Sorry this took so long, but I thought I would put up a chapter to celebrate finishing this semester of school. Thank you for all of the likes and reviews and for staying with this story.
I sighed as I walked down the school hall. It was the end of the day and I had been stuck in my head all day, unable to pay attention. It had been a week since the incident with the Coach and everything had been going normally, except for the fact that several people now knew about my secret crush. It was kind of unnerving. I trust everyone that knows but I just felt like it was all so real now, and that bothered me more than anything. I was so lost in thought that I didn't hear someone calling my name until they got right behind me and grabbed my shoulder.
"Hinata."
I jumped a little and turned to see Kageyama.
"Oh, hey."
He sighed at my reaction but let it go.
"I've been calling your name for about five minutes now, but you weren't responding to me. I thought you were ignoring me."
I blushed at that.
"I'm sorry. I've been doing that all day."
"We can talk about that later, but first I need to tell you something."
I was a little worried because he sounded really serious.
"ok."
He shook his head before grabbing my hand and leading me out the building.
"W-wait a minute, why are you dragging me somewhere?"
"Because it's something I need to tell you in private."
I shut up at that and just started to wonder what it could be. Kageyama held my hand the whole time, and by the grip and sweat I could tell he was nervous, so I didn't try to pull my hand away since he seemed like he needed it. As we got outside I was worried and possibly more nervous than Kageyama at that point. We came to a stop near one of the benches outside, he was still holding my hand but I just stood there not saying anything. He eventually let go and turned to stand in front of me.
"I'm-"
He stopped and swallowed as if he couldn't talk. I stepped towards him, took his hand and smiled up at him. He looked at me surprised then smiled gently.
"Thanks."
I shook my head,
"It's no problem, just tell me when you're ready."
He nodded his head and we stood there for a few minutes before Kageyama looked at me again.
"Ok, I'm ready."
I nodded and smiled at him, while still holding his hand.
"I'm going to tell Oikawa about my feelings for him."
My smile quickly faded and my heartbeat sped up.
"Oh."
"But it's ok, don't freak out! Because I know we did that whole thing where if one of us tells the person we like then the other has too, but you don't have to tell Tsukishima. You shouldn't do that until you're ready, so-"
"No, it's fine, I'm the one that made the promise up anyways, so I'll stick to it."
"Hinata, you really don't have to."
I squeezed his hand and looked at him with determination.
"It's ok, really. I think I should tell him anyways because it just keeps getting harder and harder to hide it, but I'm still really scared about what he will say."
Kageyama pulled me forward until we were hugging. I was surprised but returned the hug.
"If he says or does anything to hurt you I'll end him."
I laughed a little at Kageyama's overprotectiveness but was very comforted by it.
"Yeah, and I'll take care of the Grand King if he makes you cry."
He blushed at that and pushed me away to put his hand to his face.
"There is no way I would cry because of that asshole."
I laughed but said nothing else. After that we talked for a little bit and went to get some food before going home. Before we parted ways Kageyama turned to me and said, with great determination, that he would tell Oikawa two days from now. I smiled before tackling him into a hug. He pushed me away and turned away from me put I could still tell he was smiling. We said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. On my way home everything hit me and I started to feel nervous, I was happy for Kageyama but I was terrified for myself. I got home and knew that I wasn't going to be able to sleep.
The next morning was terrible, I had had almost no sleep, since the only thing I could think about was how I was going to confess to Tsukishima today. That thought hit me and I stopped,
"I'm going to tell him."
I grabbed my chest and started to breath in and out slowly to slow my heart down. I started telling myself that it was ok and I could do this, but it was still hard to calm down. After I felt calm enough I slowly got ready for school and headed there on my bike. When I got to school I saw Kageyama waiting on me and gave him a small smile. On our way to class neither of us talked, probably because he knew how nervous I was. We were almost to class when he stopped me though,
"You really don't need to do this."
