Reigna felt her eyes droop as she stood outside the gate, watching other delinquents carefully digging holes to bury Raven's landmines. She didn't get much sleep the previous night between finding Myles injured in the woods and staying up late to help Murphy through a mild panic attack. That was definitely something she didn't think she would ever witness. Reigna assumed that all her coming and going throughout the day yesterday gave Murphy way too much time to be alone in his thoughts and it finally bubbled over last night. There were a lot of tears shed between the both of them. A lot of comforting words from Reigna's part and a lot of almost too tight hugs from Murphy. She didn't know why, but she felt like he was keeping something from her. She just couldn't get him to say what.
"Come on. These foxholes aren't gonna build themselves." Bellamy's booming voice woke Reigna from her daydreaming. Reigna was standing near Raven when Bellamy approached.
"You better hope all those landmines work. All the gunpowder we're wasting, we could be making more grenades." Bellamy grumbled.
"You wanna come over here and test one?" Raven joked and Reigna instinctively rolled her eyes.
"Cute. I need this entire section mined by morning. Then you move to the south field." Bellamy ordered. Raven blanched at his words.
"Hey… I told you we were going after Finn, Clarke, and Monty in the morning." Raven said.
"We don't have the time for that." Reigna interjected, ignoring the nast look Raven sent her.
"Also I don't remember holding any meeting about going out to find them so it was never going to happen anyway. Our top priority is keeping everyone in our walls safe. Which is also why I agree that grenades would have been a lot better than a bunch of landmines." Reigna said flatly, way too tired to deal with Raven's shitty attitude right now.
"What happened to peace keeping talks then, Kane." Raven spat out her last name like venom. Reigna scoffed at her aggression.
"Sadly that's off the table because someone thought it would be a good idea to secretly bring guns and a piss drunk Jasper. But what does it matter anymore? Drop the hostility Reyes and finish the fucking mines." Reigna spat out before turning on her heel and storming towards camp.
"And nobody leaves camp." Reigna heard Bellamy tack on before hearing his footsteps follow behind her. The walk was quickly interrupted by the sound of a gunshot near the wall. Both Reigna and Bellamy looked to each other for a moment before dashing towards the noise. Near the wall, there was a bustle of delinquents swarming around Sterling.
"Hey, what the hell happened." Reigna stormed up to them, Bellamy close behind her.
"What the hell is the matter with you?" Bellamy asked incredulously, taking in the drowsy boy before them.
"I'm sorry, guys. I fell asleep, I've been on watch all day." Sterling supplied, going red in the face.
'We've all been on watch all day! That bullet was one less dead grounder." Bellamy replied to him angrily, snatching away his gun before Octavia made her presence known.
"Bell, you're scaring people." Octavia said, an attempt to calm him down. But instead, the words of comfort made Reigna's tight string finally snap.
"Good! Everyone here should be scared!" Reigna stepped in, throwing her hands up in the air in frustration, "The bridge will only keep them away from us for so long you do realize that, right? If we don't get out shit together we'll all die. Clarke, Finn, and Monty have been gone for a day. I doubt they're coming back, they were most likely killed by the grounders. We had our chance to make peace with them but we fucked it up. So everyone get your shit together. No person or gun leaves this camp. Understood?" Reigna addressed the crowd before her, being met with a chorus of timid 'ok's and 'Understood's.
"Good. Now get back to work." Reigna ordered, and the delinquents scattered. Letting out a deep sigh, Reigna saw both the Blakes staring at her in shock out of the corner of her eye.
"Bellamy, i need to talk to you. Come with me." Reigna said calmly before turning and walking towards his tent, not waiting for him to follow.
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Making herself comfortable, Reigna sat on Bellamy's makeshift cot and let the tension out of her shoulders. She wasn't waiting long before Bellamy entered his tent. He looked startled for a moment before composing himself.
"What did you need to talk about, Reign." He said before she watched him flinch slightly after saying her nickname.
