made earlier. A promise that wouldn't have been necessary if it wasn't for the douche bag by the name of James.
She stared at her phone for minutes until she finally decided to do something. She searched through her contacts and found a number under the name of James the Bartender. Seeing that made her sick to her stomach as it brought back the memory of the night. Nonetheless she sent a text to the number that read: Hey, its Stacie. Are you busy? I need to talk to you. Its important. The fact that she even had his number angered her but at this time it was handy. Not even a minute passed before she got a text back from him, must be unlucky with ladies still. She opened the text that read: No, I'm not. What's up?. She tapped her chin for a moment thinking how she should break the news to him and where she would do it. A simple coffee shop meet up would do. We need to me at the coffee shop. she sent back to him. She figured it was hard to tell Aubrey the news because she genuinely cares about her this would affect their relationship quite a bit. However, James was a different situation.
At the coffee shop
When Stacie arrived she saw the familiar boy sitting at a table by himself. She hesitated before walking inside. She thought about just turning around and forgetting it. A lot of questions crossed her mind and yet she had no answers. At this moment she found herself being more afraid for his reaction than she was for Aubrey's. He was the father of this baby and he would hopefully be the one helping take care of it. But what if he didn't? There was no time for what ifs, they wouldn't do her any good. It was time to unveil the news once again.
"Hey." she greeted as she sat down across from him. "Thanks for coming."
"Hey, and its not a problem. You want something to drink? Coffee, tea, anything?" he offered.
Stacie shook her head quickly. "No offense but I don't think I want anymore drinks from you. "
James' cheeks turned red in a split second feeling embarrassed after he realized his poor offering. He didn't blame her for saying no but it was just in his nature to offer. "I-I..yea. Ok. Sorry. I can give you money to go buy a drink? Is that better?"
"No thank you."she answered. If this were her first time meeting him she would have thought he was actually a gentleman, sort of.
"Just thought I'd offer." he shuffled in his seat. "So, what'd you want to talk about?"
"Well, I went to the doctor today to get checked and I'm clean. I was somehow lucky enough not to get...you know..it."
"That's good. I'm glad. Its hard enough living with myself knowing what I did but if I would have you gave you..it, I would've felt even worse. "
"Don't start feeling good yet." she took a deep breath. "I'm STD free but, we've got bigger problems now. Problems that cry, a lot. "
James had a confused look on his face. He wasn't picking up what she was putting down. "What kind of problems we talking?"
"Bun in the oven. Fetus hauling. 9 month gift from 1 night stand. You're going to be a dad, those kind of problems." she admitted.
"What?! Is this a joke? Shit. You can't be serious." his eyes grew wide as he shook his head in disbelief.
"Not joking. This is real life. And I'm oh-so serious. You're actually lucky, I should be crying right now but I'm all out of tears for the moment."she mentioned.
"You've been crying? Damn, I'm sorry." he sighed. "This is crazy. It never even crossed my mind that this was a possibility. I still don't feel like this is real. I'm not sure what to say. What are we going to do?"
"We? You..there's a we?"she was surprised. "You do know this is supposed to the point where you walk away and say you don't care. Or something more vulgar."
James laughed. "I mean, you and I make we. So yeah, there's a we." he explained. "I could do that, but I'm not going to. I've already fucked you over once, I'm not going to do it again. I meant it when I apologized. "
Stacie glared at him, though she secretly wanted to smile. "God dammit. You'd actually be an okay guy if you wouldn't have drugged me. That makes me hate you even more."
"I figured you'd hate me but I hope that I can make you not hate me. And I'll prove that I am an okay guy. So hopefully you'll give me a chance. Give us or this we thing a chance." he laughed.
"Well, sorry to burst your bubble but there won't be an us. I have a girlfriend, at least I think I still do. So if there is and you and I, we thing. Its plus one. Hope that doesn't change your mind."
He sat back and relaxed in his chair a bit. "Girlfriend? Whoa, I was not expecting that. But that's not a problem, tell her she's lucky. "
Stacie smiled a bit."Yeah, I just hope she still thinks so." she sighed. "But anyway, I guess we need to decide what we're going to do." She placed her hands on the table and intertwined them. "I'm almost 3 weeks along so all of the options are open."
"I...well. I'm pro-life. But its your body, you'll do what you want with it. It is my kid, and he/she deserves a chance too." he said.
"I've never had an abortion and I don't plan on it so, that option is out. Do you want to keep it?" she asked.
"I don't know, maybe. Do you?" he asked back.
"I don't know, I haven't really thought about it. But we have 9 months to think about what we want to do. And I really need to think about it. As well as talk to my girlfriend." Stacie said as she looked at her phone still seeing no text or call from Aubrey. "But we will figure it out."
Hazzah. Chapter 8 in the bag! Its a bit, everywhere, I don't know? I had a lot to say and this is what came out. Sorry for the wait, I'm going to try to update more frequently! I have another idea for a new fic but I know that I really shouldn't start a new one till I finish this one. So, I'm hoping that motivates me!
Also, I didn't forget about the Valentine's day piece. I will be adding it to this story, in the next chapter. Its late I know, but hey its ok! Right? Yea? ok!
Leave me a review if you're feeling it! Comments, concerns, questions, and even tips on how I can be better.