"I-I know, but we made a promise."
He frowned at me,
"Hinata, I don't c-"
I cut him off by putting my hands on his mouth. I could tell he was still frowning.
"I'm going to tell him, so stop trying to change that."
He sighed and I took my hands away from his mouth. I turned away from him and walked the rest of the way to class with him behind me.
'Oh god, why did I say I would tell him?! Where did that courage even come from? Why didn't I just take him up on the offer to not tell him?!'
I was sitting in class running my hands through my hair and calmly freaking out. We were currently on a lunch break and I decided that I would go tell him now, but I couldn't get my body to move. I looked towards Kageyama , who was calmly watching me.
'Oh no, he knows I can't do it'
My legs start twitching and my stomach started to hurt from nerves. I finally got up and headed to the door. Before I left I turned to Kageyama and nodded, he looked worried but didn't say anything. I started walking down the hall towards Tsukishima's class. My heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest and I couldn't stop shaking. When I was outside of his classroom door I took a deep breath and then entered. I looked around the room until I found Tsukishima. I took another deep breath and started walking to him. He noticed me when I had walked in and just silently watched me until I was at his desk.
"Umm, can we…I need to talk to you."
He raised an eyebrow before sighing and getting up, he walked past me to the door. I stood there and just watched him until he looked back at me.
"Are you coming?"
I felt relieved that he wasn't just ignoring me like I thought. I followed him until we got to the vending machine outside. He went over and got a drink before turning to me.
"well?"
"Ahh, umm"
I was so nervous I could barely speak. I started tugging at my shirt and looking away.
"Hinata"
I jerked my head up at him when he said my name.
"Break is almost over, and you're wasting my time."
"I'm sorry."
I looked down at the ground hoping it might give me some form of courage. With my head still down I mumbled to him.
"I like you."
"What? Hinata stop mumbling, I can't hear you."
My head shot up and I looked at him determined
"I like you."
His eyes widened in shock and we just stood there in silence. With every passing moment I lost my determination and looked everywhere but at him. The bell rang and I turned to leave, not being able to stand the silence anymore, but he stopped me.
"Hinata, where are you going?"
"T-to class."
"How long?"
"Huh?"
"Have you liked me, how long?"
I gulped before answering,
"for a little while"
I watched his face and thought I saw a flash of pity on his face before he hid it. He brought a hand to the back of his head and sighed while ruffling his hair.
"Sorry Hinata, but I don't have the same feelings for you.
My stomach dropped but I knew that this was how it was going to happen.
"It's ok, I didn't really expect for my feelings to be returned. I just wanted to let it out."
I tried my best to smile at him before turning to leave.
"Hin-"
"Sorry, I should probably get to class."
I ran after saying that, but it wasn't to class. I got to the roof of the school and looked around to make sure no one else was up there before I broke down crying. I tried to rub away the tears and stop crying but the tears wouldn't stop, so I just buried my face in my arms and cried. For the rest of the day I stayed on the roof until practice time came. Kageyama had sent me so many text that I decided to just give up on reading them. I stood up and slapped my cheeks a few times before deciding to leave.
"It's ok Hinata, you can do this. Just pretend like it never happened, that it doesn't bother you."
Before getting to the gym I stopped by the bathroom to make sure I didn't look like I had been crying. Deeming myself ready, I went to the gym. Everyone waved at me and I smiled and waved back before almost being tackled by Kageyama. He took my arm and led me to the locker room.
"What happened?"
"Oh, he…he said that he didn't have feelings for me."
His face fell and he looked like he was about to say something before I stopped him.
"It's ok. I already knew that he was going to say that."
I smiled at him and turned to get ready. I could tell he still wanted to say something, but he didn't.
"Alright, I'll leave you to get ready."
Once the door closed my smile slowly fell and I laid my forehead on the locker, while gripping my shirt.
"It really hurts."
I had to stop myself though and continued getting dressed.