"Don't flinch at me like that, you act like i'm gonna kill you." Reigna joked before getting serious.
"Actually though, i wanted to uh… apologize to you? Again…" Reigna sighed before standing up and facing Bellamy, "About the meeting and the guns and shit. I'm not- well i am mad about it but that's not the point. I get why you felt the need. You're a very protective person but i'm sure that's something i didn't need to tell you."
"Octavia may have said something like that before." Bellamy chuckled.
"Figured. So i'm sorry about what i said to you. And what I said about Clarke and the others earlier. I don't even believe what i said, but we really don't have the time to go digging through the woods for them." Reigna sighed before sitting down on his cot once more and rubbing her temples.
"We don't have time for anything…" Bellamy huffed and Reigna felt him sit down beside her.
"It feels like we're on a time limit but we have no clue when it'll run out. I've never been so anxious in my life." Reigna almost laughed.
"Not even on the way down here?" Bellamy asked with a hint of a smile.
"Not even then! I thought the only options we had were dying on reentry, dying from radiation, or just living. No one could have predicted any of this."
"I think i would have preferred to die slowly from radiation poisoning." Bellamy admitted with a slight nod of his head.
"I would just prefer never to die." She mumbled, making Bellamy turn his head to look at her, "It scares me. If there is something after death, there's no way I'll be going to any good place." She continued.
"I'd be right there with you." Bellamy replied, making her finally look away from the floor and to him, "We've both done some shit, Reign. Don't make yourself out to be the only bad guy here." he responded.
"You really believe that?" Reigna hestated to ask. She felt vulnerable, more so than she had in a long time. She hadn't intended this conversation to get so personal, especially this fast. Something about Bellamy Blake really destroyed every wall she attempted to put up around herself.
"Did you want me to lie to you?" Bellamy asked.
"You have before." Reigna replied, making Bellamy sigh.
"How many times do i have to apologize to you before you believe me?" Bellamy asked exasperatedly.
"I already have, was just trying to make a point." Reigna smiled, making Bellamy look at her in disbelief. Bellamy laughed once as he looked down at her. Reigna had just a moment to notice Bellamy's cheeks redden slightly before she saw him lean forward and press his lips against hers. It only lasted a second but Reigna would swear it felt longer. This was completely different from Reigna's kiss with Murphy. Bellamy felt completely different. In that one second, Reigna felt like she got hit by a space shuttle. Before she could blink, Bellamy was pulling away and standing up, flushed so red he looked like he just ran a marathon.
"I- I'm sorry. I'm gonna go." He stuttered before turning and rushing out of his own tent, leaving Reigna on his cot. Reigna's mind was blank, like she had just forgotten how to be a human being for a few minutes before she finally regained control of her mind and body. Taking a deep breath, Reigna closed her eyes and attempted to calm herself down.
"What the fuck…"
-0-
After leaving Bellamy's tent, Reigna took a moment to collect herself. Wanting desperately to leave camp and find a river to drown herself in, but knowing she would literally lose all credibility she had in camp the second she walked out of the gate. She wanted to find Murphy, but after searching almost the entire camp she gave up and instead took Octavia's offered company.
"So what did you need to talk to Bell about?" Octavia asked.
"It wasn't so much a talk as it was an apology turned heart-to-heart." Reigna huffed, leaning back against Octavia's legs as the younger girl brushed through her long hair.
"Really?" Octavia exclaimed, leaning around her to look at her face.
"Yeah, really." Reigna mumbled, "Really not my intention but it just kinda happened."
"Well at least it wasn't an argument." Octavia said with a shrug, sitting back up and taking a new strip of fabric Reigna ripped off of one of her blankets and using it to redo Reigna's old hairstyle.
"Yeah, your brother is something else." Reigna said, zoning out at Octavia pulled up half of her hair and twisted it into a bun, securing it with the fabric strip.
