I just have a lot of emotions about Kylo and Rey, okay.

Anger. Rage. Betrayal. Rejection

His hands shook as he replayed over and over within his mind the moment she had reached for her lightsaber instead of his hand. Kylo clenched his fists to stop the weakness of his unsteadiness, so tight he thought he may cause the inside of his palms to bleed, but he did not care. Instead, he revelled in the sensation, calling the darkness to him, filling himself completely with the fury he felt to distract from her.

Loss. Fear. Desperation. Longing

Waves of new emotion crashed against the inside of Kylo's skull, the bombardment of emotion leaving him more breathless than their fight against the Praetorian Guard. He couldn't be sure whose emotions he felt then; the line between himself and her had begun to blur dangerously. He wasn't sure where he ended and where she begun, and he was less certain when this had begun to occur.

It felt as though she were all around him, intoxicating his senses and drowning him in her fears, in her dreams and in her hopes.

Weakness, he spat, as though everything about her was a foul taste on the tip of his tongue.

He directed all his rage at her, hoping that she could feel it, that those emotions would bring her as much pain as she had brought him. He did not want to feel the pain anymore. He did not want to feel her anymore.

He forced himself to forget about the way she fought fiercely and proudly alongside him in the Throne Room. He attempted to drive out the memory of her lips brushing his, setting fire to the hope that had taken root within his chest at the action.

Weakness, he thought again, resolute.

She had betrayed him. She had told her that they were not alone and then she had left him. How could she ask him to turn away from the First Order, from all that he was? For her rebel scum friends? For her vision of their future? Did she think that he would just turn to the light for her?

But you killed Snoke for her, a voice whispered within his mind.

Roaring, he ignited his lightsaber, ready to destroy everything in his path.

"Supreme Leader… Perhaps it is not wise to… React at this moment… We have already taken heavy losses and we cannot afford damage to any of our remaining fleet…" Hux lingered at the door of Kylo's shuttle cargo hold as he spoke, his eyes trained almost confidently on his leader, yet his body betraying the fear that still remained.

Kylo did not even waste his time turning to face the General, lifting his hand in the direction of the snivelling man and choke holding him until the dark within him was sated. Dropping him to his knees, he clenched his fists once again while listening to Hux spluttering, gasping for air.

"Alert me when we reach the surface. I will bear witness to the end of the rebel scum."

Hux stood to his feet unsteadily though brusquely, nodding as his eyes lingered on Ren for a short moment, before he hurried back to the bridge.

Rather than use his lightsaber or the Force, Kylo pummelled his fists into the nearest wall as though the physical pain would ease the emotional turmoil.

I would rather be struck down by a thousand saber blows than feel anything for her.

As soon as he thought the words, he punched his hand through a light panel.

I do not feel anything for her, he reprimanded himself, breathing heavily against the shattered glass and his bleeding hands. However, there was a small piece within him that was crying out, trying to convince him that that was anything but the truth.

Almost as though the small voice within him wanted to test those convictions, his senses faded, and he felt her. She was frantic, running across the room as though she were desperately trying to fix something.

Or save someone, he thought bitterly, thinking about the trash that she had chosen over him.

In her panic, it took her several moments to realise that he was there, but when she did she hesitated to look directly at him.

Her emotions washed over him once more, and he fought to reject the pain she was causing him to feel.

As her eyes glanced to his hands, dripping with blood from his own inflictions, he was flooded by concern for him.

Concern? He thought angrily, the venom rising in his throat. Where was her concern when she betrayed him, when she turned down the prospect of a new order in the galaxy, by his side? Where was her concern when she broke her promise and left him alone?

Kylo saw her physically flinch, tears brimming her eyes as he realised that she had heard him through his mind.

Good, he thought miserably.

With every ounce of the force he could muster, he threw the betrayal, the fear and the longing he felt right back in her face. He saw her stumble backwards as though she had been dealt a physical blow, and the last thing he saw before he blocked their connection were the tears that streamed down her cheeks and the utter sadness that flooded her eyes.

He dropped to one knee, the exertion of his actions taking considerable toll on his energy. Kylo knew that he should not have unleashed his emotions against her as he did, knowing that the logical route would have been to force their connection shut immediately.

Kylo, however, did not seem to have a logical bone in his body, his dark temper quick to make the split-second and impractical decisions for him.

Especially when he felt like this. Especially when he felt so conflicted, so lost and so alone.

Realisation dawned upon him briefly, before he forced the darkness to envelop it completely.

She was the only person in the entire galaxy that had made him feel untempered belonging, even for just one moment.

I am not sure how many more one-shots I will do like this, just because I really want to write a full story after the events of The Last Jedi. The only thing stopping me from doing it is that I feel a little out of depth with the terminology and lore of this world (galaxy), and I am always very concerned about accuracy. Only time will tell, I suppose!

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Have a great weekend and happy new year if I don't update before then!