Not a sister

by AGayMess

I am making this into a one-shot collection! Give me any ideas/prompts you would like to see. It will be made up of one-shots that are LESS than 100 words long. The ONLY Alexander ship/John ship in this is Lams. I am not doing any other main ships, but there might be some other minor ships. I will post as many chapters as possible as often as possible.

35. Where Did You Go

I know this is more than one hundred words, but I couldn't split it. I wouldn't be able to figure out how if I tried.
So you guys are getting a butt-ton of angst in one chapter. You're welcome.
It broke my heart to write this, and if it breaks yours too, I know I've done my job correctly.

In response to a prompt on ao3

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My Dearest, Laurens

I can't find you anymore.

You used to be next to me; in every place I went, you would be there, by my side.

Now you're gone. Lost to the fate every human must suffer eventually.

I don't know why I'm writing to you; you won't ever be able to read this. But I can write, and hope that you have the ability to look down from wherever you are now, the ability to look down and hear these words, and understand what I'm trying to say.

My world has gone dark without you. You were my sunshine, the silver lining of the world. You were the only person I stayed alive for, the only thing that kept me on this earth. Now I don't have a tether.

Philip is gone, as well. I know you were astonished when he showed up, a bullet through his side, in heaven. I couldn't save either of you, and I'm sorry for that.

How are things going for you? I hope you don't feel the same things that I do; it feels like I'm already dead, only, I'm in a hell without you. My days have no meaning, and my nights are filled with dreams of you. If only my dreams were real!

I love you.

Yrs forever,

A. Hamilton