"Why do you sound so weird about it. It's a good thing my fake sister and my real brother aren't at each other's throats anymore." Octavia patted Reigna's sounders as she spoke, making the older girl move to sit beside her on the log.
"No i'm not upset i'm just… Well Bellamy ki-" Reigna began, only to be interrupted by the sound of the dropship door closing. Both girl's heads snapped toward the sound and the sight of Bellamy sprinting toward it, only to start banging on the door and calling out Murphy's name. Octavia and Reigna looked at each other for a moment before getting up and running towards him.
"Bell, what the hell is going on?" Reigna asked hurriedly.
"Murphy killed Myles and he's holding Jasper hostage." Bellamy growled making Reigna's eyes shoot to the size of the moon.
"He- No… no way Murphy wouldn't just-"
"Well he is… Just… Reign go get Raven. I have an idea." Bellamy sighed and turned away from her. Reigna felt like she was underwater, everything Bellamy just said to her went in one ear and directly out of the other.
"I'll go get her, Reign. Stay here." Octavia said to her, setting a hand on her shoulder before darting towards Raven's tent.
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Reigna felt like her soul had left her body and she was watching everything happen from someone else's eyes. Bellamy had Raven checking the back of the dropship for a loose panel so she could slip inside and open the door from the inside. At some point she was sure she heard Octavia banging on the dropship before she became vaguely aware of someone hands on her shoulders. She wasn't being shaken, just a gentle pressure that just wasn't enough to bring her back down to earth. Reigna saw Raven come back and confirm the loose panel. What finally brought her back was the premise of a trade.
"Let me in there." Reigna finally spoke up, feeling the hands leave her shoulders and discovering they were in fact Octavia's.
"No. No way." Octavia shook her head, "And Bellamy isn't going in there either."
"But you don't get it. He'll listen to me. He's pissed off about the hanging. Let me talk him down." Reigna pleaded.
"Reigna if he could be talked out of something like this, i doubt this would even be happening." Bellamy huffed.
"Well you aren't gonna kill him." Reigna argued back, only to be met with silence, "You aren't fucking killing him, Blake!" Reigna yelled, only to be hushed by him.
"That's not the plan-"
"Then what is the fucking plan? You go in there and let him kill you? Or worse? He won't hurt me let me talk to him, Bell-"
"You aren't going in there! End of discussion." Bellamy yelled, effectively silencing her.
"You open the door, I go in, Jasper comes out." Bellamy spoke into the walkie talkie that Reigna assumed Murphy had the other of.
"Just you, Bellamy. Unarmed." Murphy's voice replied. Slowly the dropship door opened and the four of them stepped back to make room.
"Take these." Bellamy passed Reigna both his walkie talkie and his gun before turning to the on ramp.
"10 seconds or i put one in Jasper's leg." Murphy warned.
"I'm coming." Bellamy called up to him, "Tell everyone to get back to work." Bellamy said to Reigna before turning and walking into the dropship, Jasper being shoved out seconds later. Once Jasper was on the ground, the dropship door began rising before finally closing.
"You heard him, get back to work. The grounders won't wait for us." Reigna addressed the crowd behind her.
"Fuck, Murphy." Reigna mumbled to herself, gripping the talkie with white knuckles. This is definitely not how she thought this day would go.
-0-
Jasper went with Raven to crawl around under the dropship to figure out how to get the door open safely. Once they left it was radio silence from all parties involved. Reigna was still gripping the talkie with white knuckled hands as she watched Octavia pace back and forth in front of the dropship door. The only thing running through Reigna's mind was what the hell was going to happen to Murphy.
"We won't kill him, right?" Reigna asked, mostly to herself. Octavia overheard her and stopped her incessant pacing to sigh.
"I dunno."
"We can't kill him… I can't go through that again. I already thought i lost him once, O. I've never wanted to die more in my life before Murphy left." Her voice wavered as she shook her head, "I can't do that again." Reigna whispered. Octavia looked away for a moment before moving forward and wrapping the older girl in a tight hug. Reigna didn't reciprocate, but appreciated the sentiment nonetheless. As soon as Octavia pulled away, Reigna opened her mouth to speak but was interrupted by the sound of a gunshot inside the dropship. Octavia snatched the talkie out of Reigna's hand as they both darted towards the dropship.
"Bellamy? Bellamy! Are you okay?" Octavia called over the talkie. When no one replied, Octavia frantically looked to Reigna before speaking again, "Bellamy, do you copy?"
"I'm fine. Just a misfire. Now stop worrying about me and get back to work, all of you. And tell Raven to hurry her ass up." Bellamy finally responded, making both Reigna and Octavia relax slightly. This of course didn't completely ease their stress, if anything Regina's skyrocketed, but the two could only wait and hope Raven would come through and get the door open.
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After a few more grueling minutes, Jasper joined Reigna and Octavia at the front of the dropship and Raven worked on the door.
"She has it, we just have to wait." Jasper reassured them, but Reigna's heart was still racing. What were they gonna find when they finally got the door open. Reigna's default was constantly giving Murphy the benefit of the doubt, but there are some things she knew she couldn't protect him from. An angry mob was one of those things, along with a pissed off possibly injured Bellamy Blake. Things were finally on the up and up between them, and the last thing she needed was Murphy's anger driving a wedge between them again. But Bellamy should realize by now, Reigna would always pick Murphy first. Reigna didn't have anymore time to think as the dropship door started hissing open and her eyes went wide. Her and Octavia glanced at each other quickly before charging in. Reigna was shocked to see Bellamy hanging from a noose made of seatbelts from the seats and caught a glimpse of the upper hatch slamming closed.
"Reigna, help!" Octavia called. Reigna tossed Octavia one of her knives before quickly climbing the hatch.
"Murphy, let me in!" Reigna rushed, hearing Octavia frantically cutting Bellamy down. The hatch opened just enough for Reigna to slip in before slamming shut once again. Murphy frantically shoved a pipe through the ladder and the hatch's handle as a makeshift lock before turning to Reigna with a frenzied look.
"Murphy what the hell!" Reigna's voice was pleading.
"I- I had to, Reign. He didn't- I don't…" Murphy was frantic, he couldn't finish his thoughts. Reigna spied his hands shaking and let out a shaky sigh.
"Murphy! It's over!" Bellamy's voice pierced through the hatch as he began banging on it, "Reigna! I know you're up there, open the hatch!"
"I have to get out of here." Murphy mumbled, pacing in front of the wall before looking up at Reigna, "Back up."
"What? Murphy you aren't going anywhere. I- I can figure something out, you just can't leave." Reigna pleaded.
"Reign, You know i love you. Right?" Murphy asked, setting his hands on her shoulders. Reigna nodded once, confused by his sudden confession, "Then hopefully you'll forgive me for this one day." Murphy sighed and kissed Reigna once before she felt herself being shoved backwards, her head hitting the wall hard. Just before she lost consciousness, she heard a loud bang and felt heat from an explosion before her world went dark.
-0-
"Reigna! Wake up, please! Can you hear me?" Reigna heard someone speaking to her, but all she could focus on was a pounding on the back of her head. Taking in a deep breath, she immediately started coughing.
"Reigna? Are you okay?" Reigna finally recognized the voice as Octavia's. Noticing her head felt slightly cushioned. Finally opening her eyes, Reigna saw both Blake's looking over her with worry.
"Am i okay? I feel like I got floated." Reigna grumbled, making Bellamy scoff.
"Murphy's gone. What did he do to you?" Octavia asked, finally helping her to sit up. Reigna felt Bellamy's hand firmly planted on her back to keep her upright.
"He shoved me and I hit my head. To keep me away from that i guess." Reigna pointed towards the smoking hole in the wall while carefully omitting the fact that he kissed her. The thought made Reigna's heart ache. Once again, Murphy was gone, and Reigna felt alone.
"Come on, let's get you out of here." Bellamy urged, noticing the unshed tears welling up in Reigna's eyes. Both Blakes helped Reigna to her feet, Octavia heading down the ladder first and helping Reigna down. Bellamy climbed down after her, taking his spot on her right side with Octavia on her left.
"Now what?" Reigna asked as the three of them left the dropship, Reigna having to squint her eyes at the brightness.
"Me and Jasper are going out to find Clarke and Finn." Bellamy stated, looking over the camp that was finally getting back to work.
"Good luck." Reigna relented, knowing that there was no way she could convince him to let her come after what she just went through. Bellamy glanced down at her, wanting to speak but hesitating. Octavia swooped in and grasped Reigna's hand gently.
"Why don't we go sit, Reign. I don't want you to get dizzy or something." Octavia urged, beginning to lead Reigna towards a log bench before they were halted by the guard on the wall.
"We've got movement outside the wall!" Someone called. The three of them looked between each other frantically before rushing towards the wall, Octavia keeping a hold on Reigna to make sure she didn't fall or pass out.
"Someone's coming!" Someone else called out. The three of them reached the gate and as Bellamy was about to climb up, Miller called out.
"It's Clarke and Finn!" Bellamy hopped off the ladder at his words and rejoined Octavia and Reigna.
"We heard an explosion, what happened?" Clarke asked as soon as she entered the camp.
"Murphy…" Reigna said dejectedly and Clarke didn't press any further.
"Thank God! Where have you been? Where's Monty?" Jasper surged forward with questions.
"Monty's gone?" Clarke asked but Finn quickly jumped into the conversation.
"Clarke, we need to leave now. We all do. There's an army of grounders coming for us. We need to pack as much as we can and run." Finn urged.
"What?" Reigna questioned, "Why do we need to run? We're more than prepared."
"We're not prepared for that." Clarke argued, motioning back to the woods.
"They aren't here yet. We still have time to get ready," Bellamy backed up Reigna, "Besides, where would we go? Where would we be safer than behind these walls? Our walls."
"There's an ocean to the east. People there will help us." Finn responded quickly. Reigna felt Octavia tense beside her before finally letting her go.
"You saw Lincoln." Octavia more stated than asked and Finn nodded in response.
"You expect us to trust a grounder?" Bellamy asked incredulously. Reigna saw Octavia look to her with an expectant expression. She did trust Lincoln, but her time for trust was long gone. This was about survival now, and the only person she could trust was herself.
"This is our home now. We built this from nothing with our bare hands! Our dead are buried behind that wall in this ground! Our ground! The grounders think they can take that away. They think that because we came from the sky, we don't belong here. But they're yet to realize one very important fact: We are on the ground now, and that means we are grounders!" Bellamy's speech was met with cheers.
"Yeah! Grounders with guns!"
"Let them come." Reigna said and Bellamy nodded his head in agreement.
"They're right." Clarke spoke up, making Octavia and Finn look at her with a confused expression, "If we leave, we may never find somewhere as safe as this. And for all we know, we could be faced with something even worse tomorrow. But that doesn't change the simple fact that if we stay here, we will die tonight. Now, pack your things. Take what you can carry." Clarke urged making Reigna's blood boil as the delinquents eventually started breaking off to gather their belongings. Since when did one leader have more of a say than two?
"Where is he?" Octavia stepped up to Finn, referring to Lincoln. Before Finn could reply, a voice called out from behind the dropship.
"Help me!" Raven's voice reached them and they all turned their heads, seeing Raven limping heavily and using the wall as support. Bellamy, Clarke, and Reigna jogged over to meet her, Finn and Octavia close behind.
"Murphy shot her." Bellamy said and Finn pushed past them to lift Raven up into his arms.
"Get her into the dropship." Clarke ordered Finn, who nodded before sprinting with Octavia into the dropship.
"Clarke, leaving here is a mistake." Bellamy stopped her before she could leave. Clarke shook her head at him.
"The decision's been made."
"No it hasn't. You just came in after being gone for a whole day and enforced your decisions on us." Reigna countered, making Clarke glare at her, "Don't give me that shit, Griffin. If you want to run off then go ahead, but the people should have the choice to stay and fight."
"She's right, Clarke. Leader's do what they think is right." Bellamy responded.
"I am." Clarke said coldly before turning away and entering the dropship.
"Bitch…" Reigna hissed after her, turning to watch the delinquents rush around camp to gather their things, "This isn't going to work. Everything about this feels wrong. We spent so much time making this camp safe and now we're leaving it because Clarke thinks her word is gospel?" Reigna asked angrily. "Since when did she gain more authority than the both of us."
"I have a bad feeling about this…" Bellamy said, watching some of the guards on the wall leave their stations to begin gathering their own belongings.
"I'm sorry about what Murphy did to you…" Reigna apologized, making Bellamy look to her in confusion, "I knew something was up with him but I had no idea he would do something like that." Reigna sighed, glancing up at the bruising that was beginning to form around Bellamy's neck.
"It's not your place to apologize. I'm sure he didn't tell you because he didn't want you involved." Bellamy reasoned, making Reigna roll her eyes.
"If that was the case, he's a damn idiot. We both have a way of weaseling our way into each other's business." Reigna explained with a light shrug.
"Still, you don't have to apologize. Like you said, you had no idea. And it's not like i could banish him again, he ran away." Bellamy said with a hint of anger to his voice. Reigna nodded, choosing to ignore his tone. It fell silent between them for a moment until Reigna fully turned to Bellamy.
"Bell, can i ask…"
"About?" He continued for her.
"Uh… about what happened in your tent earlier today. God that felt like yesterday." Reigna mumbled the end as Bellamy went red in the face.
"We don't- I.. It was just- I- You-" Bellamy stuttered before taking a deep breath, "Reigna, i know we fight a lot. Like a lot. But I hope you know I don't hate you. Or dislike you even. I just… I came to a realization. The day we went to find that bunker with Clarke, when I wanted to run away?" He referenced and Reigna nodded, remembering the day perfectly.
"I realized when we were on our way to the bunker, when you made us stop to see that rose bush?" Bellamy hesitated, "I have feelings for you." He said and Reigna's eyes widened, "I think i have for a while i just- I only dated one girl back on the ark and it didn't really end well. And i know you have Murphy-"
"Murphy and I aren't together, Bell." Reigna interrupted his rambling to remind him, "We never were, never have been. I mean he was my first kiss but he was also the only guy I was really close to. He was the only person I was close to. And I love him, but not that way. Murphy is the only family I have. Even now, though, i don't think that's true anymore. Octavia's been calling me sister." Reigna smiled lightly, "What is it about me that attracts you Blakes to me like flies?" Reigna asked jokingly. Bellamy smiled back at her.
"So does that mean you liked it? The kiss I mean." He clarified.
"I would have slapped you if i didn't." Reigna had to force her smile not to get bigger, "Don't think this means we're together or something. I only tolerate you, remember that." Reigna dropped her expression and glared up at Bellamy as she spoke. Bellamy's smile only got wider before he pulled Reigna closer and wrapped her tightly in a hug.
"We'll get through this." He mumbled into her hair, hugging her waist tightly, "Even if we are running away today, things will get better."
"For my mental health I sure hope so." Reigna sighed, eventually bringing her arms up and hugging Bellamy back around his neck. Slightly irritated that she had to shift slightly up into her toes to reach him.
"If you won't kiss me yet will you at least hug me more?" Bellamy asked, pulling away just enough to look at her face.
"If you don't shut the hell up you won't even get me to glance in your direction." Reigna replied making Bellamy chuckle.
"If I hug you from behind then you can't tell me no in advance."
"You should be really glad I like you."
"So you do like me!"
"I'm leaving."